Cold violence

This time Zhou Yu really took a month's leave in a down-to-earth manner. When He Chu saw Zhou Yu again, it was already before the midterm exam.

He Chu actually knew when Zhou Yu would come, every day he would count the days at school, waiting for the day when Zhou Yu would come.

It has become his habit to look at Zhou Yu's desk subconsciously. Sometimes when no one in class talks to him, He Chu will miss him abnormally.

The person who used to sit quietly beside me...

He Chu thought that maybe he was not used to it because there was no one around, but he knew that it was actually because he wanted to meet again.

He misses Zhou Yu, misses it very much.

He didn't know why Zhou Yu asked for leave. He wanted to ask, but he couldn't ask.

He even wanted to go to Zhou Yu's house to take a look, but he knew that he had long since lost that qualification.

After breaking up, moving out, and returning the keys, the relationship between the two has long since disappeared.

Before, he always thought about the phrase "you can still be friends after breaking up", but he knew that Zhou Yu was not a person who could give up easily.

But how could he make Zhou Yu continue to like him?After she dumped him, even she couldn't bear to let Zhou Yu continue to like him. Zhou Yu's feelings were too heavy for He Chu to bear.

His affection is so strong, even hot, being around He Chu can burn He Chu and leave a deep imprint on his heart.

——I can’t get rid of it.

He Chu thought, it is impossible to forget this person in this life.

He has left such a strong and colorful stroke in his life, which is completely inconsistent with his own indifference. With such deep affection, he took his whole heart away.

He likes this person, has always liked, in the future...he will always like this person, even in places where Zhou Yu can't see.

But he didn't want to delay Zhou Yu any longer.

After the breakup, He Chu also thought a lot. In fact, he always loses his temper. It was Zhou Yu who tolerated him and coaxed him. He understood how much Zhou Yu liked him, and also understood how scumbag he was to Zhou Yu.

He thought, he likes this person so badly that what he brings to him in the end is not even joy, he is really not worthy of this person.

Maybe, only when I learn how to love someone, can I be worthy of being treated.

That's why he said such contemptuous words when he called himself, just to make Zhou Yu die - even though he felt uncomfortable when he said it.

That's why he quickly changed his phone number after the breakup. It wasn't that he didn't want him, but that he was afraid that he would hear Zhou Yu's voice again, that he would hear Zhou Yu's questioning, that he would just listen to Zhou Yu's breathing on the other side, and he would endure it. I couldn't help but say "let's make up" to him.

He is a timid person, he knows it, because he even dared to think about Zhou Yu alone, thinking silently in his heart, after he took out that mobile phone card, he was still charging it with phone bills, he wanted to stay He didn't care about the little connection between himself and Zhou Yu, but he didn't dare to connect Zhou Yu's phone to see how many missed calls he had made to him.

He knows this man.

So even though he was dying of regret in his heart, he didn't pay attention to Zhou Yu anymore.

Knowing that he is much stronger than himself, he can accept this, it is only a matter of time.As time passed, he, He Chu, probably became an insignificant person in Zhou Yu's life.

I also know that Zhou Yu is actually a person who won't leave a way out for him, so even if he said it himself, Zhou Yu would not agree to reconcile with him. This is actually very similar to He Chu himself, no one will turn back ,fine.

Uncomfortable, but also on their own.

Li Qi sat far away from him, and came over to talk to him from time to time even after class. I don't know if there is a reason why he broke up with Zhou Yu.

He remembered the question Li Qi asked him one day.

In physical education class that day, He Chu didn't go downstairs and sat in Zhou Yu's seat in a daze.

Zhou Yu's position never changed, He Chu just sat in the corner by the window, watching the scenery outside the window.

In fact, he never understood why Zhou Yu liked to look out of the window so much, who knew that he was also in a daze when he looked at it.

There is no scenery outside the window, but when the wind blows, the green leaves on the top of the finger tree will sway with the wind, and the light and shadow sprinkled on the leaves will also appear shimmering. Occasionally, He Chu can still see birds on the opposite steps Ups and downs.

Is this the scenery in Zhou Yu's eyes?

It’s not good looking, but it’s really easy to fall in love with.

The feeling of watching all things work is hard to describe, but people will become very quiet at that moment.

"Why are you sitting here?" Seeing that He Chu didn't go downstairs, Li Qi saw He Chu sitting by the window when he came back early.

"Well, I have nothing to do, so I'll take a look." He Chu turned his gaze away, and lowered his head to look at the wood grain on the table.

Zhou Yu also liked to look at these lines before, as if flowers could bloom in them.

