If Zhou Xingchi can also talk about love

The laughter disappeared little by little, and the picture became blurred little by little. In the end, I couldn't hear or see anything.

I opened my eyes and found that I was sleeping in an unfamiliar environment, and my brain was short-circuited.

where is this?

Clean sofas, spotless tables and chairs.The bouquet of roses on the table is still fresh, and dewdrops can be seen.

I sat up and there was a man sitting in the hall outside.

"Are you awake?" The man looked at me gently and asked with concern.

"Mr. Chen." Isn't the man in front of us our psychology teacher?

"You slept for two hours, how do you feel?" Teacher Chen glanced at the watch in his left hand and helped me up.

"What's wrong with me?" I frowned, at a loss, fell asleep?

"Xin Zhi, right? Did you forget? You said you had severe insomnia and couldn't sleep, and then your counselor asked you to come to me for psychological counseling. We chatted for a long time, and you said you were tired, but couldn't sleep. I I gave you a hypnosis, and you fell asleep. Well, it’s five o’clock in the afternoon, you slept for two hours, you came here at two o’clock, and you fell asleep at three o’clock.”

Teacher Chen, who smiled very gently, pointed to the time for me.

I couldn't react a little bit, "Wait, teacher, I'm a little dizzy." I fell asleep? "Teacher, what time is it?"

"Five p.m."

"No, what date did I mean?"

"December 6."

Wasn't it just March?How did this time pass so fast?

"Teacher, I seemed to be in March just now." I looked at him puzzled.

"Are you dreaming? I heard you talking in your sleep. You kept calling me by Xing's name. What, is it your boyfriend?" Teacher Chen pushed his glasses and narrowed his eyes.

"Boyfriend? I don't have a boyfriend."

Am I dreaming?

"Teacher, do you think I'm dreaming?"

"Yeah, you, you haven't slept well for a long time. When you came over, you told me that you have suffered from insomnia for a month. Every night, you are either awake all the time or in light sleep. You wake up easily, so your mental state is not very good. Well, that's why your counselor asked you to come to me."

"Then, the feelings I had just now were all dreams?" I remembered my sad feelings, so clearly, and their laughter, so clearly.

"Yes, you must be dreaming. Why, what did you dream of? Can you tell me?" Teacher Chen poured a glass of water and handed it to me, then sat on the sofa.

"I..." I hesitated.

"Teacher, I seem to have seen Zhou Xingchi, but when I told my classmates, they said it was impossible. But the problem is that I met him with one of my classmates, but that classmate said that there was no such thing at all." I Try to remember this part of the story.

Zhou Xingchi's face, his voice, and our dialogue, everything is so real.

"Well...is there anything else?" Teacher Chen looked at me expectantly.

"I don't think it's a dream, teacher, do you know that feeling? It's really real. I met him and I told him that I like him. Finally he left. I studied hard and thought about always One day I can meet him again. However, my friends said that I never met him. They said that I never had the chance to meet him during those two days in my memory. I feel very lost, Then, I felt so sleepy, I started to sleep, and kept sleeping."

"Can you explain more clearly? How do you remember seeing him?"

"I went to see a movie, I met at the movie theater." I was a little annoyed, but felt helpless.

Even if it was a dream, I don't think it could be so real at all.

"So, you are very confused. You have met him obviously, but everyone says you have never met him. Then were you very persistent in the dream and did you see him at the end?" Teacher Chen was very concerned. Seriously ask.

I thought for a while and said, "No, I'm still obedient to play and do what I have to do. After that, I don't seem to plan to find out what happened. However, the sense of loss is always there."

"Actually, you are indeed dreaming. Everything you told me is a dream. Xin Zhi, think about it carefully. What did you do before you came to see me today?"

Teacher Chen leaned on the sofa and said very relaxedly, without any seriousness, which made me relax a little.

