Cold violence

It was probably because Zhou Yu's face was too ugly when he came back. As soon as he entered the class, he heard a person contemptuously say to him: "Why, the first time in the class didn't pass the exam this time?"

The tone is very gloating.

Zhou Yu glanced at the man, and only responded, "It's okay."

"Hey, it's okay if the paper is so difficult? It really is the first in the grade. How much can you pass?"

Zhou Yu had an impression of this man's voice.

He is somewhat face-blind, until now the person's face and name have not been matched, but he can tell who this person is by his voice. His name is Shen Changjian. He has never been used to Zhou Yu, and he always treated him in class He was the one who led a group of people to deliberately isolate Zhou Yu with cynicism and sarcasm.

Zhou Yu remembered that this person's studies were not particularly good, it could even be said to be very poor, and his grades in several weekly tests were not satisfactory. He probably got into their class through his relationship, so he especially looked down on Zhou Yu, a student who was good at studying.

Zhou Yu never paid any attention to his cynicism, but he still seemed to be excited about it.

"It's okay. I don't know." He answered separately, bypassing Shen Changjian and preparing to go back to his seat, but Shen Changjian stretched out his long arms to stop Zhou Yu in front of him, and said with a smile, "Then what about math this afternoon? Are you still interested?" Are you sure?"

Shen Changjian's appearance does not seem to be an easy person to provoke, coupled with his ruffian aura, people will "stay away" from him when he walks in the school.He smiled maliciously, the moment he stretched out his hand, Zhou Yu only felt a "threat" coming towards him.

It's a pity that Zhou Yu is not afraid of this kind of atmosphere, not to mention that he has never had a good face towards this kind of "superior" people who rely on connections, and he is even more serious about those people who gather together in small groups and gossip behind their backs. Look down on.

Because there is no one behind him to support him, he feels more and more that people should rely on himself, so he despises those who show off their parents' strength from the bottom of their hearts.

But at this moment, because of the face of his classmates, he couldn't avoid it directly, so he could only answer: "I don't know, it's difficult to read the papers."

Shen Changjian became more interested and said: "Then how can you not know if you are sure? Aren't you the first in the class, huh? You have been stumped for a month of exams?"

Shen Changjian approached Zhou Yu slightly. He was tall, and his height advantage played a huge role at this moment, casting a large shadow in front of Zhou Yu.

"It has nothing to do with these, but is it interesting for you to block me like this?"

"What's the matter, can't you talk to your classmates?"

"Then you can find someone else, I'm not free."

Zhou Yu said as he pushed Shen Changjian away and was about to walk away, but Shen Changjian grabbed his arm, and he joked:

"The squad leader is not here, why do you have no time? You two are tired of being together every day, maybe there is something wrong? I heard that the squad leader's family has money. Do you have a fancy to others' money to play well with others? Hey I also have money, why don't you come to curry favor with me?"

Zhou Yu's eyes widened suddenly when he heard the words "fancy someone's money", and an unknown anger surged into his chest, making him want to tremble.

For his money?Do I need to spare his money?

It turns out that I, Zhou Yu, is such a money worshiper in your eyes?

He finally raised his head and looked directly into Shen Changjian's eyes, giving people a feeling of "finally willing to open his eyes to look at him". He pulled out a stiff smile and said slowly:

"Can you say that again."

"Why are you looking at me like that? Am I wrong?" His face was close to Zhou Yu's, and he mocked Zhou Yu's indifferent eyes:

"Usually when He Chu is by your side, it's hard to talk to you. Don't you just have a good relationship with He Chu? Put on a high-ranking look for who? You look down on me because of your good grades and come to your class. Who are you showing a cold face? No matter how bad I am, I will also come in. My father has relationships and money, why, you are not convinced?"

Zhou Yu was almost so annoyed by this person's logical theory that he wanted to laugh out loud.

money?What is money?Are you amazing if you have something to do with it?Do you think I'm afraid of you if you are arrogant in front of people like me who have no background?nonsense.

The corner of his mouth twitched, and he returned to the expressionless state and said: "I am superior? You can come here because of your relationship and don't think about making progress. Why do you want others to think highly of you? School is a place for learning, not for you to grow up. Crowd. You open your eyes and look at yourself now, who do you need to think highly of you?"

