Cold violence

However, He Chu felt that he could no longer talk to Zhou Yu.

His jealousy towards that girl became more and more intense as time passed, and he was afraid that once Zhou Yu opened his mouth, he would not be able to help expressing all the domineering thoughts in his heart, so what would Zhou Yu think?

Maybe they will feel that if they recognize him clearly, they will avoid him.

Take your time, he said to himself, but how do you take your time?Everyone handed love letters to me!

He wanted the evening self-study to end quickly, so that he could escape from this place early, to vent his anger, or ask Zhou Yu directly what he thought, it was too uncomfortable to go on like this.

Looking at Zhou Yu's reading in the evening self-study before, he felt that time passed very quickly, but now every minute and every second has become extremely tormenting for him.

He hoped that Zhou Yu would take the initiative to break the silence that had lasted for so long, but he also knew that Zhou Yu had never been such a person, every time they chatted, he took the initiative and never tired of it.

But today he suddenly felt exhausted all over his body.

And it was for a split second, I felt deep exhaustion, the feeling of powerlessness oppressed him, he couldn't move, he didn't even have the strength to stand up, it made him want to give up this person, everything he had done before, and what he cherished all feelings.

Because such feelings are wrong in themselves and cannot be forced.

On the surface, Zhou Yu didn't hold a negative attitude towards his thoughts, but maybe it was just that Zhou Yu couldn't say it, he didn't even know what Zhou Yu was thinking.

Or... just give up, anyway, it is not visible, not recognized by others.

Look at that girl, so what if you confessed, it's just a matter of one sentence.But what about you?If you do the same, what results will you get?

If not, forget it, not everyone will go this way with you.

He spent the evening self-study with such thoughts of almost giving up on himself. He abnormally packed his schoolbag early and left the classroom as soon as the bell rang for the end of get out of class. Say "goodbye".

Once he felt that this was meaningless, he subconsciously decided that the matter itself was also meaningless.

Whether it was Zhou Yu saying goodbye to him, or his liking for Zhou Yu.

But Zhou Yu didn't seem to be in a hurry when school was over.

He was still tidying up his schoolbag slowly. When the bell rang, his schoolbag hadn't been finished yet. He lowered his eyes and didn't look at He Chu.

He Chu sighed inwardly, stood up and was about to call Li Qi to leave, but found that his clothes were being held back by Zhou Yu at some point.

"You..." He Chu lowered his head and watched Zhou Yu pull the zipper of his schoolbag with one hand, without any further movement or intention to speak.But the hand holding the hem of his clothes was so tight that the knuckles of his fingers turned white.

Zhou Yu pursed her lips, not knowing how to speak to He Chu.He has always acted faster than words, but now he wants to take the initiative to speak, but his lips seem to be glued together.

He Chu intuitively knew what Zhou Yu wanted to say, so he gestured to Li Qi to signal him to go back first, then put down his schoolbag and sat back on his seat, waiting for Zhou Yu to speak.

Until the classroom was empty, Zhou Yu's schoolbag was still not finished, and one of his hands was still tightly holding He Chu's clothes.

He Chu looked at Zhou Yu's appearance of wanting to speak but hesitated several times, and felt a little impatient in his heart. He knew that he was acting out of character tonight, so he frowned. Zhou Yu was still the same as a few minutes ago, so he He asked, "What do you want to say?"

He heard the impatience and disgust in his own voice, and he was surprised by his tone.

How could he talk to Zhou Yu like that?

Hearing this, Zhou Yu lowered his head even lower. He Chu felt that he should not take his anger out on Zhou Yu because he was in a bad mood. Something came out and carefully pushed it onto his desk.

—It was the love letter he had received.

He Chu was taken aback.

"what do you mean?"

Zhou Yu seemed to have hesitated for a long time, moved his lips a few times, and finally said with determination: "Take it apart."

Zhou Yu was a little timid, he obviously didn't need to be like this, he didn't do anything, why did he need to be careful?

But he couldn't see how He Chu was angry and didn't want to get angry.This kind of He Chu is like the former self, who obviously has something to say, but can't say it, he can only feel it in his heart, and he knows it very well.

Ever since He Chu saw the letter this evening, he has been out of shape. It is because of this that Zhou Yu has not opened it. He struggled all night and decided to ask He Chu after school. .

If He Chu was angry because of this letter, he could have handed the letter to He Chu, but things don't seem to be the same.

"The love letter you received, you asked me to open it?" He Chu seemed a little unbelievable because of Zhou Yu's attitude and his behavior.

"You've been angry all night, what's the reason?"

"What am I mad about? Why am I mad, huh?"

"Then open it." Zhou Yu pushed the envelope towards He Chu again, and placed it in front of He Chu.

When He Chu saw the love letter, the unknown fire in his heart burned even more vigorously. Zhou Yuming knew that he had a grudge in his heart, but he insisted on embarrassing him even more?That love letter seemed to be mocking He Chu's overthinking.

