Cold violence

He Chu didn't dare to face Zhou Yu alone these few days. As long as he saw this person's cold face, he couldn't help but think of his outrageous behavior that night, and what Zhou Yu said in a fit of rage. It's always in his heart.

When they were outside, both of them focused on their work. He Chu was never sloppy with the company's affairs, nor did he keep staring at Zhou Yu.After the reunion, the atmosphere between them is always a bit awkward, and sometimes it is almost tense. Only in the short three days of New Year's Eve, the atmosphere between them is still harmonious.

Just such a glance at this moment, obviously in the darkness, but He Chu seemed to be able to feel Zhou Yu's gaze, quiet and indifferent, he suddenly thought - how long has it been since he and Zhou Yu stayed together so quietly?

It's just such a moment, but it seems like a glance of ten thousand years.

Zhou Yu just looked at him quietly in the dark night, not intending to get up and leave.He Chu leaned against the door and greeted him: "Aren't you sleeping yet?"

"I don't sleep at this time of day." Zhou Yu stared at him for two seconds, then looked back.

He Chu heard the meaning of his words, and felt that the atmosphere between the two had cooled down again, but he was reluctant to go back, wanting to take a second look at him, so he leaned on the door frame and looked at Zhou Yu's profile.

There was silence in the air, and only the sound of waves beating on the beach could be vaguely heard.He Chu stared at him for a long time in such silence.

After a long time, Zhou Yu suddenly asked, "Is there any smoke?"

cigarette?He Chu remembered that Zhou Yu didn't smoke.

But he still said, "I'm taking it with me." Walking to Zhou Yu's side and standing still, he saw his eyes were as still as sinking water.He took out a cigarette and handed it to Zhou Yu.

Zhou Yu was not polite, he put the cigarette in his mouth, and He Chu bent down to light it for him, holding the flame with one hand, and put the smoke in front of the flame.

The flame ignited the paper tray, and the smell of tobacco lingered in Zhou Yu's brain in an instant. He took a puff of cigarette, leaned on the sofa, and saw He Chuwei lit one for himself, and the yellow flame danced in the dark night .

Neither of them spoke, and He Chu just silently lit his cigarette, and two red stars flashed in the darkness.

Then he felt the sofa beside him sink slightly, and He Chu sat next to him.Compared to Zhou Yu's casualness, He Chu did it properly, which was a sign of his nervousness.

Zhou Yu exhaled the smoke from his mouth and felt the smoke slowly leave his lungs. It was a little choking, but it was bearable.

"Why do you want to smoke?" He Chu asked him.

In his memory, Zhou Yu had never touched cigarettes, and he even hated the smell of cigarettes. In order to live with him, He Chu basically never touched cigarettes, but he didn't expect that Zhou Yu would also smoke as time passed.

Seeing his proficient puffing, it is obvious that he has smoked more than once.

What's so strange?After not being by his side for so many years, everyone will change, and so will Zhou Yu.

"It's nothing, I just suddenly thought you would smoke." Zhou Yu said lightly.He rested his hands casually on his knees, watching the sparks shine brightly in the dark night.

"Do you remember?"

"Ah."

How could he not remember... After every time they quarreled, He Chu used to smoke to numb himself. Zhou Yu has a good nose, and as long as he smells a little smoke, he knows that He Chu must have something on his mind today.

As for why it suddenly occurred to him that He Chu should also smoke now... probably because of his habit.

"Are you used to smoking?"

The smell on Zhou Yu's body is very clean, and people who are close to him will know that he never touches it, because the smell of smoke on the body of a regular smoker like He Chu is actually more difficult to dissipate. It will also be paired with perfume to make the body smell more elegant.

He Chu hasn't quit for so many years, but he doesn't smoke a lot. The time when he smoked the most was probably when he just broke up with Zhou Yu, and the two years he was abroad.

Cigarettes are a good thing. If you smoke too much, you will get "drunk" easily, so you can forget about everything.

