Cold violence

Cold violence 27.

For the next few classes, He Chu kept thinking about Zhou Yu's question, and Zhou Yu's words pierced He Chu's heart.

He Chu thought it was ridiculous.

What nonsense is he talking about?Think you're that social enemy?Who told him?

What He Chu dislikes the most is Zhou Yu's self-deprecating temperament.

To put it nicely is to have self-knowledge, but to say it badly is to be unable to see the status quo clearly.

"Society's public enemy" is probably Zhou Yu's definition of himself. He has always been clear about his position, no matter whether the people around him are those from before.

He Chu actually knew about it, but he just didn't want it to come from Zhou Yu's mouth.

Others don't need to like Zhou Yu, but Zhou Yu can't feel that he is such an existence.

why?

"Because it's been like this since I was a child, and I've been used to it for a long time." Zhou Yu seemed to see through the doubts in He Chu's heart, and took the initiative to explain: "Don't think too much, the fact is like this."

"Zhou Yu," He Chu took a deep breath, feeling mixed feelings in his heart.

He couldn't really hear the whispers around them during class, but after Zhou Yu went out after class, those people who had known each other before gathered together, discussing Zhou Yu loudly, and glanced at He Chu from time to time.

He Chu couldn't help but feel a little uncomfortable when he thought of that gaze, and he said word by word, "Don't underestimate yourself."

What did you say? ——It is not easy to belittle oneself with great morale.

But he has always understood.

Understand such a truth - a person who is too good is always prone to envy and disgust, no matter whether he has really made any mistakes, or whether other people who hate that person together really hate him.

The same goes for people who are too beautiful.

Zhou Yu was so outstanding that those who watched from afar were easily moved, while those who were close to Zhou Yu always felt an inexplicable sense of crisis, feeling that Zhou Yu's existence would threaten them.

He Chu actually has it sometimes, but he knows it's just a sign of lack of self-confidence.

Because he stood with Zhou Yu, he could understand, but others didn't.

Zhou Yu's appearance is outstanding, and her grades are excellent. These two points are worthy of envy in themselves, but if they are combined, it will change the flavor.

On the basis of excellence, he has become exceptionally excellent. His outstanding appearance adds luster to his talent. If combined with his family background, he is simply the person everyone dreams of and hopes to become—a winner in life.

However, most modern people cannot have a normal attitude towards outstanding people, especially among students, a correct attitude is more like something that can be met but not sought after, because everyone hopes that they are excellent, yes To be able to step up to the altar high above.

So when there is already a person on the altar, one of them will spare no effort to drag him off the horse, and the other will put on a haughty posture to ridicule him.

The former is a normal behavior out of jealousy, while the latter seems to have become the most common way to cover up one's "incompetence".

The most dazzling existence, one is enough, others, who are one millimeter lower than him, are not the target of others' attacks.

"Belittle yourself?" Zhou Yu sat down, looked at He Chu with a smile, and said with a smile, "Do you really think I'm belittled?"

Zhou Yu rarely showed such an expression. He smiled, but it was extremely mocking.

When get out of class was over, he heard his classmates pointing at him behind his back, and he seemed to return to the state when he just started school a year ago in a trance. He thought he shouldn't care, because he was used to it long ago.

But this time is different, there is another person beside him, his name is He Chu.

What he can accept, He Chu may not be able to accept, and what he has long been accustomed to, He Chu may not be able to understand.

So at that moment, a light flashed in his mind, and he suddenly understood the reason for He Chu's absence a few days ago.

He Chu was afraid of starting school, not because he was afraid of studying or anything else, but because he was afraid that Zhou Yu would be isolated, and he had to help Zhou Yu reintegrate into it.

Because in the previous year, Zhou Yu was able to have a good relationship with his classmates because of He Chu's fate. If there was no He Chu, maybe he would fall into the state of being excluded.

In fact, what He Chu is afraid of is that this kind of life will happen again, and this kind of daily enlightenment to Zhou Yu will happen again, fearing that if he gets too close to Zhou Yu, he will also be isolated.

No one likes this state, and everyone is afraid that they are alone.

It turned out that even if Zhou Yu stood by his side...he was too scared.

Because He Chu is not him.

He should have thought of it a long time ago... not everyone is his, he can't ask He Chu the same as he asks for himself...

"Yes, you're right, I shouldn't have said that." Zhou Yu picked up a pen and turned it around twice.

