special stargazing

On the day when the grades came out, Lu Jianxing had a blue mole on the corner of his eye.

As soon as the grades were mentioned, he covered his heart and looked at Sheng Ye with a smile.Fortunately, although they did not go to undergraduate, but read the same university.Jinda's junior college, they still have three years and a lifetime to stay together.

It didn't take much effort for them to fill in the volunteers. Tang Han looked at the volunteers they filled out and said that they could fill them out in this way.

Tang Han said, Sheng Yexing, if you drive less motorcycles, you won't be a specialist.

Sheng Yexing thought to himself, if I don't take a motorcycle, I won't be able to get a heavy loan.

Zhan Fei's admission letter to the military academy came early, and he chose a good Chinese restaurant in the city to treat him.

Coming out of the subway exit, Sheng Yexing was a little cold by the wind.He was only wearing a vest, and the scars on his back had scabbed off, and when he pulled it a little, there were light pink marks all over his back.Lu Jianxing stretched out his hand to touch it, and sighed.

Sheng Yexing pinched his mouth with a smile.

"Sometimes I am very reluctant to part with Shier, and I always feel that this is the most real place. Everyone has different hopes." Zhanfei said, "I used to think that this group was too far away from me. After I really got in touch, I found that everyone seems to be It's no different."

After the graduation ceremony, the group of interviewers in the city came again.

One of them met Lu Jianxing last year, so this time he prepared questions in advance and asked Tang Han to see if he could interview him.After all, this is a "star" who has been admitted to a junior college. Reporting it together with the graduation ceremony of Shi Er can give some encouragement to many families in difficult situations.

Tang Han spent half an hour communicating with Lu Jianxing, explaining the purpose and content.

However, the interview was still somewhat difficult for Lu Jianxing at this stage.

External information is his "qualitative obstacle", which belongs to selective reception.

After a simple question and answer, Lu Jianxing did not show the fear and rejection of last year, but sat quietly for 5 minutes.

"Come on."

Lu Jianxing only said these three words.

He didn't quite understand the importance of these three words, so he stood up and looked in the interview room after speaking, looking for Sheng Yexing.

The person being sought was leaning against the door frame, looking at him with complicated eyes, full of joy, satisfaction, and unspeakable emotions.The huge classroom turned into a deep sea, the sun reflected on the sea surface, and the ripples on the bottom of the sea flickered.Every word that Lu Jianxing utters is a dazzling pearl in the clamshell, worthy of celebration by the fish.

The second day of the city in July was very quiet, only the new seniors were still studying hard.

Cicadas and birds chirping, lumen green.

In the city's second campus, there seems to be a never-ending life force.

Tang Han said that several education centers are recruiting summer volunteers, with food and lodging included, and attendance is calculated on a daily basis, so it's good if you can come.The news spread to the grades through Gu Qunshan's mouth, and no one from Class [-] and [-] of the senior high school went, but Zhan Fei and Zhuang Rou signed up.

Zhanfei will go to the university to report in early August, but July is still free.

He wanted to do something meaningful in his free time.

Although he belongs to the ordinary class, he has been hanging out with the brothers in the special class for a long time. After three years, he has his own views on such a group.

Also willing to do something for them.

After Sheng Yexing and the others knew the news, they made a special trip to Zhan Feizai's education center to see him and Zhuang Rou.

Zhanfei is a teaching assistant, and usually helps the teacher with some simple tasks.Because he is a rare male in the education center and he is still young, many children under the age of ten like to play with him.

Many years later, Sheng Yexing could still recall the feeling of knocking on the door.

Lu Jianxing and several big boys stood behind him, and in front of him was a colorful, half-open door.

"Open the door and have a look," Zhan Fei said beside him, "I told them how many brothers are coming to visit them."

"Did you tell us about our problem?" Sheng Yexing whispered.

"I said it," Zhan Fei smiled, "but it's not important."

Yes, it doesn't matter.

"Don't be nervous," Zhuang Rou whispered, shifting her eyes to Sheng Yexing's hand holding Lu Jianxing, "You..."

Feeling being watched, Sheng Yexing smiled, "Huh?"

