special stargazing

After class, Gu Qunshan and others quickly surrounded Li Dingxi, and they consciously didn't ask any more questions.

When Gu Qunshan opened his mouth, he just asked if he wanted some drinks, and Li Dingxi said he wanted sweeter milk.

Sheng Yexing said that I went over the wall to buy it.

Within half an hour, Sheng Yexing came back from behind the brick wall on the back playground with a big bag of milk, and distributed a bag to each brother.

Sheng Yexing inserted a straw with his left hand to drink milk, and squeezed a cigarette with his right hand, his brows were tightly frowned, and his throat was sore and swollen due to the nicotine smell.

Lu Jianxing didn't speak, took out his mobile phone and typed on the memo——

Do you smoke?smoked.

Sheng Yexing put out the cigarette, raised his eyes and said, "Tell me, where are you going?"

Li Dingxi bit off the straw, spit out the broken piece of plastic on the tip of his tongue, and said wearily, "Psychiatric hospital."

"..." Gu Qunshan was silent for a few seconds, "What's the matter with you?"

"Two-way," Li Dingxi smiled wryly, "I don't know why..."

Sheng Yexing: "So suddenly?"

Li Dingxi: "Yes."

"Okay." Sheng Yexing nodded, "How long can I stay in the dormitory?"

"Leave next week."

"Why do you have to go inside and stay?"

These people usually say that hospitals are very sensitive, and the old gods talk about "inside" mysteriously, and they get used to it after going back and forth.

Sheng Yexing also put the straw in his mouth like smoking a cigarette, sighed, and continued to ask: "Did the doctor call you or did you do it voluntarily?"

"I voluntarily," Li Dingxi lowered his head, "I can't study in my current state, I have to take medicine, and I have to stay with people like me."

Zhanfei asked: "Why?"

"Go and stay with them, maybe I will think that my troubles are nothing?" Li Dingxi said, "Maybe it will make you feel better?"

Sheng Yexing nodded: "Go and stay first, and come back when you feel comfortable. It's okay to be sick, don't be defeated by it."

The pain and the pity seen by outsiders are all things they need to experience, and they are part of their lives and the path they have traveled.Tang Han told him on the first day of school that if he couldn't get rid of it, then face it calmly.

Control your emotions, control your thoughts, and turn your resentment towards suffering into the courage to fight, in order to control your life.

I often think about——

Why is this destroyed person me?

Yes, it can't be me.

Every day has a new goal, and there is a possibility to heal yourself.

He crushed the cigarette butt under his feet, wrapped it in a paper towel, picked it up, and threw it into the trash can.

This short and hasty brotherhood is about to end.

Li Dingxi drank the last sip of milk, turned his eyes to the silent Lu Jianxing, pretending to be relaxed and said: "Jian Xing'er, is there anything you want to say to me?"

Lu Jianxing smiled, and then fell silent.

"never mind."

Li Dingxi suddenly felt sad, shook his head, and wanted to reach out for Gu Qunshan to help him.

"Get well." Lu Jianxing suddenly raised the volume and laughed again, "It must be!"

Looking at the road and seeing the star's crooked eyebrows...

Li Dingxi wanted to cry a little.

A few days before Li Dingxi left, Lu Jianxing changed his profile picture back to the small microphone.

Sheng Yexing's profile picture is still "a star in the dark night".

He even made it clear, and Li Dingxi no longer resists taking medicine in front of his brothers. He obediently takes the medicine on time every day. After eating, he sits on his seat and takes out his mobile phone to play games. While playing, he chats with his teammates. , I can't see any problem at all.

The days are peaceful, and only Li Dingxi knows that he is about to face a major turning point in his life.

In most people's lives, the important moments are always quiet, so quiet that people don't feel the transformation.

The primary selection for recruitment began, and Zhanfei had to be picked up by his family early in the morning.

Li Dingxi was called up by Zhan Fei before he woke up, and sat on the bed with a dazed expression.

Zhan Fei reached out and knocked on the sideboard of his bed, and whispered: "I'm just here to say goodbye to you, I have to go for a medical examination."

Li Dingxi regained consciousness, "So fast? Where are you going?"

Zhanfei scratched his head, "What aviation medical examination center..."