He didn't know how to turn the pen very much, the pen jumped between his fingers and then fell down, making a "click" sound.

Li Qi turned around from the front and asked what happened with his eyes, but he didn't look at Li Qi, just smiled with his head down, and said again:

"You're right, He Chu."

He didn't hear He Chu's answer, so he raised his head and said to Li Qi, "It's okay, I'll be busy with you."

Li Qi never got involved in the affairs between the two of them, and didn't ask any more questions, and turned back hesitantly.

Zhou Yu spread out the Chinese document, and the page he turned to was actually "Li Sao", the sentence "all the women are jealous of Yu Yu, the rumors say Yu Yi is good at adultery", suddenly pierced his heart.

He Chu quietly watched Zhou Yu in a daze, and suddenly felt that he was so powerless.

My own worries are not unreasonable... Even if Zhou Yu doesn't care whether there are people around him, he will be poked at a certain point in his heart for various reasons, and then his emotions will suddenly change. Even He Chu couldn't save him, it made He Chu feel scared.

He Chu looked at him silently, not intending to talk to him, so Zhou Yu didn't take the initiative to talk to him, and just read the book silently.

Quietly make myself a background wall in the class.

Zhou Yuben didn't talk much, and after that day, he didn't know what kind of muscle he had, so he stopped talking.

Sometimes when He Chu wanted to talk to him at home, he would find that Zhou Yu's eyes were lost, and he couldn't penetrate into his state at all, and the house was quiet as if he had lost popularity.

After a while, He Chu also felt that this was boring, so he unilaterally attributed this state of affairs to a "cold war".

He Chuxin is proud and arrogant. It's not easy to do this for one person. Now that person shows him a cold face. If there is a cold war, then it's cold war. Who has to apologize for mistakes that don't exist?

In fact, Zhou Yu just didn't want to talk.

He was afraid that if he said something hurtful or eccentric as soon as he opened his mouth, it would cause people to misunderstand him.But He Chu seemed to be angry. At night, He Chu would also close the door, as if to keep Zhou Yu out.

Their class is very fast, and the progress is generally much faster than other key classes and parallel classes. Zhou Yu has finished studying early, and He Chu and his progress are not much different. When Zhou Yu was distracted in class, I always thought that He Chu would throw a note to him like before, but He Chu never did.

He really didn't understand what was going on.

He drank too much that day, and when he spoke, it was like pouring bitter water, and he couldn't stop once he opened his mouth, but he still had a memory. He thought that He Chu should understand him a little bit after listening to what he said, at least he could understand He is such a person who is a bit strange and even a bit deformed in thinking.

He felt offended by Lao Huang that day, and knew that he was a bit aggressive, but he didn't expect that He Chu would really ignore him from then on.

Sure enough, after being pampered, people are easy to be pampered and arrogant, and even have more expectations.

But in fact, no one should do anything for one person. There is no such responsibility or obligation.

Lao Huang was talking endlessly on the podium, and Zhou Yu caught a glimpse of He Chuzheng who was drowsy.

So Zhou Yu's fingers were a little itchy, and by the time he realized it, he had already torn off a small piece of paper and started writing - sometimes unconscious actions can always betray one's inner thoughts.

He finally couldn't help but give in, he felt that he had had enough of this silence, and he didn't want to see a silent He Chu.

He Chu was on the side, biting his head, and Zhou Yu was tearing up small pieces of paper beside him.

By the time Zhou Yu thought about what to say, He Chu had already fallen asleep completely.

Zhou Yu carefully put the note on He Chu's table, and carefully poked the top of He Chu's head, but He Chu didn't respond.

Actually fell asleep...

Zhou Yu sighed slightly, and began to tear the note carefully.

After writing until the end of get out of class, there was a small pile of small notes on He Chu's desk, and He Chu didn't wake up.

When get out of class was over, Li Qi called him to go to the canteen. Zhou Yu thought that He Chu might have really slept too deeply, so he walked around behind him, and he didn't forget to help He Chu put on his school uniform.

In fact, He Chu already realized that get out of class was over, and suddenly felt a weight on his body, and the noise in the classroom reached his ears.

He knew it was Zhou Yu - because apart from Zhou Yu, no one would be so careful that he would catch a cold.

But when he looked up, Zhou Yu had already gone out, and there was a pile of small notes on his desk.

"Pfft."

