love of life

Lin Zexi took two steps towards Gu Ming, put his arms around him, leaned on his chest and said, "Gu Ming, I'm not a casual person, and I'm not that passive and easy-going. If I don't like it or don't want it, I will I will definitely refuse, but I didn't refuse you. When you told me that you liked me, when you hugged me, I never refused. I... like you, From a long time ago, maybe from the first time I saw you, maybe from the time you took me to the hospital with a dark face, or maybe from the time you kept staring at me but refused to admit it, I started to like you You. Later, no matter how you persuaded me to stay, you insisted on leaving because I had confirmed my feelings for you. I didn’t want to be just your housekeeper or roommate. I wanted more, but you couldn’t give it to me.”

After hearing his confession, Gu Ming felt much more at ease. He stretched out his hand to hold him in his arms, and continued to ask: "Then I want to ask another question, did you regard me as Wang Yijie's shadow when you first got along with me?" ? Since when did you separate me from him?"

Lin Zexi looked at him and thought for a while and said, "To be honest, when Teacher Tian gave me your photo at the beginning and asked me to be your driver, I really decided to take the job because you looked like Wang Yijie. But from the first time I saw you, I found that you are completely different from him, not at all. Getting along with people starts with appearance and ends with character. Maybe I have lived in the dark for too long, you It was like a ray of bright sunshine shining into my life, which made me unable to take my eyes off from now on.”

Gu Ming unconsciously tightened the arms holding him. He didn't expect that he, who was not good at words, would say such provocative love words, which made him blush.

Lin Zexi continued: "Gu Ming, I like you, don't doubt me, okay? Don't deny my past, let me face him calmly, pay off my debts, maybe one day I won't be Obsessed."

These words melted into Gu Ming's heart like a trickle of warmth. He said he liked him several times in a row, and these few words were enough to make him forget other details, so he nodded blankly and said, "Okay, I believe in you, but I still want to say that you don't owe him anything at all, it's not fair..."

"Everyone has a different perspective on problems, and their feelings are different. Just let it go, maybe one day, I will no longer be attached to it naturally. I don't want to change my mind by force. If I don't believe it, it's quite So I lied to you, and I lied to myself. In short, I promise you that you will not do anything that crosses the line."

Gu Ming was silent for a while and said: "Then can you tell me the content of every exchange you have?"

Lin Zexi nodded in agreement.Gu Ming, who was holding him, had a stone hanging in his heart, full of worries.

After two days of seemingly peaceful days, finally, something broke out.That afternoon, when Gu Ming came home from get out of class, he found that Lin Zexi hadn't come back, and he hadn't seen anyone until six o'clock.He was calling him when he heard him open the door and come in.

"Zexi, don't you only have two classes this afternoon? Why did you come back so late?" Gu Ming asked.

"Some things are delayed." Zexi hurried to the kitchen after changing her shoes.

"I'll make dinner tonight, take a break and see you sweat profusely from running." Gu Ming said.

"Oh, then I'll put things first." Lin Zexi walked towards the room with her bag on her back.

At the dinner table, Gu Ming continued to ask: "Zexi, where did you go? You were sweating profusely from running just now."

"I..." He hesitated, but said truthfully, "I went to the bank."

"What are you doing at the bank? Are you in a hurry to spend money? Tell me, I'll just transfer the money to you with my mobile phone. Why go to the bank to queue up, there are so many people." Gu Ming said.

"Actually, he mentioned that he set up a company here, specializing in cross-border e-commerce. He invited me to join, and I invested some money in it." Lin Zexi said.

Gu Ming stopped what he was doing, and asked calmly, "Who is he? Wang Yijie? How much did you vote for?"

"One hundred thousand."

Gu Ming put the bowls and chopsticks on the table, took a breath, tried his best to restrain his emotions and said, "One hundred thousand, is that all your money? You just give him everything he told you." ?”

"It's not giving, it's investment. I have a share." Lin Zexi said.

"Investment? Still occupying shares? He is a cross-border e-commerce business? Have you seen his business license? Where is his office? Do you develop your own app or open a store on a large portal website? What kind of products are you selling? Are you mainly exporting or importing? Ah? Is there any institution abroad? Is it shipped directly from a bonded warehouse or purchased from a foreign agent? Have you asked about this? Have you understood? He said he asked you to invest and you voted? How many shares will he give you? 3% or 5% ? Why are you so easy to deceive?" Gu Ming became angrier as he spoke.

Lin Zexi also put down the bowls and chopsticks in his hand, and said, "Why do you always target him like this? How much do you know about his company? How can this not be true? Besides, it's my own money, I'm happy. "

Gu Ming sighed heavily with a dark face and said, "I'm happy! Do you still remember what kind of life you first lived? You usually go to the vegetable market to buy vegetables, and you have to haggle for a few cents for a long time. You have worked so hard to save so much You are happy to take out the money so generously all at once? What kind of obsession did Wang Yijie make you? Even if you owed him your life in the previous life, you should pay back what you have done in this life."

Lin Zexi looked at him with red eyes, but said nothing.The determination and firmness revealed in his eyes completely angered Gu Ming, he finally couldn't hold back the emotions in his heart, and shouted loudly: "Lin Zexi, I forbid you to see him again, and I forbid you to contact him again. Pay a bullshit debt, you don't owe him at all."