"Check what?"

"Ear, nose, throat, eyes, etc." Zhan Fei bit the bun, "Go on to sleep, I just came to tell you, so I didn't wake up Ye Xing and Jian Xing'er. I heard that you are leaving today. I don't know when I will see you again."

Li Dingxi laughed: "Come and see me in the hospital when you have time."

Zhanfei nodded: "It's a deal!"

Li Dingxi: "It's a deal."

"I wish you success," Li Dingxi waved while sitting, "Can I brag that I have a buddy who flies bombers and depends on you."

Zhanfei: "Bombers are not as cool as carrier-based aircraft."

Li Dingxi: "It's all fine."

"Then," Zhan Fei turned his head and gave a wink, "It's up to you if I can brag that I have a brother who is the eldest brother in a mental hospital."

The door of the dormitory was quietly closed, Li Dingxi fell back and fell on the pillow, gasping for breath——

So uncomfortable.

In the afternoon, Ji Chuan and Li Dingxi's family took Li Dingxi to the hospital for a physical examination.

As soon as Li Dingxi was picked up, Lu Jianxing, who was circling on the desk with a small wooden carving motorcycle, stopped and lay down on the desk alone thinking for a long time.

He played with wood carvings and bottle caps, and finally drank all the drink in the bottle in one go, took a break, hummed a few tunes, and peeled off a mint candy and stuffed it into his mouth.

Seeing that he had finished writing all the test papers, Sheng Yexing didn't say much, and continued to look down at the book, with the other hand on Lu Jianxing's lap.

Play hooligans in broad daylight and in public!

Lu Jianxing picked up a pen and wrote two words on the note: boring.

"Is summer dull?" Sheng Yexing raised his eyes and asked.

"Summer is not boring." Lu Jianxing thought for a while, and replied like this.

"Then what's dull?"

"Heart."

Sheng Yexing breathed a sigh of relief, and felt a little happy again, "It means that you feel very uncomfortable seeing Li Dingxi gone, doesn't it?"

Lu Jianxing didn't answer, he turned his face away and continued playing with the wooden carving motorcycle.

"..."

Sheng Yexing suddenly heard Lu Jianxing mutter something.

"what are you saying?"

"It's nothing."

After a while, Lu Jianxing muttered again, but Sheng Yexing still couldn't hear clearly: "What did you say?"

Lu Jianxing: "Nothing."

Sheng Yexing: "..."

Lu Jianxing ignored him, and imitated the tone of Sheng Yexing's day, whispering, "Thank you Lu Jianxing."

"Ha." Sheng Yexing laughed, his heart burning hot.

Why are you so cute?

Before going back to the dormitory at night, Sheng Yexing took Lu Jianxing to buy some spicy stew on the way back.

Lu Jianxing took a bath, and Sheng Yexing also squeezed in to take a bath. After washing, he was sweating profusely. Lu Jianxing felt that his bath was wasted!

Before Lai Lu had even taken a bite, Sheng Yexing leaned over his shoulder very presumptuously, "Li Dingxi is not in the dormitory today."

Lu Jianxing reacted for a while, then remembered that Li Dingxi had gone for a physical examination in the afternoon, and sighed.

Not anymore.

"Can you still sigh?" Sheng Yexing laughed, and took a sip from Li Dingxi's unfinished fruit wine bottle.

After a few sips, Sheng Yexing pushed Lu Jianxing to sit against the wall, bowing his head and straightening his clothes.

He took a lipstick from his schoolbag that he didn't know where to buy and handed it to Lu Jianxing: "Put it on for me."

Lu Jianxing was shocked: "?"

"Smear it on! Oh——" Sheng Yexing raised his face to make a mouth shape, "Is that so, would it be convenient to apply a little bit?"

Lu Jianxing couldn't stop laughing, and answered with staring eyes: "Who knows!"

Sheng Yexing pouted, with cool eyes: "Be quicker."

If the group of grandchildren knew that he forced Lu Jianxing to put lipstick on himself, he would die of laughter.

After putting on the lipstick, Sheng Yexing continued to grab Lu Jianxing's clothes and pushed Lu Jianxing down. He lowered his head and stroked the clothes, and made a deep lip print on his lower abdomen.