He couldn't help laughing, put on his coat, picked up a small note and spread it out to read, and immediately rolled his eyes with a smile: "This guy..."

Zhou Yu wrote: You fell asleep.

At this time, someone passed by, seeing He Chu's smiling face, couldn't help but leaned over and asked, "Squad leader, why are you smiling like this?"

As he spoke, he picked up the folded note on He Chu's desk and was about to spread it out to read, but He Chu slapped it down.

"What are you looking at, it was written to me."

Then childishly gathered all the notes on the table into the crook of his arm, and put them away in the drawer.

"Hey, isn't it just a little note? Could it be that it was a love letter written by someone else?" The man looked at He Chu's smile that he couldn't hide his pretended anger, and said jokingly, "Really?! Hurry up! Say, which class is it from?"

He Chu folded the small note in his hand and held it in the palm of his hand, and sent the man to say: "You know it's a love letter and you're still such an old lady? There are too many people who like me, haven't you read so many notes? Roll on!" , I’m going to open the love letter, you go away.”

The man was no longer curious, and walked away from He Chu with an inscrutable smile on his face.

"whispering sound."

So He Chu lay down on the table, spread out the notes one by one, took off his school uniform and put it on himself, pretending that he hadn't woken up yet, every time he saw his smile I couldn't help but add another point.

At this time, from the corner of his eye, he saw Zhou Yu's shoes protruding from the back door, so he quickly laid down on his stomach and pretended to be asleep, waiting for Zhou Yu to come over.

When Zhou Yu came and saw that the things on his desk were gone, how would he react?

He heard Li Qi say: "Brother Yu, are those notes on Brother He's desk gone?"

Zhou Yu seemed to be staring at his table for a while, then whispered, "Then... probably someone swept it to the ground and took it away... Forget it."

He heard Zhou Yu pull away the chair, and felt that Zhou Yu helped him put on his unfinished clothes.

He couldn't help feeling a little sweet in his heart.

——Sure enough, it's our family, Zhou Yu... who still cares about me so much.

Li Qi's voice seemed rather regretful, and he asked, "Then what you wrote was for nothing?"

It took Zhou Yu a long time to give a faint "hmm" this time.

This tone... is it angry?

He Chu lay on the table and couldn't help laughing. Remembering that he was still pretending to be asleep, he didn't even dare to laugh out loud. He could only recollect what Zhou Yu said, thinking about how to tease Zhou Yu when he was in a daze. .

He moved pretending to be uncomfortable, and turned his face to Zhou Yu's direction.

Zhou Yu sighed softly, and helped He Chu cut the ends of his hair.

Probably because He Chu slept too deeply, or maybe because all the words before were written on the previous note, Zhou Yu didn't write any more in this class, listening to the teacher talking about "Li Sao" endlessly.

"The mighty system of resentment spirit cultivation will never check the hearts of the husband and the people. Then the meaning of the mighty here is that King Huai of Chu's absurdity and lack of principles, let's see the next sentence..."

Zhou Yu looked out of the window in a daze, and occasionally a few words from the Chinese teacher fell into his ears. He relied on his studies to hardly listen, and the teacher never ignored him. Every time he was in a daze, he was aboveboard, as if He Chu was sleeping Like nothing to be afraid of.

He turned his head out of the window, He Chu slept long enough for Zhou Yu to lose the courage to show up with He Chu again.

Courage is not always there, it depends on whether the target can see it or not.

Sometimes courage comes like a torrential flood, and it is bound to break through all the defense lines in his heart, but when the energy is over, he doesn't even have the power to move his fingers.

His rare courage to take the initiative to show kindness was exhausted after writing those notes all at once. Once again, he couldn't live with his shame, and didn't want to lower his own existence any more.

His stack of notes was stacked squarely, one next to the other neatly aligned at the four corners, how could it be knocked to the ground all of a sudden...

In fact, He Chu saw that he put it away, but He Chu didn't want to talk to him.

Since you don't want to talk about it... then forget it.As he thought about it, his fingers curled into his palms, so hard that he felt pain.

It turned out to be "never check the hearts of the husband and the people".

——I will never notice.

He Chu narrowed his eyes and looked at Zhou Yu's back.

With a little youthful arrogance and a little bit of depression.Zhou Yu is so smart, he must know that he must not have fallen asleep.

They hadn't spoken for two weeks, and they had never been in a situation like this before.

