Lin Shilang Gu

Gu Yanqiu didn't know that Lin Yuewei gritted his silver teeth outside, and took a seat opposite Yin Lingxi: "What do you want to eat?"

"Have you been here before?" Yin Lingxi leaned forward slightly to talk to her, which was an active and intimate gesture.

"No."

"Then just a few signature dishes." Yin Lingxi shrugged, "I thought you were a local and had eaten it before, so I expected you to introduce some dishes."

Gu Yanqiu smiled lightly, pressed his hand on the table, and pushed the menu towards her: "It's impossible for the locals to know it all. Even if they know it, there are so many new restaurants opening every day, it's hard to understand."

Yin Lingxi: "The dim sum in the Hong Kong-style tea restaurant last time was not bad. I like his porridge."

Gu Yanqiu: "If you like, we can make an appointment there next time."

Yin Lingxi's eyes lit up slightly: "When?"

Gu Yanqiu, who was originally just out of politeness: "..."

But after all the words were spoken, Gu Yanqiu couldn't go back on his word, and said: "The next time you come on a business trip, tell me in advance, and I will welcome you."

Yin Lingxi: "Then I won't be polite."

Gu Yanqiu replied politely: "Miss Yin is out."

Yin Lingxi continued, "Are we already in a 'li' relationship?"

Gu Yanqiu froze for a moment: "..."

She raised her eyes and quietly looked at the woman sitting in front of her, which was a little different from usual.

Gu Yanqiu pondered for a while, then said in a compromise: "It's neither inside nor outside."

Yin Lingxi laughed.

"You're very interesting," she said.

What Gu Yanqiu was most afraid of was that others would say she was interesting in front of her. She raised her hand and touched her nose, the wedding ring on her ring finger was particularly conspicuous.

Yin Lingxi: "..."

She looked complicated for a second, and said, "It's not as interesting as you think."

Gu Yanqiu said: "Huh?"

Gu Yanqiu only hinted but didn't say it explicitly, and it's not easy for Yin Lingxi to clarify this topic for himself.She opened the menu that Gu Yanqiu pushed in front of her, and randomly ordered two items that were written on the sign board, and Gu Yanqiu added a little bit.

While waiting for the dishes, Yin Lingxi asked about her personal affairs: "You and your wife have a good relationship, right?"

Gu Yanqiu bent his eyes: "Yes."

Yin Lingxi said: "I see, you laugh when you mention her, last time you answered her phone after dinner, you were restless and rushed home, last time was even worse, you refused to even finish the meal Delicious." This time...

Gu Yanqiu himself didn't think there was anything wrong, but hearing others say it made his ears warm: "I'm laughing."

"It's nothing to laugh at, it's pretty good." Yin Lingxi sighed.

Gu Yanqiu was wondering why she sighed, maybe she was thinking of herself, and soon Yin Lingxi gave her the answer.

"The two love each other..." Yin Lingxi seemed to chew these four words silently, then sighed, and said, "My father and mother are married based on interests. I knew from a very young age that they They were not in love. My father had several lovers outside, and other children, and my mother lived at home with me and put all the focus of life on me."

Gu Yanqiu listened quietly, but didn't respond for a while.

"My mother is a very gentle person, well-educated, and a lady of every family. As far as I can remember, I have never seen her lose her temper, and she never yelled at me. She doesn't seem to care when she is, no matter how romantic and ridiculous her father is. She is always the upright Mrs. Yin. She sometimes sits quietly in a daze, looking out of the window, or looking at other places, her eyes are often moist."

Yin Lingxi laughed at herself: "At that time, I thought it was because of my father, and I persuaded her. I said that people like him are not worth it. I also advised her to get a divorce. I followed her surname." , It has nothing to do with the Yin family in the future. My mother just looked at me and smiled, while touching my hair, then hugged me, and didn't speak. I went to my father, accused him, and had a big fight with him, my father sneered Then tell me, let me ask my mother. I asked her again, but she refused to say anything, and kept saying it was okay. When I asked her urgently, she shed tears, and then I didn't dare to ask any more.

"I searched secretly. I rummaged through her room while she was away." Speaking of this, Yin Lingxi glanced at Gu Yanqiu and said, "Guess what I found?"

