Cold violence

Zhou Yu found out that the word "illness" can really be used as a reason for him to do whatever he wants.

I'm sick, and maybe I'm not as smart, and a lot of things are out of my control, beyond my expectations, so whatever I do happens for a reason, because I'm sick.

Why do you say that?Because that's what Zhou Yu told himself after his fever subsided.

When he was sick, he couldn't help showing some things that he usually suppressed. It was strange to say that some words felt natural when he said them, but he felt ashamed when he recalled them afterwards.

Why do I say such things?It's just that the reaction is a little slower than usual, and the words I want to say are already on my lips, so why did I say something else?

Explain what?It means that you are not strong enough.

As he himself said, his fever would not last more than three days. Under He Chu's careful care, Zhou Yu's fever subsided on the third day, and his abnormal brain circuit finally disappeared. Back on track.

On the night of the 3rd, after Zhou Yu sent He Chu away expressionlessly, his first reaction was to cover his face, then squatted on the ground, secretly thinking that he was not up to date.

In fact, he spent most of his time sleeping when he had a fever. During those times, He Chu stayed by his side until he couldn't bear it any longer. Go down to buy vegetables and come back to cook, and completely live myself into a good wife and mother.

Zhou Yu's brain circuit at that time was actually very chaotic. On the one hand, he knew that He Chu was staying at his home, telling himself to keep a distance from He Chu and not to cross the line; Once, I told myself that He Chu could not be allowed to leave.

He just enjoyed it like this, and he didn't even feel that it was inappropriate at all.

Everyone wants to grab the little bit of warmth around them, even knowing that it can't last long.

Maybe he was sincere as He Chu said, but Zhou Yu was unwilling to take that step no matter what.

The foot that he stretched out with all his courage that year was severely broken by someone. The broken tendons and bones were wrapped in the flying red flesh, and it was so bloody that it could never heal again. There was no bright red fluid dip, and that foot would never be back again.

Obviously he didn't have that foot, but Zhou Yu felt a dense pain in a certain place in his heart.

He only gave himself three days of indulgence, and after three days, they were still returning to ashes, and the road was heading towards the sky.It's just that when He Chu left, the house seemed to suddenly become empty, and the little bit of popularity that was finally gained was swept away by this person.

No matter how warm the air conditioner blows, it's useless, the air is still cold, and even Zhou Yu's bewildered brain has woken up a lot.

As soon as He Chu arrived at the company the next day, he received a "gift" from Zhou Yu, which was brought by Zhou Yu's female secretary.

He Chu was overjoyed at first, but wondered why Zhou Yu's secretary came here, and seemed to bring something with him. Just as he was about to speak, the secretary handed over an envelope respectfully, and said without waiting for He Chu to ask again, " This is a little thought from Mr. Zhou." He bowed to He Chu and left, leaving He Chu to stand there alone holding the letter, not knowing what to say.

In this regard, the secretary is a bit like Zhou Yu. He never says a word that should not be said, and the purpose of doing things is also very clear.

He Chu walked under the front desk in the office, anticipating what Zhou Yu was going to say.

The relationship between the two has gotten a lot closer... What will Zhou Yu say to him?

Unexpectedly, Zhou Yu only wrote a line of words in the center of the paper, it was not handwritten, it was bolded and printed in the center of the white paper.Without Zhou Yu's hand, that line of words also lost its original meaning, which is enough to show the speaker's perfunctory, he said:

"Thank you for your care, a little gift, please accept it.

happy New Year.

—— Zhou Yu"

Happy... are you calling me happy?

He Chu twitched the corners of his mouth. He could feel the distance between Zhou Yu and him just by seeing those words. Zhou Yu's indifference was even worse than usual. He Chu couldn't help thinking: We lived together yesterday Are you playing bureaucracy with me today?Can you say that?

He laughed back angrily, crumpled the thin piece of paper and threw it on the ground, gritted his teeth and said, "I hope you accept it...I'll accept your uncle!"

What does Zhou Yu mean by giving him a gift now?He felt that He Chu took care of him before, so he should give He Chu something in exchange for courtesy?

What else?What do I need is your two bottles of wine?Am I short of money?

When Zhou Yu did this, it was clear that he was saying - you take care of me and I pay you, don't we owe each other?

Why the hell?

He was so angry that he walked around the office several times in a row, feeling that the fire in his heart was getting hotter and hotter, and it seemed that he was going to be burned to death if he didn't get vent.But I want to say something, but I know that I have no position to get angry.