Li Qi just stared at He Chu without saying a word. After a long time, he took the seat in front of Zhou Yu's seat and asked him, "Do you regret it?"

"Regret what?"

"separate."

Do you regret it?He Chu asked himself.

"I don't regret it." He lowered his head and smiled bitterly.

Not really sorry, just sorry.

Because if a person has to veto everything he has done, then in this world, who else can be the person who favors himself?

So even if the whole world thinks you are wrong, you have to tell yourself: there is nothing wrong, you have to look forward.

He didn't regret it, because he was selfish, he was afraid that he would really not be able to persevere, he was afraid that he would feel uncomfortable, and he was even more afraid that Zhou Yu would be unhappy if he felt uncomfortable.

But that doesn't mean I don't regret it.

He regretted that he was not strong enough to be the person who brought Zhou Yu out; he regretted that he hadn't been nicer to Zhou Yu for so long, so that he could get more warmth; he regretted that he hadn't met Zhou Yu earlier, It's a pity that I don't have the qualifications to stay by Zhou Yu's side for a few more years.

He regrets it more than anyone else.

It's too late to meet each other, he knows better than anyone else.

After breaking up for so long, he knew that he was not happy.

It was obvious that he broke up with Zhou Yu so that he would not be alone, but after the breakup, he was never truly happy again.

Those people who appear around him make him feel hypocritical, no matter how many people around him talk to him, no matter how many people surround him to curry favor with him, it is not as good as a Zhou Yu.

Shouldn't you be happy that you got what you wanted?

But how can you be happy when you lose Zhou Yu?

It turned out that I also became Zhou Yu in the end, no matter how many people were around me, my heart couldn't warm up.

Because there is no one around you who really understands you, no matter how much fire you want, it is just a little star, which cannot be a flame to warm you.

He misses Zhou Yu, all the time, in every corner of his life, there is a shadow of him missing Zhou Yu.

but……

"Do you really not regret it?"

"Well, no regrets."

There were so many conversations between the two of them, and what they said was a bit endless, but everyone could understand what the other meant.

The two have known each other for so many years, and this is probably the only benefit.

Li Qi understood, so he didn't need to say any more.

He knew that he had never let go of Zhou Yu.

The day before Zhou Yu's arrival, He Chu was extremely excited. The person he had thought about day and night finally appeared in front of his eyes, and his mood couldn't help but improve.

So one night in advance, he sneakily helped Zhou Yu clean up the tables and chairs, wiped them inside and out, even wiped the sills under the chairs, and then locked the door of the class.

He couldn't tell what kind of feeling he felt in his heart, but he didn't want Zhou Yu to find that his seat was covered with dust when he came, so... he would be disappointed, right?

The next day, He Chu also rushed to class early, just to wait for Zhou Yu to return as scheduled, like he did every early morning before, so that He Chu could see him first, but He Chu was disappointed up.

Zhou Yu not only came very late, but also very late.

He basically came in the first 2 minutes of stepping on Lao Huang into the classroom.

Zhou Yuka's timing is always very accurate, this time he just entered the classroom with his front foot, when the preparation bell rang with his back foot.

He found his own seat—the only empty seat in the class, took out a napkin from his bag, and began to wipe his table slowly.

He Chu looked at him quietly across half of the classroom, and could vaguely hear the discussions of his classmates around him. He was a little irritable, and stretched out a hand to cover his ears.

He was really tired of these people's attitude towards Zhou Yu.

But he couldn't speak, he could only cover his ears.

Zhou Yu's face was as pale as if it was about to merge with the wall.

He used to be very white, but now the white is obviously sick with a recovery from a serious illness, it seems that his whole body is weak, as if he could fall down at any time.

—He has lost a lot of weight.

This was the only thought in He Chu's mind.

It's just that we haven't seen each other for a month, and Zhou Yu seems to be completely empty. Even if he added more clothes, He Chu felt that even the clothes couldn't cover up his haggardness.

He asked for a month's leave, what on earth did he do?

How can you be so thin?

Didn't you have a good rest?

Still haven't had a good meal?

Not taking good care of yourself?

Or is he in a bad mood?

And last time Zhou Yu took Wang's smartphone to call him, which caught him off guard. His voice was much softer than usual, and his speech was not as sharp as usual, with a bit of nasal and incoherent speech. As soon as He Chu heard it, he knew that Zhou Yu had drunk too much.

But why did he hold Wang Zhi's mobile phone, and why was Wang Zhi at his home at that time?

At that time, He Chu only wished to go through the phone to find out what happened, but they had already broken up, and he said such heart-wrenching words that even he wanted to call him a bastard after hearing it, but Zhou Yu just said lightly: " knew."