He Chu felt that he had always been angry with Zhou Yu before this, and it was only a little annoyed at him for belittling himself and giving up on himself, but when he saw Zhou Yu and Li Qi talking nonchalantly, he burst into jealousy .

Why...you just ignore me when I'm angry, and chat with Li Qi in front of me, are you happy?

He admitted that he had stopped being angry a long time ago, but was awkwardly jealous, and when he had a cold war with Zhou Yu in disguise, he was still a little annoyed about his state.

A big man, still jealous?Or Li Qi's vinegar?It's not a thing.

But Zhou Yu didn't come to coax him?What do you think you are?

But seeing Zhou Yu's various thoughts today, a place in his heart suddenly collapsed, and the place called "Zhou Yu" became soft.

That idiot can't say anything, so he still has to rely on himself...

Still squinting his eyes, he saw Zhou Yu lying down with his back facing him, with his head facing the direction out of the window.

He Chu held back his laughter, looked up at the teacher, then got up lightly, and whispered in Zhou Yu's ear:

"You keep coaxing me, I'm still angry."

During the class, He Chu didn't dare to put his whole body close to Zhou Yu's ear, but seeing Zhou Yu was motionless, he wondered if he was asleep, so he whispered:

"Hey...Actually, I read it and put it away carefully. You can coax me a little more, just a little coax me."

Zhou Yu remained motionless.

He Chu raised his head and glanced at the direction of the podium, then quickly leaned into Zhou Yu's ear and said:

"If you ignore me again, I'll kiss you."

Then he quickly returned to his original position, smiling and watching Zhou Yu staring at him angrily.

"He Chu, can you not say such rascal things?" The young man's face was as white as snow, and the words he said were merciless, only a little red at the base of his ears revealed a little bit of shyness in his heart.

"Am I a rascal? I'm still angry." He Chu took Zhou Yu's hand with a smile, put it under the table and shook it gently, and said softly, "Coax me a little bit, coax me a little more , or I will be angry."

"You..." Zhou Yu was stunned for a moment, unable to speak. He looked at He Chu's "little daughter-in-law" appearance, and suddenly felt that he was really unattractive.

He Chu had acted coquettishly before, but it was so obvious...it was the first time.

He Chu's appearance definitely does not belong to that kind of sissy type. On the contrary, one can feel that he is a pure male, but he is not purely masculine, and has a faint evil spirit. When one corner of his mouth is drawn, he will appear feminine and outrageous, but when he really smiles, he is so sunny.

At this moment, Li Qi turned his head and said to He Chu with an expression of "I can't listen to you two bastards", "Brother He, why are you so... coquettish?"

Sitting next to Li Qi, Fang Xian said without knowing it: "Yes, monitor, you smile so obscenely."

He Chu's expression seemed to be controlled by a switch. Immediately, he rolled his eyes and laughed so hard that he almost lost his eyes. He said word by word, "You two get out of here."

"It's class, can you put your energy into the end of get out of class?" Li Qi glanced at He Chu and Zhou Yu's hands underneath, and said contemptuously, "You still harass Zhou Yu, how shameless you are?"

Fang Xian didn't pay attention to the two people's handshake at all, but just echoed Li Qi: "That's right, don't be ashamed."

He Chu let out a long "Oh", and put Zhou Yu's hand on his lap, feeling that the man wanted to break free, but clasped his hand even tighter, and said with a smile: "You two are so Are you obviously not afraid of me writing the class log?"

Then he was satisfied to see two light bulbs turned around and interlocked with Zhou Yu's fingers.

Zhou Yu looked at him expressionlessly: "Angry?"

"Cough," He Chuxin thought about whether he was jealous or angry, but it was hard to say something, and with Zhou Yu's thick brain nerves, he definitely couldn't understand why he was jealous. He changed The last flattering smile said: "How could it be, baby, I'm just kidding, why am I angry... Aren't I angry at myself for making you unhappy?"

His rhetoric was impeccable, Zhou Yu smiled stiffly and said, "You are so nasty."

Then he withdrew his hand and started copying notes on the blackboard.

So at this moment, He Chu finally realized what it meant to be "you can't live without doing your own crimes".

"He Chu, can we stop doing this?" Zhou Yu didn't write a few words, and suddenly whispered. He lowered his head, and his lips were not moving very clearly. He Chu could only see his profile in the sun. His face was as beautiful as ever, but the words he said were filled with great melancholy.