Did Zhou Yu do something wrong?

--No.

Just like when someone is kind to He Chu, He Chu will find an opportunity to repay this kindness. No one owes anyone the best.But Zhou Yu... Is Zhou Yu so unwilling to have anything to do with him?Is it true that they are so divided that even such a trivial matter has to be settled?

He smashed the desk hard, and the thick wooden board made a dull sound, which made He Chu's five fingers numb.

The severe pain made He Chu sober up a little. He took out his phone and wanted to send Zhou Yu a WeChat message, but his hands were shaking so badly that he could hardly hold the phone. This was an expression of his extreme anger but restraint.

After finally waiting for his hands to stop shaking so much, he first typed a long series of questions, thought for a while, then deleted everything he said, and typed a new paragraph. After thinking about it, he felt that his words were too heavy. So it was deleted again, and after repeated several times like this, He Chu only sent four words:

"What do you mean?"

Opposite Chen Siyan is arranging a new itinerary for Zhou Yu. After this holiday, his schedule for the remaining few weeks is tighter than before. In addition, their cooperation project with He Chu is about to start. Take time out to arrange for Zhou Yu to go on field trips. With this arrangement, Zhou Yu probably won't have time to rest in the past two weeks.

Chen Siyan sighed and said, "What do you mean you have to do it yourself? You are busy with foreign affairs, and your health is not good. Do you want to directly destroy yourself and feel comfortable?"

Zhou Yu just pursed his lips and listened to him blame himself, without refuting.

Yes, what are you doing back here?Wouldn't it be good to stay in a company that is already on the right track abroad?

Or... since that time, when I knew that the company was going back to China to open a branch, I had a little expectation in my heart?

Chen Siyan was complaining, when he heard Zhou Yu's cell phone ringing suddenly, he subconsciously glanced at Zhou Yu's cell phone screen, and found that it was actually a WeChat notification, he was surprised: "You actually started using WeChat?!"

"Huh?" Zhou Yu was also taken aback, he wasn't used to using these social software yet, so he picked up his phone and glanced at it, it was a message from He Chu.

In fact, it's not surprising at all, he added He Chu as a friend on wechat.

"Didn't you never use social software, why did you start using it all of a sudden?"

Zhou Yu's mobile phone has been replaced by the latest model from the most common one with buttons back then. Many of the mobile phones that have been replaced over the years are also smart. Chen Siyan has also asked him to download one many times. Wechat, it is more convenient to work like this, but Zhou Yu thinks it is too troublesome, all the files for work are transmitted by email.

So he has been like an old cadre for so many years. He doesn't understand and doesn't participate in the life of "young people". Apart from making calls, sending text messages and reading news, the only other software for his mobile phone is Taobao and Meituan Waimai. Then count an Alipay.

These two softwares are used by him to save himself the time of going to the mall to buy things and eating and waiting for meals. He has never arranged much time for himself to rest. With these two softwares, he can free up time to arrange more Work.But in fact, he rarely even uses Taobao, because Chen Siyan will help him take care of it in advance.

He hasn't used WeChat or QQ for so many years, and he used to call and send text messages to contact his former best friends. Now he downloaded WeChat because He Chuban coerced him to download it the day before yesterday.He is used to hearing the notification tone of the mobile phone system, and he was still a little bit unresponsive when the notification tone of WeChat came out just now.

"Oh... a friend said this is more convenient, so I downloaded it and used it." He opened WeChat and saw He Chu sent him a message with a picture, which was the two bottles of red wine he sent over.

He Chu asked him, "What do you mean?"

What's the meaning?Of course, it is to express my gratitude to you, oh of course, and to keep a distance from you.

He knew that He Chu must have seen it, so although what he said was brief, the words between the lines revealed He Chu's extremely bad mood.

Zhou Yu thought for a while, and replied, "literally."

Now that he has already thought about it, he can cut the mess quickly, which is good for both of them.

"Hey, you can set up the method of adding friends, so that I can add you as friends directly through your mobile phone number." Chen Siyan has never paid much attention to Zhou Yu's privacy issues, and he buried his head to help Zhou Yu sort out With that pile of documents, I still didn’t forget to complain to Zhou Yu: “You can be regarded as keeping up with the times, and you know how to use WeChat.”

