Anti-Hero Lola [Comprehensive Anglo-American]

Habit is a very novel feeling.

It has no clear emotional bias, and it does not necessarily represent happiness or sadness.A habit is a person's stress response, a physiological form that comes from the mind, and a habit is... a habit.

Laura fell asleep vaguely.

Red Robin and the little spider were quietly discussing something not far from her. They did not leave the room at Laura's request, but they politely did not get too close to Laura's bed.

If it was sober, Laura would be more than happy to participate in this conversation.

She would say some weird and even creepy words to frighten the little spider, watching the little worm's frightened but forcibly calm expression for fun.

She would come up with weird conjectures to disturb Red Robin's thinking, and then use his irrefutable logic to dismiss all his thoughts—whether they are right or wrong—all, and appreciate him frowning hard to think look like.

Things that annoy and bother others are not pleasing, teasing a friend is inappropriate, and an overly eccentric character is feared, loathed, or at least repelled.

These things are deeply hidden in Laura's mind. Since she opened her eyes, these basic theories and thoughts have guided her actions.

Laura doesn't think these things are part of herself, even though her subconscious mind has told her countless times that these knowledge and theories are all things she learned in "reality".

Both her brain and her subconscious are telling her that when she enters the subconscious game, all memories of "reality" in her mind will be blocked.

—Laura couldn't tell why she knew, but she just knew.

Just like when an ordinary person enters outer space, he will be wrapped in a heavy space suit.

This method of sealing her memory is not to guard her, restrict her, or manipulate her. Although this method does cause such consequences, it can only be said to be a side effect of using this method at best, just like Space protective suits are very uncomfortable to wear, very obstructive to movement, and prevent people from making some delicate operations, but people must wear protective suits when they are in space-the biggest purpose of sealing memory is to protect her.

But... but how was she going to believe this subconscious out of nowhere without any evidence of its reality?

Lola's mind was functioning even in her half-awake state, though most of the thoughts that came to her mind would never be understood by her at all.

A person's brain is sending instructions to his body all the time.

When he is unconscious, his respiratory system works hard, his blood circulation system never stops, his digestive system is always on standby, he relaxes his limbs, but relaxing these limbs also requires tensing every muscle... and these life activities , all operate calmly under the command and orders of the brain.

If any pictures and videos could present these life-sustaining activities in a concise and vivid form, one would see a disciplined and methodical army in which countless messages spread in unimaginable patterns, and Every soldier in the army understands these orders with perfect precision and executes them with equal precision.

It is the deepest level of understanding.

These soldiers don't just know they need to go when they see the command to "go ahead," they know the reason to go.

They know how important their every step is in this life war, and they will occasionally disobey the commander's order, because they know very well what the purpose of the "advance" order is, and sometimes, in the extreme A few times, the commander will make mistakes.

The soldier then disobeys the order, and interestingly, the order "disobey the order" also exists in the mind.

So executing orders and disobeying orders is actually a game between two thoughts in the mind.

— all this happens in the deepest part of the subconscious mind.

The living body itself cannot fail to capture the birth and death of this order, let alone the trajectory of this order.

The consciousness of life itself is loose and free, although the connection between muscles and bones, nerves and blood vessels is extremely close, but the "mind" is loose and open.

Sometimes, thought will approach life itself infinitely; sometimes, thought will deviate from and reject life without hesitation.

Although Lola's mind had been tightly taken, although something had been purged and repressed down to the deepest -- in the deepest, deepest depths of the subconscious.

Memories do not remain in the deepest recesses of consciousness as definite images, sounds, smells, and various other tangible forms.

In the deepest part of consciousness, what is retained are emotions.

sad.hapiness.fury.remorse.melancholy.sad.pain.

And so on.

And these emotions gathered in the deepest part of Laura's consciousness to form a boundless sea, and there is also a vast sky in the sea.

Laura fell asleep drowsily, wandering in the deepest part of her consciousness, not even aware that she was in her own consciousness.She immersed herself in the ocean, staring at the sky through the shimmering water, feeling strange, intense emotions quivering in her chest—

The little spider was the first to notice Laura's abnormal situation.

He called out, "Red Robin!"

Before Red Robin could answer, he jumped up and rushed towards Lola, throwing off the blanket that wrapped Lola inside.