Just like before he knew an unimportant thing.

What happened?

What happened to Zhou Yu afterwards?

Did you get sick at that time?

He didn't want to and didn't dare to call Wang Zhi to ask Wang Zhi. He didn't want to hear that Zhou Yu was not doing well, and he didn't want to know that Zhou Yu was doing well through other people's words.

It's like the kind of thing that is obviously owned by oneself, but it must be known through other people's mouths. The uncomfortable He Chu almost wants to go crazy.

That was Zhou Yu, who he could meet when he turned around, but now it has become such an unreachable existence.

He knew that in the future, they might not have an intersection like this again.

He Chu's brows were tightly knit together, with mixed emotions in his heart.

Zhou Yu's temperament has changed a lot... When he used to appear in class, his eyes were bright. His temperament is the kind that people can see him at a glance even if he wants to hide it. dazzling.

His body is straight, like a broken bamboo.

The aura on his body is also pure and noble, and no one else can catch his eyes.

But the feeling he gives now... is too "light".

It's so plain that it's easy for people to ignore him.

It's so plain that it seems to hide itself.

Zhou Yu hadn't attended class for a whole month, but when he came to school, he didn't look like he was in a hurry to learn to make up lessons. He just wiped the desk in a leisurely manner, wiping every corner and corner, every corner was covered by him. Meticulously cleaned it again.

But he was a little surprised to see that his tissue was spotless.

Probably Lao Huang asked someone to help clean it up, after all, Lao Huang is still waiting for him to do some so-called "glory for the class".

With that in mind, he threw the tissue into the desk drawer.

He sat down, the class was not completely quiet yet, Zhou Yu's ears occasionally leaked a few gossips, he didn't care who said those words, he just scanned around the class and saw Li Qi He just changed his seat to a place not far from him, and saw that He Chu's seat was far away from him.

He suddenly felt restless.

So he stuffed his schoolbag into the drawer, and then lay down on the table under the eyes of those people and began to sleep.

Boldly, without shyness.

He even covered his face with his hands and yawned, looking lazy.

Speaking of being depraved, it's not a surprising behavior to sleep in class, right?

Bad students, should they do this?

When He Chu looked back and saw Zhou Yu's series of actions, he couldn't believe it.

What happened to Zhou Yu?How did it become like this?

In the past, no matter how easy the course was for him, he would put on a serious look even if he was pretending. He never said that he didn't listen to the lecture in a class, and he was even more serious when it came to the exam. , One question and one question carefully.

But what is he doing now?sleep?Or in the morning self-study?

Is he crazy?

Before Lao Huang came, Zhou Yu had already put on an attitude of "it has nothing to do with me". Are you ready to study?Or are you ready to ignore those people in your class?

There are only two words written on his body - "decadent".

Zhou Yu's performance in the midterm exam was not ideal, it should be said to be very poor.

Compared with the previous ones, this result is nothing like mud, because he went directly from the first place in the grade to the last row of the last exam room.

Their schools have always been ranked by test scores.

Zhou Yu used his own example to "teach by precepts and deeds" to all the students in the school, teaching them how to be a bad student.

As soon as the news of Zhou Yu's failure in the exam came out, the entire grade was immediately shocked. Those who knew about Zhou Yu and those who didn't, all came to their class door to gossip and ask what happened. Even the school leaders paid attention to this sophomore student.

Falling from a place that is too high, there are always many people who will watch it with the intention of joining in the fun.

It's just that those people's faces of "watching the show" are disgusting.

The once proud son of heaven, actually hangs out with those who have the worst grades and are looked down upon by others?

It's a joke to say it.

Who doesn't want to see a joke?Especially when I saw the joke about Zhou Yu, who was famous for being noble.

The higher the person is, the worse the fall, the more exciting it is.

Everyone has this kind of mentality, that they are not good at seeing others.It was as if they couldn't see Zhou Yu's excellence at that time, so they used their own methods to embarrass him.

Now it's all right, the dirty water can get on him by itself.

"Look, look, you will know that his grades are plagiarized..."

"That is to say, who can get such a score in the exam, do you think everyone else is a fool?"

"Is it alright now? Now it's showing off..."

"Then why is he so tall? It's so boring to pretend to be so poor at school..."

"Hey, I heard that his family doesn't care about him. Do you think his family is..."

"Oh, is this under our control? Oh, but I heard that his mother..."

"Impossible? Then how did he get into our school?!"

"Look for a relationship, no wonder they look down on you..."

"Ah, that is really an existence that subverts the three views of people! You said how disgusting the people who were suppressed by him with their grades before are!"