Zhuang Rou understood the meaning in his eyes and shook her head, "It's nothing, go in quickly."

Gently pushing the door open, Sheng Yexing held Lu Jianxing with one hand, and greeted the children with the other hand on his chest.

"Hi brother—"

Several little angels shouted softly.

There are also those who are silent.

Gu Qunshan followed behind Lu Jianxing, looking a little nervous.They took the microphone and introduced themselves one by one, and felt that they were not so afraid of making mistakes when they read the self-criticism at the school assembly.

Dongxia carried a plastic bag, took the blind box she bought from it, and distributed one to each of the children sitting on the seat.

Zhan Fei squatted down and patiently explained to them.

Zhuang Rou leaned against the door.

Zhanfei said that there is a small toy in the blind box that will accompany us.

He said that everyone may get different ones, but they all like them, take them home, and take good care of them, okay?

"Can--"

The child's voice is clear, like silver coins falling into a wishing well full of hope.

Sunlight leaks in from the classroom window.

Lu Jianxing stood in front of the blackboard, looking at the people in the room.

The youth's body is full of vitality, like green and white clouds in the blue sky.As adults, they are trying to grow into towering trees, wanting to use their branches and leaves for shelter and shade.The children sitting in the seats are tender grass.

They are soft, they grow against the wind.

That's right.

Every family gets a different baby.When a new life comes to the world, it deserves the purest blessing.

He will take care of himself and Sheng Yexing.

Apart from the education center where Zhuang Rou and Zhan Fei were located, Gu Qunshan took them to several other small-scale institutions based on the addresses provided by the community.People in the community say that such institutions are "in short supply". Some of them have better teaching qualifications, and it is more difficult to get into them than to go to key high schools.

Zhan Fei took half a day off and said that he would go with them to see other places.

Several big boys carried several bags of daily necessities and stationery to the building, contacted the person in charge of the center, and handed over these special gifts to the other party.

Sheng Yexing said that they have their own problems, and they can't help much, they can only buy something.

negligible.

Some centers will install protective nets, anti-collision soft corners, and most of the doors are made of wood, because there are not a few children who vent their anger by banging their heads on the door.Lu Jianxing didn't speak much the whole time, but followed them slowly, thinking of many things about his childhood.

There is a center converted from a kindergarten with good environmental conditions, and there is a small wooden table made of plasticine in the sensory integration training room.

Sheng Yexing said to smoke a cigarette, Lu Jianxing sat cross-legged on a clean cushion, and together with a timid little girl, kneaded plasticine into various shapes.

"This." Lu Jianxing said.

The little girl crushed the white plasticine, made an arc with her fingertips, and softly described: "Ah, dumplings."

Lu Jianxing froze for a few seconds, pursed his lips, clumsily kneaded the plasticine that the little girl had picked up into a ball, and described it in his own way: "Tangyuan."

After a while, Lu Jianxing got a sweet smile.

Fragrant flowers held his heart up.

At the entrance of the safe passage, Sheng Yexing leaned against the stairs and smoked electronic cigarettes with Zhan Fei.

Zhanfei said that he would report in August and start a two-month new training that would be worse than death, and it was impossible to smoke.Sheng Yexing said that this is the path you chose, so stick to defending your home and country.Zhan Fei turned him over, looked at the scar on Sheng Yexing's back with scrutiny, shook his head and said it was a pity.

"It's impossible for me to go without a scar," Sheng Yexing bowed his head, "I can't pass the level of mental illness."

Zhanfei raised his voice: "You are much better."

Sheng Yexing nodded: "It's impossible to cure it, I'm just lucky at this stage."

"You..." Zhan Fei put away the cigarettes and put them in his bag, "I'm sick, and I'm looking for an autistic boyfriend. Like me, I'm on a road of no return."

"That's different." Sheng Yexing interrupted.

Zhan Fei frowned, "Why is it different? His perception is a physiological problem, you understand very well. I hope that when I come back next time, Jian Xing'er will be eight degrees more cheerful than now. He spent a year Tell me that his illness does not mean permanent silence and no perception."

"Whether he knows it or not, I love him very much."