I pressed my temples with both hands, rubbed them, and said: "I got up at seven o'clock in the morning. I was very irritable because I couldn't sleep. I took a shower, drank a glass of milk, and then went to the playground and walked around the playground. Ten laps, kept walking, without stopping. Then, I sat on the lawn and listened to the music. Later, the counselor called me and asked me to come to you on time at 09 o'clock in the afternoon. It was only 30:01 at that time, so I went I read a book in the library. But I felt very irritable and couldn’t read it. I wanted to cry, but I didn’t cry. I finally waited until 30:[-], and I came over. I saw you at two o’clock.”

Teacher Chen nodded after listening, and then said: "Then think about what you have done since March to today, can you remember?"

"March?" I didn't know what Teacher Chen wanted to say, so I had to try my best to remember.

"In March, I can't remember many details, but I remember that on March 3st, I went to see Stephen Chow's "The Mermaid". I took an exam on March 1th, because there was no final exam last semester, so I The test was only taken when the school started. Then, at the end of March, our class had a party and played with students from other schools. I went. In April, it seemed to be no big deal. I went to class normally, but I didn’t even want to listen to it in class. .I didn’t pass the exam, so I took it again. The most I do every day is to watch Stephen Chow’s news and some things. It’s the same in May, nothing serious. I started to have insomnia at the end of May, and then I’ve been groggy all the time. until today."

After I finished speaking, I glanced at him, what was he thinking.

"Then don't you remember the ones you just said you saw in your dream?"

in a dream?

"Yes, I have the same feeling. Everything I have done is the same except for the one watching the movie."

"Xin Zhi, I think that you have suffered from severe insomnia recently, which is why you are like this. The feeling you felt in the dream just now comes from your real feeling. You are unhappy, you are irritable, that's why the dream is making you sleepy. The picture of loss. You are afraid of losing, so you try your best to catch it in your dream. But, it is a dream after all.”

Teacher Chen added another glass of water for himself, and continued: "You dreamed that you saw Zhou Xingchi, it just came from your realistic wish. You have never met him in reality."

"Have you never met it?" I was a little disappointed, but it seemed that I had never encountered it in my realistic memory.

"Yes. Well, go back and have a good rest, don't put too much pressure on yourself, don't think about anything, just sleep when you should sleep. If you feel really bad, then I suggest you take time off and go back to recuperate Time, however, the holiday is coming soon, and it’s time for the exam, as for you, you can also finish the exam first, and then use the vacation to adjust your state.”

"Hmm. Alright." I glanced at my phone, it was already 05:30, and Mr. Chen was about to leave work.

"goodbye teacher."

When I walked out of the counseling room, I suddenly felt very hard.

The sky is a rare blue sky, and there is sunshine. The feeling of summer is really good. The blue sky and sunshine are the most beautiful.

The phone rang suddenly, I took a look, and a schedule was displayed on the notification bar.

Yes, today is June 6.Zhou Xingchi's birthday.

Oops, I haven't tweeted to wish him a happy birthday yet.

Click on Weibo and see many people wishing him a happy birthday.

Last year on this day, I wished him the same happy birthday.

"Hey, the most handsome, talented and beautiful star, happy birthday, although I can't say happy birthday to you in person, but so many of us want you to be happy, you won't give us face, right? Happy birthday. @周星迷”

Log out of Weibo, intending to turn off the schedule reminder.

But accidentally clicked into the memo.

On April 2016, 4, last night, I dreamed that I saw Ah Xing, who is what he is now.Handsome and cute.He was sitting right in front of me, speaking substandard Mandarin. I tried my best to speak Cantonese, but found that I couldn't speak it well.I want to speak Mandarin, but I'm afraid that he can't hear clearly, which feels very strange.

My mother asked me to cut the special bacon at home for him to eat. It was ready-made meat. I cut it into big pieces and fed it directly to Ah Xing. He ate it without thinking about it.After a while, I realized that I cut too much meat.It was cut into small pieces, Ah Xing looked at me in surprise.Too cute.Haha, so funny.

Suddenly, I said seriously: "Actually, I love you very much, not just liking you."

He nodded seriously.

then……

I woke up.

There are tears in the corner of my eyes...