Under the heavy blanket, Laura looked calm, but her whole body was trembling.

She looked like she was placed on some kind of weird vibrator, her trembling was extremely slight, but when Red Robin also rushed over and carefully lifted off the blanket covering Lola's body, exposing her whole body, Both Little Spider and Red Robin gasped.

Her coat had been taken off by herself at some point and piled aside, and the red and beige trench coats were all squeezed into a lump indiscriminately.

The blue bodysuit hugged her skin tightly, framing the curves of her slender body.

This is of course an extremely beautiful girlish figure.

——But this is not the beauty that should exist in reality.

Now take a picture of Lola and put it on the Internet, saying that this is the character modeling picture of the game, and there is absolutely no sense of disobedience.When Lola stops smiling, laughing, tilting her head, blinking and curling her lips, she looks like a CG character, wonderful but distorted.

If it wasn't for Laura who was still shivering and covered in cold sweat, she would definitely be regarded as a model.

The little spider tried to touch her forehead and fingers.

He shook his head towards Red Robin with a serious expression, and lowered his voice subconsciously: "Her head and hands are cold... Her hands are getting hot——oooo! oooh! oh!"

The little spider withdrew his hand as if electrocuted, looked at Laura in surprise, and explained to Red Robin, "When I touched her for the first time, her forehead was still hot! Really!"

Red Robin also touched Laura's cheek, but he just tapped it lightly with his fingertips and then withdrew his hand.

Then he raised his finger to check the situation. The small piece of fingertip where he touched Lola just now was completely red, showing very typical symptoms of burns.

The little spider also saw Red Robin's fingers, and his voice changed so nervously: "What's the matter... What's going on? What's wrong with her?"

Laura yawned, and opened her eyes dimly: "...Xiao Chong? Xiaohong?"

Her voice sounded like something was in her mouth, or that of a child who had just experienced a high fever.

She opened her eyes wide and stared dazedly for a few seconds before she suddenly realized what had happened.

"What are you... doing?" She murmured, "Who, who undressed me?"

"What?" Little Spider was taken aback, his reaction ability was really used in places it shouldn't be, "You took it off yourself! It's none of my business!"

Red Robin: ...

The little spider came to his senses: "It's, it's none of Red Robin's business!"

But Laura ignored him, and sat up with her elbows propping herself up. As a result, she exerted too much force, and her elbows directly pierced the bed board.

Little Spider: ...

Laura pulled out her elbows and used her palms to support her. This time the effect was much better. She sat up straight with a bit of unsteadiness, and then pulled the windbreaker closer to her chest.

"Are you all right?" Red Robin asked. "There's something wrong with your body. Do you know what's going on?"

Laura: "...well... I know a little..."

"We should go." Red Robin said decisively, "No matter what happens down here, it has nothing to do with us. You need treatment now. Before we get in touch with the secrets here, leave here first, and wait for your situation." When you get better, consider continuing the mission."

"Well..." Laura said, "...no need. I'll be fine in a while. If I leave this time..."

She seemed to be out of her mind, but maybe it was because of her lack of mind that she revealed the real secret.

Those secrets that she has vaguely seen through, but she is not willing to tell others.

"...If you leave this time, come back next time," Laura said in a strange tone, "maybe we won't be able to see this place."

"Why?" Red Robin asked before the little spider could speak, "Because they are about to encounter some unsolvable danger?"

Laura thought for a while.

Little Spider and Red Robin held their breath.

"...You can put it this way." Laura replied slowly, "...something will... happen tonight."

She yawned again, looking too sleepy to keep her eyes open.The shivering was much better and had stopped since Lola opened her eyes, but Red Robin noticed that Lola's fingers still twitched from time to time, and Lola seemed to know this too, and whenever her fingers started to twitch, she would twitch. Quickly control this finger.

The way Lola controls her fingers gives Red Robin a very strong feeling.

She didn't seem to be trembling anymore because she woke up.

It's just that after waking up, she could resist shaking herself, just like a seriously injured person forcibly enduring the pain, pretending that she can move without being affected by the wound.

"Carmen?" said Red Robin.

"……Um."

"Are you sure you're okay?"

"..."

"Carmen!"

"...that's not my name," Laura said, "my-my name is..."

She was silent for a moment, as if remembering something she had never thought of before.

"Laura," she murmured, "my name is Laura."

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