Zhu Yilong--A Warm Smoke

At the beginning of April, Song Nuan went to work. Things in the ward were trivial. Fortunately, she had little physical activity. She worked for two days. Except for the occasional itching of the wound, there was no other discomfort.

"Song, the wrong test order was issued." Song Nuan was taken aback by the head nurse's words as soon as she entered the door.

Song Nuan immediately became nervous, and couldn't hold the medical records in her hand, "What? Which bed?"

Yang Yun comforted Song Nuan, "Don't worry, I'll fix it for you, 23-bed old patient, no trouble."

Song Nuan patted her chest, "It scares me so much."

Han Yun felt strange, "You rarely make mistakes."

"How can a person walk by the river without getting his shoes wet. I'm not a fairy." Song Nuan was still a little scared. She was really careful, but there were always times when the horse stumbled. This kind of mistake is not big, but if the patient doesn't understand, It is very troublesome, being complained, notified, and deducted money.

"Be careful." The head nurse educated everyone while going through the medical records, "Didn't your director prescribe ten boxes of waist-healthy pills two days ago, but the hospital suddenly said that the medical insurance for the self-preparation expired and they would not be reimbursed for the time being? There was a big fight."

Song Nuan complained to the director, "It's the hospital's fault. If we don't notify in advance, we will face the anger of the patients." The department often blames the hospital, but the hospital never takes responsibility for the department. She hates such things.

The head nurse sneered, "The leader doesn't care. In the end Director Qi bought the ten boxes of medicine with his own money. Is your phone ringing?"

"Oh, it's the alarm." Song Nuan turned off the alarm clock, went to find gestrinone in the drawer of the duty room, and ate it with water. She was born with difficulty in taking medicine, and the capsule was not put away properly, which almost choked her. She didn't even drink a glass of water to suppress the discomfort in her throat, and she lost all energy. She sat down in front of the bed, feeling all kinds of frustration in her heart, and couldn't help muttering to herself, "It seems that I'm back to the original point." .”

Probably the alarm clock was not turned off properly, and it started ringing again 2 minutes later. Song Nuan took it out and found that it was Zhu Yilong's call. This time is a bit strange, "Mr. Zhu is done?"

"No."

"Transfer in the waiting area?"

"No." Zhu Yilong started to be childish, "Go on and guess."

Song Nuan was impatient, "I won't guess anymore, just say it yourself."

"I'm done." Zhu Yilong smiled happily.

Song Nuan thumped in her heart, but still smiled and congratulated, "Is it early?"

"No, it's not too far from the original date. Nuan, I'll see you tomorrow, okay? Are you at home or at work?" Zhu Yilong became sick with longing, and desperately wanted to see Song Nuan.

Song Nuan didn't want to see Zhu Yilong right away, so she declined, "Don't you need to go back to Beijing first?"

"I have a few days of free time, and I don't have any appointments. I'm going back to Beijing tonight, and I'll see you tomorrow." Zhu Yilong was very excited, and Song Nuan wondered if he was eating hot pot.

"You have just finished filming, so it must be very hard. Wouldn't it be better to sleep at home for two more days?" Song Nuan subconsciously refused.

"I can't wait to see you."

Song Nuan sorted out her chaotic thoughts, "Then you sleep in tomorrow and wait for you at Taisheng after get off work. I want to make a Ferris wheel."

"Okay, wait for me. I'm going to toast first." Zhu Yilong was at the finale banquet, and couldn't resist missing him, so he secretly called from a corner.

"Be careful not to be splashed with wine." Song Nuan reminded kindly.

"..."

The next day, the weather was fine.

Song Nuan's mood was very complicated. She stayed up all night and went to work with panda eyes on her face. Even after drinking two bags of coffee, she couldn't stop her drowsiness.

"What did you do last night?" Xu Zhen was frightened by Song Nuan's trance, he seemed to be floating even though he was walking.

Song Nuan's mind was close to freezing, "Well, I don't know, I probably worked a night shift."

Xu Zhen was reluctant, "You don't have a fever, do you? Last night was obviously my sister's night shift."

"Oh." Song Nuan agreed and said no more, and even Director Qi couldn't help but look at her more. Fortunately, Song Nuan didn't make any mistakes at work one day, and got off work safely as usual.

Song Nuan arrived earlier, so she went to eat something first, then went to pay for the Ferris wheel and bought a package ticket directly. She was wearing a beige sweater and a white gauze dress, just like the day she first met Zhu Yilong. People have changed, time flies, and it will be almost a year in a blink of an eye.

The phone rings, which is the built-in ringtone of the mobile phone.

"Hey."

"Sorry, the plane is late, I just got downstairs, have you arrived yet?" Zhu Yilong's voice was still panting, as if he had come running.

"I'm on the Ferris wheel, wait for me to go down and find you."

When the Ferris wheel turned around and charged again, Song Nuan saw Zhu Yilong, whom he hadn't seen for more than a month, he seemed to be thinner, wearing a gray casual suit, white shoes on his feet, smiling happily, like a bright juvenile.

Song Nuan reached out to Zhu Yilong, "Come on."

Zhu Yilong first shook Song Nuan's hand and said, "Wait until I pay the money."

"Are you tired from work? Does the wound still hurt?" Zhu Yilong got on the Ferris wheel. When he saw Song Nuan for the first time, he felt nervous. He clumsily wanted to hug him, but felt that Song Nuan's smile was alienated, just like the polite and restrained attitude when we met at the beginning of last year, he paused for a moment, and didn't go forward.

Song Nuan still smiled like that, "The pain has been gone for a long time. Are you hungry?"

"I ate on the plane, Song Nuan, I have something to tell you." Zhu Yilong sat down next to Song Nuan, feeling impatient.