"Photo?" Gu Yanqiu frowned slightly, and immediately realized that Mr. Liu said that Yin Lingxi didn't know Shen Huaiyu's appearance.

Yin Lingxi: "No, I didn't find anything."

This answer was a bit beyond Gu Yanqiu's expectation: "Could it be that she hid it too deeply?"

Yin Lingxi shook her head: "No, there is no trace at all. I later found out that she destroyed everything related to your mother. Except for herself, there is nothing related to her."

Gu Yanqiu: "Go ahead."

Yin Lingxi couldn't find any clues at home, so she asked her grandma and grandpa, her mother's parents, who only had her mother as a daughter, so they loved Yin Lingxi very much and responded to every request. The old man was tight-lipped, did not reveal a word, and told her not to mention it in front of her mother.At that time, Yin Lingxi was already in his teens, and he could know from just a few words that it must be a painful past for many people.

Maybe time is the medicine that heals everything. Although some wounds are deep, they will heal slowly after all.Yin's mother spent less and less time in a daze. She practiced calligraphy and read books in her spare time, showing a positive look in front of Yin Lingxi.

Yin Lingxi went to university, went abroad to study, returned to China, and worked. Ten years passed in the blink of an eye. Mother Yin added white hair to her sideburns and picked up the Buddhist beads that she hadn't held for a long time. A pool of clear water.

If it wasn't for the accidental car accident that took her life...

Gu Yanqiu handed over a tissue.

Yin Lingxi pressed the wet corners of his eyes lightly, and let out a sigh of relief: "I'm sorry."

Gu Yanqiu stared at her deeply and said, "I understand."

Yin Lingxi smiled, with tears in his eyes.

"Life and death are destiny, you can't force it." While comforting herself, she also comforted Gu Yanqiu.

"En." Gu Yanqiu replied lightly.

"Fortunately, I didn't suffer too much pain." In a series of car accidents, Yin's mother was sitting in the car and was caught in the middle. Unfortunately, she died on the spot. Yin Lingxi briefly said, "My mother's funeral is handled by me alone. Later, I often sat quietly in her room, and accidentally found the safe in the corner. The safe was of an old style, an antique, but there was basically no dust on it. I thought it was very strange, so I tried the password of the safe. It didn’t take much time to try it out, that’s the number she often writes. Sometimes I’m playful, and when she takes me out for shopping, if there are any welfare lottery or sports lottery, I will ask her to go I bought it for fun, and this is the number she gives every time."

Gu Yanqiu's heart moved slightly, and he glanced at her.

Yin Lingxi looked at her and reported a set of numbers.

Gu Yanqiu sighed and said, "Yes, it's my mother's birthday."

Yin Lingxi: "I found a diary in her safe..."

dong dong dong-

The sound of the door interrupted the conversation between the two, and Yin Lingxi said, "Please come in."

The waiter comes in with the dishes.

Lin Yuewei stretched his head to look inside, and could only see half of Gu Yanqiu's side face, his expression seemed to be unable to distinguish between happiness and anger.She was scratching her heart and liver outside, but Gu Yanqiu didn't notice it.

The waiter served the good food, and closed the door again with only half of his profile face.

The waiter at the front desk raised her head from time to time, and glanced at the customer who had just bitten the cup in fear. Judging by her current expression, the one in her hand seemed to be in danger.

Biting a cup is a trivial matter, but hurting someone is a major event. Fortunately, this customer was very lucky, and the cup was in a mess, and her lips were intact.

Lin Yuewei thought that the food was served, and he definitely wouldn't read the diary at this time, so he took out his mobile phone, bowed his head to type, and sent it.

Gu Yanqiu's cell phone was placed on the table, and the screen lit up.

Yin Lingxi noticed it faster than Gu Yanqiu, and a hint of ridicule flashed in his eyes: "Someone is looking for it."

Gu Yanqiu probably guessed who the sender was, so he picked up a chopstick of food slowly, and after eating, he slowly turned on the phone.

Yin Lingxi looked at her with a look of "I'll just watch you XX quietly", with a half-smile.

【Two woods: 嘤嘤嘤】

The muscles at the corners of Gu Yanqiu's mouth twitched, his face tensed and he didn't smile, and he replied: [Good]

[Two Woods: Be naughty, roll around]

In order to attract Gu Yanqiu's attention, Lin Yuewei no longer cared about self-destructing her image, and was very open-minded.

