love of life

Recently, Gu Ming has always felt uneasy for no reason.Because the time for the two of them to leave get out of class was not the same, Lin Zexi usually wouldn't let Gu Ming go to school to pick him up.In the past few days, the university held a sports meeting, and Gu Ming's project was scheduled in the morning, so he could leave early in the afternoon.He glanced at Zexi's class schedule, and the training class ended at four o'clock this afternoon.On a whim, he wanted to pick him up.He parked his car in the parking lot near the school, walked to the school gate, and saw Lin Zexi walking out of the school with his schoolbag on his back, followed by a tall man.He originally thought it was Liang Chenxin, but he was wondering where Luka had gone.He walked over quickly and was about to say hello to them, when suddenly his face turned dark, his facial features and figure were Wang Yijie who had been hidden in Lin Zexi's wallet for so many years.Although his skin was darker and his body was stronger, his face remained the same.He actually returned to the country and even met Lin Zexi in private.He subconsciously dodged and hid behind the tree, watching the two walk out of the school gate together.

Gu Ming despises his stalking behavior, but he can't help but follow them all the way to the entrance of the nearby supermarket.The two finally broke up, and after Wang Yijie walked into the nearby neighborhood, Lin Zexi went into the supermarket to buy vegetables, and then went home.Gu Ming watched Lin Zexi walk into the corridor, then took a taxi back to school and drove home.Along the way, his mind was muddied by the fire rushing up from his chest, and he couldn't think about anything.There are only a few questions on my mind: Why did he come back?Why did Zexi want to see him?What on earth does he want to do?The car drove into the parking lot, and he sat in the car for more than ten minutes to calm down before returning home.He kept telling himself that impulsiveness was useless, he had to solve the problem calmly, and find a way to make Lin Zexi take the initiative to alienate the other party.

As soon as he got home, Lin Zexi asked, "Why are you so late today?"

Gu Ming said, "There's something wrong."

"What's the matter with you today? It seems that something is wrong with your expression." Lin Zexi asked.

Gu Ming raised his head and glanced at him, but didn't answer directly, only one question filled his mind: what's wrong with you, why can you be so calm and act like a normal person?

Gu Ming decided to ask him a question: "No, how about you? How are you doing today?"

"Very good. There is a monthly exam next week. I have to prepare well in the next few days." Lin Zexi said while busy.

Seeing Lin Zexi's unchanging expression, Gu Ming finally couldn't help it anymore. He felt that he had to clarify the problem, otherwise he would be driven crazy. "Lin Zexi, who is that person who walked out of school with you today?"

Lin Zexi stopped what he was doing, and said with a calm face, "Are you looking for someone to follow me again?"

"No. I wanted to pick you up early after school today, but I saw you coming out with another person. That person is Wang Yijie, right? Why did he return to China suddenly? Still pestering you?" Gu Mingyue said more and more emotionally.

"Yes, we just met by chance, and he didn't bother me. He lives nearby. He just returned to China and is not familiar with the domestic situation. Occasionally, he will ask me to help him familiarize himself with the domestic environment." Lin Zexi said lightly. explain.

"Why didn't you come back for so many years, why did you come back at this time? Where did he go when you were in prison because of him? When you came back, you happened to live next to you. Do you believe in such a coincidence?" Gu Ming asked excitedly.

"So what if you believe it or not? Once he said that, I'll just believe it." Lin Zexi said disapprovingly.

"Just this one letter? He just approached you step by step like this, God knows what else he will do to you." Gu Ming was very annoyed by Lin Zexi's indifferent attitude.

"What else do you think he can do? Take me away from you? Are you so unconfident?" Lin Zexi asked back.

"It's not about this problem, I'm not just jealous, I...have you forgotten? Your grievances at that time were all because of him. If it wasn't for him, you wouldn't have been in prison for so long, and It won't be reduced to that kind of situation." Gu Ming said.

Lin Zexi put down the bowl in his hand and said, "Gu Ming, that matter wasn't his fault. Seriously speaking, I owe him the right thing. So if he asks me for help with anything, I will do it to the best of my ability. He will not be rejected."

"Lin Zexi, why are you so brainless? After all these years in prison, you should pay off everything, right? What else do you want to do for him? Can you take care of yourself first?" This, Gu Ming's anger didn't come to one place.

"In short, he was the real victim of what happened back then. If it wasn't for me, his life could have been better and more stable without suffering physical and mental trauma." Lin Zexi said stubbornly.

"What about you? Have you thought about yourself?" Gu Ming asked.

"Thinking about it, I've been thinking about it all these years, but compared to me, he is the pure victim. If it wasn't for me, he wouldn't have been severely injured and lost his memory."

"Seriously injured? Amnesia? Did he tell you all this? Do you believe what he said?"

"At that time, I saw him lying in the intensive care unit. If it weren't for this, his parents would not have kneeled in front of me and begged me to save him." Lin Zexi said.

Gu Ming suddenly stood up from the dining table, touched his forehead with his left hand, turned his back to Lin Zexi to calm down for a while, then turned around slowly, and asked softly: "Zexi, if, I mean if, Wang Yijie didn't Wasn't he injured so badly? What if he was only slightly injured and could be discharged from the hospital in a week? Are you still so attached to him and this matter?"

Lin Zexi said with unusual firmness in his eyes: "There is no if, it is impossible to have such an if. It is meaningless for you to ask such a question. I understand your anxiety now, and I know the doubts in your heart. I can only say that you and him appeared in the Different stages of my life have different meanings to me. My relationship with him is over, I hope you understand that, but I owe him forever. If he really needs my help, I can't help it .”

