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Gently opened the door with the key, but the room was pitch black. Mu Hexiao put down the key in his hand and turned on the small light in the living room. Obviously, Tao Jia was not there.For a moment, there was a slight loss in my heart.The previous case has ended and there is no possibility of overtime.There was probably only one place he could go.That place may be full of temptations, but who can tempt a person who has a fatal temptation in himself?

Putting on comfortable home clothes and pouring himself a glass of wine, Mu Hexiao gently pushed Tao Jia's bedroom away. There were still open books on the desk, and some piled up next to it, in a mess.There are papers and pens all over the side, and Mu Hexiao didn't habitually tidy them up, because Tao Jia didn't like others to touch his work things. For Tao Jia, design is not a tool for making a living, but a manifestation of life. Therefore, he Never ignores everything except the people he cares about and his designs.There was a jacket hanging diagonally on the chair. It was still the beige knitted cardigan. Tao Jia liked to put him over the pajamas, because he was cold and always more afraid of the cold than others, so Mu Hexiao gave him this one. Most of Tao Jia's clothes, except for the model clothes he designed himself, were bought with Mu Hexiao. Therefore, it can be said that Mu Hexiao knows Tao Jia's living habits better than he knows his own.There is nothing else in the sight of the bed. The whole room should not be tidy or anything, but it has a fascinating atmosphere.Putting the cup on the bedside, Mu Hexiao browsed the display on the bookshelf, one after another, mostly design books, and many fashion magazines. Most of the models are beautiful and avant-garde. This is indeed Tao Jia's style. He I love collecting these things.

Suddenly, a photo album made Mu Hexiao stop for a while, and he carefully pulled it out and sat on the bed to flip through the pages. It really was that photo album, and Tao Jia had preserved it surprisingly well for so many years. The ribbon pattern on the cover is still bright in color.The group photos of the two of them actually accounted for the majority of them, the shoulder-to-back in primary school, the young and ignorant in junior high school, the shy and shy in high school, but nothing in college, only the one at the school gate, showing Tao Jia pulling Mu Hexiao by force Yes, on the first day of the report, you must keep in mind that the background of the photo can be seen, the sky was cloudless that day, and even the sun was just right on the people.It's just that neither of them expected that this place rewritten their entire lives.

On the last page of the photo album, there are two babies lying on a crib with their fingers intertwined. They are both sleeping soundly, but they haven't let go. Mu Hexiao rubbed the baby's face on the left side of the photo with his fingertips. The corners of the mouth are slightly raised, maybe this is the hint from the so-called God!There is no reason to let go of the hand you hold.

Slowly closing the album, Mu Hexiao emptied all his strength and lay down on the bed, but as if it wasn't enough, he curled up his legs sideways, buried his face in the bedding, and all kinds of past kept emerging.If the two families were not closely related, if they were not born in the same year, if they did not grow up together, if they had never met each other, what would life be like, and how would life change.However, if there is no acquaintance, where should existence find meaning?Mu Hexiao didn't know when he fell in love with Tao Jia, the love came without warning.Maybe it's because no matter how disturbed, as long as Tao Jia sits on the back seat of the bicycle, the mood can fly briskly; maybe it's because when I applied for the school, I didn't hesitate to choose the same school as Tao Jia, but it was completely my own. Not interested in majors.

Ling Yan is really attractive, and even Mu Hexiao understands this.Therefore, it is understandable that Tao Jia got deeper and deeper. It was Tao Jia's first love, and Mu Hexiao knew it.Tao Jia's love was very passionate, even the impulse of moths to the flame, which made him feel faintly afraid, with some ominous premonition.But later Ling Yan actually gave up on his girlfriend, and openly acknowledged the existence of Tao Jia. This little bit of promise allowed Tao Jia to completely ignore other people's behind-the-scenes words.At the end of the first year of freshman year, Tao Jia had been working outside for a long time. At home, he was always a favorite. In order to have his own world outside with Ling Yan, he worked two or three jobs to maintain daily living expenses. , but refused to let Ling Yan bear a penny.The purpose of being so tired is just to snuggle with the one you love for a long time!It's just that later, I don't know who chewed the tongue at Tao's house. Tao Jia was beaten badly by Tao's father. How painful it is to beat someone with a feather duster. It was only when Mu Hexiao helped Tao Jia block it later that he tasted it. It's just that this kind of pain is more painful than Tao Jia's sentence "I'm sure, I will never break up". It seems that at that moment, under the streetlights, I can't tell the difference.In his sophomore year, Tao Jia had already cut off all contact with his family. In fact, Mu Hexiao knew that he would secretly buy things and leave them at the door, and then watch Tao's father throw them all in the trash, but , Tao Jia said, he just wanted to go on, he didn't want to let go, and he didn't want to compromise anymore, Ling Yan was all his vitality, and he couldn't leave him anymore.