He said: "I don't know what's happened to you for two weeks, but I'm really sad that no one talks to me."

He Chu was slightly taken aback, and suddenly realized what kind of torture his little anger had been to Zhou Yu these few days.

Zhou Yu had such an experience before, he was supposed to be the one who could be by his side, but unexpectedly became the most ruthless person to him in the past two weeks.

He was cold to Zhou Yu, and stubbornly thought that Zhou Yu must come to him first. He felt that he also had a temper, so why did he have to show his favor every time, but he ignored that his anger had no reason at all. Yu is just the recipient of his anger.

In fact, Zhou Yu did nothing wrong, and he was never the one who took the initiative. He had been waiting for Zhou Yu to speak, but Zhou Yu was also waiting for him.

If Zhou Yu couldn't stand such treatment, why would he write so many notes to He Chu?But he didn't realize what he had done until now.

That's Zhou Yu, how could I keep facing him with a cold face?

He looked at Zhou Yu, Zhou Yu's face was calm and unwavering, as if nothing happened just now, the words dissipated in the air, like a casual chat after dinner, but He Chu knew that this Words are more than words to him.

"Yes, Zhou Yu." He suddenly didn't dare to look at Zhou Yu again, so he could only lower his head and bend his back, promising in a low voice.

He didn't really know if he could.

He and Zhou Yu have been together for a long time, maybe it is longer than the sum of the days of all the people he has been in love with, but being together is not the same after all.

Heartbeat is unrestrained, but being together is far from what he thought.

He has never had a crush on anyone since he was with Zhou Yu, but Zhou Yu's state has broken his heart. He has done enough for Zhou Yu, so much that he himself feels that it is impossible .He was used to growing up since he was a child, and he never thought that one day he would treat him wholeheartedly for a single person.

He was very happy, but too tired.

I used to say that not all likes can be together, and not all can be together, but as long as I want, I can be together for as long as I want.

This kind of tiredness is like the time they had a quarrel a few days before the start of school, surging, and it is unavoidable to feel tired from the inside out.

What Zhou Yu said to Lao Huang that day was so merciless, he knew why Zhou Yu was like this, but he also listened to what other people who didn't know Zhou Yu said.

They are all strangers who don't know Zhou Yu, and they will not tolerate the habits brought about by Zhou Yu's past like themselves.They will only take what they see now in their hearts. After all, apart from people with ulterior motives, who would care about a rebellious and arrogant person?

To start over, to bring Zhou Yu back into a new environment...

The words "start over" seem extremely simple, but those who have done it know how sad such a thing is, and even have to endure the same kind of isolation...

Can you do it yourself?At that time, he tried his best to chase Zhou Yu, but now...he is not sure if he can do it.

The things I got looked so dazzling when they were not placed in the box, and even the motivation to chase them at the beginning almost disappeared.

Maybe Zhou Yu could bear those people's harsh words, but He Chu couldn't, but he just couldn't stop it, because he was the monitor of Class Nine.

He is the class monitor, so he must put the interests of the class first, and he can't do what he wants.

He couldn't give up on Zhou Yu, but he couldn't give up the whole class for Zhou Yu's sake.

So really, really hard.

He Chu wanted to help Zhou Yu get over the hurdle he couldn't get over, but he was afraid that he would be powerless.

This feeling is really... too bad.

Zhou Yu turned his attention to He Chu.

He looked at He Chu's absent-minded face, as if he knew what He Chu was thinking. He looked at He Chu's hair whirling, and suddenly said seriously:

"Forget it, He Chu...don't think about taking me out anymore. If I can't get out, you too...forget it."

Forget it, He Chu, forget it.

Know what you're struggling with, so forget it.

If I can't get out, you can only prevent me from getting deeper and deeper. It's useless, so don't do it.

As long as you are well, you are still my light.

"What nonsense are you talking about..." He Chu gritted his teeth and said, "As long as you are still my brother's boyfriend, I will take you with me. Like a child, I still meet my brother."

He raised his head and smiled at Zhou Yu.

Zhou Yu blinked and smiled at him.

That smile seemed impeccable, but only Zhou Yu himself knew how bitter it was.

"As long as you are still brother's boyfriend." As long as I am still your boyfriend... But what if one day you don't want me anymore?

The author has something to say: By the way, is this chapter too long... The word count is not stable because I removed many 8k chapters because I was afraid that you would not be able to read them.