Song Nuan smiled, and held Zhu Yilong's hand, "It's such a coincidence, I also have something to say. Ladies first, let me talk first, is that okay?"

Zhu Yilong hesitated, he was really afraid that after Song Nuan finished speaking, he would have nothing to say, but he couldn't bear to refuse, stroked her hair, finally nodded and said with a smile: "Okay, you go first."

Song Nuan raised her head and thought for a while, "I have a lot to say and it's a bit messy, I'll sort it out first."

"Okay." Zhu Yilong sat back. He looked straight into Song Nuan's eyes, trying to catch some information from them, but Song Nuan had obviously done his homework. She was calm and guarded, obviously hiding her secrets. mood.

"I love you." Song Nuanrou said softly, with a smile in his eyes.

Zhu Yilong seemed to hear the sound of nature. At that moment, he felt that he was worrying for nothing. He smiled and did not interrupt Song Nuan.

"I'm actually not your die-hard fan, I'm really your audience friend. I'm in my 30s. I'm embarrassed to admit that I'm a star fan. I used to dream of seeing you in this life. I finally met the real you, which is better than I know. Fortunately, I see you getting better and better, really, I love you more and more. This kind of love is the flatness and satisfaction that I have never experienced before, and it is the happiness that I thought I could carry with me for the rest of my life." Song Nuan really She was organizing her words, she spoke slowly but firmly, and she didn't mean to stop.

Zhu Yilong licked his lips, he started to get nervous, what he was most afraid of was coming, but he still didn't open his mouth, just listened to Song Nuan, he knew that no matter what considerations, at this moment, what Song Nuan said to him was very important. It is the heart-breaking truth.

"I thought I had overcome a huge psychological barrier, but in fact I never won. I am a woman who likes to avoid problems. I failed an exam in college, and I have been worried about that subject ever since, and I don't want to bring it up in the future. Unexpectedly, after many years, I still haven’t improved. I thought that at least I was true and honest with myself, but I was not. I really don’t deserve it. Flipping through old magazines a few days ago, I saw your “People” interview. Teacher Zhu, I can’t follow your trajectory. I have good grades and can endure hardships, but I don’t have any big ambitions. When I was in college, I heard from my family that I didn’t go out of the province. When I took the postgraduate entrance examination, everyone went to a big city. I accepted the school’s recommendation to avoid recommendation. When I was in the third year of postgraduate study, I was admitted to a doctorate in Guangzhou. Staying in school or staying in hospital, but I refused. I still returned to the small city of Gucheng, even at the expense of living in two places with Chang Yuannan. My life plan is very simple, I have a stable job, and I will be with my parents. I can take care of you when I have time, and I have some free time to do something I like. I never thought about doing any profound scientific research or invention, let alone leaving a name in the medical world. I am just an ordinary person, and I will never be able to stand side by side with you I also thought that being with you doesn't have to be at the same height, but I was still very scared. You were on the cover, went to Cannes, made an official endorsement, made a movie, and went to the Spring Festival Gala. I really I am very happy for you, but if you are still a young actor and have been filming in the crew, I might love you more. Of course, this is my selfish and narrow desire for exclusiveness. Do you know that there are such a group of people among your fans, If you don’t post on Weibo, they will be eager to see through it, but if you do post on Weibo, seeing you playing the violin, playing the guitar, painting oil paintings, and seeing you running around the world chasing your dreams, they will feel sad again in their hearts, sad for themselves, and feel in harmony with you. You are getting further and further away, do you know the mentality of these people?"

Zhu Yilong shook his head and smiled wryly. Now that things had happened, he was no longer afraid, "I don't know."

"I always feel that this group of people have unreasonable thoughts about you, including me. I have always been afraid that you have a girlfriend, or that you will make it public. Of course you can have one, but you don't have to let me know. It's ridiculous when this person really When it was me, I panicked even more, the happiness I hold in my hands is too unreal, and I always worry about losing you." Song Nuan sighed, "Are you happy?"

Zhu Yilong nodded, "I'm really happy, but this month, I'm also uneasy."

"Yes, it was just this month, I thought a lot. How long has it been since you played a game?" Song Nuan suddenly asked a very provocative question.

"Me." Zhu Yilong thought this question was easy to answer, but after thinking about it, he couldn't say the answer. After being together with Song Nuan, he wished to give each other all the free time, and had long forgotten about playing games.

"Probably since you've been with me, you haven't played games again. It's really hard to fall in love with me. You always have to fly around."

"No, Song Nuan, don't say that."

Song Nuan ignored her, and continued to say: "Have you ever calculated it? We have been dating for half a year, and we have been together for less than a hundred hours. I cherish these times very much, but I also feel that these times are cruel. I still have Rest, but you are almost deprived of all leisure time, living like an ascetic monk. Are you really not tired?"

"Song Nuan." Zhu Yilong was a little anxious, "I never felt bitter, but you, who are too sensible, you have a cold and fever, you argue with others, you are sick and hospitalized, I have never been with you, I know this pair of girls It's not fair, I didn't give you the best, and it made you feel tired, didn't I?"

Song Nuan turned her head and glanced at the darkening night, "Love is fair, it doesn't mean that girls should be pampered unprincipled. I never feel tired. I am no longer the willful little girl who demanded Boyfriend loves you all the time on the phone every day, long-distance relationship and short-term separation, and occasional loneliness. Those are really difficult, but it is impossible to defeat me anymore. Everything I say and do to you is sincere and willing. I haven't forced myself to please you, even if the next few decades will be the current situation, I'm probably willing."

Zhu Yilong was confused, "Since we all enjoy our time together, why do you feel uneasy."