The residual temperature is over

Yu Shiye rushed to the destination all the way, his heart was beating too fast, his chest felt nauseated, he didn't need to look in the mirror, he knew that his face was very ugly.

The senior who sent him looked at him worriedly: "Do you want to take a break? Let me get you a bottle of water."

He shook his head, pushed the senior away, and went to Andre while pressing his chest.Before seeing Andre, he put down his hand and pretended nothing happened.

But this seemed to be seen through by Andre.The old man in the wheelchair waved to him, and when he walked in and bent over, he straightened his hair: "It's a bit messy, don't worry."

"……Um."

"Come on, help me change a suit." Andre said again.

It was only then that Yu Shiye discovered that there was a big bag at Andre's feet. He opened the bag, and unexpectedly found an old helmet inside. Looking at the style, it looked like a football player's helmet that he had seen before.He took out the helmet and put it aside, and took out a set of equally old but well-preserved sportswear from it.

When he took out these things, he noticed that Andre took out his own water bottle again and rubbed it in the palm of his hand.He knew that there was a worn mark on the water bottle that Andre cherished very much, and it looked like what brand it was. Now looking at the same old football helmet, he suddenly understood: "These are yours. ..."

"Everyone has a glorious past." Andre showed a smile on the corner of his mouth, "I used to be a football player, that is, a member of the team we went to watch the game before. Of course, it was a long time ago. It is also a very good decision to recall the past scenery when leaving..."

"Can I accompany you to watch another football game?" Yu Shiye suddenly asked the old man, "You never told me that you are a football player, and I haven't learned about the sport of football, you—"

His voice was fast and hurried at first, but then slowed down. He looked at the old man and saw the old man's eyes.

The old man's eyes were very calm and kind. He didn't say anything, but he seemed to have said everything.

Yu Shiye's voice couldn't continue, he stopped his mouth slumped, and according to Andre's wishes, he first cleaned and groomed him, then helped him change into sports clothes, and finally put the big helmet in his arms.

The old man caressed the helmet lovingly. Although it had been well maintained, there were still spots on the corners of the helmet, just like the hand that was touching the helmet.

"Old man, we are together again." Andre said to himself, and then said to Yu Shiye, "Okay, let's go."

They left the nursing home and went to another place.It was a farewell arranged by the hospital after a series of complicated procedures.

But this is neither a hospital nor a hotel, neither cold nor standardized.

This is a nice house, very cozy, just like home, it has a lot of furniture, every little corner has some thoughtful designs, there are doilies on the table, cushions on the sofa, and a thick The green plush carpet is laid on the ground, like a layer of grass in the house.

They joined the doctor and the police at the open door.

Contrary to Yu Shiye's expectations, the police uniforms and white coats he thought he would see did not appear. The people who came here were all wearing their own daily clothes. They were not like people who came to perform tasks, but more like friends who came to visit .

They exchanged names, and then filed in.

Andre looked at the long table in the room, and motioned for Yu Shiye to take him there.But Yu Shiye's hands holding the handrails were a little stiff, and his legs were also a little stiff, the grass-like ground was more like mud to him, they didn't reach his ankles, sinking him deep here.

At this time, the female doctor pressed Yu Shiye's hand: "You look a little nervous, shall we have a chat?"

"No, no need." It was Andre who answered, he smiled at the female doctor, and then called Yu Shiye, "Xiaoye, let's go."

"I……"

"Let's go. Think about our farewell before." Andre comforted Yu Shiye.

Yu Shiye stopped talking.

He searched his body and squeezed out all the strength hidden in the corners of his body. The veins on his hands bulged and throbbed like the nerves in his head.

But he was finally able to move, and he pushed Andre all the way to the side of the table.

The people are seated.

The female doctor said softly: "I'm going to ask you a question now. This question may happen many times in the following process. I hope you can understand that you can stop it whenever you want..."

"I understand. Do you want to sign some papers?"

"In addition to the documents, I need to verbally confirm your wishes to you."

"Can this be done by my boy?"

Their eyes fell on Yu Shiye.

The female doctor's eyes were very concerned: "Your face is a little pale."

And Andre's is full of encouragement.

Facing these two gazes, Yu Shiye was stunned for a while before he realized what they were talking about just now. He wanted to retreat in a panic, but Andre grabbed his hand first, firmly, not letting him Yu Shiye flinched.

"It's up to you, Ono," Andre said. "It's your voice I want to hear."

Yu Shiye couldn't say no to it.

So the document finally fell into the hands of Yu Shiye.

The thin paper was extremely heavy in his hands, and Yu Shiye's arms drooped uncontrollably. In the end, he sat on a chair, propped his elbows on the table, tried to identify the words with blurred eyesight, and said the words out of his throat:

"I'm going to double check: Are you sure you know what's going to happen next?"

"know."

"Is this your own will?"

"Yes."

"Has sickness tormented you?"

