shadow lover

I rested at home for a day because of heat stroke, and Sen Miao didn't go to the store and stayed with me at home. She took my temperature, gave me medicine, prepared light meals for me, and stared blankly at the chopsticks in her hand. , thinking in my heart, since Sen Miao's mentality has loosened, then I will try my best to treat her well.

Sen Miao, who is no longer angry and regains her senses, has returned to her usual peaceful state. She often sits at the door in a daze, often looks at the street outside without saying a word, and occasionally makes a few small cakes and snacks to share with friends , and occasionally shed tears when playing old records.

The high temperature that lasted for many days came to an end. The weather forecast said that the temperature will drop in the next week. Today, when I went to pick up Sen Miao from get off work, I met a little flower seller on the street. I bought her for [-] yuan. rose in hand.Holding the flowers scattered in bunches, I went to Sen Miao and handed the flower branches to her. The colleague beside her saw it and smiled and said to me: "Anyang, you don't care about sending us Sen Miao flowers, you have to pack them no matter what. No, remember to be more refined next time."

"Why do you think of buying flowers? I've never seen you buy them before."

"Oh, when I came here, I met a little girl who sold flowers. She was standing at the street corner in this hot day, so I bought them all. That...what kind of flowers do you like, I will buy them for you in the future, okay?" Sen Miao said When I asked, I realized that I had never bought any roses for Sen Miao.

Sen Miao asked me how much I spent on renting a house and buying a car. She said that she transferred the money to me. I didn't see you go to see her."

"My mom died of a cerebral hemorrhage late last summer."

"Sorry, why didn't you tell me."

"I……"

"Anyang, don't you want the other party to pity and sympathize with yourself? Do you think that such feelings are mixed with other elements and are impure?" When she said this, Sen Miao's eyes suddenly became melancholy. I think she must have something secretly I said, I paused for a moment and then replied to her: "No, I just hope that you will not affect each other's judgment because of some special circumstances. It is more fair for everyone to stand on an equal footing." The words come out, this is not my heart, but I think I can't say it in Sen Miao's deep eyes, I wish you would be pitiful and pity me, give me a little love, give me a little love, if I say it according to my idea Will she think of Sister Ke? Sen Miao asked me for an answer to the unresolved relationship between her and Sister Ke, so I had no choice but to express my attitude insincerely.

Sen Miao said that she wanted to go to the Aegean Sea in Greece, and I said yes, I will accompany you. A few days later, we carried our suitcases and boarded a plane to Greece to go to the sea that symbolizes romance.On the plane, Sen Miao kept her eyes closed and rested. She pretended to be busy and didn't like to talk. Sitting next to her, I paid attention to every subtle movement of her.

After the plane landed, we took our luggage and walked out of the airport lobby and got on the hotel bus waiting at the door. It was already 27:[-] local time when we were taken to the reserved hotel. Sen Miao asked me if I was hungry and would I like to order something to eat? I said it was okay, and then she said that I should rest first and go down to have a meal tomorrow morning, and I said yes.

After resting for seven hours, we got up and went to the cafeteria downstairs to have breakfast. After returning to the room, I followed Sen Miao and boarded the sightseeing cruise ship, looking at the beautiful and famous Santorini island and enjoying the blue and wide sea in front of us. , looking from left to right, the affectionate couple hugged and kissed affectionately.

Sen Miao leaned on the railing with both hands and looked into the distance with deep eyes. I turned slightly to face her and then slowly raised my arms around her waist.When my arm was put on it, Sen Miao withdrew her gaze and turned her head to look at me. There was a faint sparkle in her projected eyes. I looked at her and waited for her next reaction.

What surprised me was that Sen Miao didn't take my arm, she acquiesced in my wrapping around and the subsequent hug, carefully embraced her in her arms, pecked her earrings carefully, and softly whispered in her ear One sentence: "Thank you Senmiao, thank you for letting me love you."

For my confession of true feelings, Sen Miao just slightly raised the corners of her mouth and smiled slightly. Her silence, her long gaze into the distance, and her long sigh all reflect the taste of regret.After getting off the cruise ship, we went to an old castle church. The priest folded his hands and prayed sincerely. Those who entered the church sat quietly on the chairs on both sides, listening to the sacred scriptures, and followed the priest's movements, closing their eyes and praying sincerely.

Holy Lord, please take away Sen Miao’s sorrow, please return her happiness, I hope I can be lucky enough to spend the rest of my life with her, I hope she can turn her head and see my face clearly and recognize my original Look, I hope she will not reject my love for her, and finally I pray that Senmiao can fall in love with me, even if it is a one-hundred-thousandth of a flower, I pray again.This is my inner monologue. I don’t know what Sen Miao is praying for or maybe she is praying for Sister Ke’s health. Her trembling eyelashes, her tightly clasped hands and her string of crystal tears make my heart tighten. Tight and tight also made my line of sight finally shift.In the evening, we went to the commercial street. Tourists gathered from all directions made the night scene more colorful. We sat in front of the stalls and watched the performances of street performers in the open space, and the fireworks and children laughed and applauded.

"Sen Miao, I begged for this in the church, here it is."

"Thank you"

"Sen Miao, do you like this place?"

"like"

"Then we will come when you want to come"

"No, just come once."

"Sen Miao, let's go to another place to play next time."

"No, I don't want to come out."

I hear the laughter of tourists from all over the world, and I see Sen Miao’s calm and expressionless face in my eyes. There is a blank canvas in my mind. I can’t outline the wonderful scenery even if I try hard, and I can’t outline a beautiful picture of two people. Come.

In the next few days, we went to the coast to watch the sea during the day, prayed in church in the afternoon, and wandered in the commercial street at night. I climbed into bed after taking a shower the night before the return trip and stretched out my arms to the person whose back was facing me. When she reached into her nightdress, Sen Miao held my wrist in the next second, and she said, "Anyang, I don't want to."

I seem to be caught in the vortex of endless waiting again, waiting for Sen Miao's call, waiting for her to release me, waiting for her to find me by her side at a certain moment.

Sen Miao, my dear Sen Miao, no matter how you change, my position seems to be so awkward. If you get closer, you will feel uncomfortable, but if you are far away, you will feel deserted. Sen Miao, my dear Sen Miao, I should be in How far away will make you feel comfortable and decent, one meter, five meters or ten meters.