Zhou Yu glanced at him helplessly, Chen Siyan was clearly older than him, but he always felt that Chen Siyan was much younger than him, no matter in terms of behavior, way of speaking, or thought.

He is very open-minded and has no grievances about Zhou Yu being gay. Even after Zhou Yu found out that he was gay, Chen Siyan felt disgusted and he thought he was a monster. Chen Siyan took the initiative to enlighten Zhou Yu. What is supported is that love has no boundaries. As long as two people are in love, gender has nothing to do with it.

The deep-rooted "monster" thought that had existed in Zhou Yu's heart since he was a child, Chen Siyan had unraveled it for him in the past few years.

There was a time when Zhou Yu felt that he would never believe in the so-called "love and love" anymore. He avoided the men and women who pursued him in school, and felt embarrassed about his sexual orientation. Feeling ashamed by words has nothing to do with the people around him, he can't get over the hurdle in his heart.

But Chen Siyan said that same-sex love should also be taken seriously and even more respected.No one can deny the sincere emotion between two people because of their gender. A person's emotion is free, and love is also free.There are countless people chasing you, which is a manifestation of your charm. There is no need to deliberately avoid it, but you have to know that only the person who can endure the worldly vision and resist the pressure of society for you is the one who is worthy of your serious efforts.

With Chen Siyan by his side, he was far more than just an assistant. He understood and respected Zhou Yu, and Zhou Yu respected him equally.

"Add friends... how to set it up?" He fiddled with the phone for a long time, but couldn't figure out why.

"...I know you don't care about this kind of thing, so let me help you." Zhou Yuyi handed over the phone, and Chen Siyan just pressed it a few times before returning it to him.

"Next time I download the software, I still have to explore it. Why are you so lazy when it comes to this kind of thing?"

Zhou Yu laughed softly when he heard him complain about himself.

Zhou Yu was indeed lazy. In this regard, if Chen Siyan summed it up, he would probably say four words: lazy cancer.

As soon as he adjusted the settings for adding friends, friend requests were sent over immediately, all of them were people in his address book.

He Chudao didn't reply to his message again, presumably because he was angry because of this incident.

Be angry... just be angry.Zhou Yu thought, it's good to be angry, so that the two of them can stay farther away.

There were a lot of friend applications, but Zhou Yu only agreed to the applications of a few friends who were a little familiar.

He doesn't like crowds, not only when there are crowds in public places, but even with a small software, he also likes to be quiet.

Li Qi was the first to send him a message, and it was still a voice message.

He Chu told him how to chat with him the day before yesterday, and Zhou Yu clicked on his voice note, and heard Li Qi's teasing voice coming out of the microphone: "Brother Yu, I didn't expect that! How is it, is it more convenient than calling and texting you usually?"

Zhou Yu gave Li Qi a small expression back.

He has had a good relationship with Li Qi for so many years. Li Qi has been staying in the country to develop, but due to geographical restrictions, Zhou Yu never comes back. It has never been broken, every chat can drag Zhou Yu for a long time.

Although we haven't seen each other for so many years, Zhou Yu likes this friend from the bottom of his heart, because Li Qi was the only one in his class... from the beginning to the end. Li Qi would stand up for him when he was insulted.

Zhou Yu is like this, he will remember the little bit of kindness others have shown him, even though most of the time it seems to others that their help is just a little effort.

Then he added: "If you are free, you can come out for dinner soon." Then he exited the chat interface and started adding friends one by one, and soon he received a lot of messages.

"By the way, Mr. Zhou, as I told you last time, the project to be cooperated with He's is going to a field trip. I'll arrange it for you next Wednesday. Do you think it's okay?"

After tidying up the desktop, Chen Siyan stood next to Zhou Yu with the documents in his hands. He clearly distinguished between public and private, and even if he had a good relationship with Zhou Yu in private, as long as he was working, he would call Zhou Yu "Mr. ", that's why he was able to be by Zhou Yu's side for so many years.

"Heshi..."

Does that mean that we will meet He Chu again next week?

As soon as this idea took shape, Zhou Yu's brows were deeply furrowed.He asked his assistant to deliver the wine today, just to put a distance between the two of them. If we meet next week...then today's work might be in vain.He took the file and asked, "Can you postpone it for a while?"

"I'm afraid not. You may go out for a week this time. This is the latest time I can arrange for you. Any later... other arrangements may conflict."