"Yes."

"Are you sure you want to be witnessed by everyone..."

In this paragraph, Yu Shiye's voice suddenly froze, as if he suddenly lost the ability to speak or understand. He opened his mouth in vain, but he didn't know how to make his vocal cords vibrate and make the syllables he wanted.

"—euthanasia."

It was Andre who made up the three for him.

Andre held Yu Shiye's hand on the table, encouraged him, and told him those words.

The old man's hands were fragile and dry, but they carried an unbelievably stable strength. Yu Shiye was like a child learning to talk, stumbling, following others, and said everything:

"Are you sure...you want to die by euthanasia under the witness of everyone?"

His voice was hoarse and painful, as if the word were a knife that cut him as it dragged through his throat.

"Yes, I'm pretty sure."

Intense dizziness rushed into Yu Shiye's mind.

The dizziness messed up Yu Shiye's brain, and he tried hard to understand what Andre meant... Gradually, the dizziness subsided, and he seemed to calm down a bit, and he seemed to be sober after a hangover, suffering soberly .

"Ono, look at me."

Andre spoke, he stared at Yu Shiye:

"Remember our conversation earlier? It was purely my rational choice, and it wasn't pain, at least not entirely. It was fighting for my own sake. It wasn't killing, it was helping."

"Ono, you helped me find peace."

"...Why me?" Yu Shiye was suddenly very sad, and he asked repeatedly, "Why me?"

This time, Andre was silent.

Afterwards, nostalgia flashed in the old man's eyes, and he smiled: "Maybe it's because, the first time I saw you, I knew you were a good boy, right? It's too much for the kind of old man who would agree to someone you don't know. Good boy who asked for..."

Neither of them spoke anymore, and the scenes since they knew each other appeared in the minds of both of them at the same time.

After a while, the female doctor gently reminded Yu Shiye.

Yu Shiye closed his eyes for a while, and when he opened them again, he quickly read the precautions, and then reached out to help Andre.The wheelchair was not comfortable. He helped Andre all the way to the sofa next to him. The long sofa was light blue, a color that was very relaxing and reminiscent of the sky.

They were trapped in the sofa, and Yu Shiye slowly told Andre: "We will take two kinds of medicine later, the first is the anti-vomiting medicine, and the second is the death-killing medicine."

He paused for a long time, and then, without being urged, continued:

"The medicine is a bit bitter. After taking the medicine, you can eat some sugar or chocolate. Then, you still have 2 minutes..."

The female doctor went to prepare the medicine.Someone was taking pictures and videos of them, and it was the police who followed.That would be the last surviving photos and videos of them.

Andre took the document from Yu Shiye's hand, his hands trembled a little, he couldn't turn the paper well, it seemed that the trembling that appeared on Yu Shiye's body just now was transmitted to Andre without anyone knowing it.

I should help him.

A voice appeared in Yu Shiye's heart, urging Yu Shiye to act.

Yu Shiye held Andre's hand tightly, comforting the old man like an old man comforting himself, and then he helped the old man turn the document to the place where he needed to sign.

This action drew a happy smile from Andre.

His hand became steady, and he quickly signed his name on the document.

Then, the medicine was delivered by the female doctor.

First drink the anti-emetic drug, after a short rest, then drink the death drug.

In a transparent plastic cup, there is a shallow bottom of the bottle cap.When Yu Shiye took it, the trembling that had subsided just now returned to him, his hands were shaking all the time, and he was about to overturn the bottle of medicine in the next moment, but at the same time, Andre was also looking at him, His eyes were always full of encouragement and tenderness, until now, he was still telling him:

You are not killing me.

You have given me peace.

The potion was finally put into Andre's hand, and Andre took it, raised his head and drank the potion.

"It's a bit bitter." He commented.

"Would you like something sweet?" asked the female doctor. "We have candy, and you can have chocolate."

Andre straightened his clothes and hugged the helmet. He put the helmet in his arms steadily, and then smiled at the female doctor: "Doctor, if it wasn't at this time, I would definitely ask you for your phone number, but Now I only have the last bit of time left, I have to use it on the most important things, I'm sorry..."

His voice suddenly changed, became low and vague, and when he spoke, he had a breathy sound, like snoring.

That was the drug working in his body.

He turned to Yu Shiye, and he stretched out his hand: "... Xiaoye, today, am I brave?"

"You are brave, you are a hero." Yu Shiye grabbed Andre's hand and told him clearly.

"...you will be braver than me." Andre pulled the corner of his mouth and muttered, "Don't be afraid, death is not equal to pain, to understand them."

"it is good."

"Water, I'm a little thirsty..." Andre coughed twice, and his body began to tilt when he sat on the sofa, "Also, love is a very good thing, don't refuse..."

"I know."