On April 4, I dreamed of Mr. Zhou. He was very gentle, but I couldn't see his face clearly.

If one day, my life enters the countdown, then I hope I can meet him, I think, this is my last wish.

On April 4, "The Mermaid" premiered on Youku.But the membership has expired.

On December 2015, 12, my life became more and more monotonous. Apart from Stephen Chow, studies, literature, and comedy, there was nothing else.

On December 2015, 12, last night I imagined the scene of meeting Stephen Chow, and I was so excited that I couldn't sleep.Although I know it's impossible, I still can't control it.People can have nothing, but they must have dreams.My dream is him.

I checked his information this morning and found that he has type O blood. I was very excited.Although there are so many O-type blood in the world, I am still very happy that our blood type is the same.Keep watching, when he knew his favorite color was blue, he almost threw away his phone, really happy.I like blue, just like I like Stephen Chow.

Master Xing is old, and he has been aware of this problem since last year. When Yao Beina passed away, the first person he thought of was Zhou Xingchi.Life is so unpredictable, Zhou Xingchi is just a name, I am too far away from him, although he lives in my heart.However, it is inevitable that I will grow old and fear that one day, when I wake up in the morning, I will see the entertainment headlines, "At such and such a time, Zhou Xingchi passed away", but I just know it.

There is a difference of more than 30 years in our age, and he is older than my father.However, I have always regarded him as my soul mate, respected him, and loved him.If one day, I can stand in front of him and say that I like him, then, on that day, I must be happier than wearing a wedding dress.I will definitely say "I love you, not just like."

Until 19, he was my favorite movie star, and at 19, he was my favorite man. At 20, he was my dream.

My understanding of him is far from enough compared to many people who like him as much as me.However, to him, I was just a stranger.I want to be close to his life, to know him through myself, not through the Internet, through other people's evaluation of him.Because, I like him, I hope, I like him, I like him all the way.

Seeing these memos, I suddenly thought of an article I wrote on the tribe:

"Hi, handsome, hello"

Before I liked you, what I liked was Zhang Weijian.That cheap, ruffian look makes me both love and hate.Later, I fell in love with movies and basically stopped watching TV dramas. The movies I like are basically Hong Kong dramas, represented by you.After that, just watch your movies.Playing it over and over again, never getting bored.

Every time I watch your movie, I feel different.Sometimes, I am very happy, sometimes, it is melancholy, but more often, it is distressed.I feel sorry for you with exaggerated acting skills, and you who are lonely after the movie ends.I don't like to call you Master Xing, I like to call you Axing.I said that if God gives me a chance to go back to the past, then I will definitely use my ten or twenty years of life to return to the era when you were born.I will accompany you through the most difficult years.No matter what your identity is, passers-by, friends, whatever.Even just looking at you from a distance is enough.

There are more fans who like you, men than women, I suddenly feel lucky, I like you, and I happen to be a girl.The 1 years you said is too long. I only want to love one person in my life.That person is you.In the remaining decades, probably, I will only like you.Every time my classmates and friends talk about those celebrities, I feel very at a loss, because I don't know them, basically I don't know.It feels like they all look alike.But when it comes to you, I can always talk a lot, a lot of stories about you.Sometimes, I feel old, like you.

So, I just want to accompany you to grow old slowly.Sometimes, I want to go before you, because when I go, you will never know, and you won’t be sad, but when you go, I will know, and you will be sad for a long, long time.I'm very selfish, I don't want to see your movies one day, recall your life, and miss your smile.

I think, I respect you.I shouldn't use "you" to address you, but I don't want to use you.In that way, I feel that you are so far away.I have liked a man for more than three years, that man is Zhou Xingchi.

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Many people commented on this tribal article at the time, some said it was true love, and some said they also liked Zhou Xingchi's.

I only know that every word comes from the truest feelings in my heart.

I like a saying very much, "Love doesn't know where it started, but it goes deep."

Maybe that's how I feel about him.

Saying love is too deep, saying liking is too superficial.

I walked into the bedroom, took out my birthday present from the drawer, and burst into tears...