Yin Lingxi curled her lips into a smile: "Laugh if you want, don't worry about me being fed dog food."

Gu Yanqiu took the phone in his hand, stood up and said, "I'm going to the bathroom."

Yin Lingxi looked at the fire like an eye: "Go."

After Gu Yanqiu went out, he closed the door, winked at Lin Yuewei who was in the private seat, and then walked towards the bathroom. Lin Yuewei waited for her figure to disappear before leaving gracefully for the bathroom.

Lin Yuewei, who put Gu Yanqiu in the cubicle, lost his elegance for a second, and sniffed Gu Yanqiu's neck like a big dog. Gu Yanqiu was amused, and asked in a low voice, "Did you hear anything?"

Yin Lingxi was neither trampled on the corner of her skirt nor sprained by the uneven road today, so naturally she did not leave the smell of perfume on Gu Yanqiu.

Lin Yuewei suddenly remembered when, took Gu Yanqiu's palm, sniffed deeply, and said after a while, "I heard it!"

Gu Yanqiu flicked Lin Yuewei's forehead with a finger: "Nonsense again."

"No nonsense, I saw it all, you and her went in hand in hand."

"When did you hold hands?" Gu Yanqiu seemed to have lost his memory.

"I saw it all."

Gu Yanqiu racked his brains to retrieve the images in his mind, and when he was sure that it should be the part Lin Yuewei said, he said helplessly: "It's a matter of your perspective. She and I don't like physical contact, how could we take the initiative? Holding hands, neither Cheng Guiyuan nor I hold hands."

"How do you know she doesn't like physical contact? She fell into your arms twice."

"Once, wasn't it the first time you stepped on the corner of your skirt on purpose?"

"Why are you helping her speak?"

"I didn't help her to speak." Gu Yanqiu's words of "making trouble for no reason" were about to come out of his mouth.

Lin Yue looked at her face slightly, and determined that the speed of eating vinegar was dead here. Then he changed the subject and said quietly: "I just bitten the cup, you know?"

Gu Yanqiu didn't react: "Huh?"

Lin Yuewei described to her what happened just now, especially the crisp "crack". She said: "This is the first time I know what it feels like to bite glass. It's warm and hot."

Gu Yanqiu was described as terrified by her, the three souls have gone to the seven souls, no one cares about Yin Lingxi or perfume, she cupped her chin and said, "Open your mouth."

Lin Yue remained silent, with a stubborn expression on his face, and said angrily, "No."

Gu Yanqiu leaned in and kissed her, licked the gap between the teeth with the tip of his tongue, and let go with satisfaction: "There is no bleeding."

Lin Yuewei was ashamed and annoyed, or pretending to be ashamed and annoyed, and slapped her on the shoulder: "You hate it."

Gu Yanqiu answered with a smile: "You feel good."

Lin Yuewei: "..."

The air was still for three seconds.

Gu Yanqiu covered his face with his hands: "I was wrong."

"Hand, take it off."

Gu Yanqiu glanced at her from between his fingers, and slowly moved his hand down.

The pinching sensation on her cheek made her gasp, Lin Yuewei pinched the soft flesh on her face: "Would you talk nonsense next time?"

Gu Yanqiu shook his head frantically: "Don't say it, don't say it."

Lin Yuewei let go of her, and kissed the red spot on her face again.

After rubbing their ears together for a while, Gu Yanqiu rubbed his finger behind Lin Yuewei's ear affectionately, buried his face in her shoulder, smelled her breath, and said softly, "I'm going back."

Lin Yuewei: "Go, see your Miss Yin."

"hiss--"

She was also pinched on the face, Gu Yanqiu looked at her seriously: "Don't talk nonsense."

Lin Yuewei looked aggrieved and blinked pitifully.

"..." Gu Yanqiu took the initiative to move his face closer, "Pinch it back."

Lin Yuewei's expression became ferocious for a second, his thumbs and index fingers were ready, and Gu Yanqiu closed his eyes.

The devil's claw fell on her face, and it didn't hurt, so she stroked it lightly twice.

A warm touch falls on the lips.