Zhou Yu was silent for a while, and the rules and regulations in front of him suddenly became unbearable. He just felt a little headache: "Then have you contacted He's?"

"I've already contacted you before New Year's Day. Mr. He said that his time will be according to your arrangement. We've confirmed it here and called him. He will confirm the time again and there will be no problem."

"Hmm..." Zhou Yu looked at the word "He's" at the top of the document, as if he saw He Chu's face, "Then let's go next Wednesday, during which time we can arrange a few video conferences, There is no need to waste a whole week on this project, and the one week of the inspection arrangement will definitely not be used up."

"Okay, I will print out your itinerary when I arrange it. If you have any transfers, you can find me at any time."

Chen Siyan nodded slightly at him, turned around and prepared to go out. When he reached the office door, Zhou Yu stopped him as if remembering something, and said, "Everyone gets off work on time today, and I need to take care of my own time in the evening. Things, if there is overtime content, please send me an email, and try to arrange it tomorrow morning."

Chen Siyan looked at Zhou Yu and saw his sudden tiredness, but he didn't say anything and closed the door for him.

In the evening, Zhou Yu actually went to Li Qi and Yu Jingzhou's invitation. From the time Li Qi knew that Zhou Yu was going back to China, he pestered him a month in advance, saying that he had to have a meal with him, and by the way, he hooked up with him. Together in Jingzhou.

It's interesting to say that He Chu hates Yu Jingzhou so much, but Li Qi has a good relationship with Yu Jingzhou. The two of them even go out to drink together sometimes, and even talk a few words when they meet at dinner parties. I found out about Zhou Yu through calling Li Qi.

He has always wondered why a character like He Chu, who can enjoy himself anywhere, can't get along with a gentle person like Yu Jingzhou.

However, even though Zhou Yu had forcibly made room for the night, when he arrived, Li Qi and the others had already been waiting for a long time. The two of them were sitting at the table talking for a while. Zhou Zhou stepped forward to give him a hug, and Li Qi also gave him a hug.

"Have you been waiting for a long time?" Zhou Yu smiled apologetically, "I'm sorry I'm late, the company has a lot of things to do, and I forget the time when I get busy."

"We've just arrived. You just came back here. It's normal to be busy. If you need anything, just tell me. I'll do my best to help you." Li Qi looked Zhou Yu up and down, and hugged Zhou Yu again. He said, "I am willing to come back... But we haven't seen each other for so many years, you are not much different from before..."

"No?" Zhou Yu smiled, "You have changed a lot, and you didn't recognize it at first glance."

"Of course you haven't changed, and you're still as handsome as before. I don't call it a change, but a makeover, okay? But how do you know Brother Yu and not me? It's a bit hurtful."

Although there was a sense of blame in his words, there was a smile on his face. He had a good relationship with Zhou Yu and knew that Zhou Yu was a person who didn't have to shy away from speaking as long as he got acquainted with him.

Yu Jingzhou sat by Zhou Yu's hand, and smiled at Zhou Yu: "I often go abroad to see him. Unlike you kid, who shouted about Zhou Yu all day long, but didn't take any real action."

"Oh! Are you blaming me for not going abroad! Let me tell you that you can't blame me..." Li Qi knocked on the table and said angrily, "It's all my old man's fault!"

"Don't make excuses, we, Ayu, have been waiting for you abroad for so long and you didn't come, but when you returned home, you just came here, tell me, what is this called?"

"Hey, didn't I love to play in high school? In fact, the college entrance examination is just like that. After the exam, he didn't care about me. As a result, I just ran out and was brought back to the company by him. After I went to college, you really don't care about me." Knowing my life, it is simply not a human life..."

"Don't tell me, everyone has lived like this, you can ask Ah Yu?"

"Hey, Brother Yu, why did you leave after finishing the college entrance examination? I didn't even see you..."

"It's nothing." Zhou Yu lowered his head and smiled, his tone was light: "I have something to do at home, so I'll go abroad to take care of the company." As soon as he finished speaking, the food and drink on their table had already been served. He glanced at Li Qi said: "He also said that you just arrived and all the food has been served."

"Cough, what, isn't that what you think..." Li Qi scratched his head and opened the beer for the three of them.

The three of them didn't go to any high-end restaurant for dinner. Instead, they chose a food stall facing the street. The environment is fairly clean, the decoration is fairly simple, and there is no lack of basic equipment, but the three are obviously just off work. , people in suits and leather shoes sat around the table, no matter how you looked at the scene, it was a bit out of date.