"Ah, yes, that's it. What annoys me the most is your pretending to be aloof. Who are you showing it to? We are the only ones in the class now, and you still pretend to be cold. Who knows you What is it like inside? Do you think your grades are so good? I think your grades may have been copied? After all, you are in the exam room, and the monthly exams are not caught strictly. Better than our grades. Are you right?"

"Pretend to be noble? I copied others?"

What accident made Qing Gao?Does he pretend to be noble if he doesn't want to associate with these people?If you don't want to fall with them, it becomes a pretense?

May I ask what have I done to you again?Am I doing something wrong?

He didn't study very much at school, but he never slacked off at home, so the results of the test were plagiarized?Is it possible that everyone has to study in front of you, and it is best to get close to you to let you see clearly, so that you can study hard, and you will be convinced by the test results?

Zhou Yu was completely pissed off now, and he said a little funnyly: "Okay, you have already said that, everyone knows that the monthly exam questions are difficult, so let's make a bet, if I fail this exam Now, I will say in front of the whole class that Zhou Yu's grades are copied; but if I am still the first, you will..."

"Why, what do you want?"

"From now on, just obediently call me Dad, and be a man with your tail between your legs."

"Why, aren't you cold? Don't you want to talk to us? Now you're showing your true nature? Stop pretending to be hypocritical?"

"Yeah, no hypocrisy, just say, do you dare to bet with me once?"

"Yo, is this still against me? Well, you study hard, you are noble, you can do whatever you want. But my brothers remind you," Shen Changjian suddenly lowered his voice, and whispered next to Zhou Yu :

"He Chu has a good relationship with you, but I want to see how long he can stick with you. You look at Zhou Yu, if our class doesn't want to see you, you can see which one of you will give in to me first...no Me? Sooner or later you will have to hang out with us."

After he finished speaking, he laughed twice, let go of Zhou Yu and walked out of the classroom.

He was holding Zhou Yu's hand so hard that it still hurts till now.

Originally, his impression of Shen Changjian was only at the level of "the rich second generation who relies on his connections and hasn't studied hard", but he actually remembered everything they said just now.

Especially the last sentence——

If our class doesn't want to see you, let's see who will give in to Lao Tzu first...

Want me to subdue?First see if you are worthy of my service.

He thought silently, and He Chu didn't come to talk to him when he was by the side.

He knew that He Chu was actually feeling very uncomfortable now, because He Chu was his deskmate, so their attitude towards He Chu became even worse.

He Chu has always been the one surrounded by people, how could he like himself the way he is now?

"He Chu..." He suddenly called out.

"Ah."

"nothing……"

He feels that nowadays people just take pleasure in following the trend, and if they cannot integrate into a certain circle, they will feel extremely lonely, so they will take other people's preferences as their own preferences, and finally produce a butterfly effect.

He thought that he had read a novel by Haruki Murakami called "Norwegian Forest", and he remembered only one sentence clearly:

"No one likes to be alone, but they just don't like to be disappointed."

In the end, he just patted He Chu's shoulder and stopped talking.

It's just that Shen Changjian's words took root in his heart from that moment on.

The lush branches wrapped around his heart and slowly drilled into his mind, bearing black fruits inside.

How long He Chu can persist with him is no longer something he can be sure of. Even if He Chu once swore such an oath, even if he is as smart as Zhou Yu, he can't calculate the time.

Before we got together, he had no confidence in himself, but now...how come he seems to have lost his confidence in He Chu?

The first monthly exam in the next semester of high school is very difficult, far from what they can compare with the last final exam. One is to test the learning effect after grade division, and it is also to test the learning situation during the holiday.

Zhou Yu could tell that he must have put a lot of effort into writing the papers this time. Compared to last year's papers, Zhou Yu still spent a lot of time on some questions.

Same as last year, after the exam is over, there will be the National Day holiday, but this year the school is very tight, the second year of high school enjoys the same treatment as the third year of high school, and only one day off, He Chu naturally wants to go home, Zhou Yu a When I was at home, I suddenly remembered when they had a seven-day holiday on November last year.

The room seemed to become empty after that person left, so I needed to think about something to enrich my brain, otherwise people would easily think wildly and be depressed.

At that time, He Chu enthusiastically asked him to go to the playground, but they met at the bar on the night of September No. 30. At that time, the lights were feasting, and he couldn't even see He Chu's expression clearly.

