Lin Shilang Gu

Lin Yue raised her eyes slightly, and met Gu Feiquan's questioning eyes because she had observed him several times, and asked, "Brother, where is your mother?"

Gu Feiquan: "I let her go to rest first."

Oh, off to rest.

Lin Yuewei thought, and then asked, "Are you in the hospital?"

Gu Feiquan nodded: "I was worried about her going back alone, so I got her a bed in the hospital and fell asleep first."

Lin Yuewei still wanted to ask where it was, but in order to avoid Gu Feiquan's suspicion, he swallowed the words back.It's not that she's afraid of Gu Feiquan and her mother's gang, she still believes in Gu Yanqiu's way of looking at people, that is, he is a mother and son, and because of an unfounded guess, she seems to be provocative and unreasonable.

Gu Feiquan took a deep look at her, and if she didn't ask, he stopped answering.

***

Gu Huai's physical condition was better than imagined. He didn't need to wear an oxygen mask, and he had a bottle of water hanging on one hand. Apart from his pale face, there was almost nothing abnormal.

"Here we come." Gu Huai smiled slightly at Gu Yanqiu who entered the door.

Gu Yanqiu came over silently, the gown made her look even more difficult to get close to.

Gu Huai's smile remained undiminished, and his eyes followed the steps that walked in step by step.

Gu Yanqiu came up to him, squatted down, and let her eyes meet Gu Huai's. She looked at Gu Huai for a few seconds and asked, "Why?"

Gu Huai patted the edge of the bed lightly with the hand that did not hang the needle, signaling her to sit down.

Gu Yanqiu moved a chair and sat down as he said.

Gu Huai sighed, but there was no sadness on his face.

"Actually, at first I thought about whether to hide it from you, but then I thought about it. It's the same thing if I don't hide it. One more person who knows will not make the cure more likely. In order to prevent you from worrying, I still Decided to hide it."

and……

Gu Huai didn't say the latter reason, because Gu Yanqiu probably wouldn't feel comfortable.

Gu Huai had just married He Songjun, no matter why he married, He Songjun knew he was a cancer patient shortly after entering the house, it was too unfair to her, a few days of carefree days counted as a few days.

"Then you can leave without worries?" Gu Yanqiu asked in a cold voice.What does this take her for?Irrelevant people?

Gu Huai: "..."

He coughed, and Gu Yanqiu came over to give him relief: "My tone is bad, I'm sorry."

Gu Huai: "Ahem...not..."

Gu Yanqiu: "???"

Gu Huai gasped for breath, stared at her for a long time, and said in disbelief: "Who said I'm going to leave without any worries?"

Gu Yanqiu: "Secretary Li."

Gu Huai said angrily: "Give me the phone, I'll call him, what are you talking about, curse me."

Gu Yanqiu said heartily: Isn't it?

She recalled it carefully, and said: "Oh, what Secretary Li originally said was that there are no cares and no worries, and there is no part about 'walking away'."

Gu Huai coughed and said, "You guys misunderstood."

Gu Yanqiu: "Huh?"

Gu Huai said: "What I mean by "no worries and no worries" is that after the company's affairs are settled, I can treat my illness with peace of mind. The doctor said that my condition is not serious. If I actively cooperate with the treatment, the possibility of recovery is quite high, even if I can't get better. , It’s not that I will leave in a year or a half, but I have to wait for three to five years, which is enough. I didn’t expect it to be a big New Year’s Eve.”

Gu Huai smiled and said, "Hey, this body is suddenly unbearable."

Gu Yanqiu: "So..."

Gu Huai: "I just kept it a secret, and I didn't want you to worry." After he finished solving the company's affairs, he went to a beautiful place to recuperate, and took He Songjun with him. After all, he owed He Songjun too much.

Gu Huai: "It's good to know now. When the news of my cancer spreads in the company, I'm afraid the two of them, Wu and Wu, can't sit still. It's just for you to reap the benefits. Don't go to the hospital all the time, let them know It’s time to doubt, I should go to work tomorrow, and I should have a normal meeting.”

"I know Dad." Gu Yanqiu habitually showed an obedient look in front of him.

Gu Huai: "I'm a little sleepy, you should go to sleep too." Then he closed his eyes.

Gu Yanqiu still had a lot of questions to ask, but Gu Huai didn't know whether he was really tired or not, so he had already assumed the posture of "seeing off guests", so Gu Yanqiu had no choice but to go out.

Gu Feiquan and Lin Yuewei stood up at the same time.

Gu Yanqiu glanced at Lin Yuewei first, then turned his gaze to Gu Feiquan, and said, "Dad is asleep, tonight I..."