But no matter how incompatible with the people around, as long as the wine is opened, everyone will be indistinguishable.

Zhou Yu took off his tie, put it in his bag, and said with a smile, "There's nothing to be afraid of."

"Tch, I don't know you yet?" Li Qi smiled and poured wine for the three of them, "I always feel like I'm sorry if I'm late, and I'm afraid of you. But I said, it turns out that your family Are you from abroad? I always thought your parents were in China..."

This topic is a bit sensitive to Zhou Yu, so Yu Jingzhou glanced at Zhou Yu subconsciously, seeing that Zhou Yu's expression was indifferent, he didn't take this sentence to heart at all, and there was still a smile on his face: "Yeah, you don't know There's a lot going on."

"Hey... You didn't seem to come to the class the day you got your grades, did you? Let me tell you that the class was very lively that day!"

"is it?"

"To be honest, I'm scared by you! Didn't you do badly in the exams before? Then everyone in the class didn't care much about you. Before the college entrance examination, everyone was thinking about the exam. Who knows? You are actually number one!"

"What's so strange about this, I originally..."

"What else is going on? Why didn't you tell me?" Yu Jingzhou suddenly interrupted him, "Li Qi, what do you think he did well in the previous exams?"

"It's nothing, it's long gone." Zhou Yu shook his head at him, "Heroes don't talk about the past, okay?"

"Oh, brother Zhou, I want to tell you!" Who knew that Li Qi was so excited, he insisted on explaining to Yu Jingzhou, "It's just him! The exams in the class before are counting down every time! Our class teacher I can’t believe his grades, you know? Who knows that he never went up again, I’m anxious when I look at it..."

"What are you in a hurry for? I didn't really only get that score."

"Then why did you pass the exam like that?" Yu Jingzhou glared at him, and Zhou Yu choked suddenly.

"That's not the point. The point is that the teacher in our class doesn't care about him, and the students in the class thought he could only get such a small score. When everyone got used to it, this guy suddenly got the first place in the city. Since our class was blown up at the time, I was almost scared to death by the gap!"

"Pfft." Yu Jingzhou felt that he probably understood.

He had actually heard those words about Zhou Yu before he entered school, but Zhou Yu never complained to him, and Yu Jingzhou didn't take the initiative to ask about the things he kept in his heart. Now, combined with what Li Qi said, he understood up.

They, A Yu, were really a bit of a vindictive person.

You say I copied it, so well I copied it. When the time comes for the college entrance examination, we will see the real chapter, and we will know right from wrong at a glance. Whose face was slapped, whoever hurts will know.

"Honestly, brother Yu, I think your move is really, powerful, too powerful." Li Qi touched Zhou Yu with a glass of wine, "I feel good when I see the faces of those people. Now that I think about it, I'd rather Feel refreshed."

"Really? Thank you for the compliment." Zhou Yu raised his glass and drank all the wine in the glass.

He actually wanted to say that he knew how the people in the class would react, but he didn't feel as happy as he had imagined.

Maybe it was because he wanted to see He Chu at that time, but the regret of not seeing him in the end made him ignore other thoughts, maybe he really didn't care about these things anymore, so he didn't think so much at all.

Maybe he really didn't want to see the surprised faces of those people, he just didn't want all his hard work in the past three years to end up with only the word "regret".

But it doesn't make any sense to think about these things now, we will no longer have contact with him, and he will never go back to those three years.

He put down his wine glass and poured Li Qi another glass of wine. This time he took Yu Jingzhou to drink with him. He said, "Thank you too, for still being by my side after so many years."

After finishing speaking, he didn't wait for the two people to talk, he took a sip of the glass of wine, then poured another glass, and drank it quickly. When he poured the third glass, he said again: "Thank you."

In fact, I wanted to say this sentence before, but I always felt that it was a bit too informal to say it on the phone. He couldn’t say it in front of people, and he couldn’t find the opportunity to say this sentence. Now in this crowded food stall, He finally said what he said seven years ago.

He was real and thankful for the two people in front of him.Even if they didn't do anything at the beginning, just not leaving was already the greatest help to Zhou Yu.

Back then, he was too self-willed, he had a self-defeating attitude in everything he did, and felt that he was fighting alone, but after so many years passed, he was extremely slow to react. In fact, there were still people by his side back then. .

So thank you.