Cold violence

Li Qi's eyes suddenly turned red when he heard Zhou Yu's non-stop thanks.

Back then, he didn't know much about Zhou Yu, and the time Zhou Yu spent with him was far less than the time He Chu spent with him. It's just that he was kind to Zhou Yu back then, and he didn't want to see such a good person being rejected by others. Bullying, by the way, he also did what He Chu wanted to do for him.

Now that Zhou Yu expressed his gratitude to him so solemnly, he almost burst into tears.

This "thank you" says so much.

There was Li Qi's company with him ten years ago, Li Qi's care for him during the ten years of separation, and the never-forgotten time between these ten years, so that Zhou Yu would not feel that he came here alone.

But he really didn't do much for Zhou Yu. He just opened his mouth for Zhou Yu when others were sneering at him, and he only appeared by his side when others cast a cold eye on him. He just didn't abandon him back then. , That's all, but Zhou Yu has remembered this matter for so many years.

He had never heard of a person who could say the word "thank you" so heavily that he could hardly bear it.

"Hey... what are you talking about? We have been friends for so many years, why are you talking about this..." He hastily wiped the corners of his eyes, "drinking."

Zhou Yu smiled without saying a word, just watched him pour the glass of wine into his mouth hastily.

Yu Jingzhou felt that the atmosphere was a bit heavy, and asked Li Qi: "So, why haven't you told Ah Yu about it, why haven't you gone abroad to find him for so many years?"

"That's right! I'm angry when I say it!" Li Qi was feeling uncomfortable now, and Yu Jingzhou's words just gave him a step, so he hurried down the steps, "I'm telling you, I've never I wondered if my old man had any advantage with the school. First, the school took the initiative to find me and said that my talent wanted me to join the student union, but I played games in the dormitory every day except for class. Where did the talent come from for him to see? ah?!"

Zhou Yu let out a "puchi" laugh.

"Then I said okay, then I'll go and deal with it casually. Who knows that I just introduced myself, and the interviewer told me that I have a good temperament and a good voice. That's why I was admitted? I was barely dressed that day The pajamas are gone, is he looking at my old man's temperament? Then my life is really... brutal! Every day is busy like a dog! I didn't even have time to fall in love when I was in college ! Do you think he targeted me on purpose, huh?"

He blushed at what he said, and asked Zhou Yu for his opinion. Zhou Yu glanced at Yu Jingzhou helplessly, and found that the other party was also looking at him, with a hint of despair in his eyes. Less bitterness.

Zhou Yu poured him a glass of wine with a smile and said, "Study hard when you go to school, and make progress every day." After thinking for a while, he added, "Don't fall in love early."

"Fart, I was an adult before I graduated from high school! Oh, I'm really angry, thinking about it, my good time, youth, all serve the people! I feel like an old man every day. Old scalper, I have meetings, classes, classes, and homework every day, service is fine, and I have to guard against failure, now that I think about it, I feel miserable!"

He finished complaining in one breath, and drank the wine that Zhou Yu poured for him in one breath. He still felt that he hadn't said enough, so he said unceremoniously to Zhou Yu, "Have another drink!"

Seeing his grief-stricken look, Zhou Yu thought it was a bit funny, but he coughed in a serious manner, and poured another glass of wine for Li Qi: "Would you like to take a break, I think you might be hypoxic if you are so excited ..."

"Do you think I talk too much? Brother Yu, that's impossible! I'm really, really miserable!"

As soon as he opened his mouth, he felt that he couldn't stop. The step Yu Jingzhou gave him was really easy to step down. Zhou Yu had been outside for so many years, and he hadn't told him much about his life, maybe I'm so suffocated, now I have a chance, let me spit it out quickly.

"I always thought it was over after I graduated from university. After all, I wanted to go back to help my dad, right? But my old man suddenly told me to let me go out after taking the postgraduate entrance examination. At that time, I was completely stupid. And we The group of people in the dormitory are more perverted than the other. They can learn two or three o’clock every day and still wake up at six o’clock the next day. Thinking about it, that period of time was a nightmare, you know?!"

"Yeah, I know, I know, I know you're uncomfortable." Zhou Yu always likes to laugh when he and Li Qi are together, because Li Qi's character is too cheerful, he talks a lot, and Zhou Yu will let Zhou Yu get out of line every now and then. They couldn't help laughing.

Zhou Yu took a sneak look at Yu Jingzhou, and found that the other party mouthed something to him: "He said the same to me." He finally couldn't help covering his face with his hands and laughed.