Gu Feiquan wiped away the flash of displeasure just now, interrupted her, and took the initiative to say: "Let me come to watch the night, I will ask for leave tomorrow and not go to the company."

Gu Yanqiu didn't refuse, nodded slightly and said, "I'm sorry to trouble you."

Gu Huai was right, at this moment, she could only carry on the indifference to the end, and Gu Feiquan obviously guessed it before making such a suggestion.

Gu Feiquan said "hmm": "Are you going to spend the night in the hospital or go home?"

Lin Yuewei looked at Gu Yanqiu, and Gu Yanqiu said, "Go home, call me anytime you need anything."

Gu Feiquan: "Okay, then you guys go back first."

Gu Yanqiu lowered his head and silently looked at the slippers he was stepping on barefoot. Gu Feiquan curled his toes and shrunk in, saying: "I'll have someone bring me a new pair of these later."

Gu Yanqiu: "Thank you, you have worked hard."

Gu Feiquan was startled, Lin and Gu had already left side by side.

Looking at their backs, Gu Feiquan curled his lips, then stretched his waist, and walked unsteadily towards the resting room.It's three or four o'clock in the morning, so it's not appropriate to disturb the assistant's dream, so I'll have time to get it in the morning after I sleep first.

Gu Feiquan entered the door on tiptoe, and first called softly: "Mom?"

He Songjun's back was facing him, his back was motionless, Gu Feiquan shook off the blanket on the sofa, yawned, curled his long hands and feet in, leaned his face on the armrest of the sofa, rubbed his feet and fell asleep When I fell asleep, the snoring started.

He Songjun, who had been turning his back to him, suddenly turned around and stared at him quietly in the dark night.

***

Gu Lin and the two went back to Lin's house. At dawn, Lin Yuewei wanted to get up early to go to the temple to offer incense and pray for blessings. In order to make it convenient for her to be with Ran Qingqing, he asked far away.Ran Qingqing didn't sleep well at night, when she heard the sound of the door outside, she put on her coat and got up.

"Mom?" Lin Yuewei turned on the light and was startled by the figure standing at the door, "Why aren't you asleep yet?"

"Slept, and woke up when I heard the sound."

"Go to sleep." Lin Yuewei waved at her.

"How is your father-in-law?" Ran Qingqing asked Gu Yanqiu.

Gu Yanqiu replied: "I woke up once, and my energy is not bad, and now I fell asleep again."

"Okay, you two go to sleep too, it's almost dawn." Ran Qingqing didn't say much, and went back to her room.

"Got it, good night, auntie."

"Good night." Ran Qingqing closed the bedroom door with a soft click.

Lin Yuewei put both of their coats on the back of the sofa, took Gu Yanqiu's hand, pressed her directly on the bed, covered her with the quilt, and before she could say a word, said forcefully: "Go to sleep, Don't think nonsense."

"I'm not thinking wildly." Gu Yanqiu defended without confidence, and slowly closed his eyes, "You should sleep too."

"Sleep." Lin Yuewei quickly lay down.

Gu Yanqiu couldn't sleep, but she still closed her eyes until the alarm clock rang at dawn.She felt an arm pass over her and turned off her alarm clock - when she and Lin Yuewei lived together, the two of them used the same mobile phone to set the alarm clock, usually it was Gu Yanqiu's, and then the other party bowed his head gently Gently kissed her on the forehead, and quietly got up to wash up.

If her ears hadn't been focused all the time, she wouldn't have heard the sound of Lin Yuewei running water, brushing his teeth and washing his face.What's even more strange is that she gradually fell asleep amidst such small busy voices.

After Lin Yuewei changed her clothes, she finally pecked Gu Yanqiu on the lips, opened the door and went downstairs.

Ran Qingqing slept intermittently last night, her body is not as good as that of a young man, she will be refreshed after two hours of sleep, and she is sitting at the dining table waking up, with breakfast in front of her, when she heard The voice only glanced up: "Just you?"

"She was still sleeping, so I set the alarm clock back," Lin Yuewei said.The temple was almost out of Yanning City, and it took two or three hours to drive there. The two of them had to leave early, and Gu Yanqiu didn't go to work until nine o'clock, so they could sleep a little longer.

The aunt put Lin Yuewei's breakfast on the dining table, and Lin Yuewei opened the chair and sat down: "Thank you."

The mother and daughter had breakfast quietly, got into the driver's car waiting outside, and left the Lin house almost silently.

Gu Yanqiu, who was woken up by the alarm clock at almost eight o'clock, raised his hand to cover the light in front of him, took the mobile phone on the bedside table, and opened the interface to the chat interface. The message Lin Yuewei left her:

[I'm going to incense, remember to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner, and don't cry secretly]

Gu Yanqiu: "..."

