Dagami is seriously ill [Quick Transmigration]

—— Yan Zhi, I'm sick.

multiple personality disorder.

When he heard these words, he was as shocked as Yang Ruichen's red eyes, and the fear in those eyes made his heart ache.Why does this guy never talk, he doesn't talk when he's sad, even when he's happy, he seldom sees it, and keeps all his emotions in his heart. People who don't know think he doesn't like to talk, but in his eyes, this guy is He has no interest in anything, and now even such a serious matter is hidden from him.

Angry and more distressed.

He had no idea that the old woman in the orphanage had hurt Yang Ruichen so much. He had known Yang Ruichen for ten years. During these ten years, he had rarely heard about the old woman. Woke up and would say a word or two about something scary because it was a nightmare.

But he didn't think too much, just hugged him to comfort him and coaxed him to continue to sleep.

He didn't expect Yang Ruichen to have multiple personality disorder at all. He thought it was some kind of depression at most, but he never thought that this would be the case. It's impossible not to be shocked.That is to say, some of the strange and unfamiliar behaviors that Yang Ruichen has sometimes appeared recently are caused by those personalities.

For example, Yang Ruichen drew on textbooks when he was in class. He had never seen Yang Ruichen draw a picture since he was a child, but every villain in the textbook was very delicate and beautiful. At first, he didn't have much doubt. He thought it was Yang Ruichen's recent hobby, but I never thought that it would be the appearance of other personalities.

—— Yan Zhi, I am very afraid of them appearing, I am afraid of them taking you away, it is because of this that I think what Lin Luo said is right, love is possessive, you can only be mine.

But this is not right.

Yan Zhi is very clear in his heart, but Yang Ruichen seems to be immersed in the struggle with himself and can't extricate himself. Sometimes he even doesn't believe that he is by his side, and he is especially afraid of leaving himself. From the day he knew that Yang Ruichen had multiple personalities, he never left. I followed myself, very uneasy.

If this goes on like this, Yang Ruichen is going crazy, and he may not be far from going crazy.

In the end, Yang Ruichen proposed to see a psychiatrist, saying that it was the doctor who had been treating him during the summer vacation. Only then did he know that Yang Ruichen was doing psychotherapy in the hospital during the summer vacation.

... He was very angry in his heart, because Yang Ruichen didn't say anything, and it seemed like there was a wall in his chest that couldn't be knocked down. He was tightly blocked by Yang Ruichen, but there was nothing he could do.

Because he doesn't know what to do.

The counseling room is very quiet, and the laziness of classical music makes people drowsy.

"You are walking on the beach now, there is sunshine and the sound of waves, you feel the sun and the sound of waves, and you are in a good mood..."

The psychiatrist is doing hypnotherapy for Yang Ruichen.

Yan Zhi was sitting on the side. Originally, there should not be a third person present during the hypnosis, but the psychiatrist said that Yang Ruichen might be able to get a better therapeutic effect if there was a trustworthy person by his side.It was the first time he saw Yang Ruichen's psychotherapy process, and he felt a little nervous.

He watched Yang Ruichen's brows gradually stretch on the reclining chair, in a rare relaxed state, and he seemed to be less nervous.In normal times, it is rare to see Yang Ruichen in a relaxed state. If you observe the ordinary Yang Ruichen carefully, you will find that this guy is always vigilant, always on guard against something.

Yang Ruichen has a wound in his heart, it is the indelible shadow of his childhood, it is the pain brought to him by the old woman named Lin Luo, it is unforgettable and difficult to heal, it takes a long time to let go of such a wound, and it cannot make people feel extreme behavior emerges.

Thinking of this, he thought of what the psychiatrist had said to him just before the hypnosis started:

——Ruichen has six people with multiple personality disorders. At present, the frequency of appearance of those personalities is very low, because Yang Ruichen has a very strong control ability, but controlling personality will only be counterproductive, because Yang Ruichen is essentially a person, if He has always maintained such a high level of vigilance, and extreme behavior will definitely appear in the future.

--why?

——Ruichen's multiple personalities appeared because of being stimulated by Lin Luo, and worsened because of Lin Luo's death. Now that he is back by your side is actually a hint, because Ruichen has learned a very extreme lesson from Lin Luo. The emotion of love is love and possession.He wanted to hide his illness from you for a while, but the more he concealed it, the heavier the psychological burden on him. Now that he returns to you, he will be very anxious because he is worried about gains and losses. One is fear. You dislike him and the second is that you are afraid that other personalities will snatch you away.

--so what should I do now?

——Psychotherapy can only play a role in counseling, and the company of family members is often the most important thing. You have to tell him that you will not leave him to give him a sense of security, and also tell him that love is not possession, and only mutual love can produce Pleasant emotions, what he learned from Lin Luo is too extreme, it may be difficult to get out, so you have to be firm when necessary.

— Be firm?