"Hey! I'm telling you, don't laugh! I'm slowly explaining to you why I can't go out! It's true that when I was in graduate school, my old man began to torture me inhumanely... I The daily sleep time is not as much as that in high school, really, I think I am going back to repeat my studies."

"Wait, wait," Yu Jingzhou probably heard him say too much in this paragraph, and finally couldn't help interrupting: "When you go to school, Zhou Yu will also go to school. It's excusable that you don't have time. You want to Whatever you say, just skip this paragraph and tell him the key points."

"Brother Zhou, do you think I talk too much?!"

"I didn't mean that you talked too much, but you probably missed the point you wanted to say."

"Then why don't you want me to continue talking!?" Li Qi was about to say something sad, and was inexplicably aggrieved when Yu Jingzhou interrupted him, "You just dislike me for talking too much!"

"Take care of my fault, you go on, you go on."

After he finished speaking, he sighed lightly, and turned to look at Zhou Yu with some despair. Zhou Yu didn't hold back all of a sudden, and just laughed.

Getting along with these two people is really not ordinary.Just by looking at Yu Jingzhou's expression, one can tell that Li Qi must have a good relationship with him.

"Hey, I forgot what I was going to say when you interrupted me!" Li Qi knocked on the table, and said helplessly, "Forget it, forget it, brother Yu, let me continue to tell you, after I finished my graduate school, I thought I I was finally able to enjoy the blessings directly in my own company, but my old man sent me on business trips every three days, and he went to some deep mountains and old forests for inspections. After two years of hard work, I felt that I was getting old before I was old. "

"Are you aging before you get old?" Zhou Yu teased. In fact, although Li Qi was full of the word "miserable", Zhou Yu knew that he actually liked this job very much. He was older than Zhou Yu, but with other people Same, they all lived younger than Zhou Yu.

It's actually very good for him to live like this, unlike Zhou Yu, who doesn't say anything, but in fact, he knows how to be cold and warm, and it's not very comfortable.

"Hey... I said so much because I hope you don't get angry. After all, I haven't seen you once after you've been away for so long." Halfway through the speech, he suddenly hesitated: "Then...then you come back It's been so long, haven't you... met He Chu... and He Chu?"

Zhou Yu was stunned for a moment, not knowing how to answer. When he encountered a question related to He Chu, Zhou Yu's language skills would become very poor. He looked at Jingzhou as if asking for help, but the latter just challenged him. raised eyebrows.

After a while, he said with a sigh, "Yes."

"He's really jealous of you, right?" Li Qi stuffed a peanut into his mouth, and took another bite of side dish: "He kept telling me about you a while ago, and I knew it must be because you came back."

"Ah..." Zhou Yu didn't know how to express his opinion on this matter, people who didn't talk much in the first place couldn't say anything now.

"Even I have looked for it." Yu Jingzhou poured himself a glass of wine, and said helplessly: "He always feels that I have something to do with you, so he called my office and asked me not to hook up with you or something... ..."

Zhou Yu felt that if he could speak punctuation marks, he would probably be able to say a series of ellipses.

"I'm too old, and I don't know how to use my brain. If I want to have something with you, does he think it will be his turn?" Yu Jingzhou sneered: "I don't know how he manages the company with his IQ."

"What did he ask you for?" Zhou Yu asked Li Qi, he had a vague answer in his mind, maybe it was something like how to chase someone, but what Li Qi said made Zhou Yu stunned again.

"He went to that party that day... When he came back, he called me for a long time. In fact, you know, he sometimes talks a lot, but after talking about it, he just talked to me about him. D."

"Oh... that day... I didn't notice him that day." Zhou Yu thought for a while, it was the first party he attended on behalf of the company after returning to China, and many people who attended that day had heard of him, so he There were a lot of people around him, and he couldn't even greet him, and he certainly couldn't care if anyone around him was watching him.

"I asked him what happened when he saw you, and he said that he saw you at a glance but didn't dare to go up and talk to you. In the end, he finally wanted to speak but you had already left. That’s what I’m talking about. I didn’t go that day, I just heard that you were among the people who went.”

"That's it..." Zhou Yu nodded, looked at the busy street beside the street, and stopped talking.

It seemed that his ears suddenly became quiet. Li Qi stopped talking, and he could only hear the yelling of other people in the food stall, as well as the occasional cars speeding by on the street, and the sound of wheels rubbing against the ground. .

