GL on the tip of the tongue

"Zhazha, I'm sorry for you, I shouldn't have lied to you, but I really don't know what to do now?" Chen Muhan hugged his legs, sat in the living room, and talked to Xia Weiyang in his heart, "Zhazha , I am really in pain, I love you, please forgive me, okay?" How can it be so painful and heavy to love someone, she misses the old days, and she ruined it all.

Chen Muhan sat in the living room, leaning against the corner of the window, talking to himself, like a person suffering from hysteria, "Zhazha, my love for you has never changed, but I am really tired now, because there is something hidden in my heart. I have too many secrets for you, I really want to tell you all, but it was me who made you like this.” Chen Muhan wiped away his tears, cried and sobbed and said: “If you recover your memory and break up with me, I really will Will be at a loss, scum, tell me what to do? At that time, I drove you away because I was really afraid that Kim Tae Hee would be bad for you. I didn't really want to drive you away. You must still hate me, hate me Then drive you away..."

Chen Muhan choked, "But I really didn't want to drive you away, slag, I love you, how could I drive you away? I always remember the agreement between us, I remember that we can't drive each other away, Sometimes, I really want to tell you everything, you can punish me however you want, but I'm afraid that these things will irritate you, I don't know how these things will affect you, I..." Chen Muhan couldn't continue.

After crying for a long time, her eyes hurt so much that she couldn't open them. Chen Muhan leaned against the window, closed her eyes, and fell asleep in a daze. Not long after, she felt her eyes were hot and humid, and her eyelashes trembled. There is a soft tongue licking her, it must be her little scum.Chen Muhan closed his eyes, stretched out his arms to hug Xia Weiyang, and muttered indistinctly: "I'm sorry~ I'm really sorry~"

"it does not matter."

As if someone said this in her ear, even Chen Muhan, who hadn't fully woke up, was moved, warm tears welled up, and she woke up.It was indeed Xia Weiyang who was licking her, "Baba, why are you crying?" Xia Weiyang asked nervously, licking vigorously, the tears were not clean.

"Scumbag..." Chen Muhan hugged Xia Weiyang, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I hurt the person I love the most, no matter what the reason, it cannot be forgiven.

"Baba, don't cry~" Xia Weiyang's voice was already crying, Chen Muhan held back, but still couldn't hold back the tears, the tears fell on Xia Weiyang's naked back, "Baba~" Xia Weiyang's tears also fell "Ba Ba crying makes me feel uncomfortable~" Xia Weiyang cried out.

In the end, it was Chen Muhan who held back his tears and teased Xia Weiyang for a long time before he could coax him well.In front of Xia Weiyang, she must be a sunny and happy person, she is Xia Weiyang's sun.

Such days lasted for a while, Xia Weiyang became more and more sensitive, and there were more and more problems, Chen Muhan could change the topic at first, and could make up a lie, but later, she needed to make up more lies to make her better a lie.

Chen Muhan has never lived so tired. She loves someone but lies to her, how tormented she is.But in front of Xia Weiyang, Chen Muhan can't express her emotions, she is Xia Weiyang's barometer, if she is sunny, Xia Weiyang will be happy, if it rains, Xia Weiyang will cry even more sadly.

Chen Muhan also began to change, and Mu Zihe could feel that from her paintings, both the color and the style had become gloomy.

In terms of works, Xia Weiyang's style is completely opposite to Chen Muhan's. It is also the theme of late autumn. The little girl with braids running towards the sun, there are trees full of autumn leaves that have not yet fallen, a bright color,

And Chen Muhan's late autumn, painted the picture before the approach of winter, the north wind swept away the last fallen leaves, the ground was covered with trampled fallen leaves, the dead branches were blown all over the ground, and the scarecrow was blown upside down ...

"Are you tired recently?" Mu Zihe asked, Chen Muhan seemed to have begun to get used to concealing his true self, so his first reaction was to deny, "No."

"You have something on your mind, but I have wine." Mu Zihe is not in a good mood recently, why?Because Jiang Xiaofei called her suddenly a few days ago, saying that the itinerary might change.As for how it is possible and how it will change, Jiang Xiaofei didn't say anything.

"I..." Chen Muhan realized that she didn't know where to start, "Forget it." It's not that she doesn't want to talk about it, on the contrary, she has a lot of things in her heart, and she wants to tell someone who can help her She knew that this person would not be Mu Zihe.

Mu Zihe couldn't ask if Chen Muhan didn't say anything, so he took a sip and exhaled, "I don't know how to live." Chen Muhan also took a sip, "Yeah, I don't know either."Chen Muhan is also worried about this matter recently, maybe there are too many melancholy things, so he has doubts about life.

One drinks and the other drinks milk.

"You said, what would you do if you fell in love with someone who couldn't accept you?" Mu Zihe's words were asking: Mu Zihe likes Jiang Xiaofei, but Jiang Xiaofei can't accept her, what should she do?