You see, my feelings are so normal, and you?But it was so impossible to get on the stage.I can move in front of the public, and you can only hope behind your back.

He Chu took a deep breath, resisting the urge to tear the love letter into pieces, squeezed out a "polite" smile at Zhou Yu, and asked him, "Why?" He knew that his smile must be ugly right now.

How should I describe that smile?Probably the kind of person who is in a desperate situation, trying to show a smile of "I don't believe in fate" before making fun of his own fate.

Do you want me to see for myself what other people think of you, and let me see that others treat you like I treat you?

Zhou Yu's stubbornness is comparable to others. He Chu refused to tear it down, so he wanted Zhou Yu to open up that "heart knot", but he couldn't give a reason.

Because it seems unreasonable, I hope He Chu doesn't mind this piece of paper?Or do you want He Chu to know that he doesn't actually like girls?I still hope that He Chu knows that he...

Zhou Yu whispered, "If you take it apart, it means you're not angry."

In normal times, Zhou Yu's little stubbornness is a very cute expression in He Chu's eyes, because Zhou Yu's expression is always very serious and extremely serious at such times. Such an expression revealed an inexplicable cuteness in the atmosphere that He Chu deliberately guided.

But now that He Chu's heart was burning with jealousy, Zhou Yu's stubbornness undoubtedly added a new firewood to the fire in his heart, so he said without hesitation:

"Are you just so proud when someone writes you a love letter? Do you still have to show it to me? Do you still want me to read it to you after reading it and then write a review for you? You know that I love you What do you mean, do you have to stimulate me like this today?! Do you have to see me not having a good time to make you happy today? Huh?"

Zhou Yu was stunned.In the memory of He Chu, this was the first time he got angry with him, so angry that Zhou Yu felt an emotion called "grievance".

——I obviously didn't do anything, why do you still talk about me like that?It turns out that you miss me just like everyone else...

Zhou Yu was silent for a while, and it was rare for him to have the patience to whisper to He Chu, "I didn't mean that..."

He Chu sneered, and continued: "Then what do you mean? Show off a girl who likes you in front of me? Make me jealous? Then pursue you even harder? You have been indifferent for so many days, you hope I How to do it? Hmm? What do you want me to do? For you, tell the whole class to let them get close to you. For you, I only drank once and smoked a cigarette for so long and still dare not say it in front of you. For You have endured your indifference for so long, what do you want me to do? Repeat 'I like you' in front of you every day? Then you will understand my mind, right?"

It turns out that they talked to me...it was really because of you.

"You've been fishing for me for so long, do you think it's interesting Zhou Yu? I don't think it's interesting, really, it's boring enough."

Zhou Yu seemed to have completely lost his ability to respond, and these words could not be digested in his mind for a long time.

He didn't mean what he said by holding He Chu today. He wanted to tell He Chu not to be angry, he wanted to tell He Chu that he didn't know this girl at all, he wanted to tell He Chu, maybe... He was ready to respond to He Chu...

But now he can't say anything.

He Chu's face was flushed with excitement, and he still hadn't calmed down after roaring, his bloodshot eyes stared fiercely at Zhou Yu's face that was neither sad nor happy.

You see, even if you say it so clearly and clearly, the person you like treats you the same as before.He doesn't like you at all, why are you insisting?

Zhou Yu looked into He Chu's eyes, as if he could see all the thoughts in his heart through the flesh and blood, but he could only see He Chu's overwhelming anger, which made him at a loss.

In the end he chose to escape, he nodded in a numb Chao Hechu, zipped up the schoolbag he had packed long ago, got up and left the seat.

He quietly left that love letter on He Chu's desk, and he also left there the words he wanted to say but couldn't say.

It used to be like this too, he tried too many times to tell people what he was thinking, but that person either dismissed him or sneered at him, then he got used to not saying anything, but now he has something to say but can’t say it up.

How ironic, Zhou Yu.

He thought...he thought He Chu was different to him, he thought He Chu could understand his bad words, he thought He Chu could tolerate his flaws, he thought He Chu was genuine Those who can understand what he means...

It turned out that what they said was right, no one in this world could tolerate a person like him.

He carried his schoolbag and walked slowly, only to feel the long-lost sourness rushing straight to the tip of his nose. He forcefully held back the feeling that almost made him cry, and found that his empty hands were trembling slightly.

Why on earth did He Chu think of him like this?Why is it wrong for him to do so when he clearly just wanted to explain?

Simply ridiculous.

If you are too affectionate, you think that person will tolerate you.

Zhou Yu lowered his head and stared at the doorknob, feeling that his wrist was as heavy as a thousand catties.He obviously wanted to escape from this place so much, but he couldn't raise his hand.

He heard the violent collision of the chair and the table behind him, and the hurried footsteps of the person behind him, he flinched subconsciously, thinking that the owner of the hurried and flustered footsteps was the same person who rushed up to beat him as before it's the same.