In this scene of feasting and debauchery, with no one around to talk, it is easy to feel that he is actually staying here alone. In this hustle and bustle, no matter how hot the heating is, it can't cover up his feeling of being alone. lonely.

"Actually, he told me a lot about you...you...you still haven't forgiven him?" Li Qi looked at Zhou Yu's face and asked cautiously. On the other side, Yu Jingzhou gave him a wink to signal him Don't say any more, but Li Qi didn't pay attention to it, but continued: "Have you ever thought that maybe... maybe he is not so unforgivable?"

forgive?

This was the first time Li Qi talked about this matter with him.

Zhou Yu asked himself, did he really hate He Chu?Has he ever had that kind of pure, deep hatred?

Actually he didn't.

It should be said that he has never had it all this time. If he hates He Chu so much, then he likes him so much.He has never hated someone purely. There are too few simple things in this world, even emotions.

Because of liking, I hated him when we broke up; because I liked him, I hated him when He Chu ignored him; and because I liked him, I hated him for so many years because of his broken promise.

What he cares about the most in his life is nothing more than a little love and intention. If these things can't be grasped, what else can he do?If He Chu has not let go of him for so many years because of obsession, isn't he also obsessed with He Chu for so many years?

He just remembered these illusory things, but he felt that he was not wrong.

"Brother Yu, can I say something I shouldn't have said?" Li Qi paused and lowered his voice: "He Chu is my brother since I was a child, and you are my best friend. He Chu just got acquainted... But you and those friends around me are actually different, do you understand? I didn't want to talk to my brother to gain his favorability... But at that time you broke up ... He is really sad, until now he regrets breaking up with you, you... can you stop hating him? "

Speaking of this, he actually felt that such a request was a bit shameless, whether he said it or not.

He Chu couldn't stop crying when they just broke up. He still remembers it until now, because it was the only time He Chu cried in front of him. Does he feel remorse in his heart?

At that time, not only did the great regret not fade away with the passage of time, but it became more and more profound in my heart, like a sharp knife, which forced a gap in his hard shell, and then stroked it one by one. The word "Zhou Yu" was written on the bottom, until the end of his life, that scar could not fade away.

But what's the use of regretting it?What happened back then was done by He Chu himself, and he himself didn't want Zhou Yu, so why should he ask someone now not to hate the person who ruined his sincerity?

Such a request is too unreasonable, and he himself finds it hard to say it.

But Li Qi is different. Li Qi has been with them since the first day they met. He didn't want both of them to walk in the future with such a big regret.

Zhou Yu took a deep breath, and said slowly: "You know... a lot of things, once said, they are said, and things are done, they are done. No one can treat it as if they never heard or happened. noble."

Because it's not that noble, so he can't let it go because the matter is over. He doesn't say it, but just remembers it in his heart. When he thinks of He Chu, he reminds himself how ridiculous the liking was at the beginning, and how much the liking is now. being looked down upon by oneself.

It's just that, it has already cost him a lot of energy and courage.

Yu Jingzhou patted him on the back lightly, and said, "It's all over, Ah Yu."

Zhou Yu remembered that he met He Chu for the first time after so many years, He Chu's posture was so low by himself, he didn't dare to look him in the eyes, but kept saying "I'm sorry" to him.

He still remembered when he saw He Chu for the first time, there was even unmelted fine snow on his shoulders, he could even recall the look of "pain" in his eyes, and when he kissed him The feeling of warmth on his lips.

That was just a light touch, which couldn't even be called a "kiss", and it reminded him almost instantly of all the past between the two of them.

He has actually softened his heart.

But then he rejected He Chu's apology.

Sorry, what's the use of being sorry?Say I'm sorry, we can go back to the past and start from scratch, no one has hurt anyone?

Even he himself felt powerless.

"Did he go to apologize to you?" Li Qi seemed to know what Zhou Yu was thinking. Zhou Yu raised his eyes to look at him, and heard him continue: "He called me after three o'clock that night, Lao Tzu I was woken up by him when I was sleeping soundly, but he told me that he... said he regretted it."

Regret, regret again.You have said so many times that you regret it, but is there any regret medicine for you in this world?

But in fact, I gave you that chance, He Chu. During that month, I seemed to live in a muddle, but I knew that as long as you came and you were willing to come back, I would give you a chance to regret it, but you didn't.

Zhou Yu looked at him silently, waiting for his next post.He was talking intermittently while drinking, with a hint of melancholy.

