Cold violence

Valentine's Day is a great day to do something.

He Chu's kiss was completely different from Zhou Yu's.

His breath was hot and strong, and he quickly turned his back on the guest, taking Zhou Yu's lips and tongue into his mouth together, as if he wanted to split him into his abdomen.

The corner of Zhou Yu's mouth curled up into a smile, allowing He Chu to deepen the kiss.

He knew that his kissing skills were not good, so he had to let He Chu teach him slowly.

The two kissed deeply, and gradually became angry. Just when Zhou Yu felt that a hand had already reached his waist, He Chu left Zhou Yu's lips as if suddenly remembering something. take a step back.

Zhou Yu gasped for breath, and there was a faint glint of water in his eyes.

He Chu's eyes were red, as if possessed by a demon.

He had already gone mad for the person in front of him.

He Chu stared at him for a long time, stretched out his hands to cup Zhou Yu's cheeks, took a deep breath, and sighed, "Can't we make the last step today?"

"You didn't want to just now?" Zhou Yu smiled instead, implying something.

"I..." A blush appeared on He Chu's face, "Don't you have to go home tomorrow?"

Zhou Yushang took a step forward and hugged his neck, pressed his head down a little, looked into his eyes, and said with a smile, "Yeah, that's why you're so sensible?"

"Don't dare not be ignorant." He Chu leaned forward and kissed Zhou Yu's lips that were a little red and swollen from kissing, and then slapped them a few more times, and said with a smile: "If you kiss again, something will happen. , It won’t be too late when you really want to. I just invited you to dinner today, but I didn’t prepare for it.”

Zhou Yu laughed, and took the initiative to kiss He Chu, with tenderness in his eyes, "Okay, then I will prepare next time. But really, it's just for dinner?"

"Don't tease me," He Chu pressed Zhou Yu's lips again, and said vaguely, "But I still have to kiss again."

In the past, Zhou Yu didn't feel that time was difficult when he was celebrating Chinese New Year abroad. The relationship between the elders in his family and him was lukewarm. It was because of the family's interests that they got together, and the topic of discussion was always inseparable from money.At this time, Zhou Yu would stay alone in his room, declaring to the outside world that he wanted to read the documents.

He didn't know how to socialize very much, and there were no so-called elders in the family before. Now it is even more difficult for him to communicate with the elders than when he first took over the company.

It's all over now, the elders in the family know that the company is busy, and Zhou Yu is willing to take care of it, so it's only natural for them to be the hands-off shopkeeper.

A family like theirs is the kind where only one person needs to contribute, and the status of the others can be as stable as Mount Tai. Zhou Yu became the leader, and they all left a piece of leisure.Anyway, Zhou Yu is the eldest grandson of the eldest house, and the company's inheritance is justified, and the shares they own are not enough to change anything for Zhou Yu.

This year, as usual, he stayed in his room.But the difference is that this is the first year that he didn't deal with documents, but he was thinking about someone instead.

I don't know what He Chu is doing now...

Zhou Yu propped up his forehead and smiled helplessly.

This was already the sixth time he thought of He Chu today, and this trend was a little bit wrong. Zhou Yu felt that sooner or later, he would degenerate into a person who could never leave He Chu.

But he changed his mind...

Thinking about my boyfriend, isn't that a matter of course?

Overnight, the identity changed, and the mood also changed.

Just as he was thinking, He Chu's phone call happened to come. He glanced at the time, and it should have been the afternoon of the first day of the new year in China.

On his side, the New Year's bell just rang.

"Happy New Year!" He Chu's voice sounded beaming, and Zhou Yu couldn't help laughing when he heard it.

——Sure enough, I can't help smiling, I just want to bring my joy to this person.

"You already said it yesterday." Zhou Yu chuckled twice, and said, "Happy New Year."

Zhou Yu is definitely not a person who likes to laugh, he always has a straight face, and in the eyes of outsiders, he always rejects people thousands of miles away.But facing He Chu, even if he didn't face to face, He Chu was the only exception in his life.

Otherwise, how could Zhou Yu have been thinking about it for so many years, and the two of them could come together again?

"Happiness can be accumulated. If you can double your happiness by saying it twice..." He Chu said with a smile on the other end, "Then I hope you can continue to be happy every day, until the next life."

Zhou Yu wanted to say something in response, but he was still speechless.After so many years, he still can't even say half a nice word, and in the end he just said: "Me too."

——I hope you are also happy, not just this new year, when I am by your side, and when I am not, do your best to be happy forever.