"Forget it, stay away from this person in the future..."

As long as one person speaks bad words, and no one restrains them, it will spread all over the city immediately.

But Zhou Yu didn't care, it can be said that he didn't think about those words, he still went his own way, and didn't care that the grades changed within a day.

There are too many people who have fallen into trouble, what else can I do?

Gossip, have you heard little since childhood?

From the day he came to school, he decided that these things no longer mattered to him.

That day when Lao Huang saw him sleeping on the table, he tried to wake him up, but Zhou Yu fell down again after a while, and it was like this in all subsequent classes.

Gradually, the teacher stopped caring about him, and the class was still the same, as if Zhou Yu never existed.

Their class itself didn't like him, and now they turned a blind eye to him. The whole class formed a circle, and Zhou Yu stood outside as a small point.

They don't talk to him, they always skip him deliberately when collecting homework, they don't pass the homework to him, and sometimes they even avoid his corner when walking.

Zhou Yu felt that it didn't matter, he was cold and violent, did he suffer less?

After he came, he even changed his attitude towards the teacher.

In the past, he was able to maintain the superficial harmony, but now he even skips this step. What is harmony?I don't have time, I need to sleep.

During that time, he always told himself: You are living a happy life, so it is good.

How can you say bad?

No one you look down on will come to bother you anymore, and you no longer have to worry about them pointing fingers at your grades, you just need to "fall through the roof" and it will be fine. This kind of business that is sure to make a profit and not lose money is so cost-effective to do ?

But in fact, he knew that he was not happy.

How can he be happy?

In fact, he is still living for those people.

In fact, he chose to do this because he cared about their rhetoric and vision.

In order to make up for the homework that fell on the face, he spent more time studying behind his back, and the next day he became more sleepy and did not want to cheer up.

It's just to make a degenerate appearance, just torturing one's own spirit like this.

He even trampled his pride under his feet, even if he didn't care about it on the surface, he was unhappy in his heart.

It's like crushing my self-esteem with my own hands. It's really not good to see everything I've worked so hard to crumble in front of me.

But I am already disappointed, what else can I do?

He Chu only felt that he had been very uncomfortable recently.

From the day when Zhou Yu came to school, He Chu found that he could no longer judge Zhou Yu's emotions based on Zhou Yu's facial expressions and flashing eyes.

He has been asleep for too long, and when he is awake, his eyes will always be indifferent. Whether someone is pointing at his nose to express contempt, or pointing fingers at him behind his back, his eyes are still a pool of stagnant water.

He Chu felt that he was the one who was left out by Zhou Yu.

It wasn't that they isolated Zhou Yu, even though Zhou Yu was no longer the high-ranking No. [-] student in his grade, he felt that Zhou Yu had isolated them.

Even though he seems to be giving up on himself now, He Chu still thinks so.

Many times he wanted to talk to Zhou Yu, but in the end he still didn't.

Those words that were said before have been spoken, but now what I want to say can't be said again no matter what.

On the other hand, Li Qi and Fang Xian had no grudges against Zhou Yu, and they even got over He Chu's share.

This can be regarded as the only comfort in He Chu's heart after breaking up with Zhou Yu.

Choosing those people means that I can no longer treat Zhou Yu well, but fortunately, there are still a few people around Zhou Yu who are willing to stand by his side, follow him, and give him a little warmth.

At this time, He Chu would feel some envy in his heart, and at the same time hate his own weakness again.

He hated himself for submitting, and envied Li Qi and the others for their persistence.

Being able to stand by Zhou Yu's side was something He Chu thought was an extravagant wish now.

He actually wanted to face it with Zhou Yu, but he chose to shrink back and escape.

He had thought like this, he was not worthy to stand by Zhou Yu's side.

Later, hearing what those people said in his ears, he felt uncomfortable, but he had no position to stop.

Live like a human being inside and out.

He didn't know how much turmoil these words would cause in Zhou Yu's heart, and what earth-shattering actions Zhou Yu would make.He could only keep silent when "his circle" collectively despised Zhou Yu, and not look him in the eye when Zhou Yu passed by them.

This was the only thing that He Chu could do that did not harm him when he chose the standpoint of "standing in isolation".

In the end, he still wanted to treat Zhou Yu better.

He didn't look into Zhou Yu's eyes because they were too beautiful and too cold.

Indifferent, unlike the gentle lover who used to speak softly to him and put on his coat and quilt after he fell asleep.

He could only feel the aura of ice and snow on this person, which brought him endless coolness in late autumn.Just like treating strangers who have never met before, never take the initiative to answer.

Those eyes seemed to be able to see into He Chu's soul through He Chu's cock.