Lu Jianxing: "!"

"I want a lot of red, and I will give you a kiss in the future." Sheng Yexing raised his eyes from above his slightly contoured abs, "You don't need lipstick."

Can hickey be planted on the lower abdomen?

do not know.

It has to be proved by practice!

The two of them jumped into bed and lowered the curtains.

After pulling the curtain of the bed, Sheng Yexing turned around and saw Lu Jianxing lying on the bed, his eyes were clean and pure, he was chanting words, but he couldn't hear what he was saying.

This kind of "cleanness" made him feel distressed again.

Compared with the initial "sluggishness", it has been much better.

"I said," Sheng Yexing pulled the quilt and lay down slowly, "I originally planned to live alone in this life. I just wanted to not harm anyone."

Lu Jianxing: "Oh."

Sheng Yexing added: "But who made that person be you."

"The scourge." Lu Jianxing said.

"You and I are not called disasters, but called mutual help."

Recalling the appearance of the person who fell into the water that day and the words he shouted, Lu Jianxing said, "Falling into the water?"

"Well," Sheng Yexing moved closer to his chin with the tip of his nose, "You gave me my second life."

"Why do you say that."

Sheng Yexing suddenly stopped, laughed a few times, and whispered: "When my world is about to collapse, I am willing to work harder for you."

Lu Jianxing was a little shocked.

No matter how "keep his ears off his own affairs", he was also shocked.

He felt that the other party's words penetrated into his chest like a hot hand, scratching his heart so that it was itchy and hot, so hot that his nasal cavity was steaming.

Why do you want to cry so much.

It's really not easy for two people to support them all the way, but they are in such an environment, no matter how many difficulties and setbacks they feel normal, as long as they "live".

However, children of the same age as them are working hard to get into college, are playing hot games on mobile games, and sweating recklessly on the basketball court. They have a bright future and look forward to the future.

But they have nothing.

Only in the darkness, a pair of hands belonging to the other party.

Lu Jianxing suddenly remembered the countless nights when they hugged and fell asleep, Sheng Yexing always watched him fall asleep first and then sleep.

Then Sheng Yexing every night, looking at the dots of light outside the bedroom window, will there be an urge to touch it?

While Lu Jianxing was in a daze, Sheng Yexing's hands fumbled disobediently on Lu Jianxing's waist, causing Lu Jianxing to bend his elbows and stab Sheng Yexing's lower abdomen back, causing him to gasp in pain.

I was tired enough to toss today, and I didn't buy a set.

Forget it, turn off the fire.

Sheng Yexing hugged Lu Jianxing back awkwardly, kissed blindly a few times, trying to suppress the little flame in his heart.

Sure enough, autumn is a melancholy season.

After hugging and rolling around for a while, Sheng Yexing was tortured by Lu Jianxing until he was out of breath.

He pinched Lu Jianxing's face and threatened, "Call me big brother."

Lu Jianxing was so sleepy that he hurriedly gave in: "Big brother."

"That's right," Sheng Yexing smirked, "Not only is he a big brother, but he's also a big brother."

Lu Jianxing: "..."

"Call again."

"..."

Stop calling!

"Original brother too," Sheng Yexing hugged him, "I'll call him 'Brother Yexing' from now on, okay?"

Just as he was about to answer, a sudden voice came from the dormitory: "Boss, can you stop letting people satisfy your wicked taste?"

Sheng Yexing recognized that it was Gu Qunshan, and immediately realized, "You just came in?"

Isn't the door locked?

The door lock is broken?

Gu Qunshan's voice was a little trembling: "Well, I just came in. Who are you calling, or 'Brother Yexing'?"

"Give it to my sister." Sheng Yexing checked whether the bed curtain was tight enough, "Is there anything wrong?"

Lu Jianxing covered his mouth, he had learned to keep quiet and pretend that he didn't exist.

Putting the bought Coke on the table, Gu Qunshan said loudly: "Li Dingxi said that he can visit him next week, but he said he sent you a message and no one responded, please let me tell you."

"Understood," Sheng Yexing said, "Go back and rest."

With the sound of closing the door, Sheng Yexing pushed aside a corner of the bed curtain.

Unexpectedly, Gu Qunshan hadn't left yet.