Dagami is seriously ill [Quick Transmigration]

After Yan Zhi returned to the room, he never went out again. What Yang Ruichen said was really hurtful. His favorite grandpa and grandma are gone. What little family warmth he has left is on Yang Ruichen. How can he still say out of his words.And why don't you tell me where you are going? Is there any secret between them that they can't tell?

He smashed himself into the quilt and buried his face in the quilt.

What secrets can't be said between them...

Hey!

knock knock --

There was a knock on the door.

"Beauty."

"roll."

"Can you give me a summer vacation, I will come back after I finish some things."

Listening to what the people outside the door said, Yan Zhi suddenly felt a little funny: "You can't let me know what you are going to deal with, and what you can do."

Is there anyone else who has lived outside his house since he was a kid?Or what are you going to do?What else could he not know.

"The old lady in the orphanage doesn't have much time, I'll go and see her."

The next second the door was opened.

Yang Ruichen was taken aback.

Yan Zhi grabbed his collar angrily and shouted: "Damn, can you speak up if you have something to say!! You can go and see it, but I can't say no! You have to say it like this, who won't?" Angry, leave me temporarily? You didn’t say anything, I thought you wanted to leave, now I only have you Yang Ruichen, do you know!!!”

Little did he know that the corners of his eyes began to turn red as he spoke.

Yang Ruichen let Yan Zhi lose his temper at him, and he also felt that what he said hadn't passed through his brain, especially after seeing Yan Zhi's eyes were red, he wanted to beat himself up.

He just wanted to see that old woman, why did he say that.He seemed to have thought that he would be a person even if he forgot his appearance, and his appearance would not know anything.

When subconsciously thinking about this problem, he is afraid that his appearance will discover his other side, so he chooses to leave temporarily, and come back when he solves it. It must be solved by then, it must be like this.

But he didn't expect Yan Zhi to be so sad, he thought that only when he left Yan Zhi would he be sad.

Reaching out to wipe away the moisture from the corners of Yan Zhi's eyes, he said, "I don't know how to tell you, so when I said it, it became like that, sorry."

Yan Zhi angrily slapped his hand off and walked into the room, fell back on the bed and didn't speak.

Why is this guy always like this, some words can be solved very well if he is clearly said, must he be explained only after he is angry?

I felt a slight dip in the corner of the bed.

The room suddenly fell silent.

I don't know how long it took before someone spoke.

"I was abducted back then and I was sensible. Now, to be precise, I should not be called abducted, but kidnapped. The person who took me away was the director of the orphanage. You should know that it was not an orphanage, but A so-called orphanage organization that sells children. I don’t know why I was taken away, but I will never forget what I suffered.”

After many years, Yang Ruichen felt that he couldn't let go of it when he mentioned it again. He felt that he might never be able to let go of what happened back then, the bad life every day, the crazy mother-in-law, and even his own problems.But because of his good looks by his side, he subconsciously felt that he could escape, and didn't want to mention it again.

But Lin Jie's appearance meant that the old lady was still there, that person was still there.

Yan Zhi originally decided to be cold and violent with others, but he didn't expect Yang Ruichen to take the initiative to bring up things about his childhood.He had never heard anything specific about Yang Ruichen's previous affairs. Only his grandmother knew what Yang Ruichen was like. Occasionally Yang Ruichen would mention it, but nothing else.

I only know that this is a painful memory for Yang Ruichen.

Slowly turning his head to look at Yang Ruichen, he saw that Yang Ruichen's hands on his knees were tightly clenched. Although he looked calm on the surface, his movements revealed his emotions.

Yang Ruichen's eyes fell outside the window, and his thoughts drifted away: "The dean said that my family didn't want me, and said that the ransom might be too expensive, so I was left behind. The dean didn't sell me either, because I had taken advantage of me. Value. There is an old woman in the orphanage, she is a lunatic, and the dean will throw me into that small room to accompany the old woman every day. At first I thought it was an ordinary old woman who could tell stories and play every role Vivid image, I am very happy to hear it.”

"But I didn't think it was her murder story, and until now I haven't figured out whether she was crazy or it was all true, but it doesn't matter, what matters is that she made me feel like her for a while. .”

"Now that I think about it seriously, I feel that I was really naive at the time. Why do I feel that it is exciting to put people's heads into the water, and it is exciting to blindfold people and lock them in the room, causing them to break down and hit the wall madly? It is exciting to cut off the limbs and put them on the puppet..."

"I didn't realize until later that these things shouldn't be exciting, they should be scary, so I started struggling to get out. But it didn't work. I couldn't escape this place because I don’t have the power to escape. The old lady would ask me to go in with her every day, and if I couldn’t resist, the dean wouldn’t give me food, so for a while I didn’t have a meal.”

"The old lady probably thought it was fun seeing me start to resist, and the intensification made me even more scared. She played with me with a knife, drew blood on her own body, and painted on my face and hands..."