But when he saw He Chu being bullied, he stopped the bottle of spirits for He Chu without hesitation, but in the end, he was sent to the hospital that night.

He never told He Chu about this.

That day...why did you ask He Chu to hold the wine?

Is it because of impulsiveness or the little heartbeat that came too early?

Even thinking about it now, I can't say why.

But at that time, he just couldn't see anyone bullying He Chu, even though it was because He Chu went up to meddle in his own business.

His principle of doing things has always been that it has nothing to do with himself, but seeing He Chu being bullied, he still can't treat it as "nothing to do with himself".

Maybe it was an instinctive impulse, so even if he was hospitalized, he didn't have any regrets.

How many times in his life was he impulsive?

When I was young, I couldn't recognize my feelings for Jingzhou, and said that because I was afraid that he would leave, it was counted as one time.

At that time, because of He Chu's unexpected touch, he had a violent reaction, regardless of the time and place, it could be counted as one.

At the bar, I don't want to see He Chu being bullied and rushing to block the drink, count it as one time.

After receiving the love letter, I didn't want to see He Chu's unhappy face. It was also a clumsy confession.

After they quarreled, they received a call from their mother, drank a lot of wine, and revealed their hearts to He Chu, which was the last time.

Speaking of which, the ones related to He Chu turned out to be the most.

It's just that amid so many "never regrets", he suddenly felt that "showing his heart" was a wrong thing.

It's like that, after cutting your heart out for others to see, you are full of expectations for that person's understanding and tolerance for you, but that person just ignores it as if you have seen a cloud of smoke after seeing it.

You will only feel that your sincerity has been severely abandoned by others. If that person says something hurtful to you because he knows you too well, he will probably run over that sincerity again. A few feet.

The more He Chu got to know him, the more he seemed to be able to stab his heart with what he said.

So he regrets it.

Regretting that I took the initiative to show that person my disemboweled body, it was not that I regretted that the person finally saw it, but that I did another meaningless thing.

He thought of He Chu at this time last year.

At that time, He Chu was sunny and bright, probably...he really liked him purely, and was willing to do his best to chase him and treat him well, but now...?

He Chu was scared, he was also...tired?

Even if He Chu has always liked him, so what?

If you like it... you will always dislike it, won't you?

It's just how long is it until this day... the day when I lose He Chu?

This seemed to be counting down the days for him to be executed. While he was greedy for He Chu's kindness, he felt extremely tormented.

He Chu is very good, and the sweetness between the two of them is very sweet, but after all, it is not the past, or something is different from the past.

In less than a month, they had already quarreled three times, and they had a cold war for more than two weeks.

Zhou Yu sat in the dark with the lights off, buried his face in his palms.

Could He Chu not be able to bear this situation, or could he not be able to bear himself?

In fact, I just told him superficially, and He Chu couldn't take it anymore.

Did he fear him too, did he also think he was a monster?

Just thinking about it like this made him tremble uncontrollably.

He didn't tell He Chu that he had been having nightmares these past few days, and the dreams were all about He Chu.

Said it was a nightmare, but in fact it was just that he thought it was a nightmare.

His biggest nightmare is that He Chu doesn't want him anymore.

However, I vaguely feel that the separation of two people, in this situation, is actually good for everyone.

When He Chu was around, he always pretended that nothing happened, but He Chu's attitude had affected him, and even made him automatically assimilate into a kind of violation.

Now that He Chu is not at home, he only dares to face his fear in the dark.

He was afraid that He Chu would also think he was a monster.

In his dreams for the past few days, He Chu was still a sunny boy, with his favorite smile, standing at the door of their class facing the light, pointing at Zhou Yu who was sitting in the corner to the classmates outside the door They laughed out loud and said:

"See, he's a monster."

Did He Chu actually think so?

He has such a personality, weird and changeable, how does He Chu look at him?

Could it be that every change in his mood would embarrass He Chu, silently looking down on him in his heart?Or was He Chu actually laughing at him with those who hated him when he couldn't see?

At the end of the dream, He Chu stood in front of him, smiled, and said slowly: "I don't want you anymore."

I don't want you anymore.

His tiny growling sound came from between his fingers, his back was bent, but his muscles were tense, as if any more tension would break.

A gesture like a beast trying to break out of a prison.

He even had the illusion that he would go crazy soon.

The author has something to say: the one who appeared was a cannon fodder.