shadow lover

I set up a difficult chess game for myself. I don't know if I will be completely denied by Sen Miao after this game, no matter whether it is a dead end or a living end. She promised me to stay away from Sen Miao and stopped answering her phone calls and refusing to visit. Sen Miao was so angry about this, I told her to bear with it, a year is short and not long.Maybe it was because I disrupted her plan and rhythm, or maybe it was my self-assertion that annoyed her. Some of Sen Miao's angry actions were a manifestation of her dissatisfaction with what I did.

I rented a high-end apartment with the last savings in my hand, and then bought a high-end car for Sen Miao. That day I knelt for a long time in front of the tombstones of my adoptive mother and An An. It's not my original intention, she feels sad and I feel sorry for her, why do I care so much by myself, forget it.

I resumed the itinerary to pick up Sen Miao from get off work, and I would go to the store to wait for her to close in my spare time. Although our interaction index increased a little on the surface, Sen Miao's indifference and my wait-and-see did not make the relationship between us grow. The relationship has improved, and I have no experience in how to deal with such problems. Subjectively, I told myself to take the initiative to approach her, but Sen Miao's cold face really frightened me, and I didn't dare to take a step forward.

When the temperature reaches the highest temperature today, the outside is as hot as a stove, making your blood boil. I sat on the chair outside the water bar door for less than half an hour, and I was soaked inside and out. When I got up, my eyes were dark. My feet were a little soft when I took a second step. Before leaving, I greeted Sen Miao and took a taxi to the work site.

"Xiao Zhang, please prepare first and I'll wash my face. Adjust the air conditioner so that it doesn't blow on customers." After arriving in the dressing room, I didn't turn on the air conditioner immediately but waited until Xiao Zhang arrived before turning it on.

"It's too hot today, why isn't the air conditioner cool?" The customer asked to adjust the temperature of the air conditioner during makeup. I turned my back to the air conditioner to apply makeup to the customer. During the makeup process, I felt a sudden flow of liquid from the nasal cavity. I stopped my hands and turned around. When I went out, I don't know if it was because the air conditioner was too cool and stimulated the blood vessels, which caused the nosebleed.

"Sister An"

"You go to work, don't worry about me, there is another one on the second floor after this, hold on tight."

"Oh, are you okay then?"

"It's alright, it'll be fine in a while."

Turning on the faucet to rinse out the liquid, my brain became more and more heavy and I felt more and more swollen. I supported the sink with my arms and slowly straightened my waist, then took out a piece of paper to cover my nose and walked to the dressing room.I wanted to ask Xiao Zhang to finish it, but the customer immediately called me over when he saw me go back, stuffed the paper in his hand into his nose and continued to apply makeup to the customer.

"Look, can you?"

"Well, good, good, hard work."

"As long as you are satisfied, I wish you a happy life."

As soon as the customer walked out of the dressing room, I collapsed on the sofa next to the air conditioner. After packing up the makeup box, Xiao Zhang asked me if I would go up, "Sister An, when shall we go up, Sister An."

"Well, you go to make a foundation first, and I will rest for 10 minutes."

"Sister An, the paper is leaking, here is the paper."

"Okay, thanks, let's go."

The nosebleed didn't show signs of stopping, and now I don't know how uncomfortable my body is. My muscles are sore and my limbs are weak, my head is dizzy and swollen, accompanied by signs of tinnitus and rapid heartbeat.After resting for about ten minutes, I went upstairs and entered the dressing room on the second floor. When I entered, Xiao Zhang had just applied facial milk to a customer.

"I'll come, I'm sorry I came up late, please forgive me."

"You have a nosebleed"

"Well, yes, it may be uncomfortable to be hot and cold all at once."

"Several friends around me went to the hospital to get water for heat stroke, and several colleagues were seriously hospitalized. This hot day can kill everyone."

"Sorry, my hands are shaking, please close your eyes and wipe them for you."

Because the shaking of my right hand became more and more obvious, I held my right wrist with my left hand to fix it to avoid the phenomenon of deviation again. The customer was kind and she was not too picky. At 06:30, I walked out of the restaurant with a cosmetic case. When I went from the cool indoor temperature to the sweltering outdoor space, I only felt a buzzing in my head, and then my eyes swirled for a while.

"Sister An, are you okay?"

"It's okay, call a car."

"Oh, are you going home or going to Sen Miao's side?"

When Xiao Zhang asked me whether I was going home or going to Sen Miao, I wanted to say go home, but when the words were about to blurt out, I stopped my voice and told Xiao Zhang to go to Sen Miao with her.Xiao Zhang met many friends through Sen Miao, and they often got together to chat and laugh.In the taxi, I leaned my head on the door and window to reduce the slightest pain in my brain. When the car stopped and opened the door, my feet fell to the ground, and I felt dizzy and nauseated. He grabbed my arm and lifted it up. I guess I was afraid that I was going to hit my head on the tree trunk just now.

"Sister An, are you okay, I'll help you go there and you walk slowly."

Xiao Zhang helped me into the store and sat down next to Sen Miao, "Sen Miao, Sister An is not feeling well, it may be heat stroke." Xiao Zhang put me down and explained my situation to Sen Miao.

"Are you feeling bad? I'll take you to the hospital for a checkup."

"No, it's okay, just take a rest, you are busy and you don't have to worry about me."

"Anyang, I'm sorry, I've been irrational recently, I'm sorry."

"Sen Miao, you..."

"Let's stop being so stiff. I won't mention anything about Xiaofeng in the future. Don't take it to heart, okay. We'll get along with each other seriously this year. No matter what the outcome is, I want to work hard." Look, this time I sincerely want to date you."

"Okay, whatever you say, I will cooperate with you."

Sen Miao told me a lot after going home that night, and I can’t remember it afterwards. I just vaguely remember her saying, Anyang, I need time to fade Ke Feng, and time to slowly get her figure out of my mind. Slow removal, it takes time to remove it a little bit until eventually it will be released into the sea.

Sen Miao said that love is a long-term habit, and she said that she hoped that I could let her get another habit.Later, whenever I think of the second half of Sen Miao's words, I will inevitably feel a little sad in my heart, because accepting my love and listening to me tell him, I love you dear baby, is another habit that Sen Miao has acquired.