When his mind became empty, He Chu felt that he could see the person he wanted to see through the white mist.

"It's okay." Zhou Yu seemed to smile, with a soft taste in his voice, "After so many years in such a commercial field, it's always indispensable."

In the shopping malls, before Zhou Yu had achieved today's achievements, most of the time he couldn't help himself, even if he was as lofty as Zhou Yu, he had to follow them.

High school and society are really two different concepts.

A few days ago, when He Chu was in front of Zhou Yu, he always tried his best to talk to Zhou Yu, but now He Chu's words became concise and concise, but Zhou Yu talked more.But after Zhou Yu finished speaking, the topic seemed to end like this. Zhou Yu also realized the atmosphere and fell silent.

It's like this every time, when he wants to talk to people, but he always talks to death.

Maybe he is just such a boring person.

But He Chu knew that something was wrong with him being in such a talkative state, because although Zhou Yu was leaning on the sofa, his whole body was tense. His finger holding the cigarette seemed casual, but the veins on the back of his hand were violent Standing up, the other hand grasped the leather-covered sofa like a taut string.

It was the look of wanting to do something, but holding back tightly.

He was trying to control his words and deeds, for fear that something might go wrong.

It has been so long since Zhou Yu met him for the first time. He Chu has seen Zhou Yu's mocking face, and Zhou Yu's furious state, but this is the first time he has seen Zhou Yu like this.

He silently puffed out smoke rings in the dark night, and the smell of nicotine spread in the air. He Chu himself still likes smoking, but as long as he thinks that the person smoking beside him is Zhou Yu, he feels that smoking is a heinous thing. , I feel very uncomfortable.

What is the purpose of human life?conform to this society?Even a noble person like Zhou Yu learned to smoke because of going to the mall, so what is the same thing?

"Why do you want to smoke?" He lit the cigarette, but he only took a puff up to now. During the silence, his words had already burned a long section, and he didn't want to smoke any more. Gone in the ashtray.

"Is there any other reason for smoking?" Zhou Yu asked back.

"Do you drink alcohol for no reason?" He Chu twisted his body, trying to look into Zhou Yu's eyes, but Zhou Yu lowered his eyelashes, hiding all his emotions under his thick eyelashes.

He squinted his eyes, lifted his chin slightly, and held the nearly burnt smoke to his lips. When he exhaled, his lips were slightly opened, like a sigh.

His appearance should have been lazy and charming, but He Chu couldn't feel any superfluous thoughts in his heart now.

"It's okay." He said softly, "It's just annoying." Then he opened his eyes, looked at He Chu, and asked with a smile, "Have you ever tasted a tobacco-flavored kiss?"

He Chu was taken aback for a moment, and then Zhou Yu took a deep puff of the cigarette, and threw the cigarette end into the ashtray with his backhand, and He Chu's eyes were dark in the next second.

The touch on the mouth is very soft.

He opened his mouth slightly because of surprise, and felt something entered his mouth, surrounding his lips and tongue.

Zhou Yu put all the puff of cigarette he just smoked into He Chu's mouth.

Then he left He Chu's lips with a smile.

For the first time, He Chu felt that the smell of smoke was so bitter.

He was caught off guard by the kiss and choked hard, and then coughed violently.

Zhou Yu looked at him with a smile, and said lightly, "He Chu, quit smoking."

He Chu coughed so hard that he bent down, and there were tears in the corners of his eyes. This was the first time he felt uncomfortable when he smoked since he started smoking in junior high school.As expected of Zhou Yu, no matter what happened to him, it would be different.

He wiped the liquid from the corners of his eyes with his hands while coughing, and said with a smile, "Okay, you can ask me to quit anything."

You can quit anything, except you.

"Quit." Zhou Yu said lightly, he didn't know why he was obsessed with this topic, so he repeated it again, as if to emphasize that this matter was very important to him.