Gu Mingyin suppressed his emotions, and said with red eyes: "You will agree to whatever he asks you to do? Will you agree to continue to be with him if he asks you? Then what am I? The first time I put money in your wallet When I saw his picture in the Internet, and when people kept telling me that I looked like him, I kept asking myself, I always wanted to ask you, what am I in your heart? Is it just a substitute for him? Now the Lord Come on, should my spare tire give way?"

Gu Ming finally saw a ripple in his eyes, "Gu Ming, that's not the case. I never regarded you as his substitute. Although you have somewhat similar looks, you have completely different personalities. My relationship with you The mode is also completely different from him. The more we get along, the more clearly I can tell the difference, and I am with you now."

Gu Ming said: "Okay, since you know that you are with me now, then I ask you to cut off contact with your ex-boyfriend. Do you think this request is too much? Or do you think that even if I am still entangled with my past girlfriend, you will not Do you think it doesn't matter?"

Lin Zexi's eyes were filled with unprecedented sadness and determination: "Gu Ming, this is different. I don't have any extra feelings for him now, I just feel that I owe him. I need to carry this heavy shackles to move forward. The only way I got through those dark days was to keep reminding myself that I was sacrificing myself for a good relationship. It's the same now, whenever I recall those dark days, only those feelings make me feel less hopeless .For me, the important thing is not the relationship. The relationship has long since faded away with time. It is more of a beautiful symbol with symbolic meaning. If I even give up this, my whole life It's all going to collapse."

"It's past, can't it? Let the emotion you mentioned be fixed in the past, and don't let it disturb the present life. Let's completely sever ties with the past and start over, okay?" Gu Mingqi reluctantly said persuading.

"Those heavy pasts made me who I am now, and they cannot be separated. Gu Ming, it took me a long time to get out of it. It is also thanks to you, who walked into my life at the most difficult time. In the past, I was like a tattered rag doll, a crooked tower of building blocks, which could only be maintained by tinkering and tinkering. If you like me, please accept me as it is and accept my past."

"Don't you think your request is a little too much? Is it fair to me?" Gu Ming said indignantly.

Lin Zexi stared blankly at him, and said sadly: "Maybe you are right, this is not fair to you, but even if I give you all of my broken body, there is only so much I can have, I'm sorry.

Gu Ming yelled loudly: "Lin Zexi, you are playing hooligans by saying this, and I am determined to let you go."

Lin Zexi shook his head, tears slowly flowing from the corners of his eyes: "Gu Ming, I'm not playing tricks or tricks, I'll give you everything I can. The only thing that can't be changed is the past. I can only say that if you There are similar things in front of me, and I will make sacrifices for you without hesitation, and I am also willing to..."

Gu Ming interrupted him: "Don't talk nonsense. I won't let you make these sacrifices for me, after all, I'm not that person." Gu Ming spoke later, with unconcealable contempt in his tone.

After a long while of silence, Gu Ming's mood gradually eased, and he began to seek a calm solution to the problem.

"Did he say what to do when he comes back this time, and how long will he stay?" Gu Ming asked impatiently.

Lin Zexi bit her lip and said nothing, with a troubled expression on her face.Gu Ming immediately grasped the crux of the problem.Sure enough, that person came back for Lin Zexi.

"Then what did he tell you?" Gu Ming asked.

"He... only said that he lost his memory after that incident. He didn't remember the past until not long ago, and he returned to China. He didn't say anything else." Lin Zexi said.

"Amnesia? He said the plots in this kind of TV series very smoothly, so you believe it?" Gu Ming's tone was a bit unkind.

"Why don't you believe it? I saw him lying in a pool of blood. The hospital issued a critical illness notice, and he was in a coma for a month. Is it strange that a person who has passed the life and death line loses his memory?" Lin Zexi said confidently.

Gu Ming opened his mouth, but suddenly turned around and lowered his voice and said, "Let's not get entangled in the past, okay?"

Lin Zexi nodded and said, "Okay."

"Then never meet or contact Wang Yijie from now on, okay?" Gu Ming continued to ask.

Lin Zexi looked up at him, not understanding his request, "Gu Ming, what are you doubting? Do you just distrust me so much?"

"It's not a question of trust or not. I just told you not to contact your ex-boyfriend again. Is it wrong? I know how sincere your feelings for him were. You can go to jail for him. How about me? What am I? You haven't even said that you like me, and you haven't officially acknowledged our relationship." Gu Ming's tone became agitated unconsciously, and the emotions that had been suppressed for a long time suddenly came out.

"Are those pale words so important?"

"Important, how do I know what you're thinking if you don't tell me? Isn't it tiring for two people to guess everything in a relationship? Zexi, I want to know what's really going on in your heart, I don't want to be so vague , get along carefully, for fear that you will disappear when you wake up the next morning."

"Gu Ming, what are you thinking? Are you so unconfident in our relationship?"

"Yes, I don't have confidence. After we met again, I have been pestering you, I took the initiative, and even forced you to be with me. I'm really not sure, not sure if you really like me, no Make sure you really want to be with me."

Lin Zexi couldn't bear to see Gu Ming's frustrated and painful face. He began to seriously consider whether he was too inattentive to the other party's feelings.Even if the heart is determined, some straightforward words are needed to express it.