shadow lover

Anyang told me to wait for her, so I waited and waited and waited and waited day after day. It was already the fourth day and there was still no news from her. I was so anxious that I really wanted to call to remind her.As for my fidgeting colleagues in the company these days, they jokingly asked me if my house was on fire.

"Boss Fu, Ms. An is here and said she will wait for you downstairs." Well, the staff's words made me jump out of my chair in an instant, and my sudden standing up gave the two people sitting across from me a jump.

"You go to Mr. Guo to discuss it, I have to go out." Liao said and walked past them, pushed the door out of the office and went downstairs. Ding Dong descended to the first floor, opened the door and walked out quickly. The person standing at the door was Talking on the phone, she saw me gesticulating with my hand, and then continued to talk to the person on the other end of the radio wave. When she got to her side, she found an excuse to hang up the call.

"You're here"

"Well, I happened to be here on business. I passed by. I think it's almost dinner time. Let's go have lunch together."

"Yeah."

"What do you want to eat"

"There's a new restaurant here that tastes good, go and try it."

"Well, let's go then."

"Well, good, good."

"you……"

"Oh, I touched up my makeup in the elevator, why didn't I fix it?"

"No, it's good." Anyang said while raising her hand, then she rubbed the corner of my lower lip twice with her little finger, and took out the makeup box with some embarrassment, and saw that the lipstick marks had been wiped off by her.

After finding a vacant seat in the restaurant, Anyang pushed the menu in front of me. I asked her what she wanted to eat and she said she could do it. I ordered two light dishes and asked her if it was okay, she nodded.

"Are you busy these days?" I originally wanted to ask, why didn't you come to me, and I swallowed the words and asked in other words.

"Well, I'm late, I'm sorry to keep you waiting."

"That... I didn't mean that, look at you." Uh, Fu Senmiao, why are you guilty, didn't you just mean that, people said you still put it on.

“Are you free on Sunday”

"Yes, I'm free all day."

"Well, I have two concert tickets here, do you want to go see them?"

"Okay, okay, what time, I'll pick you up."

"No, wait at the gate of the Workers' Stadium at [-]:[-] p.m. I still have something to do, so I'll go straight after I finish work."

"Oh, that's fine too."

"I... you..., how often do you call on the phone..."

"Basically, there are no customer calls before 09:30 in the morning. If you call, I will usually answer."

"oh oh"

Anyang seemed to hear my heart, and she answered every sentence to the point. After coming out of the restaurant, Anyang sent me back to the company. In the lobby on the first floor, I held her finger and faltered. She saw me struggling and said : "There is indeed something to do these few days, it's not that I won't come, I will try to go there as early as possible on Sunday."

"okay."

"Go up"

"okay."

I entered the elevator under Anyang's gaze. The elevator door closed and I closed my eyes to cover my beating heart. This feeling has never been felt in many years.

Anyang said that she could call before 09:30, but she didn't say what time she could call. I called her cell phone at four o'clock the next morning, and it took two calls before she got connected.

"The sky is short!" The opening remark was speechless.

"Yeah, it's spring. It's getting brighter at 04:30, and it's going to be bright after five o'clock."

"I had a dream yesterday. I dreamed that we would go on a trip and go boating."

"Well, if you want to go, go to the park another day to paddle."

"Um, okay."

"Um... that... um..." We were so short-circuited that we couldn't say anything, we just felt dizzy and went blank, so we gasped for nearly half an hour in front of the phone.

"Sen Miao"

"I am here"

"Now I... I hope to leave some free time for myself, I hope you can understand."

"Well, I understand. You don't have to force yourself to treat me. It's okay. Really, just be nice."

"Just tell me what you want, and I can call you at any time, so you don't have to wake up early to affect your sleep."

"Is it bothering you?"

"No, I'm already outside. I'll go out of town and come back on Sunday morning. You have to work hard these days."

"Well, I see, then you should be safe outside, and Xiao Zhang is with you."

"No, I'm with other colleagues, don't worry."

"Well, hang up then, see you at the weekend."

"Okay, you are sleeping for a while, bye."

After the phone call in the morning, my hands always itch and I want to press the string that is good every one or two hours, so I called four or five times in the morning, and I can't say anything after dialing it, but I I just want to hear her voice. When I was eating with my colleagues at noon, I just picked up the phone and wanted to press it, when I heard the little girl passing by yelling at the phone impatiently; what can I do, what else can I do, I Going out to have a meal with your friends, what are you doing all the time calling me, XXX, talk if you can talk, break up if you can’t talk, it’s so annoying.

My fingers tightened inexplicably, and then I put down the phone. Seeing my behavior, my colleague asked me, "Don't call Anyang anymore." Who can stand it, thinking about it in his head, holding back his fingers and having nowhere to put his fingers, and finally staying up at night to turn off the lights and go to bed before pressing the dial button.

"time to sleep"

"Well, go to sleep, good night."

"I'm not sleepy yet. I endured the whole afternoon without calling you. Would you like to say a few more words?"

"Um"

"What did you do this afternoon?"

"Meet the client"

"Myself?"

"No"

"Have we talked yet?"

"no"

"I called you so many times today, aren't you upset?"

no answer

"Anyang..."

"No, it's just that I don't know what to say is the answer you want."

Suddenly, I realized that her silence was just to avoid hurting me. It is true that Anyang had never said anything harsh to me during these years together, let alone hurt me verbally. I kept forcing her to speak and answer.If she tells a lie, I will be sad, if she tells the truth, I will be sad. Choosing not to tell is not the silent resistance I once thought, but another way to protect my self-esteem.

Before Anyang came back on Sunday, I tried my best to restrain myself from thinking about her, and I made phone calls every morning and evening. Finally, I went to the gate of the stadium early on Sunday to wait, at 07:30, [-]:[-], [-]:[-], In a mood of anxiety and anticipation, I looked left and right, and finally saw the figure of that person in the front right, and ran up to her, Xiaoshi said temperedly: "This is about to start, why did you come here?"

There was nothing to be seen from her half-smiling expression. I secretly kissed the corner of her lips at the concert site with the cheers of tens of thousands of spectators. The fingers in my hand were soft and slender. My hand has been firmly held by me and never let go.

Anyang, I, Fu Senmiao, will never let go of your hand for the rest of my life. I will definitely watch over you so that you will not be abducted by bad guys with malicious intentions.