What no one expected was that Ling Yan disappeared without warning. One summer vacation, Tao Jia almost collapsed. However, Ling Yan's mother has passed away, and there are no relatives in the family, and Tao Jia has never heard of Ling Yan's father.Later, things changed dramatically. A person who claimed to be Ling Yan's elder brother appeared and said that he could bring Tao Jia to find Ling Yan. Maybe the lie at that moment could have a hundred loopholes, but Tao Jia at that time would not Caring, because he just wants to find him, there is no time to get angry or sad, just want to hug him and turn this long-term worry into tears and cry aloud.It's just that when a scam is exposed, it always reveals suffocating cruelty. When Tao Jia was besieged by a group of people in an abandoned warehouse, he finally heard Ling Yan's voice through the phone. The person who had disappeared for more than a month said Sorry, at that moment he was waiting at the airport abroad.

Mu Hexiao didn't know how tragic the abandoned warehouse was that day. Tao Jia never talked about it, but when he saw the bruised man fainting directly in front of him, he almost forgot what breathing was.But the nightmare still didn't seem to want to stop. After Tao Jia was sent to the hospital, the result was so embarrassingly desperate. Tao's father was so angry that he wanted to strangle Tao Jia to death. Husband and son fought desperately. Mu Hexiao always remembered the conversation between their father and son at that time. Tao Jia said that he didn't regret falling in love, but only regretted that his blind love was wrong.The two father and son were in such a stubborn stalemate, Tao's father was angry, but Tao Jia was unwilling to apologize.

In the end, it was my grandfather who came forward to dissuade the situation. Tao's father left the hospital angrily, and Tao's mother chased after her grandfather because of fear of accidents. Only Mu Hexiao was left in front of Tao Jia's bed, The final blow of this farce didn't stop its coming because of the slightest pity for anyone. On the way home from the hospital, the taxi the three of them were riding in was severely deformed by a truck driven by a drunk driver. Mom and grandpa died on the spot, and Dad Tao was also crippled by the collision and could only rely on crutches for support. Once it rained, his legs would continue to hurt so much that it was impossible to sleep.

Perhaps it was from then on that Tao Jia became unrecognizable. Mu Hexiao clearly realized that Tao Jia had long wanted to seek death. When the funeral began, his concealment was exposed, and Tao Jia ran away from the hospital. On the night when he came out but was not allowed to enter the hall by Tao's father, Mu Hexiao knew that Tao Jia was dead, and the person he knew was dead.The wind on the dam of the reservoir was blowing, but it couldn't blow away the crushed powder of the heart.Until now, Mu Hexiao can still clearly recall every detail of that night, and said to Tao Jia: "Tao Jia, look into my eyes, I know, you want to die a long time ago, you can go Die, I don't care about you, but don't forget, you owe my life to the Mu family, you owe me a life to Mu Hexiao. Escape, as long as you feel that you are worthy of your own conscience. I will not stop you no matter what you want." He seemed to leave resolutely, but he hid behind a tree and watched. The figure in the dark made Mu Hexiao feel so painful In his bones, he was gambling. He knew that Tao Jia could not be saved, and his heart was completely dead, so let himself be selfish for a while, and leave this body behind!Even if it's just a body, otherwise, Mu Hexiao will inevitably bear the responsibility of the two families and live like a walking dead.

The fact is that his understanding of Tao Jia made him win the game. Tao Jia never said death, but to him at that time, living was a hundred times more tormenting than death.Sometimes, Mu Hexiao felt, what if Tao Jia had died?Then he might be dead too!But at least you don't have to watch him suffer so hard, death is actually a pleasure.But since I have chosen, let myself walk with him, the knife mountain of oil, forever, I have been sinking with him, even if there is no result, even if Tao Jia will not choose me in the end, I just want to stay in the bottom of my heart. In the next position, he accompanied him and sentenced himself to life imprisonment for no reason.