shadow lover

My friend called me temporarily to help. I took the makeup box and I went straight to the destination. When I arrived, the backstage was already busy and there was no extra time. I put down my things and started to make up the models sitting in front of the dressing table.

The phone in my pocket rang while I was working, and I ignored it and continued working until all the models were on stage. When the phone rang again, I answered the call. Since the last time Mohan sent me home, my emotions have fallen into a low ebb , I don't want to see Sen Miao's misty eyes, and I don't want to hear Mo Hanyou's melancholy voice.

"An'an, why don't you answer the phone?"

"I'm busy, I'll hang up if it's okay."

"An'an, I miss you."

Before Mo Han was about to speak, I turned off the phone, bent down to pack up my things, and took the money to leave. A few days ago, Sen Miao said that she planned to open a music water bar, and then we talked about it not far from Mr. Mu's house. When I came down to a store, the speed was so fast that I didn't have time to participate.Wandering aimlessly in the street with a makeup case alone, I unknowingly missed Sen Miao's off-duty time, and it was almost seven o'clock when I came back to check the time.

Today, I didn't go to pick her up from get off work. Today, she didn't see me the first time she walked out of the company building. She looked at the phone screen and smiled at herself. It turns out that this is the relationship between us and my position in her heart.I'm not asking for anything, but as the most common friend who meets every day, if you don't see that person at a certain time, will you still call to say hello?

Put the mobile phone back into the pocket, then raised his hand to take a taxi back, got out of the car and walked into the community, turned right and stopped, after a while, he entered the unit door and then walked through the elevator door into the stairwell.Sitting in the empty stairwell, he took out the cigarette in his trouser pocket and lit it, closed his eyes and leaned against the white wall to empty his mind.

I don’t know how long I sat in the stairwell before standing up stiffly with the wall in hand. When I used the key to open the anti-theft door, I heard the person in the room talking on the phone.

"I found a decoration company. When the design drawing comes out, I will show it to you. You can choose it for me. The store I rent is directly across the road. You can see it when you come out. In the future, you can ask Mu Ze to accompany you. You come here together, and President Mu can feel at ease when you come to me."

When Sen Miao saw me entering the room, she just nodded at me and did not respond. I put down the makeup case in my hand and went to the bathroom to take a shower with my pajamas. After the shower fell, I pressed my head against the wall to relieve the discomfort when my nerves were provoked. , The water kept rushing down, and finally the hot water ran out, and the cold water gushed.

She won't tell me about Sen Miao's plan, and I don't know her true inner thoughts. She is doing what she wants to do and thinks it is worth doing, but I am not in her plan, I understand.

When I decided on something, I also made a decision. For me, I set aside a lot of free time because I want to improve my relationship with Sen Miao, and I want to spend all my time because I don’t want to have too much time with Sen Miao. Uncomfortable contact, for whatever purpose I don't want to leave her, I really don't.

One day at work, I met a difficult little model, which finally caused the cooperating staff around me to go on strike collectively. The photographer and I glanced at each other, and the photographer turned his back angrily, and stepped forward to the place. The famous model first apologized, then said good things, and finally said that if the final sample is not satisfactory, she can put all the responsibility on me, and I will take care of any problems. After persuading her for a long time, she agreed to continue shooting.

After the shooting, I went out to eat with everyone. In fact, I am a very homely person and I don’t like lively group activities. I didn’t want to go home so early, so I went out with a group of people to have fun. Later, I found out that there were too many people and joked. Laughing will also relax you.In this way, I continued to go home after twelve o'clock in the evening, until one day Sen Miao called me after ten o'clock and asked me why I was going back. That night we tore off the hypocrisy of the mask with our own hands.

"What kind of work do you take these days? Don't do it after you finish it. It's not safe in the middle of the night."

"Did I come back too late and affect your sleep, then I will wait for you to wake up before coming back."

"What do you mean, okay, let me ask you, have you gone to work? You come back every night smelling of cigarettes and alcohol. What kind of work do you say is like this?"

"Ordinary work"

"Anyang, what's your attitude?"

"Sen Miao, did I say that whether you love me or not, I will respect your choice, that's why you turn a blind eye to me and ignore me with peace of mind. In the eyes of outsiders, Sen Miao is considerate and considerate How come you disappeared from here. I know that since I have made a promise, I don’t want to ask for it, but Sen Miao, can you give me a little bit of thought, you can’t give me a little bit.”

"If you feel that I have hurt you, you can leave at any time now. The original agreement was just a verbal agreement. I said..."

"You said that it was not so easy for you to come out, you said that your love for her was buried deep in your heart, you said that you couldn't easily pull away and fall in love with another person wholeheartedly, you also said that you chose me in the first place It's because I'm like Sister Ke and because I'm sensible, don't tell me I'm leaving, I can leave now."

"Stop, where are you going in the middle of the night?"

"I can go anywhere as long as I don't get in your way."

"Anyang, let's calm down, okay? I know I'm not just ignoring you, I also know my own problems, please give me some time."

"You always knew, didn't you always pretend to be confused, Sen Miao, didn't you say that I can leave at any time, but now you stop me and don't want me to go, I am that kind to you The kind of person who grows tasteless and discards it, will you kick me away without hesitation after you can't find a trace of Sister Ke in me, right? Sen Miao, Is this fun and interesting?"

"I'm not……"

"Let go, do you still remember that I said that the thing I hate the most is being someone else's shadow, Fu Senmiao, I hate you, I've had enough of your indifferent attitude of ignoring you, I take it back In the past, just pretend that we didn't know each other, so be it."

Sen Miao, I don't want to leave you, but I really don't know how to face you and continue to live. Don't blame me for giving up on chasing love so easily. Love is like a gift from God to me, and you are like a rare gift in a thousand years The pearls I have are more than any precious gift in this world.

I love you, thank you for letting me taste the ups and downs of love, thank you.In the end, we let go of each other and returned to our original lives.

"Let's go away"

Hug as if we've never been together

It's too late to explain whether it's good or not

Forget it, it doesn't matter what I paid

I ignore myself just because I met you

I can't help it. It's terrible. I'm shameless.

I'm too stupid to be desperate all the time

Can't say love, don't lie, just love a little

Can't say hate, don't bother, don't pretend to sigh

Just pretend I'm too troublesome and keep hurting myself

I tell myself that's how it feels

Why was it so crazy by accident?

A hug and then a good awakening can't last long

Good or bad, let's not pursue it

Forget it, no matter how much I give, it's not enough

I'm finally saved, I don't want to show my shame

Can't help it? Everyone don't stay

Always struggling to get along will always be exhausted

Can't say love, don't lie, just love a little

Can't say hate, don't bother, don't pretend to sigh

Just pretend I'm too troublesome and keep hurting myself

I tell myself that's how it feels

Why was it so crazy by accident?

Don't regret it even if you miss it

In the future you will inevitably think of me

not bad

will you be sad when i'm not here

Are you free enough for me?

Can't say love, don't lie, just love a little

Don't hate, don't pester, don't pretend to sigh

forgive everything forgive everything

I try to find the answer and the answer is simple

simple pity

Because we grow up we have to get used to it

Because we grow up, we suddenly say that we are scattered