She told Lin Yuewei that she got up by herself, then sat on the bedside, closed her eyes and called Gu Feiquan.

Gu Feiquan put the half-peeled apple back on the plate, wiped his hands, and picked it up: "Dad has been transferred to the intensive care unit...woke up...the doctor has seen it, it's fine...I'll let Dad catch?"

Gu Huai turned his face away when he heard the sound, Gu Yanqiu asked Gu Huai a few words about his body, then ended the phone call and got up.

Gu Feiquan threw the phone back on the counter, Apple picked it up and continued to peel it.Gu Huai looked at the long strip of peel hanging down from his hand, and smiled softly: "I didn't expect you to have this skill."

"I know more crafts, and you will see it in the future."

"Are you encouraging me?"

"You think it is." Gu Feiquan accidentally cut off the peel, clicked, the tip of the knife drooped, and shook the peel to fall into the trash can. Then he was more casual, and finally cut the apple into pieces. Cut them into pieces and feed Gu Huai bite by bite with a toothpick.

Gu Huai suddenly opened his mouth, feeling quite strange, sitting in front of his bed was his son who had grown up outside for 28 years, with mixed feelings for a while.

To say that his affection for Gu Feiquan is definitely not as deep as that for Gu Yanqiu. He even took him in at first because of guilt. Later, as time went by, he got to know the character and ability of this child, and gradually developed a love for him. The idea of ​​cultivating him as Gu Yanqiu's deputy is basically negligible to him when it comes to a father's love for his son.Both he and Gu Feiquan knew this well.

The grievances of the previous generation will always be implicated in the innocent next generation.

"Where's your mother?" Gu Huai ate half an apple and waved her hand to say no.Ever since Gu Huai woke up, he hasn't seen He Songjun yet.

"Go home."

"Is...is she very bad?" Gu Huai revealed guilt.

"You know that too?" Gu Feiquan twitched the corner of his mouth into a sarcastic smile.Although his mother was wrong, she was the mother who gave birth to him and raised him after all. What Gu Huai did was nothing to him, but to He Songjun it was a bolt from the blue.

He Songjun was his mother, and Gu Feiquan knew it all too well. She kept saying that it was for the Gu family's property. There was indeed a reason for this, but it was more for Gu Huai.Especially after entering the door, Gu Huai treated her very well. She was an ordinary woman with no foresight, and gradually tilted the balance towards Gu Huai. Gu Huai was her old love, her husband, and also her support for the rest of her life. .Now that I suddenly learned the truth, it was normal for me to be unable to accept it for a while.

Gu Huai sighed: "I am the one who is sorry for you."

Gu Feiquan asked back: "Are you really sorry for us?" He stared into Gu Huai's eyes.

Gu Huai's eyes were calm and unwavering: "Otherwise?"

Gu Feiquan skipped this topic and said directly: "I have a question to ask you."

Gu Huai: "You ask."

Gu Feiquan: "Why did you marry my mother?"

"Didn't I answer it before? Because I was sorry to you at that time, and out of the psychology of compensation, I want you and your mother to live a better life in the future." Gu Huai looked up at him, and he looked at him.

"Isn't it because of Shen Huaiyu's last wish?" Gu Feiquan stared at him for a few seconds, then gently twitched the corner of his mouth.

He used Gu Yanqiu's mother's real name, not Luo Yu, which he later changed.

Gu Huai's calm expression slowly cracked, and an uncontrollable coldness flashed in his eyes: "Where did you know her name?"

Gu Feiquan put one hand on the back of the chair, and said as if mocking himself: "I've talked to you so much, but you still look calm. I just mentioned her name, and your reaction is so big?"

Gu Huai: "Did Yanqiu tell you? How much did she find out?"

Gu Feiquan avoided answering, and continued with his own words: "You love her so much, how could you be willing to change Mrs. Gu's title to someone else for mere compensation? Gu Dong, your reason is too untenable."

Gu Huai said nothing, just looked at him.

Gu Feiquan laughed mockingly: "I've got the answer I want, I'm going out to smoke a cigarette."

Gu Huai's eyes fell behind him.

Gu Feiquan turned around, and He Songjun was standing at the door with his insulated lunch box.It was rare for Gu Feiquan to show a trace of panic, he quickly collected his emotions, and greeted him: "Why did you come back so soon? Didn't you say go home and sleep?"

He Songjun smiled, and put the insulated lunch box on the bedside table: "Aren't I afraid that you two will be hungry? I asked my aunt to prepare it specially in the morning, and I went home to pick it up."