——Just be more ruthless, you are the existence of salvation in Ruichen's heart, the redeemer you pulled him out of the abyss, your influence on him can make him break through the shackles, so you can be more ruthless when necessary , in order to make Ruichen, who is obsessed with obsession, realize his epiphany.

——I am the existence of redemption?

——Ruichen said that if you hadn't knocked on the window, he would have committed suicide. He was eight years old at the time, and he wanted to survive because of you, so you are very important to him, an existence that transcends everything.

It is impossible not to be shocked. He can occupy such a important position in Yang Ruichen's heart. What is even more shocking is that the old woman can make Yang Ruichen want to commit suicide, and he once rescued Yang Ruichen unintentionally. There is a kind of relationship between the three of them.

Looking at the relaxed mood on Yang Ruichen's face, he felt mixed emotions. He couldn't imagine how uncomfortable Yang Ruichen was when he first came to their house. He was always very domineering at that time, and he didn't notice Yang Ruichen's emotions at all. Maybe he did, but he didn't. I just wonder why this person is so boring and clingy.

It turned out that it was because of the fear of losing him.

"At this time, you walked and touched the doorknob of a door, did you hold it?"

"Ah."

The hypnotherapy is still in progress, Yan Zhi watched everything silently, it seems that it is going well now, and Yang Ruichen is also very cooperative.

"Open it and tell me what you see."

At this time, Yan Zhi saw Yang Ruichen's brows were tightly frowned, his expression was very disturbed, and the hands clasped in front of his abdomen were tightly clenched.

"Lin Luo, she's inside."

The psychiatrist is also sweating, because every time he comes back here, he will stop, because Yang Ruichen will resist going in this door no matter what.

"Lin Luo, what is she doing now?"

Yang Ruichen tilted his head when he heard the psychiatrist's words, and his closed eyes seemed to be about to open. The next second, a warm hand covered his hands, and the familiar feeling made him relax a little.

He saw Lin Luo in the corner with his head down again, his thin body curled up on the thick paper, looking at the small window, looking very pitiful, completely different from the Lin Luo who told the story.

"She's sleeping."

"Then do you think she's scary?"

The light in the small room is dim, and you can still hear the sound of the cold wind hitting the small window, and the wind whizzing past the window is skipped in my heart.In the silence, he heard Lin Luo talking. His vicissitudes of life seemed to be passing by on a gravel road, which was very uncomfortable to hear.

"Why do you abandon me when I love you so much? Is money so important? You still don't look at me, why are there such ruthless people..."

"It's so cold today, no one can hold me in my arms to warm me, why am I the only one left in this world."

"so……"

He saw Lin Luo suddenly turned over and sat up, his eyes widened and he was grabbing his hair, as if he was looking for something. He was in a crazy state. It took a long time for Lin Luo to stop, only to hear people laughing sadly and shaking his head Hitting the wall again, the bang bang bang sound was very uncomfortable again.

"So, love is possessive. Only by firmly grasping and locking up the person you love, this person will be yours. Otherwise, it will be too late for you to regret it after he runs away." Lin Luo sat down against the wall, His eyes fell on the door, then he smiled and said, "Right, Ruichen."

Then he saw Lin Luo tremblingly raising a knife in his hand.

Yang Ruichen opened his eyes suddenly, he was panting continuously while grabbing his clothes on his chest, and there was lingering fear in his blurred eyes.

The psychiatrist felt that it was a pity, so he looked at the appearance and signaled that the treatment was interrupted.

Seeing Yang Ruichen panting, Yan Zhi felt a little distressed, held his hand and said, "It's okay, it's okay, relax, everything is fine now, there is nothing you fear here."

Yang Ruichen had a sullen face and did not speak, the depths of his amber pupils contained impenetrable emotions, like a black mist that was getting thicker and thicker, and his whole body exuded a gloomy atmosphere.

He saw that Yang Ruichen's condition was not very good, and there was no way to continue the treatment. In the end, he had no choice but to thank the psychiatrist and take him away.

This treatment was proposed by Yang Ruichen himself, but the effect was not as good as expected, because Lin Luo still couldn't get out of his heart.

The sun is very sunny today. It is autumn and the leaves are circling and falling on the ground. Bauhinia flowers cover both sides of the sidewalk of the hospital. Because the psychological counselor is close to the inpatient department, they saw many family members pushing patients in wheelchairs when they went downstairs. Walking in the hospital.

Yang Ruichen looked at it thoughtfully, but he didn't know what he was thinking.

Since the end of the hypnosis, I haven't spoken again, and I seem to be still immersed in the scene just now and can't get out.Originally, this time he wanted to say that since he had good looks, he shouldn't be so afraid, but it was not as simple as he thought.

Lin Luo was still there, and he felt that Lin Luo was watching him all the time, pouring that sentence of love into his mind constantly, making him want to put this sentence into action.The remaining fear in his heart was no longer the story Lin Luo told him, but the influence Lin Luo had brought to him.

