[HP] Don't talk to me

Taefa stood in the silence of the living room, eyes closed.

A gust of wind entered the room through the window, and it rushed towards Taefa, but disappeared halfway, leaving only the last whistling.Few could hear the tiny whistling of the wind, except Taefa, who opened her eyes abruptly, and closed them again with trembling lids.

Impossible, impossible.

She called out word by word in her heart.

Nothing is impossible, you have always known it.

Taefa heard a voice in her heart answering her, maybe she was standing on the tip of the knife at this moment, any slight pain was so clear and strong.

The pain seemed to be holding a rope around her neck, strangling all her current emotions, and she could hardly breathe!

She knew it was wrong, but there was nothing she could do.

She should have walked away gracefully, very cleanly.He couldn't find her, and she went back to Finland, where even she didn't know where she could end up, so how could he know and find her?What's more, he might not really look for it.

It was time for her to go, and she didn't even have the desire to quarrel with him.She felt that her body was falling, but she probably didn't have the slightest urge to struggle.She continued to pack.In fact, there is nothing to clean up. The things in the bedroom have been cleaned up long ago, and she has put some personal items in the living room in the past few years, so they should be taken away this time.She's sure she won't be coming back here, so she's got to take care of everything.

The vase on the coffee table was bought by her at the junk stall in Knockturn Alley on the weekend. There are flowers fed by magic in it, and they grow well without watering. If you give it some water someday , then it will bloom immediately, the flowers are colorful and changing, and it takes an hour to change.Snape used to laugh at her for buying such a weird thing, but she liked it.

Now, she's going to keep it here.Maybe Rhysnape won't water it for the next few years, ten years, or it will be thrown into the trash after a while, none of which has anything to do with her.

There are also blankets on the sofa chairs, furnishings on the bookshelves... These have nothing to do with her in the future.

Taefa's fingertips roamed the bookshelves, and she skimmed over books that were familiar or unfamiliar, of different sizes and thicknesses.Her eyes finally settled on a brown paper bag sandwiched between two thick old books.

It was hers, but it wasn't hers.She didn't know how to deal with it, maybe now that she was leaving, it would make her life better with this bag, but she would rather not have it.

Just stay here.The instructions in her head made a quick decision.

She sighed softly, and continued to walk along the rows of bookshelves with her fingers.Her eyes quickly locked on a small box again, it was a locked box carved from rough logs, not much bigger than the palm of your hand.

It's hers too.

This time, she chose to remove it, and opened it with a spell.

It contained only an empty bottle and a full bottle of liquid.

Which one should she take?Or take both?

The empty bottle was the portkey to Hogsmeade Station, and the liquid, was Polyjuice Potion.

This is something she put here some time ago, since she knew Snape's secret, she began to prepare calmly.She was going to leave, leaving quietly, letting him leave without even looking for it, this was her idea.She should have gone without a trace, not a hair left, as if she had never been here.Maybe one day when he comes back here again, he will feel that his memories of her are just dreams, because he doesn't even have a souvenir about her, he has no evidence to prove her existence.

Perhaps this idea made her feel happy, and she curled the corner of her mouth soundlessly.

Just at this time, there was a sound of opening the door, Taefa immediately closed the box again and put it back on the bookshelf.

Snape entered the living room and saw Taefa sitting on the sofa looking at him, with her satchel beside her. "Are you going out?" he asked softly.

Taefa didn't answer his question, she picked up a glass of water and took a sip in silence.It shouldn't be like this, absolutely not.

He also sat down on the sofa next to her, and loosened a few collar buttons under his neck against his throat. "I have some news for you. Dumbledore has decided that I will be the teacher of Defense Against the Dark Arts next semester."

Taefa turned to him and said quickly, "Congratulations, your wish has come true."

Snape bit his lip, he stared at Taefa's mouth opening and closing, he always felt that it was a hundred times more attractive than anything in this world, he couldn't restrain the urge to kiss it. "We should celebrate."

Taefa ignored his movement of leaning forward, stood up first, and went straight to the kitchen. "I'll make you something delicious."

Snape glanced at Taefa's satchel on the side of the coffee table, and then his eyes fell on the vase on the coffee table. The flowers were changing colors, gradually changing from light pink to dark blue.There are a few drops of water dripping on the petals, and there is still half a glass of water left in the small teacup beside it.

The dinner was peaceful, Taefa carefully chewed the food he had cooked on the plate, and Snape was talking about the recent turmoil.The summer vacation is just over, but no one can live happily, jailbreak, murder... The resurgence of Voldemort makes wizards all over the UK live in a vague sense of crisis.Both of them joined the Order of the Phoenix, and were sometimes assigned to different secret jobs, so Snape was more or less accustomed to Taefa sorting his satchel, and he didn't ask again.

When Taefa returned to the living room after clearing the tableware, Snape was reading a book.