"During that time, I really felt that I shouldn't live in this world. For the first time, the idea of ​​death came to my mind so clearly. I was only eight years old, but I really didn't want to live, because it was so numb that Several times when I looked at the knife in the old woman's hand, I wanted to snatch it and stab myself."

It was the first time that Yang Ruichen said these words in front of Yan Zhi. He never said it, it should be said that he never said it in such detail, because he didn't want Yan Zhi to be frightened by him. Not everyone can experience his experience Yes, very few.For him, this is a painful memory of collapse, and he can't forget it, let alone let it go.

The voice that came to his mind when he fell down the hill, coupled with Lin Jie appearing in front of him, he felt that it was his turn.

This matter must be resolved. If it is not resolved, he feels that he may do something like the old woman at a certain moment.

He didn't know what he would do, and he was even more afraid of what he would do to his appearance. He felt that it might not take long for him to collapse.So he doesn't want to be seen by Yan Zhi, he should leave the good things to Yan Zhi, and he wants to discard the bad things as soon as possible.

Yan Zhi was shocked in his heart. He slowly got up and looked at Yang Ruichen who was sitting by the bed and telling stories. It was obviously a painful memory, but he said it in such a flat tone, but the content was a little bit It's not as flat as his emotions.

He still remembers a time when Yang Ruichen would have nightmares every day, shouting to save him every day, he didn't know what kind of dream it was, but when he woke up the next day, Yang Ruichen was like a normal person, doing what he should do, so calm feel terrible.

Talking so calmly now made him feel even more terrifying.

So what are you talking about with him?

"Until you appeared, I didn't feel that my life was colorful. At that time, I watched you singing outside from the small window. I saw you so happy and thought, why you can be so happy, why am I so happy?" Sad. So that bloody hand, I was asking you for help, but I didn't expect to scare you, I'm sorry for that. In the days after that, the old woman pulled me into the room and I didn't speak, I just watched Outside the window, I was wondering when you would appear, I was looking forward to you every day, I just wanted to see your smile again, it would make me feel hopeful in life."

Viewed from the side, Yang Ruichen looked a little fragile with his head lowered, no matter how calm his tone was when he spoke about the past, he couldn't hide the fear from the inside out, the fear of that memory.

"Stop it." Yan Zhi hugged Yang Ruichen's neck behind him and rubbed his head: "Stop it."

His chest was pressed against Yang Ruichen's back, and he clearly felt the trembling of Yang Ruichen's back.

This is not a memory as easy as Yang Ruichen said, it is clearly a memory that kills people's consciousness of survival.

Scary and dark, at Yang Ruichen's age, it has undoubtedly cast a shadow.

So he always said that this guy was dull for no reason, it was because he had no motivation to be happy, and all the years that should have been happy were spent, and only this face was left in the end.

He didn't want to see Yang Ruichen like this. In his heart, Yang Ruichen was omnipotent. Except for his dull personality, there was nothing wrong with him. This person was perfect, especially for him.But he didn't want to see Yang Ruichen collapse because of that memory, he shouldn't.

"So I'm going to solve the past. Since the old lady wants to find me, then I shouldn't avoid it anymore. I can't avoid it. The more I hide, the more she will keep looking for me." Yang Ruichen turned his face: "This is Why didn't I tell you the reason, because you shouldn't be involved in this painful memory, I don't want you to know what happened to me, what kind of person I am, and how I will solve it She, I don't want you to know at all."

Even if Yang Ruichen spoke in a flat tone, turning his head to look at those red eyes now couldn't stop the pain and struggle in his eyes.

"Then what do you want to do?" Yan Zhi stretched out his hand to cover Yang Ruichen's eyes, feeling very uncomfortable.

Perhaps it was because of the sudden darkness in front of him that Yang Ruichen felt that he had a place to hide from, so he couldn't hold back the tears that burst out of his eyes.

Naturally, he didn't want his fragility to be seen by his appearance.

Yan Zhi felt the trembling of the eyelashes in his palms, and the moist warmth of his eye sockets, and suddenly he didn't know how to comfort him, should he promise Yang Ruichen to solve what he wanted to solve, he didn't want to see Yang Ruichen like this.

"I want to finish everything and come back. I don't want you to see me like this. I hope you can give me some time."

"Then you should tell me directly, instead of hiding everything and waiting for me to get angry before telling me." Yan Zhi put down his hand and patted Yang Ruichen's thigh vigorously.

The snap was very crisp.

Yang Ruichen frowned slightly, he lowered his head and wiped away his tears first, feeling that it was quite embarrassing.

"Then remember to come back, I don't want to wait for you too long, you are my family and I will wait for you, remember to call me downstairs when you come back."

Yang Ruichen wiped his hands from the corners of his eyes, and turned his head slowly.