Sheng Yexing realized that this might be the last time he and Zhan Fei had a heart-to-heart talk in recent years, so he simply said something that he wouldn't usually say.

"What about him?"

"Maybe so."

Zhan Fei said "um", "It's as long as you think it's worth it. I've told you countless times."

"His life is difficult to take care of himself, and it is almost impossible to be independent. Before the holiday, my uncle and aunt talked to me once."

"say what?"

"They said, Ye Xing, you are Lu Jianxing's best friend and his only friend... I denied it, and I said more than that, Lu Jianxing has many friends. If I were in a school, I would take good care of him. Uncles and aunts also said to give me a little subsidy, and I agreed." Sheng Yexing said, spreading his hands, touching his "love line" that was growing lightly, and smiling, "I plan to save it for Lu Jianxing."

Zhan Fei felt that Sheng Yexing was a little different from before, and he couldn't explain why, "You are also a father, an older brother, and a boyfriend."

"Uncles and aunts will not abandon him. They are just worried that what will happen to Lu Jianxing when they are gone in the future." Sheng Yexing said.

"Many parents here say the same thing."

Raising his eyes, Zhan Fei looked at the rusted iron chain on the safety passage door, and sighed long, "They are worried that their children will have nowhere to go. Because there are too few children who can truly connect with society and take care of themselves."

"Hmm." Sheng Yexing was silent.

Zhan Fei patted him on the shoulder, "Good brother."

"You have to work hard, working here for a while... It's a fulfillment of your wish. Well, I read the circle of friends posted by Mr. Tang Han, and I extracted an excerpt: Education itself means that one tree shakes another tree, One cloud pushes another cloud, one soul wakes up another soul." Sheng Yexing rarely confides.

"Yes." Zhan Fei agreed.

"Jaspers said it." Sheng Yexing added.

"Night Walk." Zhan Fei called him.

"You said."

Zhan Fei said: "I will go to report in August, and I may only come back once a year. If you are free, bring Xing'er over to have a look."

Sheng Yexing nodded, "You also... bring my dream."

From now on, there will be people from two worlds.

One for ideals and aspirations, one for love and hope.

Putting his hands together, Zhan Fei stretched out one hand and raised it up, "It's safe to travel."

Raise your arm, hold it back with one hand, and squeeze the hands of two people together.

Sheng Yexing said, "The ups and downs are safe."

When they returned after smoking, Sheng Yexing and Zhan Fei saw that Lu Jianxing was still playing with the little girl.

They don't communicate much, they are making plasticine, and they look at each other from time to time.The little girl blinked curiously, and Lu Jianxing smiled shyly.At that time, just as the sun was setting in the west, orange red flowed softly in the room.

The picture is beautiful, and Zhan Fei somewhat believes what Tang Han said when he was giving a lecture at school.

Angels are never in heaven, but on earth.

Angels shine brightly.

That night, Sheng Yexing and Lu Jianxing returned to the rental house to pack their things.

It was going to be August soon, and they had to move to Sheng Yexing's home in the south of the city.In the middle of the year, Jinda University, located in the city center, will start school.Lu Jianxing heard that the university was along the river, and he could go for a walk at night, so excited he yelled in the rental house, Sheng Yexing couldn't hold him down with one hand.

At night, they reclined on the couch one last time to watch a projected movie.

The movie was a youth movie, and Sheng Yexing felt that it was necessary for Lu Jianxing to get in touch with some mainstream movies.Even if he is gay, Lu Jianxing also has the right to know what is going on with heterosexuality.

On the screen, two people in blue school uniforms rode bicycles through the green trees. The short-haired girl laughed loudly, and the boy behind him held down the bell and passed her by with a "ding ding ding--".

At the end of the film, they entered the palace of marriage together.

Seeing the hero and heroine receiving blessings from so many people together, Lu Jianxing was stunned.

He suddenly wanted to grow up.

At the end of the movie, the heroine hugged the bouquet tightly, her eyes filled with tears, and her voice was crisp: "I met you..."

Turning off the movie with the remote control, Sheng Yexing turned over, leaned against Lu Jianxing, and took the heroine's line, "I met you, like... like walking towards the brightest star at night .”

Lu Jianxing nodded: "Ah."