But these words, to Chen Muhan's ears, are saying: If one day, Xia Weiyang doesn't accept you, what will you do?

"If you really don't like it, give her freedom." When I said this, my heart was pierced, even though I hadn't lost it yet.

"Can it really be done?" Mu Zihe felt sad, she couldn't do it, as long as Jiang Xiaofei was alone, she couldn't give up, is everyone like this?For what you can't get, you persistently pursue it, knowing that it is false.

But people are like this, for a while, she will long for that person very much, most of the time, she is rational and restrains herself, but now, just for a while, she really longs for Jiang Xiaofei, and the idea of ​​looking for her grows wildly .

People, why do you want to love a person who lives in another person?Why?There are too many whys in life, but more whys have no answers. At this moment, Mu Zihe stubbornly refuses to come out.

"If your existence makes her suffer, what's the point of you insisting on being with her?" Chen Muhan is also asking himself this question, now with Xia Weiyang, even if he is crying in his heart, he must be with her, because she It can bring happiness to Xia Weiyang.In the future, if there is such a day, she...she may choose to guard silently.

"I made her suffer?" Mu Zihe didn't drink well, but with only half a glass of red wine, he was slightly tipsy, "Then what if she caused me pain?" Jiang Xiaofei had only been in pain for a few days?She looks for Jiang Xiaofei countless times a year, and every night when she can't look for Jiang Xiaofei is painful.

"I'm not talking about you, I'm talking about..." Chen Muhan noticed something, "Mr. Mu, do you have someone you really like but can't get?"

"Heh." Mu Zihe laughed coldly, "Who wants to like her? I don't want to like anyone." People began to get drunk, it turned out that they were not talking about her and Xia Weiyang, Chen Muhan breathed out, "Teacher Mu, Just now, I thought you were talking about me, I was talking about myself, I don’t know your story, so I can’t give you advice.”

"What's the difference between you and me?" Mu Zihe raised his head, finished the last sip of wine, and wanted to pour more, but Chen Muhan stopped her, and Mu Zihe blocked her hand, "The difference between you and me is that I have Sentenced to death, and you are on reprieve."

"..." Chen Muhan doesn't like this idea very much, but he doesn't want to argue with a drunk person. Mu Zihe is drunk, maybe he has too many things on his mind. Chen Muhan doesn't know how to persuade people, but only says: "Drink less, Mr. Mu .”

"Let me tell you, Chen Muhan, you can't do this." Mu Zihe looked at Chen Muhan, and said for a long time, "You have to find a way." She rarely drinks alcohol, because alcohol is not a good thing for painting, it will stimulate her The brain can also paralyze her nerves. She knows she shouldn't drink, but she feels too uncomfortable. Only wine can paralyze herself.

Obviously promised to come, but suddenly broke the contract. In Jiang Xiaofei's eyes, this kind of behavior is probably just a common meal, but to Mu Zihe, it is like a poor child who has been looking forward to, and finally hoped to get out of the sea of ​​suffering. In the first New Year, Jiang Xiaofei's breach of the contract pushed Mu Zihe back into a deeper abyss than before. She was sad, why did she live like this?Taking care of Jiang Xiaofei's emotions everywhere, is there any bullshit point?She is pestering Jiang Xiaofei, so what will happen?Will it bother Jiang Xiaofei?That's just right, she has too many worries, so let Jiang Xiaofei share them.

"Teacher Mu, tell me, what can you do?" Chen Muhan raised his hand and waved in front of Mu Zihe's eyes. Mu Zihe's eyes turned very slowly, obviously drunk, "Forget it, Teacher Mu, go to sleep." Chen Muhan wanted to help Mu Zihe back into the room, but she yelled like a grandfather, "Call me, I want to call her."

Chen Muhan had no choice but to call first, afraid that someone who was drunk would bump into him, so Chen Muhan stood behind him and guarded her, so she heard Mu Zihe's first yell: "Jiang Xiaofei! You are a bastard!"

In her first reaction, Chen Muhan thought of Miss Sister, because this is the only person she has known in her life named Jiang Xiaofei.She was a little nervous, is someone going to snatch mother's little sister away?How can that work!Chen Muhan knows that her mother still loves Jiang Xiaofei, and Jiang Xiaofei also loves her mother deeply. They just need time. The young lady said that the emotions accumulated between them for so many years need to be released. Come here, it takes time.

Miss Sister will not change her mind, Chen Muhan thought this way, and comforted herself, there are so many names in the whole country, Beijing and City H are far apart, it cannot be such a coincidence.

"Are you drinking?" Jiang Xiaofei's faint voice came over, making Mu Zihe even more angry, "I just drank, how about it? Jiang Xiaofei, you bastard, why did you lie to me?"

"Lie to you?"

"You clearly agreed to come to see me from Beijing!" Mu Zihe's voice was hoarse, losing the gentleness of the past, "You know how much I want you to come, why did you break the contract?"