"I'm moving," she said softly.She didn't intend to say it at first, as she got up this morning and began to think, she should leave before he went out to run errands and returned home, and walked away in style, without saying goodbye at all.

But she couldn't, she just couldn't.

"Move? Where to?" Snape put down the book.

"We're done."

"End? What end?"

"Our cohabitation, our love." Saying the word love, Taefa's heart trembled, as if a piece of fine slivers suddenly bounced up, and they would never heal, never again.Don't struggle, don't waste your time!

"Tata, what's the matter with you?" Snape asked in a low tone with a pale face. "Why did you say that suddenly?"

Taefa stood where he was, feeling at a loss, and grabbed his satchel. "It's not suddenly, it's because I thought about it. I don't want to be with you anymore, let's break up."

"Why? Taefah, you must speak clearly!" Snape jumped up and grabbed Taefah's arm. "What happened to you?"

He pinched her chin roughly, forcing her to raise her head and meet his gaze.Then, he suddenly felt a chill in his heart, and felt attacked by an uncertain sense of panic.He noticed that there was no playful smile in Taefa's blue eyes looking at him, she was gazing at him seriously.

"I mean it, Severus. I'm going back to Finland, away from this place of right and wrong, from everything that's chaotic and dangerous here. If you think I'm selfish, feel free to be so."

"You're scared?"

"I'm afraid of more and more deaths recently, I'm afraid of the Dark Mark on your arm, and I'm afraid that I'm also involved in these things. So I'm leaving you, listen clearly, I'm leaving you."

"I don't think you're afraid of that, we've always been happy."

"I'm not so happy anymore, and I'm going to be less and less happy." Taefa let Snape's grip on her grow stronger, and the pain she felt felt a little relieved. "It's a good thing we're not married yet so we don't have as many hassles to deal with when we separate."

"We'll go to the Ministry of Magic to register our marriage right away. Do you think we've never been married, that's why you want to leave?" Snape suddenly caught a glimmer of hope.

"It has nothing to do with marriage. I never thought of using marriage to restrain you and myself."

"But marriage will make us more stable. I want you to be Mrs. Snape."

Taefa's eyes were foggy: "But I don't want to do this, and it's so dangerous now, I don't want to tie you up to death."

Snape let go slightly, yes, she was right.He is not suitable for marriage now.

He had wanted to marry her a long time ago, and there was not a day in the past few years when he didn't think so.But he didn't dare to do this. Seeing that the situation in the magic world was getting more and more dangerous, and he was taking on more and more things, he didn't dare to make promises.

But she would not propose to leave for no reason like this, there must be some problem between them, he didn't even notice it, but it was big enough for her to make up her mind.

Because of what?Snape's body tensed, all possibilities flashed through his mind.

There was a moment of silence in the room.Taefa broke free from his grasp and took two steps back.

"It's time for me to go, and now I'm saying goodbye." She said, "I spent the whole day today, and I have cleaned up all my own things in this house. If someone else lives in , and there won't be any problems." She turned around, and at this moment, the tiredness brought by the whole day's cleaning and tidying was long overdue, and she felt as if she had swept the tip of a knife and was scratched. Skin, it hurts badly.

Except for her chest, she felt empty, but the fragments on the ground were extremely peaceful at this moment.

There was no movement behind him, and he seemed to accept her sudden farewell faster than he thought.Taefa thought, without using a portkey, he would just apparate out of the house, not even going to Hogsmeade station, and directly use London's King's Cross station as the starting point.Although, she really wanted to go back to the small station in Hogsmeade, touch the iron sheet of the train, and then nod and say hello to the conductor.

As she turned the doorknob, she suddenly heard Snape's heavy voice, a tone she had never heard before.With despair and pain, anger and panic, and maybe a little regret:

"You found it, you saw it?"

She didn't look back, and the scene where she accidentally found that piece of paper in the interlayer of his clothes flashed in her mind that day.

He must have hidden it well at ordinary times, he never asked her to help wash this dress, and it has been like this for several years.It was also a weekend, and they had spent the day in bed, trying to please each other in any way they could.He fell into a deep sleep exhausted, but she didn't fall asleep like a revelation, but got up to clean up the mess.At the time she was imagining that they might be able to redecorate Spinner's End to make room for a bed and a desk in what was now a vacant bedroom full of clutter.She wants to have a child with him, maybe two, three... Life is not easy now, but their little family will be happy. If he wants to get married, he can marry her. If he wants It's okay to continue their relationship like this.She doesn't care about those forms, as long as she is with him.

The expression on her face must have been shining at that time, until she shook the few pieces of clothing of the two of them in her hands vigorously because of excitement, and then the pieces of paper that were shaken out began to fly in the air.

Withdrawing her thoughts, the moment she stepped out of the door, she apparated away.

She said nothing more.