He Chu laughed for a long time on the other side when he heard his words.His voice was soft, as if he was afraid of alarming something, but it was low, coming from the muffled chest, with the feeling of a knowing smile.

Some things don't need to be explained by Zhou Yu, He Chu can understand what he wants to say.

They are the most suitable lovers for each other and the ones who understand each other best.

But he still didn't dare to laugh too loudly, even though the joy in his heart was about to go to his head.He was still afraid that this was just a dream he had, and that any louder voice would shatter it.

After a long time, he said softly: "I miss you."

His voice was a little low, as if he was trying to suppress something.Strange to say, he didn't even know why he was like this.

In the past, his liking could be called vigorous, but now it has become really cautious.Zhou Yu is so good, He Chu likes him like a treasure.

Zhou Yu is the only rare treasure he has ever obtained in his life, and he is reluctant to let go of it for a second.

I miss you... This is the first time Zhou Yu heard He Chu say this to himself in so many years.

Nine years later, it was the first time he really heard this sentence.In the past, no matter how many times they said "I miss you" in their hearts, the other party would not know, and they only dared to think silently in their hearts, and they couldn't even make a phone call with the other party.

At that time, because of their pride, one severed the relationship between the two, and the other severed their last connection.

Now these four words of He Chu finally spread across the ocean and into another person's heart with heavy thoughts.

This was the first time Zhou Yu felt that longing was such a weighty thing.

He was silent for a long time, until the other side had silenced his voice, and then he slowly opened his mouth: "He Chu, in fact, one day... I miss you in a very special way."

He let out a long sigh of relief after saying this, because this was the first time he had confided his true inner thoughts to others.He always feels that he only needs to let himself know about these things on his mind. After telling others, the weight of these things in the eyes of others will be lightened a little bit with each word he said, and finally in the eyes of others. would be worthless.

But when he said this sentence today, he suddenly felt relieved.

It turns out that it is such a feeling to speak your heart out to others.

It turned out that he also wanted to tell others what was in his heart, but he didn't want to face such a thing.He had always chosen to hide from himself, always had.

The problems that have existed since childhood, after all, have been corrected because of He Chu.

When he was young, he always stubbornly liked to attribute all his mistakes to one person. He used to be himself. Many people told him that he had done nothing wrong, but he just wanted to torture himself to make himself feel bad. relief.

After so many years, he again extremely attributed the mistake to He Chu, to his abandonment and breach of trust, but in fact He Chu was not wrong at all.

None of them are wrong.

He hates this person as much as he likes it.But in fact, if you think about it carefully, none of them is wrong.

He Chu's departure back then was actually just human nature, who can endure the cold reception day after day?Besides, He Chu is still such a proud person.

They are all too young, and no one should be said to be at fault, and no one should hold a grudge.

Later, Zhou Yu knew that He Chu still liked him, so he became a little unscrupulous, and returned to him what he had done to him before, allowing him to experience his despair back then, with the pleasure of revenge.

He thought, why can you still be happy when I have suffered for so long because of you?

I was struggling in that ugly class because of you, so why do you live in style?

So he was always lukewarm towards He Chu, he was always moody in front of He Chu, and he always ignored He Chu, all because of his own willfulness.

As long as he felt that he was being pampered by He Chu, his little temper would find an existence that could bear his anger, and those spearheads would all be directed at the same person.

I know he likes me, he dotes on me, so that I can be willful, anyway, he will not leave me.

Thinking about it now, in fact, He Chu is the last person who should bear his anger.

Including his own words about not caring about the previous things are also deceptive.How can you not hate it?How could it be forgotten?It's just that no one is willing to bear his anger, and is willing to calm down and listen to him.

He holds grudges very much, otherwise he would not be able to remember all the details of those things until now, and he can even recall the indifferent faces of those people.

He seems to be that noble existence, but in fact he cares about these things more than anyone else.The only difference between him and He Chu was that He Chu wanted to integrate into that group, but Zhou Yu scoffed at that group.

Cold violence, after all, both of them are actually victims.

Before they broke up, he couldn't see He Chu's struggle. He was young and self-willed, and he only felt that his life was miserable, so he couldn't see He Chu's situation.He had to protect himself, and had to deal with the whole class. In fact, He Chu was much more tired than him.

What reason does he have to keep He Chu by his side?What's so good about me that I can make He Chu always be isolated by the whole class because of him?In fact, none of them. He Chu treats him well because he likes him, without any responsibility or obligation.

Zhou Yu should actually be grateful to this person.Now that they are together again, when Zhou Yu looks back and thinks about the past, he only feels regret.