"The Yang Ruichen I know is omnipotent. I believe that difficulties are just a matter of time for you." Yan Zhi said: "I can give you time to solve them, but don't leave because you haven't solved them successfully. We will see you during your summer vacation. If you don't come back, don't come back."

Yang Ruichen didn't expect Yan Zhi to agree so easily, and he was silent for a few seconds before responding: "Okay."

"You still dare to hesitate for me?! Just be more straightforward!" Yan Zhi stretched out his hand to pat the man's thigh. Yang Ruichen's hesitation just now made him a little scared, and he was suddenly a little afraid that this guy would hide and never come back once he left. What should he do.

Yang Ruichen grabbed Yan Zhi's hand quickly: "No, I was just a little surprised that you would agree with me to go. I thought you would quarrel with me for a while."

"I'm a reasonable person after all. You've explained the situation to me and I still won't let you solve it." Yan Zhi didn't break free. Yang Ruichen held his hand and continued, "It's up to you to solve it, but don't let yourself solve it." Injured. Since that old lady doesn't have much time, don't get into the corner, you have already escaped, which means that everything is over, and you just go back to finish it now, so be quick and don't trap yourself in it again. "

"Well, I won't trap myself in it." Yang Ruichen looked at the person: "I will be back as soon as possible, I promise."

"Remember, when we met in high school, we went to Shi No. [-] Middle School."

"Okay, see you at City No. [-] Middle School."

"By the way, you haven't told me where you're going."

"I won't talk about this, anyway, I will definitely come back, you believe me." Seeing that his appearance seemed to be angry again, Yang Ruichen immediately coaxed: "I will definitely come back, just wait for my summer vacation, okay?"

Yan Zhi looked at Yang Ruichen in front of him for a long time, his pupils reflected this person's face, and wanted to engrave him deeply in his mind. He couldn't tell Yang Ruichen not to leave, because he knew the impact of that bad thing on Yang Ruichen How big it is, he should let people solve it.

But I always felt uncomfortable in my heart, because Yang Ruichen didn't explain to him clearly what he meant that day.

In the end, he fell back on the bed and lay down without saying a word, depressed.

Yang Ruichen sat beside Yan Zhi and gently touched his head. The soft numbness conveyed by his palm made him nostalgic, and the emotion in his eyes became more firm.

So in the following days, the two of them coincidentally put the matter of being separated to the end. When they were sprinting for the high school entrance examination, they still did what they should do every day, as if they had never said that they would be separated.

Until the last subject exam, Yan Zhi sat in the classroom and didn't want to get up, because Yang Ruichen was leaving, and as soon as he left the classroom Yang Ruichen would tell him to leave.

"Beauty."

Yan Zhi's back froze, and he saw that Yang Ruichen was already standing outside the classroom door, carrying the broken bag that hadn't been changed for many years, as if he was about to leave.Even though he has come, he can still make people force him to stay, but he has no choice but to go out.

He didn't say anything but Yang Ruichen said a lot, all the way to the school gate.

——You don’t know how to ride a bike, don’t ride it secretly when I’m not around, don’t fall.

——I know you don't like your mother, but she can still take care of you when I'm not around. It's not unreasonable to say that a tiger doesn't eat its child.

——You have to eat and take care of yourself, and wait for me to come back.

Yang Ruichen hugged him into his arms and said the last sentence. At this moment, his mind went blank and he could only say "waiting for you to come back", and then watched Yang Ruichen let him go and turned to go home in another direction.

The kind that doesn't turn your head back.

Very crisp.

At that moment, he felt very uncomfortable. In fact, why couldn't Yang Ruichen take him there? Is that place so far away? Is the old woman to be dealt with so scary?How did Yang Ruichen want to solve it?

That figure had already gone away, and he even had a feeling that Yang Ruichen might not come back.

It wasn't until half of the summer vacation was over, and the admission notice from City No. [-] Middle School came down, that there was still no news from Yang Ruichen.

Yan Zhi stood at the door of his room in a daze for a long time, seeing that half of the room belonged to Yang Ruichen's territory, and there was still Yang Ruichen's unfinished "Les Miserables" on the desk, and the bookmark between the pages was picked up by him leaf.

My mind is still a little dazed now, as if I still can't realize that Yang Ruichen has left, the guy said he wants to untie the knot in his heart and let himself wait for him for a summer vacation.

I got used to the life with Yang Ruichen and couldn't see anyone for a while, so I suddenly felt very boring.

There is no energy in doing anything, and I think of Yang Ruichen in everything I do.

Looking out of the window, I feel empty inside.

At this moment, there are people who have the same thoughts through the window of the hospital.

"I miss him very much, but I can't go back, because my revenge has not been avenged, and I will not go back until Lin Luo is dead."

Yang Ruichen's gloomy face was reflected on the window.

The author has something to say:

Now that I'm gone, I'm probably about to start um...

Sprinkle a little glass.

But believe me, I will still be sweet where it should be sweet, but some things must be made clear, after all, it is a memory.