He had such a difficult time when he was a child, and now all the habits were formed at that time, and he can't change it.

Even though he has been able to keep his face unchanged all the time, he is actually just a child.

A naive child who seems to never grow up.

But in the next second, he fell into a warm embrace.

"I'm sorry, Zhou Yu, I'm sorry... I didn't mean to..."

After He Chu said those words, he regretted it.

How could he say that about Zhou Yu?Obviously I was the one who felt sorry for him and wished I could put him on the tip of my heart, how could I say such hurtful words?He would feel hurtful if he said these words to others, let alone Zhou Yu...

He saw Zhou Yu nodded towards him, saw Zhou Yu slowly zip up his schoolbag, then slowly got up and pushed the chair back to its original position, and finally walked slowly towards the door, the letter he stubbornly wanted He Chu to read The love letter was not taken away either, and was left on another person's table by the owner.

He almost rushed forward to grab Zhou Yu with the feeling of killing himself.But Zhou Yu shrank slightly in his arms, and then his whole body began to tremble slightly.

He Chu wanted to hold Zhou Yu in his arms, but when he walked around Zhou Yu, he couldn't move.

——Zhou Yu cried.

The slight trembling before was what he looked like when he was crying silently.

This was the first time He Chu saw Zhou Yu cry.

Just silently, tears flowed down his fair cheeks.His lips were trembling, but his eyes were blank, as if he didn't realize that he was crying.

At that moment, He Chu hated his unrestrained speech like never before.

How did that happen?He actually made Zhou Yu cry.

Zhou Yu could cry.

"Zhou Yu." He Chu raised his hand to wipe the tears off Zhou Yu's face, his voice hoarse, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. You...don't cry. I just couldn't accept it for a while, and I was too angry to say that Don't be mad at me for your bastard words, will you? Don't be mad at me."

Zhou Yu's eyes were covered with tears, He Chu's face blurred in his vision, and he realized that he was crying.

"Look... so many people like you, you can accept their love letters, and they dare to shout that I like you in the corridor... But what can I do? I can't even say these words You say by yourself, they like you...I like you too...I really like you too, but what can I do..."

After He Chu finished speaking, he rested his head on Zhou Yu's shoulder, and suddenly felt such a heavy feeling of powerlessness that could almost collapse his shoulders returned.

Even if I like you, I only dare to tell you carefully when there is no one else. I have to be afraid that you will hate me, and I have to be afraid that you will stay away from me. In fact, I am also very afraid...

"I like you, you already knew, but you never responded to me. I really, really... like you, more than all of them, but what can I do? I just Dare to get angry in front of you, but I can’t get angry, because I don’t have that position, I can only watch them like you, maybe one day in the future, you will like one of them, I still can’t do anything, because I like you Your matter itself...is destined not to be blessed by others...but I really like you too..."

When He Chu said that he hugged Zhou Yu tighter and tighter in the end, he almost had the urge to cry.

He likes this person, to the point where he is willing to give unconditionally for this person, to the point where he feels a little tired but still doesn't want to let go. In the classroom, repeating that weak "I love you" to this person.

Suddenly he felt something climb up his back, his whole body became a little stiff, and when he realized what this meant, he hugged Zhou Yu back even harder.

I just wish I could melt this person into my own bones and blood.

It was a small hug from Zhou Yu.

This was the first time that Zhou Yu took the initiative to hug someone in so many years.

"Zhou Yu, you like me, right?" He Chu let go of Zhou Yu, and when he saw Zhou Yu's tear-stained face, his eyes suddenly lit up, as if he saw some hope. "You actually like me, right? Even if you like me a little bit..."

Zhou Yu didn't dare to look directly into his fiery eyes, turned his face away slightly, lowered his eyes, and didn't speak.

But He Chu straightened his face and forced him to look at He Chu's face. He saw He Chu's beautiful lips opening and closing, and asked each word: "What are you avoiding? What are you afraid of?"

It took a long time before Zhou Yu heard his own stiff voice.

"Before...before...I might have liked someone, but he..."

Zhou Yu said "also".

This shows that Zhou Yu accepted He Chu's words.After Zhou Yu finished speaking intermittently, he didn't dare to look at He Chu again. He was always very timid in such matters, even when he was alone, he didn't dare to face his feelings for He Chu.

He always thought that he had lost the ability to like other people, until this evening, from the moment he grabbed He Chuyi's corner.

He suddenly felt relieved, and the words that weighed more than a thousand catties were finally uttered by him.Then he heard He Chu say to him:

"In the future, you don't need to like other people, you just need to like me."

From today on, you are mine, and no one can bully you anymore.You just need to like me, just need to know that I like you the most.

"Did you hear clearly?"

Zhou Yu raised his eyes and saw that He Chu's beautiful peach blossom eyes were more solemn than ever. In those eyes, Zhou Yu could only see his somewhat cold face.

So he smiled at He Chu.

"Okay, boyfriend."