Gu Huai looked at her tenderly: "Thank you, have you eaten yet? Let's eat together?"

He Songjun nodded lightly.

Gu Feiquan only felt that the scene in front of him was particularly eye-catching. Gu Huai didn't love his mother at all, but he pretended to be gentle and considerate in front of her, as if he cherished her so much. It was all because of Shen Huaiyu's words.

Gu Feiquan was afraid that he would lose control of himself if he stayed any longer, so he hurriedly found an excuse and left first.He went to the smoking area, lit a cigarette, took a deep drag, and puffed.

After a while, a middle-aged man who was older than him came, in his forties, a middle-aged man with a very simple appearance and clothes, his back was a little hunched, and every wrinkle on his face was full of the sorrows of life.

The man fumbled in his pocket and found only a pack of cigarettes, without a lighter. He glanced at the cigarette burning between Gu Feiquan's fingers, and Gu Feiquan handed him the cigarette to lend him a light.

The man took a sip and squinted at him: "Thank you."

Gu Feiquan usually doesn't talk to people casually, but for some reason today he really wanted to talk to a stranger: "You are..." He asked, "What's going on with your family?"

The man was unprepared and he would take the initiative to speak up. Even though Gu Feiquan looked depressed now, he didn't look like a person of the same class as him.No matter what it is outside, in the smoking area of ​​the hospital, people and human class are gone.

The man said: "My son, leukemia, his mother is with him in the ward. What about you?"

Gu Feiquan said, "My dad has lung cancer."

The man exhaled the smoke, his face curled up in it, and he said bitterly, "What the fuck."

Gu Feiquan leaned his back against the wall, and his smoking movements are very gentle until now. He smiled lightly: "Who said it wasn't?"

The man glanced at him and said, "It looks like you are not short of money, you are like us, working hard for more than ten years, and at this time, you still have to run around to borrow money to treat your child's illness."

Gu Feiquan put the tip of his tongue against the palate, and slowly turned around inside, feeling the faint smell of blood between his teeth, and smiled: "It's not that I'm short of money, I can use whatever medicine I want."

The barrier of class was quietly erected again to block between the two.

The man couldn't smoke anymore, he hurriedly pressed it out, and walked away quickly. Gu Feiquan confessed his failure, laughed at himself, took out the phone from his trousers pocket, twirled it around with his fingertips, and clicked on the recent call The first number in the phone, dialed and pressed.

On the way to the company, Gu Yanqiu pressed the release button: "What's wrong? Dad's not feeling well again?"

Gu Feiquan: "It's my fault."

Before Gu Yanqiu could answer, Gu Feiquan had already hung up the phone.

Gu Yanqiu: "..."

After a while, her phone vibrated, and Gu Yanqiu turned it on while waiting for the red light.

[Gabei: Gu Huai indeed married my mother because of your mother's last wish]

[System prompt: Gabe has withdrawn a message]

These two are together, I don't know what Gu Feiquan is withdrawing.

Gu Yanqiu answered the message and found out, and then asked how he got it.

Gu Feiquan recounted what happened just now, judging from Gu Huai's reaction, this is the only possibility.

【Gabei: I want to go to work in the company】

【Xi Gu: Then you can come】

[Gabei: Forget it, I want to act, I'm going back to the ward]

[Si Gu: ok]

Gu Feiquan put away his mobile phone, stood still at the door of the ward, knocked on the door, and then opened the door to enter.He Songjun had already finished feeding Gu Huai for breakfast, and now he was greeting him: "Why have you been here for so long, hurry up and have dinner."

Gu Feiquan took a deep look at He Songjun, if she was willing to live in white lies for the rest of her life, would he reveal the truth to her?Wait, did she hear anything just now?

Gu Feiquan took the porridge bowl He Songjun handed over, took a sip, it was warm, and said casually: "Mom, why did you come in so suddenly just now, I was shocked."

"It's because you two are too involved in chatting."

"Did you hear what we were talking about?"

"I heard you said you were going to smoke, and there is an answer, what answer?" He Songjun asked, "Is the porridge cold? Let me borrow a microwave oven to heat it up for you?"

"It's nothing, it's the company's business. I don't need a microwave oven. What kind of microwave oven do I need?" Gu Feiquan finished his porridge, wiped his mouth, and said, "Okay."

"It's not good for digestion." He Songjun nagged him.

"I know, it's not that you cook too deliciously."

"...Auntie did this." He Songjun was speechless.