He stood up, looked down at He Chu, looked at his somewhat embarrassed figure, and pursed his lips.

Just now, I really wanted to kiss He Chu.

When he is irritable, he will want to do some very outrageous things. The more serious the consequences, the better. It seems that only in this way can he have a feeling of "he is still alive". Only by making people around him react because of him, Only then will he feel that his life in this world has a little meaning.

This kind of mentality is really too morbid, and now he has started to think about some things that he didn't even dare to think about before, some thoughts that would feel crazy just thinking about them, and he wants to speak them out, and wants to vent them fiercely.

But he knew that he couldn't, so he tried his best to restrain himself, for fear that if he let go, all those words would be blurted out.

A cigarette is not enough, and a kiss is not enough.

His thoughts were so clear that he wanted to put them behind him, but he was so uncomfortable that he wanted to go crazy.

So there will always be a lot of people who smoke a lot when they are irritable. How can they numb their nerves if they smoke less?

"Well, quit immediately." He Chu straightened up and looked up at Zhou Yu.

"Why do you smoke?" He asked reluctantly.He couldn't refuse Zhou Yu's request, and he also knew that Zhou Yu must be abnormal now.

When they were living together, Zhou Yu would always shut himself in the room for a long time, but He Chu didn't know what he was doing in the room, thinking about it now, probably... At that time, he was like he is now.

A little sad, they have been together for such a long time, but He Chu seems to have never seen him get angry.He locked himself up firmly, not wanting to cause trouble to He Chu.

"Because..." Zhou Yu hooked the corners of his mouth and said truthfully, "Because I'm annoying."

Whenever someone asks, he tells the truth.

Annoyed, so irritated that I want to smash everything I can reach, so irritated that I want to tear myself apart.But how can I tell you, I told you...you don't want me anymore, but what should I do?You have lost me once.

He Chu raised his hand and twisted his fingers subconsciously.

Just now when Zhou Yu's fingertips touched his hand, it was still as cold as in his memory.His hands seemed to have never been warm, just like him, always looked as cold as ice.

Zhou Yu pressed his fingertips firmly into his palms, and the pain made him wake up a little bit.

"Then what happened just now..." He Chu pointed to his lips, "Did it make you feel better?" He Chu asked softly.

It should be flattering that Zhou Yu took the initiative to kiss him, but he didn't want Zhou Yu to do these things because he was in a bad mood. He would rather have him stay away from Zhou Yu if it would make him feel better .

"No." Zhou Yu raised his eyebrows and smiled: "But it feels good to kiss you, do you want to have another one?"

It's just gibberish.

He looked at He Chu, watched He Chu stand up slowly, stared at him for a long time, watched He Chu slowly approach him...

There was a sudden heaviness on his head, and He Chu stretched out his hands to rub his hair, and said softly, "Just tell me if you're unhappy, and you don't have to embarrass yourself by doing things you didn't want to do."

He was a few centimeters taller than Zhou Yu, and when Zhou Yu was far away from him, he had to raise his head slightly to meet his gaze.

"You shouldn't be unhappy because of people who have nothing to do with you, and you shouldn't punish yourself with these unhappiness." As if he could know what Zhou Yu was thinking, his hand slid onto his shoulder and patted him lightly. Pai: "Don't hold back, huh? After living for so many years, why are you still the same as when you were in high school." After speaking, he smiled: "What else do you want to do? I'll be with you."

When he spoke, he was extremely gentle, and every word was full of doting on Zhou Yu, Zhou Yu almost thought that they were actually together.

The most important thing is that I didn't even feel disgusted by He Chu's actions at all.

If the people in Zhou Yu's life were ranked in terms of "gentleness", the current He Chu would definitely rank first.

The gentle He Chu made it impossible to refuse his approach.

Zhou Yu had never been treated with gentleness since he was a child, except for Yu Jingzhou who was He Chu, so he always cherished the tenderness they gave him, and he also relied on those who were kind to him, drawing warmth from them so that he could also Get a little warmer.