"Go." It was a very gentle sentence this time.

Gu Yanqiu went to open the door of the washroom in a daze.

"Let me smell someone else's perfume again, just wait and see."

Gu Yanqiu woke up immediately, Lin Yuewei was still the Lin Yuewei she was familiar with.

It took her a long time to come out this time, Gu Yanqiu pulled the seat away after entering the door, and said "Sorry, I've been waiting for a long time" before sitting down in a hurry.

Yin Lingxi looked up at her, and said slowly, "It's okay."

Gu Yanqiu had a feeling of being seen through.

She sorted out Lin Yuewei's lipstick marks and messed up clothes in front of the mirror. If it was still exposed, it meant that Yin Lingxi had suspected it a long time ago, and the most likely thing was that she found Lin Yuewei as soon as she came in. Slightly scrutinized her eyes, and added the sentence "Aren't you always there" that I mistakenly replied.

If such a person were an enemy, Gu Yanqiu felt that he would die a lot of brain cells.

Fortunately not.

Yin Lingxi didn't expose her, and adjusted his eating speed. The two of them put down the bowls and chopsticks at the same time, and sat on the sofa in the private room.

Yin Lingxi took out the old diary from her satchel, removed a protective bag, took a deep breath, and carefully handed it to Gu Yanqiu: "It's all here."

Her helpless life is also here.

The cover of the diary is a blue sea, and a pair of seagulls are flying on the sea surface. Because of the passage of time, the color has faded long ago, showing a gray and decayed atmosphere.

Gu Yanqiu paused for a few seconds before turning to the first page of the diary.

X month X day, 198X

I am now in Xiaoyu's hometown, Yangqing Village, and she insists on bringing me here.Such a commemorative event, I decided to record it in a new diary. (Actually, it’s because staying here is boring. If Xiaoyu sees this line, please remember that you are not included in the word boring, haha)

The folk customs here are simple and simple, and it is not the same as my home. You can fish in the water, and you can go to the vegetable garden to pick vegetables. I followed it once today, which is very interesting.It’s just that some villagers are too enthusiastic, and when they see me from a distance, they want to call “college student”. I feel very embarrassed and hide behind Xiaoyu.Xiaoyu is also a very bad person. When others shouted that, she never explained it to me and even laughed, but when I saw her smile, it didn't matter what she called her.

I am afraid that she will tell her parents the real relationship between us on impulse. There are many times when she looks at me without any scruples. I feel that her mother is suspicious. I hope she can accept her impulse, at least wait After we graduate and our jobs stabilize, we will talk about this matter again.

After reading a page, Gu Yanqiu found out that this paragraph was actually something she knew. When Shen Huaiyu was in college, she once brought back a college classmate who she said was a good friend. He heard it from others and saw the diary written by Yin's mother. It's two completely different feelings.

Mother Yin's handwriting is very good, with one stroke and one stroke, vigorous and thin, with a style of willow style.

Gu Yanqiu continued to look back.

X month X day, 198X

The trip to Yangqing Village came to a successful conclusion, and fortunately Xiaoyu didn't expose the matter between the two of us.On the way back, she seemed a little unhappy. I asked her why, and she said that she had tested her parents' attitude and it was very unsatisfactory.I was terrified when I heard that, she dared to test her parents at this time, isn't she afraid that her parents will question her?I think this has to be done gradually, not radically.

The two of us booked two sleeper tickets, and we both slept in the lower berth at night, squeezed into a quilt.She held my hand and said that she would definitely let my parents accept me and let me believe in her.I said: I believe you.

She was still repeating that sentence, I looked up and saw that she had fallen asleep and was talking in her sleep.

What a little fool.

X month X day, 198X

She didn't go home during the winter vacation. I asked her several times before I found out that she had a showdown with her parents last time she went home.

I knew she couldn't hide it, with such a strong temper, she didn't even bother to cover it up.

Should I go back and talk to my parents.

I'm afraid they won't be able to stand the stimulation, and I don't dare to do it myself. I will tell them when I graduate.

I can do it.

……

X month X day, 198X

graduating!

The college days were over, and other classmates were hugging and reluctant to give up, so I cried, but I was not sad at all.I'm about to head towards a brand new future, with my little Yu.