Lin Zexi shook his head and said, "Gu Ming, you are not qualified to do this. I promise you to tell you everything between me and him, and I have not betrayed you. You have no right to restrict my life and freedom of making friends." Said After finishing, he stared at Gu Ming for a long time, and seeing that the other party had no intention of taking back what he said just now, he got up and went back to the room.

Gu Ming held back his anger, picked up the car keys on the table and went out.

Lin Zexi felt very uncomfortable when he heard the sound of Gu Ming closing the door and leaving.Emotionally, he could understand why Gu Ming was angry, but to him, Wang Yijie was not just an old friend, but more like a mission and responsibility in life.He somehow felt obliged to help him and support him unconditionally.Everything he does will only lighten the burden in his heart, and will not bring him happiness.But Gu Ming is different, during the days with him, he really felt the steadiness and fun of life, he felt relaxed and happy.However, for the soul, Wang Yijie is like a heart disease, lightening the burden is a necessity of life, while Gu Ming is like a luxury.At this moment, he couldn't help but began to wonder if his life shouldn't be happy and worthy of being loved?The sound of the door closing when Gu Ming left seemed to take away the light that had finally shone in from his heart.He curled up on the bed alone, as if he had returned to two years ago, and even his stomach, which had been healthy for a long time, seemed to start to colic.

Suddenly, Lin Zexi's cell phone rang.He hurriedly took it over and took a look. It wasn't Gu Ming, but Jiang Yu.He frowned slightly, but still connected the phone.

"Hello." Lin Zexi pretended to be unharmed and greeted, and the person on the receiver immediately heard something strange.

"Zexi? What's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell?" Jiang Yu asked with concern.

"It's okay, I'm a little tired from training recently." He made up a random reason, and didn't want to have an in-depth chat with him.

"Really? I heard something wrong with your voice. Didn't Gu Ming take care of you by your side? Ask him to cook some porridge for you, pour some hot water or something." Jiang Yu said.

"He just happened to be out on something right now." Lin Zexi cheered up and said.In the previous chat, Lin Zexi had clearly told Jiang Yu that he and Gu Ming were officially together.Jiang Yu looked open-minded and didn't get too entangled. The two have always maintained a relationship of friends, which made Lin Zexi much easier to get along with.

"He doesn't know you're unwell, does he? How about I call him and tell him to come back and take care of you?" Jiang Yu said.

"No need, I'm really fine, I've already laid down, just take a nap." Lin Zexi stopped him quickly.

"Okay then. To be honest, if I didn't know that you have a good relationship, I would have thought the two of you were arguing from your tone of voice just now." Jiang Yu said.

Lin Zexi was silent for a while, and asked simply: "Really? You think too much, it's nothing."

"Ah That's good."

Halfway through the conversation, Luka's call came in, and Lin Zexi took the opportunity to hang up Jiang Yu's call.Although Jiang Yu regards the relationship between the two as friends now, Lin Zexi still feels an inexplicable ambiguity from the words.So he tried to keep in touch with him as little as possible, and every time he chatted, he stopped politely.

"Hey, Luka, what's the matter so late?" In contrast, chatting with Luka is a chat in the true sense, much more relaxed, without worries at all.

"What's wrong with your voice? Are you not sick? Is that someone not around to take care of you? Did you take your medicine?" Luka asked.

"It's okay, I spoke a little louder just now, and I'm a little hoarse."

"Then you should pay attention to it. It's hard to feel hot. Last year, I struggled for a whole month. It killed people. By the way, I just called to ask you how your afternoon business is going? You Did you really give him money?" Luka asked gossipingly.

"It's not giving, it's investing. Why is it so strange for you to say it out of your mouth?" Lin Zexi couldn't help emphasizing.

'Who else?Did that person say the same thing?Let me tell you, even men will be upset.Secretly giving money to my ex-boyfriend, if this happens to my family, I will definitely teach him how to behave. "

"What you mean is that you want to teach me how to be a man."

"I can't be so rude and direct to you. I can only talk to you about my life experience. I think the past is over, and there is no need to carry such a heavy burden. You didn't do anything wrong subjectively. It's fair and unfair. How can you control so much. There are so many unfair things in this world, and they are all fate. You treat him like this as a benevolence, and you should always think about yourself. "Luka thinks his life is simply too hard, After finally getting on the track, he still had trouble with himself, so he tried to persuade him.

"Well, maybe this is it, I don't have any more money." Lin Zexi replied casually, looking a little absent-minded.

"Okay, okay, every time I persuade you, I will be so virtuous, and I won't bother to talk about it in the future. Then who is it? Isn't he always talking around when I call you? It's surprisingly quiet today."

"I told him about it and after we had a few words he went out."

"How...how did he find out?" Luka asked.

"I took the initiative to tell him."

"What? You just told him?"

"Because I promised him not to hide it before."

"Since you have done it, you have to find a way to hide it, or don't do it. What are you thinking? Do you want to break up?"

"I didn't do anything, I just felt obligated to help him. I thought he would understand if I confessed."

"Zexi, you can't rub the sand in a relationship. No one will understand this kind of thing. Just imagine, if he also contacted his ex-boyfriend or ex-girlfriend every day and gave him a lot of money, would you understand? Can you accept it?"

"He is just an old friend. I have an obligation and responsibility to him, which has nothing to do with feelings."

Luka said helplessly: "Well, I don't want to listen to your inexplicable theories anymore. Just a word, if you want to continue with Gu Ming, you should break up with your ex-boyfriend as soon as possible, otherwise you will score sooner or later. Think about it carefully."