shadow lover

I think Sen Miao must be in the eyes of the people around her recently. She must be unhappy and the troubles have reached the limit of her tolerance. Otherwise, people will not call me one after another to ask why I treat her like this. She drinks and gets drunk and she feels depressed She is melancholy and sensitive, does all this really have something to do with me?

A few women came to me when I was doing makeup for customers just now, Xiao Zhang saw them and called for someone, then Xiao Zhang put down his work and went to talk to them in a low voice, I just glanced at those people and continued without saying a word. Keep your head down and work until you finish the job at hand.

"Are you looking for me?"

"Let me ask you, do you have Sen Miao in your heart? What do you think of Sen Miao? If you don't like her, you can break up with her. Why do you have to torture her?"

"Sorry, I can't understand what you are talking about. I have work to ask you to leave later."

"How can Sen Miao like a cold-blooded guy like you? Do you still have a conscience?"

"Sen Miao's matter can be resolved by herself, so I don't need to trouble everyone to worry about it."

"Stop, Anyang, don't be shameless."

"What's the matter with beating someone? Can you guys have some quality? If you dare to touch me today, the object of your mutual admiration will break up with you tomorrow. Believe it or not."

Faced with the situation where I was absolutely vulnerable, I chose to get out as soon as possible. Xiao Zhang was absent all afternoon and was absent-minded and didn’t know what to think. When the next taxi was about to board, he suddenly grabbed my arm and said, "Sister An, I beg you, go and see her, please, Sister An, please." Looking at Xiao Zhang's pair of feeling With anxious eyes that were about to shed tears, I asked her to get in the car together.

When I got out of the car and walked towards the door of the store, I regretted that I agreed to Xiao Zhang to come with her, because I saw Sister Ke, Mr. Mu and others in the store, and I saw Sen Miao sitting next to Sister Ke, smiling at her, and gave her Delicate cakes, every time I am in front of Sister Ke, I can feel the light in Sen Miao's eyes, and every time I face Sister Ke, I can see her natural care and love that does not need to be deliberately expressed.

I walked over to say hello to everyone, then sat down and listened to their chatting silently, and secretly looked at Sen Miao's side face with a kind and sweet smile. I wonder why I don't want to get close to her, why I don't want to get close to that soft beauty, how can I I don't want to... It's just that now I clearly know my position and the role of my existence.

After sitting next to Sen Miao for a while, I got up and went outside to smoke. My fingers trembled slightly when I lit the cigarette. The sweltering heat outside made my chest more and more uncomfortable. I took a deep breath of the cigarette and poured out another one to light .

"Anyang"

Hearing the call above my head, I raised my head and looked up. There were two people standing in front of me. One was Mo Han and the other didn’t know him. He looked at the cigarette butt at my feet and said, "You smoke like this, you don't want your lungs anymore, why are you in trouble?"

"Who is that girl, she can't be a girlfriend."

"We've just met, so we're considered ordinary friends now."

"Why did you come here?"

"Oh, my friend's house is here for a gathering, and I took a look at the nearby houses by the way."

"Go in and sit down, it's cool in the room."

Mohan turned her head and glanced at me when she opened the door and was walking towards the seat. I noticed her doubts and then said, "This is the store opened by Sen Miao, and we are together again."

"Go and sit with me"

"No, I can do it, you can go with your friends."

I can, I really can, I can face life and death alone, loneliness and tribulation alone, but is it just facing Sen Miao's sweetheart, why not?Is it heartache or liver pain or stomach pain or where it hurts, I actually can't tell the difference. When Sen Miao sent Sister Ke and others away, I smashed the glass in my hand. I didn't mean it, but I don't know why I suddenly make such a move.

I lost my temper in front of Sen Miao in front of all the customers in the store, and I poured beer all over her face in front of her friends, the inexplicable anger went straight to the top of my head, even though I tried my best to calm myself down Come down, but I still can't extinguish the burning flame. "Anyang, what are you doing, why are you losing your temper for no reason?"

"Hmph, why am I so owed today, why did I come here, I'm so fucking cheap, I really deserve it."

"what did you say you"

"I'm talking to Fu Senmiao, what kind of things are you doing to make her speak on her behalf, get the hell out of here, hear me?"

"you……"

"Anyang, I know you are angry, let's go home and talk about it, don't make trouble here."

"Okay, I'll go out and wait for you."

Even I myself did not expect that I would be so excited when I saw Sister Ke again, and my emotions could not be appeased. After returning home, we sat in the cramped space and looked at each other. At the same time, I raised my arm and gave Senmiao a slap, and I said, "Fu Senmiao, you owe me this, don't feel wronged."

"I'm not wronged, I should hit you, I made you wronged."

"Fu Senmiao, do you know that at the beginning I thought I met a good person, I was afraid that you would think that I was not good enough, I will treat you wholeheartedly, I will put all my thoughts and emotions on you, even if you say you have someone else in your heart I can bear it and accept the fact that you only use me as a substitute. Why did I become addicted to tobacco? Wasn’t it because of you that I was addicted to smoking? Yes, I still like you and I still have feelings for you in my heart But this does not mean that you can continue to humiliate me, you can continue to trample on my dignity and cross my bottom line. I can't control the places I can't see, but from now on you are not allowed to show favor to anyone in front of me, This also includes Ke Feng, did you hear that?"

Senmiao, I'm sorry for making you sad, I'm sorry that I didn't control my emotions well, I didn't work hard to suppress my anger, I'm really sorry, but I have also reached the limit, I really can't bear so many things, Feel sorry.

That night, I was so angry that my stomach cramped. Sen Miao hugged her legs and huddled on the short sofa all night without closing her eyes. This was the most words we talked after we got together again. The room was full of my gasping and Sen Miao's intermittent sobbing.

One day I went to Sister Ke alone. I asked Sister Ke about the story between her and Sen Miao. I said I wanted to hear it. When my sister fell into self-blame, I said to her: "Sister Ke, can you cut off contact with Sen Miao, and be tough on her and keep her away from you?"

"Because I affected you, right?"

"Sister Ke, can you do me a favor?"

"what"

"Let her put you down"

Sen Miao, it's hard to imagine how much pain you'll have to go through before you can really let go of Sister Ke, but I don't want to wait indefinitely, when Sister Ke was pushed to the ground by me and President Mu rushed over and grabbed my collar and punched Swing down, when Sister Ke was taken to the hospital and you hurried over and asked me why, I said, "Because I hate her, especially."

I was beaten because I hurt Mrs. Ke. Mr. Mu beat me up in front of you. I didn't fight back or refute, and you didn't step forward to stop me. You just watched Mr. Mu punch me and kick me. On me, all the people present did not speak a word, they just said lightly when they saw me lying on the ground, you shouldn't hurt Xiaofeng.

Get up and lean on the wall and move out step by step, Sen Miao, Sister Ke said that President Mu's love once made her feel suffocated, she said she is very grateful to you but can only say sorry to you.Sen Miao, you feel sorry for Sister Ke and think she should be treated kindly, but what about me, am I a bad person, and I should be rotten, right?

After leaving the hospital, I didn’t go home but took a taxi to the cemetery. It was raining and I knelt in front of the tombstone and knelt there dumbly. I didn’t know why I came here to be beside their biological mother and daughter. When the thunder sounded again, I stood up slowly while holding my knees, turned and left.Yes, my mother is accompanied by An An, whom she misses so much. I shouldn’t bother them. No one would listen to my thoughts. I raised my face to let the fast-falling raindrops hit my face, and the tears and rain mixed together. Together, I did not cry, there is nothing to cry, I am not wronged, no one has hurt me, all this is just a short-lived beautiful picture.