From the time I was young to the present, in fact, this person has always been tolerant and doting on me.In fact, Zhou Yu has always been selfish, it's just that he is always used to avoiding, and puts all the responsibility on He Chu.

Why, why haven't the two of them been together all the time?

Why are they separated?Why do they have to suffer from those injuries from all directions?

He should be able to see it. Every time the two of them looked at each other casually, He Chu's eyes were full of nostalgia and regret.

At that time, he just silently turned his eyes away, pretending that he just happened to see it, his eyes were full of indifference and indifference.

At that time, when they looked at each other, it was actually because they were thinking about each other, so they felt each other's eyes, and that's why they "inadvertently" looked at each other.

In fact, sometimes he couldn't help but think, if he had been soft on He Chu at that time, and also adapted to the atmosphere of the whole class, what would happen to him today?

But in fact, although it was a pity, he would not do it.

Because he was Zhou Yu, he could like He Chu for so long, and because he was Zhou Yu, He Chu was able to be with him again, probably because he was Zhou Yu.

So he won't change himself for others, then he won't be able to truly be the person "Zhou Yu".

Fortunately, he hasn't changed himself, and He Chu is still willing to have him.

Now that He Chu was waiting for him to speak, Zhou Yu opened his mouth and found that the first sound had not come out.

He is still not used to it, and it is still a challenge for him to speak some words.He Chu didn't mean to urge him to speak, Zhou Yu listened to his steady breathing, before speaking for a long time, his voice sounded a bit hoarse:

"In my first year abroad, on the first New Year's Day abroad...I miss you very...specially."

After I knew that I was leaving you completely this time, when I knew that there was no possibility for the two of us, and after I knew that I would never hear from you again, I missed you very much.

When I thought we'd never see each other again in this life, when I thought about how good and bad you were in front of me, when I thought about all the things that happened between us again, it seemed like you Right in front of my eyes, I can recall every line on your face.

The first year I was gone, the first year you knew I was gone, how were you doing?

At that time, he desperately wanted to see He Chu, it was the first time he wanted to see someone so much.

"Is there any more..." He Chu's voice was equally hoarse, as if he had been crushed hard and then roughly torn apart, making his throat dripping with blood, and his voice was also broken.

"and also……"

And that day in your old house, when I heard you say that you miss me very much.When I could feel your missing, I realized that I missed you so much every day and night.

As long as you are not by my side, I will miss you very much.

"Also... now I miss you too."

I want to see you, I want to see the expression on your face, I want to feel the temperature of your body, I want to kiss your soft lips, I even want to touch your hot chest.

"Me too." He Chu said softly on the opposite side.

"How much do you think?"

"Thinking of..." Thinking that even my breath is filled with your breath, and even my blood can't wait to become one with you, "I want to be with you right now."

"Then you wait for me." Wait until I come back to see you.Zhou Yu smiled, opened the webpage and started booking a flight ticket.

It wasn't a lie that he wanted to see He Chu.

"Okay, I'll be at home, obediently waiting for you to come back."

Zhou Yu hung up the phone and looked through the nearest flight he could return to China.When doing this, he felt a little joy in his heart, and a little bit of anticipation, like the feeling of first love.

He couldn't help but think, what would it be like if He Chu saw that he came back early?

Will it cheer up like a child?Or just give him a hug?Or just say nothing?He thought so, and laughed himself.

If you do something that will make him happy without telling a person, how much you will look forward to that person's joy in your heart.He Chu concealed his surprise from him, and he finally understood.

He booked a plane ticket, sat in front of his bed, and took out an old black-covered book from the bedside table. The edges of the book were a little yellowed, but it was neat and tidy, and he could vaguely feel the owner's protection for it——this It was Zhou Yu's diary back then, the thing that filled his thoughts, it could even be said to be all his youth.

"He's a man who deserves the best."

"I think it's probably going to get better." That's what he wrote back then.He remembered that they had just started school that day, and they met Jingzhou in physical education class, and He Chu went to play basketball.He recalled the figure of He Chu at that time, as if he was living in the light, his whole body exuded brilliance.

At that time, I never participated in any sports activities, and I just went down to report the number every time. At first, He Chu would sit down with him. When he was reading, He Chu looked at him in a daze. Later, they got together. Yu went to the basketball court with He Chu to watch him play basketball.And then...he just sat in the classroom alone, and the sports committee didn't call his name, so he didn't even go to class at all.

After being at the same table with He Chu, he didn't write his diary so frequently, because it feels really great to be with He Chu, and He Chu always has endless topics to talk about, so he is always in a good mood Yes, many things are in his head, and he doesn't have to write them down.