We initially plan to go to Yanning, and we have already found a good job. It is a big city with great development potential, and we are far away from home. No one knows us, so we can live our lives in peace.

X month X day, 198X

The second day of graduation.

Nothing to record today.

Woke up late in the morning, hmm.

Hahaha.

X month X day, 198X

Do you want to confess to your parents?

I asked Xiaoyu, she had already confessed, it was very tragic, she basically severed ties with her family, and never answered her phone calls back home.She advised me not to, I know it is for my own good, but I always feel sorry for her.

She looked me in the eyes and said: It would be nice if you were with me.

I struggled with it for a long time, but decided to put this matter on hold for the time being. We have just started working, and we cannot be very responsible for each other's future.If only I could be as rich as my father, I will work hard to make money!make money!make money!

X month X day, 198X

The happier you are, the easier it is to feel uncertain.

Xiaoyu is much better than me in this respect, and she is always full of hope for our future.

The words I have said the most in the past two years are: you have to be with me all the time, accompany me until I am 80 years old, be healthy, safe, and smooth, and you can't be separated from me.

I can't imagine a day without her, not even a second.

I am afraid that she will get sick, and I am so nervous that I will die when I have a small cold. I am very afraid that she will not be able to accompany me to grow old. up.

I want to stay with Shen Huaiyu until the age of 80. I want to be healthy, safe and sound, and we can't be separated.

God, did you hear that?

I have only one wish.

……

X month X day, 198X

Something happened at home.

When Gu Yanqiu saw this, his heart jumped up and he quickly turned to the next page.

The next few pages are short.

X month X day, 198X

I don't want to get married.

X month X day, 198X

don't get married.

X month X day, 198X

no way!

That last "no" almost tore the paper.

Yin Lingxi glanced at the diary from the corner of her eye, and she knew the contents of the diary well, so she interjected in a timely manner and explained: "At that time, there was something wrong with the company of grandma and grandpa's family, and it couldn't turn around. My grandpa may go to jail..."

"So you traded it with your mother?" Gu Yanqiu narrowed his eyes.

"Basically." Yin Lingxi sighed, "Everyone takes what they need." She added, "My grandfather was not in good health during that time. If things really got into trouble, I'm afraid it would be really bad luck."

Gu Yanqiu raised his eyebrows slightly, noncommittal.

X month X day, 198X

I frequently asked for leave to go home, and the company leaders tactfully advised me to resign, so I resigned.

Xiaoyu learned from me that my parents planned to marry me into the Yin family. Her face was very pale and she didn't say a word. I was very flustered when I saw it.

What are your real thoughts?After a long time, she asked me, and she always respected my opinion.

my real thoughts?Of course I want to be with her and don't want to marry someone else, but I don't know why I can't say it.My parents have raised me for so many years, and now my family is in trouble, do I want to be a deserter by myself?I don't want my father to go to jail, what if something happens to him?I can't afford such an event.

The last time I went home and came out to them, I didn't expect it to be at such a time. Unexpectedly, there was no beating or scolding. Maybe it was something at home that crushed my father's back. He just sat there Smoking, he doesn't know how to smoke, and if he lets the smoke choke into his throat, his mother will cry.

I knelt in the living room all night, and my father came out of the room in the morning, looking tired, and only said one sentence to me: Girl, go away, go far away, and don't come back again.

I see what he means.

I decided at that moment that I would give myself to this family.

I have believed in Buddhism for so many years, why did the Buddha refuse to bless me?

X month X day, 198X

we broke up.

The five characters were all heavily stained by water.

X month X day, 198X

A week before the wedding was approaching, I had nightmares every night. I dreamed that Shen Huaiyu was crying in front of me. I couldn't help but bought a ticket and went back to Yanning. I had to take a look at her.But the moment I really saw her, I was no longer my own, and I begged her to take me away like crazy.

I am getting married.Shen Huaiyu said, and then showed me the engagement ring on her ring finger.

I burst into tears.

Don't waver anymore, go live your life, I'm fine, don't worry about me.She showed me pictures of her fiancé, who was tall and handsome.

She has always been braver than me.

It was in the past and it is now.

The author has something to say: I have finally explained a lot of things about the previous generation.“_“

Friend [-]: Has anyone found out that the ex-girlfriend has no name like me? !