Such thoughts are too humble, and he doesn't want others to know.

He would only keep those things in his heart, and occasionally when he was alone in the middle of the night, he would pick them out and recollect them carefully, as if he had regained that little light.

Those actions that others seem to be just inadvertent, in his view are all great favors, which must be carefully stored away, and this collection will last for many years.

Now He Chu's gentleness is clearly giving people a kind of warmth, but Zhou Yu felt that the anxiety in his heart was extinguished by He Chu's words, and his mood gradually calmed down, and his tense body also relaxed .It wasn't until his muscles were completely relaxed that he realized how stiff he was just now.

"Give me a cigarette."

He sat down and rested his chin with his hands folded.The ashtray reflected the brilliance of the moon and shone slightly. The cigarette butt he threw away was already cold, and he was lying in it silently. The cigarette butt that He Chu violently crushed was beside him, twisting at a strange angle. Like a loser whose back has been bent.

"Only smoke one." He Chu handed the cigarette case to Zhou Yu. There were only two cigarettes left in it. He took out one and put it in his mouth, leaving Zhou Yu with no choice.

"Well. Just one."

He Chu shook the cigarette case, the lonely cigarette fell out of the case, Zhou Yu stretched out two fingers, and put the filter into his mouth.

He Chu bent over to light a cigarette for him just like before, without saying a word, Zhou Yu could vaguely see his slightly frowning brows.

He frowned, why?Is it himself or something else that worries him?

"Thank you." He was smoking a cigarette, and his words were a little vague.

"Thank me for what?" He Chu sat beside him, the two of them were in the same posture just now, as if they just finished smoking the cigarette just now and lit another one, nothing happened in between.

There was no sudden kiss from Zhou Yu, no tenderness from He Chu.

"Thank you for the cigarettes."

"Thank you for what?"

"I've paid in advance just now." Zhou Yu smiled, stretched out his hand, and shook off a piece of soot.

The two smoked in silence, and there was no further exchange. Finally, the smoke in the air slowly dissipated, and He Chu crushed the cigarette butt into the ashtray.Zhou Yu watched his movements and exhaled the last puff of cigarette into the air.

"Zhou Yu." He Chu said, his voice a little hoarse: "Let's discuss something."

"No discussion." Even if the atmosphere between the two of them was so good just now, the wind blows and it all disperses.

Now He Chu is still the gentle He Chu, but Zhou Yu has turned into that cold Zhou Yu again, even refusing is so merciless.

"For the sake of the two cigarettes I gave you."

Zhou Yu narrowed his eyes, threw the cigarette butt into the ashtray, and then slowly sat up straight.

"Row."

"I..." He Chu seemed to be choosing his words carefully, "I hope you can be happy and don't hold back anything, okay?"

After he finished speaking, he stared at Zhou Yu very seriously, his dark pupils were bottomless in the surrounding darkness.

"Well, maybe."

"No maybe, just tell me if you have anything to do?"

Zhou Yu stood up and glanced at him: "It depends on your mood."

"Can I have a good night now?"

He Chu is still thinking about Zhou Yu's sentence "I don't sleep at this time every day".

"Well, good night." Zhou Yu gave him one last look and walked towards his room.

He Chu looked at his straight back, and saw him walking slowly in the dark night. He subconsciously touched the cigarette case, wanting to smoke another cigarette, but remembered that he and Zhou Yu had finished smoking just now. .

And... the pack of cigarettes I just had was already the last one.

He Chu watched Zhou Yu raise his hand to turn on the light, saw his figure appearing in the light, saw him turn around and close the door without looking up, the door was gently closed by him, blocking the last bit of light coming out from there. light.

The living room was plunged into darkness again, He Chu raised his hand, and gently brushed the place where Zhou Yu kissed just now, as if there was still a scent of Zhou Yu left.

He has no cigarettes, and he is not going to buy any more.

Time to quit smoking.

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