"Almost, it's the ingredients you ordered." Gu Feiquan hugged He Songjun's shoulder affectionately, looked into Gu Huai's eyes from an angle that He Songjun couldn't see, and Gu Huai nodded slightly.

Gu Feiquan breathed a sigh of relief.

He Songjun put away the clean insulated lunch box and said, "I'll wash it."

Gu Feiquan: "Okay, thank you Mom, go and come back early."

Gu Feiquan watched He Songjun leave the ward with a smile on his face, and immediately shot sharp eyes at Gu Huai: "What did you just say to her? Are you sure she didn't hear what we both said?"

Gu Huai: "I'm sure she didn't hear it. I also told her that I didn't intend to abandon her, but that I really wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. I would make my health better and live a good life."

"What did she say?"

"She listens to me."

"Really?"

"Really." Gu Huai said, "I really don't love your mother, but it's true that I want to make up for her, and I really want to spend the rest of my life with her, so that what happened 30 years ago can be completely ended with me. To ashes to dust.”

"It's not fair to my mother." Gu Feiquan suppressed his voice, and at the same time glanced vigilantly at the door, but no one came.

"Then what do you think I should do? Tell your mother the truth? What is fairness? After 30 years, these things have already been messed up. What's the point of worrying about who is right and who is wrong?! You can't let your mother Live a peaceful life?!" Gu Huai said angrily, his chest heaving violently twice.

Gu Feiquan took two steps forward, stopped his feet again, stopped himself from trying to give him a smooth ride, and was also furious: "Who the hell messed up these things, me, my mother, Gu Yanqiu, Maybe there are you and Shen Huaiyu, everyone is suffering from this matter, shouldn't I find out the truth of the matter?!"

"No!" Gu Huai yelled back.

Gu Feiquan was startled, "Why?"

Gu Huai closed his eyes, pressed his hand lightly on his lungs, coughed intermittently, and rang the bell beside the bed with his other hand.

The nurse comes in.

Gu Huai didn't look at Gu Feiquan, and said: "I need to rest, by the way, call a doctor to check me up, I'm not feeling well."

"Sir." The nurse took a look at Gu Feiquan and invited him out.

Gu Feiquan left the ward with a sullen face, and slammed his foot on the railing.The family members passing by whispered to each other, but were turned away by his gloomy eyes, and the nurse reminded him not to destroy public property.

When He Songjun came back from washing the insulated lunch box, he saw Gu Feiquan sitting on a chair outside the ward, with his head down, looking dejected.

"What's the matter?" He Songjun looked in, "Why is your father—"

"Don't mention him!" Gu Feiquan yelled, and immediately apologized after yelling, grabbed his hair with both hands, and buried his face in his knees, "I'm sorry, Mom."

He Songjun was stunned by his yelling, and after recovering, he gently raised his face and pressed it against his abdomen, and gently stroked his short, soft hair with his fingers.

"Mom hasn't seen you like this for a long time. The last time was when I was going to marry into the Gu family."

"Do you regret it?"

"Huh?" He Songjun looked down at his son's hair. It was a hairpin when he was a child, and he was also a hairpin when he grew up. Are these things that will never change and will stay by her side?

"Do you regret marrying into the Gu family?" Gu Feiquan raised his head, his eyes filled with tears.

"I..." He Songjun raised his head calmly, exhaled softly, and said, "I don't know. There is no chance to start over in life. The thing I regret most in my life is... knowing you dad."

...and Shen Huaiyu.

Gu Feiquan pressed his face against her stomach, sobbing loudly: "Mom, I'll take you away."

"where to?"

"You can go wherever you want. Let's leave Yanning and stay away from this man." He doesn't want the truth, he doesn't want anything, he doesn't want He Songjun to continue living in lies.

The one thing he regrets the most is not being able to take He Songjun away when he graduated from university, and he wanted to stay in Yanning and let all this happen.

"There's nowhere to go." He Songjun's five fingers shuttled through his short hair, in a low voice, as if talking to him or talking to himself, "I've been buried in the Gu family for half my life, I'm not reconciled, how could I be reconciled. "

"Mom, what did you say?" Gu Feiquan looked up and saw her mouth slightly opened and closed, but couldn't hear what she said.

"Ask why you are outside? Did your dad kick you out?"

"No." Gu Feiquan wiped his eyes and lied, "The doctor is inside for an examination, and I came out."

"Then why did you react like this?" He Songjun looked over at this moment with a faint look in his eyes, as if he had understood everything. Gu Feiquan panicked and said, "I just heard him call that woman's name. You are complaining."

"That's it."

"Ah."

He Songjun let go of his face, sat down beside him, with a faint smile on his lips: "Then let's wait here together until the doctor's examination is over."