GL on the tip of the tongue

Chen Muhan didn't give up on looking for Xia Weiyang, but it was as if he had evaporated.Not only Xia Weiyang became another person, but also Chen Muhan.

Chen Muhan, who returned to school again, was always alone, unwilling to say a word, even Lin Weiyue, Mo An, and even Mengmeng came to her, but Chen Muhan refused.I don't want to see anyone, I don't want to hear anyone's words, slag, where have you been?

After the initial despair, anger, and meaningless resentment and depravity, Chen Muhan realized that there is no point in self-pity.In my limited life, I will not stop two things, one is to breathe, and the other is to look for you.Chen Muhan studied like crazy, she wanted to graduate as soon as possible, so that she would have enough time to find Xia Weiyang.

In addition to studying every day, Chen Muhan searches the Internet for all information that might find Xia Weiyang.A year has passed, Chen Muhan has finished all his homework, but for Xia Weiyang, there is still no whereabouts.

"I thought that if we didn't see each other for a year, your feelings for her would fade." Lin Weiyue said.Lin Weiyue and Mo An finally broke up, and this time Mo An was determined. On the day of the breakup, Mo An said in a very calm tone: "In this life, you are a special person to me. I still love you now, but I won’t like you anymore.” They have broken up many times, true or false, and this time, the breakup process was the most peaceful, but it was also the most painful one.

"Then have your feelings for Mo An faded?" Chen Muhan said.

"No." Lin Weiyue said with a smile: "But I believe that time can dilute everything." Although sad, life still has to go on, right?

"That's you." In the coffee shop, Chen Muhan said, "I've decided, as soon as the final exam is over, I will graduate early."

"Don't take the postgraduate entrance examination?"

"No exam."

"To find Xia Weiyang?"

"kindness."

"What if I can't find it?"

"I have spent my whole life looking for it, but I still can't find it, so I have no regrets."

"What a silly boy, one day, you might laugh at yourself now, maybe one day, you'll fall in love with someone else, maybe..."

"Don't say those meaningless words." Chen Muhan stood up, "I love her, not just kidding, I'm not like you."

Lin Weiyue curled her lips, "You confess your love, so why hurt me." Chen Muhan didn't say much to her.As soon as the exam was over, she told Mother Chen that she would graduate early to find Xia Weiyang.Mother Chen didn't stop her, but just told her, "Take good care of yourself and tell Mom that you're safe." Mother Chen helped tidy up Chen Muhan's clothes, "Have you figured out where to find it?"

"The whole of China is so big, I will look for it one by one."

Chen's mother knew that this was unrealistic, but the child's suppressed emotions for a long time needed to be vented. She only thought that the child could come back if he was tired.For Xia Weiyang, Chen's mother felt guilty and reluctant, but for Xia Weiyang's way of leaving, Chen's mother did not agree with it, if there is a problem, just solve the problem, what's the point of leaving?If Xia Weiyang walks away with peace of mind, what else can it mean, it can only mean that Xia Weiyang doesn't love Chen Muhan much.

In this case, it's fine for Xia Weiyang to leave, anyway, they separated without any more tempering.Isn't this reality?What love is invincible?It's just a lie to yourself.

Xia Weiyang has gotten close to Mu Zihe a lot, the understanding and tolerance that Mu Zihe gave Xia Weiyang is beyond Xia's father's imagination.Xia Weiyang also seemed to see her kindness towards herself from Mu Zihe's smiles again and again, she began to accept Mu Zihe's proper intimacy, they would occasionally hold hands, they would go out to eat together, more time, they would draw together Painting, sometimes, also sleeps in a room.

"Weiyang, in July this year, I have a painting exhibition. I will give you a space for the exhibition alone. Do you want to participate?" Mu Zihe was holding a cup of coffee and standing by the table. Xia Weiyang paused and looked back at her. With a blank face, she will be much softer, "Can I?"

Soft music, coupled with the mellow coffee, the atmosphere in the studio makes people feel peaceful.

"Of course." Mu Zihe walked over and sat down, "Although there are still shortcomings, but it is already very good, and there must be a little improvement."

"What is the theme of the exhibition?"

"Rebirth."

"Rebirth..." Xia Weiyang muttered in a low voice, "Rebirth...I..." Xia Weiyang didn't speak for a long time.

Mu Zihe was not in a hurry, waiting for her, Xia Weiyang brushed on the paper and said: "I won't participate."