He actually realized that his possessive desire for Yan Zhi had reached a crazy level, but his involuntary consciousness made him unable to control it. Although he felt a little relaxed after telling Yan Zhi that he was sick, he was still very worried. Yan Zhi left him because of fear, that's why he held back for so long.

He thought that he could perform better by taking the initiative to bring his good looks to see his psychiatrist, but he didn't.

Still sucks.

"Yang Ruichen, did you peek at me several times during the holiday?"

Yang Ruichen was taken aback, and he turned his head to look at Yan Zhi.

"I saw you at the bus station and at the hospital. You have come back to see me several times." Yan Zhi reached out and brushed off the small leaves that fell on Yang Ruichen's shoulders, then met Yang Ruichen's eyes: "Since Then why do I have to bear it for so long? If it is so painful, why never tell me, Yang Ruichen, I really hate you for keeping everything in your heart. It is really annoying to guess what you are thinking. If this time I don’t How long are you going to hold back when I come with you, did I ever say that I would despise you? Are you so unconfident in yourself? "

"I don't have confidence, I feel terrible." Yang Ruichen looked down at Yan Zhi's hand and stretched out his hand towards the person.

Yan Zhi held onto her without even thinking: "You're not bad."

Yang Ruichen was a little surprised to see that his appearance was so straightforward, and his eyes were a little bright: "Isn't it bad? But I feel that you seem to be annoying me recently."

Because he didn't like his appearance, he had frequent disputes with his classmates. Even though his appearance told him several times, he still couldn't bear it. The idea of ​​leaving school with good looks.

Yan Zhi saw someone take the initiative to mention: "You know it yourself, can you stop being annoyed if you stare at me? I can't say a word to my classmates, and I can't leave by myself. Why do I have to stay under your nose? Bottom? I need space too, I need freedom too, and you should relax."

"I relax and you will go."

"Fuck me, I don't want to go to school, you've got your brain caught by the door, that's why you just leave as soon as you say it, don't make me do like you." Yan Zhi couldn't bear it and raised his other hand He slapped the person on the head, and of course it was a light slap when it landed on the forehead: "Don't tell me when you're sick, you're going to wait until you're crazy to tell me, right, and then make a mess of my life, right?"

"No."

"Then why are you afraid, I'm obviously by your side." Yan Zhi stopped and let go of Yang Ruichen's hand.

"I understand the truth, but why am I afraid." Yang Ruichen looked at the distance between himself and Yan Zhi by one step, with a wry smile on his lips: "I feel uncomfortable even with such a small distance from you, Even after taking this small step, I feel that I may lose you at any time, and I am really hopeless."

He lives in the pain of losing his beauty every day. In fact, his beauty is by his side, very, very close, but he is just afraid.Lin Luo's words trapped him in an inescapable cage, just like the distance between him and Yan Zhi now, obviously only one step away, but he is in the cage, Yan Zhi is outside the cage, no matter how close the distance is He still can't get the face value.

Yan Zhi shortened this step to the shortest, put his arm next to Yang Ruichen, looked at the front with a serious face and said, "Then it's close enough now."

It's almost okay to paste them together.

"Appearance, in fact, there is one thing that can make me a little better."

"what?"

"Do you like me? Boyfriend's."

Yan Zhi was stunned by this sudden question, he turned his face to look at Yang Ruichen: "This thing can make you feel better?"

Yang Ruichen is afraid that he will disappear all day because he didn't say he likes him?I don't have a specific definition of whether I like him or not, but judging from my own performance and Yang Ruichen's behavior, at least I don't contradict him, because Yang Ruichen really means a lot to him and no one can replace him.

Ever since Yang Ruichen confessed to him first, the relationship between them became more than friendship, not lovers, but he didn't refuse, it was like a subconscious behavior, step by step.

"Yes, it will make me very happy."

Hearing Yang Ruichen's answer, Yan Zhi looked at the hope that suddenly lit up in Yang Ruichen's eyes, as if dispelling the extremely gloomy emotions in his eyes just now, he became extremely excited, suddenly a little dumbfounded.

Well, that means acknowledging his own intentions. To him, liking means liking, it's just a matter of one sentence, and there is no need to hide it.

"I like you."

Yang Ruichen thought, he will always remember this moment, and said to himself the word "like" with a bright smile on his face.But these two words once again plunged him into a vortex from which he could not escape.

In his memory, liking is the only one that has no other distractions. Since he wants to have no distractions, he can no longer look at other people.

There can only be him for his appearance, and there should be no other people in his eyes.

His eyes gradually darkened.

At this time, Yan Zhi didn't know that he said this sentence, which undoubtedly dragged himself into another round of Yang's madness.

If he had known earlier, he would never have said it.

The author has something to say:

Well, after the end of this chapter, the climax and climax tetralogy will come. Let me explain the rhythm of the climax tetralogy. There are only six chapters left in this world, and I want to do things in these six chapters.

Reminder: [I heard that gummy candy, cotton candy, popping candy, assorted hard candy, etc. are more suitable for this article, hey, Happy Double Twelve~~]