"I seem to be... sleepy..." Andre's eyelids dropped to cover those emerald green eyes, but the next moment, he tried his best to widen his eyes, and searched Yu Shiye's face with his already dazed gaze, "Listen I said, love is a good thing, don't... don't be afraid to start again because you are afraid of bad results..."

His voice became very low, only his breath remained, but until the last moment of his life, he still cared about it, insisted on looking at Yu Shiye, and persuaded him.

"You have to come out. You have to be happy..."

The old man fell into Yu Shiye's arms, his body was still warm.

It's just that the helmet slipped quietly from his arms.

The female doctor came forward, stroked the old man, then shook her head at Yu Shiye.

Yu Shiye picked up the helmet from the ground, put it back into the old man's arms, let the other person's hand rest on the helmet, hugged the old man, and told the old man:

"Good night, have a good dream."

***

The sky outside the window changed from bright to dark.

Yu Shiye sat on this couch for a long time. At first, the old man accompanied him. Later, they took the old man away, and he sat alone, alone.

Time froze, thinking prolonged, he didn't know what he was thinking, maybe he didn't think about anything.

He didn't cry, and he wasn't sad.

This does not seem to be a sad day, as Andre said, it is a peaceful day.

The moon is high, the breeze is blowing, and the stars are shining, shining in the night eyes of the sleepless earth.

Later, the stars fell asleep, the moon got tired, and the sun reappeared in the sky. Yu Shiye walked out of the house, and there was a senior who had been waiting for him outside the house, and the other party sent him back to school.

When he arrived at school, the senior said something to him, some comforting words.

He heard it and understood it, but he didn't respond. He seemed a little tired. People are always tired after staying up all night.

The senior stepped forward, hugged him, and comforted him.

He was a little dazed, and his gaze was projected on a spot behind the senior, not knowing how to react.When he woke up again, he had already returned to his dormitory.

He locked himself in the dormitory alone for several days, until the funeral home called and asked him to bury Andre.

He finally went out of the room.

Holding the coffin, he witnessed the soil covering the coffin, the lawn weaving with mud, and finally, the blank monument.

Yu Shiye's mind was also blank.

He once promised Andre to write the epitaph, but now he can't write.

When he left here, he contacted Andre once told his skydiving instructor that there are two skydiving modes for beginners, one is that the coach leads a pair of skydiving, and the other is skydiving by himself, and the latter requires a certain amount of training.

Yu Shiye chose the latter.

He quickly ended the training, and took the plane with the coach and flew into the sky.

When the door of the plane is opened in the sky, the blue sky and white clouds, the whole world can be seen at a glance.

He had already made all the preparations, walked to the cabin door, and prepared to jump off.

But at this time, the coach stopped him: "Do you have any amulets? You can take them with you. Or you can pray to the gods you believe in first."

Yu Shiye was stunned for a long time.

He fumbled in his pocket and found something, it was a jade buckle, which was begged by Wen Bieyu to keep him safe.Skydiving should not bring too many personal items, but this jade buckle appeared on him.

He looked at it silently, held it, kissed it, and finally, wrapped it around his wrist.

He jumped down.

Tension controlled his body, and fear tore his heart. During the high-speed fall, he thought he was on the verge of death—until the gathered clouds dispersed in front of his eyes, and a beautiful world appeared. He woke up from fear and tension, as if he was about to die. At the last moment, the drowned person finally remembered that he could swim.

As a result, the unrestrained freedom replaced the fear of heights, and his hands and feet were no longer numb and sweaty.

He finally realized how beautiful the world is.

He also finally understood what he wanted to do.

Whether it's Wen Bieyu's grandfather or Andre, I want...

I want it all, take good care of it.

I want the old people to be properly taken care of until they finally find a peaceful home.

***

After the skydiving, Yu Shiye received a letter from Andre, who was handed over to him by the skydiving coach.

The letter read:

"...by the time you get this letter, I should be in deep sleep. I want to apologize to you, I lied to you, I am a coward. I have never parachuted, all to you The story told is all my longing. I am a rugby player and I have mates who are like brothers, but during a game going to another city, the plane crashed and all my mates died in the accident , and I, because I was fined before the game, couldn’t go, so I survived by luck and stealing... Since then, the fear of the sky has been deeply rooted in my heart, and I have always wanted to overcome it. It fought for most of my life, and when I was finally able to face it, I got sick and couldn't skydive anymore.

From the first moment I saw you, I knew that the child in front of me had the same fear as me.

I hope he can overcome his fears and overcome them while he still has the chance.

Never let opportunities slip by in your life like I did.

Now, you did it.

Ono, I'm proud of you. "

"No, you are not timid at all." Yu Shiye closed the letter and said to himself, "You are very brave, you are a brave person."

Yu Shiye returned to Andre's tombstone.

He knew what to write on it, so he engraved a line of text on it with his own hands.

"He was a brave man."

Then, facing the monument, Yu Shiye thought:

I want to get out.

I will come out.