"This is the second time he told me that he regretted something. I have only encountered such two times in my life, and it was all because of you, Brother Yu. I didn't know that you asked for leave to go home at that time. What did you do at that time, but you were not there during that time, you didn't know that He Chu was in a daze, sitting in the classroom every day in a daze, just staring at your seat, and was criticized by Lao Huang in public. Know how many times. He is the class monitor, the teacher always stares at him, and then he doesn’t look at it, and always sits in your seat when there is no one in the class...

"Later when you came back, he didn't dare to look for you, so he could only tell me about you after school every day, and he could talk for an hour or two. My phone bill at that time was all emptied by him alone.

"Actually, everyone doesn't hate you that much, but hates that Shin... Hey, I don't remember. At that time, basically anyone who talked to you would be called out by him to 'educate', which made the whole class afraid. He, He Chu was young at the time, and he had that young master's temper, so he didn't dare...

"And later on, you didn't do well in every exam, and you didn't care. He was more anxious than you, and every time he didn't know how to find you, so he could only tell me. I was getting tired of listening. do you know?

"It's not that he doesn't care about you...every time he wants to see you, but you never pay attention to him. It's not like you can't see his changes. There are so many people around him, but he just wants to go alone No one can rely on him. He is such a cheerful person, but he became more and more silent later on. In fact, he has something to do with you and this class. You are sad, but he is actually sad for you. You are not alone. Man, Yu Geer, someone feels the same way as you.

"Why do you have to believe what you see in your eyes and assume that he hates you too?

"He didn't come on the day when you received your grades, but he knew your college entrance examination grades that day, ah, yes, you are number one in the city, and all the newspapers have your name on it. It's hard for anyone not to know, but he is happier than anyone else. Later, I found out You went abroad, and you looked sad in front of me like an idiot. In fact, you shouldn’t have sent him that text message that day. After he knew it, his whole body would collapse... He must not dare to tell you these things, probably I'm afraid that if you know it, you will think that he is trying to show favor in front of you or something.

"In fact, I think he is quite cheap in nature. You said you didn't know how to cherish you when you were together, and you were like a lover after we broke up... I dare not show a temper in front of you. He pretended to be pitiful to me in front of me, and I don’t even know what to say about him.”

He babbled, and laughed a little self-deprecatingly: "I feel like I'm telling you this now to give him a suspicion of gaining favorability, but He Chu is still my brother, and I still hope that he can be well... You said he is now I also care about you so much, right...you don't say what you want to do with him, I just ask you to forgive him..."

The more he talked, the more he felt that he had no reason to go on, but Zhou Yu never made a statement, just listening to his thoughts in silence.

After a long time, Zhou Yu said, "Do you think there is any point in telling me this now?"

Li Qi was taken aback.

"To be honest, I never hated anyone in my class, nor did I take the initiative to provoke anyone. It doesn't matter to me how they target me. If you like to gather people, you can gather people. If you like to splash dirty water, that's all. It doesn't matter to me, I don't like their circle at all, and I'm not interested in participating, the 'forgiveness' you mentioned doesn't matter to me at all."

The "anyone" he mentioned also includes He Chu.

He likes He Chu, but what he can't accept is that He Chu played with his sincerity, but at that time he was always immersed in his own world and couldn't escape, always tortured himself, now after listening to Li Qi's words, he can't accept it even more It was He Chu's timidity.

As Chen Siyan said, only the person who can endure the worldly vision and resist the pressure of the society for you is the one worthy of your serious efforts.

In the past, He Chu said that he regretted it, but he was not the one who could fight against the world for Zhou Yu.

Now that He Chu said he regretted it, what's the use of regretting it?They are no longer who they used to be.

He felt Yu Jingzhou pat him on the back again, as if he knew what he was thinking.

Seeing that Zhou Yu didn't speak, but just looked out of the window, he winked at Li Qi again, Li Qi sighed lightly, adjusted his posture again, and said with a smile: "Don't talk anymore, we haven't talked for so long. See you, just drink more wine, don’t worry about those who didn’t come.”

When Zhou Yu heard this, his expression softened a little. In order to alleviate the embarrassment, he poured another glass of wine for Li Qi, pretending that he hadn't said anything, as if the atmosphere of silence just now was just an illusion.

Then he raised his glass to the night, facing the busy traffic outside the window, facing the people coming and going in the world, and drank the bitter liquid in one gulp.

The cold liquid dripped down the throat and onto the wall of the stomach, instantly waking him up.