"why?"

"I have no idea."

"It will only be held in July, don't worry, just think about it." Mu Zihe went out.Xia Weiyang's tracing slowed down, and finally, she simply put down the brush, and she got up to turn off the soft music.

Xia Weiyang said she would not participate, so she didn't even prepare for Mu Zihe's July art exhibition.As July approached, Mu Zihe asked her about the art exhibition, Xia Weiyang said: "I said, I won't participate." Mu Zihe didn't force it, "Then you want to come to America with me?"

"No." After getting acquainted, Xia Weiyang didn't want to go anywhere, she was slow to accept new things, except for painting.

"When I'm not around, you go home." Xia Weiyang sometimes lives in Mu Zihe's house because it's too late to paint, one room, two beds.Mu Zihe is gone, don't worry Xia Weiyang is alone, "I like to draw, but I can't finish it." Mu Zihe is afraid that if Xia Weiyang is tired, children will be obsessed with painting. If she doesn't call her, she will Keep drawing.

Xia Weiyang paused while holding the sketch pen, Mu Zihe said: "I know you love to draw, but because of love, you have to restrain yourself." Xia Weiyang lowered her arms, staring at her drawing board as if in a daze , Mu Zihe said: "The more you love, the more you have to control, otherwise, it's easy to lose control, and it's too late, you know?"

After a while, "Oh." Xia Weiyang agreed slowly.Mu Zihe wanted to escort Xia Weiyang back, but Xia Weiyang shook his head, "I can do it myself." Seeing Xia Weiyang get into the taxi, Mu Zihe left.Xia Weiyang patted the car seat back to the master halfway, and handed over the money, the master asked her: "Don't you want to go to xx road?" Xia Weiyang didn't say anything, the master asked her again: "Want to get off?" Nod.

Xia Weiyang picked up her small easel, got on the bus, and drove to the outer suburbs.Xia Weiyang got off the car, and walked a long distance, to a secluded place, with mountains, water, flowers, grass, and the sound of insects and birds.Xia Weiyang put the easel aside, lying on the grass, smelling the fragrance of flowers, listening to the singing of birds, there was a moment of relaxation and tranquility in her heart.

The warm sun made her body warm, Xia Weiyang raised her hand to touch her heart, is it also hot inside?Xia Weiyang lay down comfortably before getting up to draw.Closing her eyes and sketching in her mind, many images flashed in front of her eyes, and her expression became vivid, which she never showed to anyone, only to this piece of nature.

Xia Weiyang started to draw, bit by bit, carefully drawing.On the paper, there is gradually an outline.A clear and handsome face, surrounded by black shadows, looks more and more white.

After Xia Weiyang finished drawing, she looked at it for a long time, but she didn't have much expression.After seeing enough, people also got up, found under the tree, took out the small shovel in the bag, dug for a long time, and found a big glass box.Xia Weiyang folded the painting and put it in, covered it with soil again, Xia Weiyang returned to the urban area with his backpack.

Xia Weiyang returned home, and Xia's mother was waiting for her anxiously, "I heard from Teacher Mu that you are going home, but I haven't seen you back for a long time, and my mother has been worried all afternoon."

"I'm going to paint."

"Where did you go to paint?"

"There is a place."

"What did you draw?"

"There is one person."

Mother Xia almost wanted to ask if she drew Chen Muhan.According to Teacher Mu Zihe, Xia Weiyang has never painted figures since learning painting from her, but the painting style has not changed, it is still melancholy, and the color is getting darker.Xia's mother wanted to find a psychiatrist, but Mu Zihe disagreed, "Actually, the paintings drawn by melancholy people are more interesting. Let me guide her to try it first. Now she will reject the psychiatrist." Huahua, In fact, it is a way for Xia Weiyang to vent, Mu Zihe told Xia's mother, no matter when, don't stop or interrupt Xia Weiyang's drawing, let alone interfere with what she draws.

Mother Xia didn't ask any further questions, Xia Weiyang went back to her room to rest, lying on the bed, her eyes widened, she seemed lifeless.Xia's mother came in once, saw Xia Weiyang playing with her mobile phone, and didn't ask much. When Xia Weiyang fell asleep lying on the bed, Xia's mother went to cover her with a quilt, unintentionally spying on her, but accidentally touched the phone, showing Xia Weiyang Unfinished search: what kind of experience is death?