Most of his diaries recorded the thoughts he had when he was alone. After having He Chu, he never became a person again.

He turned another page and saw his somewhat messy handwriting that day.

"He Chu said that he likes me, I think it's a bit funny. Why do you like me? What do you like about me? Well, I admit that I have a little affection for this person, but it's only good, there's no possibility, I know."

He remembered the hug he had a strong reaction to at that time, but he wasn't so disgusted in his heart, that warm embrace was actually extremely gentle, but his subconscious reaction still stabbed He Chu.The embrace that carried the warmth of the boy, he was so greedy in the near future, and even had the feeling that he didn't want to let go.

The next page is a sentence he wrote down on the day they were together. It was the most serious sentence he wrote, even the signature was so solemn.What he said was:

"I like this man."

The thought of liking and wanting to be with this person all the time is so clear that he even thought about never being separated from this person.

At that time, he wrote so hard that even his thoughts at that time were also engraved, penetrating time and space. Even now, just seeing his own words, he can remember how he liked them at that time.

The kind of feeling that you can think of your heartbeat at that time as long as you see these words, and feel the excitement like a drum beating in your heart.

When He Chu told him "like" for the first time, he was shocked. When he said "like" to him for the second time, he could hear his own heartbeat. It was a proof that his heart was answered.

His family is very wealthy, it is the kind of family that can provide him with food, drink and entertainment for the rest of his life, but he does not have a good father and a responsible mother.So when he was young, he was so grateful for He Chu's existence, he was someone that even Yu Jingzhou couldn't compare to.

After he and He Chu got together, there were very few things to record, because the two of them lived together soon, and he didn't have the mind to write a diary, and writing a diary...it was after they broke up .

During that time, his handwriting was sloppy, and he lived like that person. At best, he was unrestrained, but at worst, he was willing to degenerate.He flipped through the pages one by one, forcing himself to recall those past thoughts.

"He Chu went home early, and you have become a person again. But it doesn't matter... Anyway, you have already gotten used to it, it's just that the side is empty."

"What did he tell me at that time...? Won't leave? In fact, he is a liar."

"Look, how ridiculous. He even changed his cell phone number behind his back. Why do you still call him? Are you crazy?"

"haven't seen you for a long time."

"He saw you today. It's because your eyes are so hot that you can't ignore it. You should restrain yourself next time."

"What are you thinking about? You're being sentimental again. You need to know...you're not worth it."

"Why do you want to be so depraved? Is this the result I want? Zhou Yu, look at yourself, you're living like a lunatic."

"I think it's very interesting. Since everyone's grades are based on the head of each person, what difference does it make if the people around you are people or dogs?"

"It can only be said that things of a kind flock together and people are divided into groups. Let's get together as soon as we get together, and they will always disperse anyway."

"Forget it, or forget it. What are you going to do up here... Anyway, you have nothing to do with it."

"I didn't say it... Isn't conforming to their ideas what they always want? What's so funny?"

"just forget it."

"Watching them work so hard, I feel that I am really too bad. Does it make sense?"

"It's the last page. It's probably the real goodbye. Let's end it like this."

Ah... yes.After he left that day, his three years of high school really ended like this, flat and lifeless.On that day, he resolutely threw away his mobile phone card, together with the mobile phone, and got on the plane without looking back, but the moment the plane took off, he remembered suddenly thinking:

What would He Chu think when he saw that text message?

With this thought, it shows that Zhou Yu has never really thought about giving up on He Chu.In the past three years, the most he said was "forget it", but fortunately, none of them really "forget it" in the end.

Zhou Yu closed the diary, locked back all the secret thoughts in his heart, looked up and saw a bright sun outside the window, very much like the sunshine that He Chu brought him to feel on Valentine's Day.

The past receded like dark clouds, and the light of the sky shone in from that little gap, tearing apart the darkness of the past.

The next day, He Chu was sitting in the office, fidgeting with his phone.

He always felt that something would happen today, and then he called Zhou Yu's phone again, and the line "Sorry, the phone you dialed has been turned off..." came from the receiver for the tenth time.

He was a little anxious, as if he had returned to the feeling when he kept calling Zhou Yu's phone, but Zhou Yu would never answer it. The biting cold like falling into an abyss made him at a loss what to do.

In those years, he called the phone that would never be picked up again and again, and listened to the "temporarily unavailable" on the other end, which finally became an "empty number", so he completely gave up contacting Zhou Yu. idea.

Then he stubbornly regarded that mobile phone number as a sustenance in his heart. Whenever he missed him, he would keep writing text messages to Zhou Yu, but none of them were sent. "I miss you so much".