"Ah what, tell me quickly," Sheng Yexing kissed him: "What will happen?"

Lu Jianxing covered half of his face, showing his eyes and blinking.

"It will be dawn."

"..."

Lu Jianxing couldn't stop laughing.

He leaned against Sheng Yexing's arms, his buttocks slid down unstoppably, leaning into a half-lying position.

Lu Jianxing raised his head and kissed Sheng Yexing's chin, pretending to be touched by an ice cube and bounced off.

He was pushed back by Sheng Yexing again, bowed his head and kissed him deeply.

"Fail," Sheng Yexing feigned anger, and knocked his head with his knuckles, "Say it again!"

"I will love you."

Wait for a while, Lu Jianxing said so.

I thought Sheng Yexing would reply "I love you too", but he didn't.

Sheng Yexing raised his head suddenly, so that his jawline and neck were at almost a [-]-degree right angle, and he didn't move for a long time.

He seemed to be checking the ceiling for leaks.

The ceiling didn't leak.

His eyes leaked.

Lu Jianxing was too nervous to breathe.

The air seemed to stand still, and time was pressed to pause.

"Ah," it was difficult to perceive Sheng Yexing's emotions, Lu Jianxing repeated dryly: "I love you."

He was suddenly hugged by Sheng Yexing.

After hugging for a while, Sheng Yexing didn't move, he buried his head in Lu Jianxing's neck, his broad shoulders trembled as much as his breathing.Can't tell whether it's physical or emotional, Sheng Yexing closes his eyes.

Tears are too unfamiliar to him.The last time, he couldn't remember when it was.

But in front of Lu Jianxing, he had to take off all his armor.

When Sheng Yexing let go of himself, Lu Jianxing realized the moisture in Sheng Yexing's eyes.He couldn't understand the great significance of this sentence, he only cared about whether Sheng Yexing was sad now.

He frowned in panic, "Then I don't love you."

"You can't go back on your word, you just said you love me," Sheng Yexing couldn't laugh or cry, squeezed his sleeves to wipe away his tears, lowered his head, and put his lips on the tip of Lu Jianxing's nose, "Say it a few more times, I have to record it every morning An alarm clock for waking up."

Often when asked, Lu Jianxing's "rebellious period" arrives.

He squeezed his lips tightly, refusing to say anything more.

Cold and shy.

Pulling the toilet paper prepared by the bedside, Lu Jianxing awkwardly folded it into a triangle towel, and wiped the transparent liquid on Sheng Yexing's cheek bit by bit.While wiping, he let out a "humming" sound from his throat, looking really happy.Smiles piled up on the brows.

"Go to sleep, I love you too," Sheng Yexing said, "although I never told you."

Ashamed to express, Sheng Yexing blushed after saying this.

Fortunately, he couldn't see clearly at night, he thought happily.

That night, they slept soundly.

In the middle of the night, the air conditioner is not high enough, and the windows are not closed tightly.The cold wind penetrated into the room, making Lu Jianxing curl up and hide beside Sheng Yexing, the heat source.I remember that it was cold at this time last year, but he still stubbornly leaned his back against the wall.This is his way of protecting himself.

This year, it's a little different.

Seeing Xing woke up once in the early morning.

He clings to the night with all his heart and soul, and it feels like he has a piece of soft candy in his mouth.

Lu Jianxing said: "I love you..."

"You have to love me more."

Sleep has always been light, Sheng Yexing replied to him consciously.

"Much more." Lu Jianxing murmured.

"Then I also want to love you a lot more." Sheng Ye put his arms around him in a dependent posture.

Lu Jianxing woke up a lot, gestured with his fingers, "More, a little."

Just a little more.

After he finished speaking, he covered his eyes.Love numbs the senses.The small fragments of the past are like a movie screen rotation, and Heartbeat is a long shot that won the best award.They begin with a name and end with endless ages.

Lu Jianxing got on his stomach and let Sheng Yexing kiss his bare shoulder blades.

"I love you."

He emphasized, and repeated.

He tapped the back of Sheng Yexing's hand three times with his fingers, and clasped his fingers together.

Lu Jianxing seems to have understood the most difficult problem in the world.