But Zhou Yu never knew it until yesterday when He Chu heard Zhou Yu personally respond "Me too".He felt that his heart had finally been answered, and his longing, which had been unable to find a direction for seven years, finally had a destination.

But Zhou Yu stopped answering the phone today, and there was no news before that.

What exactly is going on?Wasn't it still fine yesterday?Why don't you answer the phone?Or did he go back on his word?Are those things you said when you promised yourself that day also false?

He stood up and walked around the office several times irritably, and called Zhou Yu's phone again.

Why don't you answer the phone?Did he say something unintentionally that made him angry again?Or did you not forgive yourself at all?Or is it going to make him feel again what he did to him?

Thinking of this, he suddenly lost the ability to walk, and also lost the reason to be angry.

That's right, when they first broke up, Zhou Yu would call him many, many times a day, but he never answered.Compared with turning off the phone directly, it is probably more cruel to wait for the ringing time to end little by little, but it still feels like no one is responding on the other end of the phone.

Later, he changed his mobile phone and mobile phone number.But every time he turned on the previous mobile phone, he would find many, many missed calls and countless unread text messages, all of which were sent by Zhou Yu.But he never called back, and never replied to him.

Because he has no reason to reply to Zhou Yu's words anymore, they have already broken up, how should he respond to Zhou Yu's words?He didn't even have the courage to open the text message.

He was afraid of Zhou Yu's questioning, and he was also afraid of a greeting from Zhou Yu who was opposite him.

From the time they broke up to the time they graduated from high school, He Chu never stopped charging his mobile phone, and neither did Zhou Yu's news.Sometimes it's just a simple "good morning" and "good night", and sometimes it's a "happy holidays".But he never said "I miss you".

It's ridiculous that He Chu couldn't feel Zhou Yu's heart back then.

Now that he also experienced this kind of thought, he wanted to go back to the past and pull himself out and beat him up.

"Fuck..." He leaned against the mountain of chairs, and slammed the back of the chair hard, "He Chu, why were you so messed up back then!" Don't blame Zhou Yu, this kind of thing is not Zhou Yu's fault anyway, It's my fault.

Who told you to bully others back then, and now you have been punished?

It doesn't matter, retribution can be suffered, but nothing can happen to Zhou Yu... If he answers the phone, even if he is angry, let me listen to his voice...

He sighed and dialed Zhou Yu's phone again.

Still did not answer, still off.

He looked out the window at the already dark sky, and the lights of the cars on the elevated road were on in the distance, and He Chu saw that the road had become a traffic jam.Usually Zhou Yu should have woken up at this time, but today he turned off the phone.

He misses Zhou Yu very much, really misses him.Just like the countless nights before when Zhou Yu was not by his side, when he faced the night alone, he missed him that way.

I finally felt the joy of regaining what was lost, and now I feel the pain of lovesickness.

He sat quietly by the window and watched the traffic move slowly, and his heart gradually calmed down.

He began to think, what would happen if Zhou Yu promised him last time that it was just for fun, and the shutdown this time meant dumping him?

What will happen to me, he thought silently.I won't let go either, as long as this person can still appear in my field of vision, and I can still hear about this person, I can try my best to get him back to me.

The knock on the door sounded a bit abrupt.

"Mr. He, you have a door-to-door delivery." The voice of the person at the door came through the door, and it was indistinct.He Chu walked to the door, but he couldn't see the person at the door through the cat's eyes. He turned on the video at the door, and saw that there was a little corner of the person's clothes exposed, and there was no delivery.

"I don't have a courier, maybe you made a mistake..." He Chu frowned.

On the first day of the Lunar New Year, who will deliver the courier to me?

"A gentleman surnamed Zhou asked me to deliver it. Would you open the door?"

The voice of the person at the door came muffled, a little distorted.

Mr. Zhou?Zhou Yu?

Thinking of Zhou Yu, He Chu didn't care whether the so-called express delivery on New Year's Day was real, because he hadn't heard from Zhou Yu for a day.

"What could it be..." He Chu opened the door and saw a black shadow at the door.

Immediately afterwards, there seemed to be a wind blowing in front of him, the figure in front of him flashed, his mouth was covered by a cold hand, it was obviously freezing cold, the moment the door was opened, the cold wind poured into the room, but he But it was a little unconscious because of the cold.

Like a dream.

He looked up and met those smiling eyes.

"I'm back." The man said with a smile, "Mrs. Zhou."

The author has something to say: This chapter is very long, but I think it is more refreshing to read it in one breath.

What's more, in fact, I am quite envious of "Mrs. Zhou".