special stargazing

On the last day of May, they left the capital.

Before leaving, Sheng Yexing led the way to see the stars and walked the road from the hospital to the hotel several times, watching Zhu Qiang Wu Wa, and the memories were leisurely and long.Sheng Yexing said that he would come again after graduation, and walk all the roads he had traveled. Lu Jianxing nodded in agreement, focusing all his attention on the LED headlights modified by the off-road vehicle passing by.

Sister Chen came to see them off, and when the two children entered, they still stood outside the gate for a long time, unwilling to leave.

While exchanging tickets at the train station, a passenger had a heart attack and passed out. Fortunately, the ambulance arrived in time. Relatives were crying and shouting. look curiously.

"Let's go," Sheng Yexing tugged on his cuff, "Don't look at it, it's impolite."

Lu Jianxing was still sensitive to the word "impolite". He moved a little bit and followed Sheng Yexing to the station, but he still couldn't help asking, will he die?

"Probably not."

"what……"

"Ah what, let's go, find our platform." Sheng Yexing pulled him forward without looking back, for a moment he was a little afraid that Lu Jianxing would ask what "death" was or something he couldn't explain clearly .

Sheng Yexing stared into the distance, suddenly unable to speak.

Regarding this topic, Sheng Yexing, who had a deep understanding, kept silent for a long time. It was not until he got on the high-speed rail that Sheng Yexing handed the ticket to Lu Jianxing and asked him to try to find the seat.

Although Lu Jianxing moved slowly, he still found the seat.

After waiting for ten minutes, the high-speed train slowly started.

Because the light was too strong, Sheng Yexing drew the blackout curtains, and the light in their row dimmed a lot in an instant.

Sheng Yexing turned his head and said hoarsely, "Do you have any idea about death?"

"En." Lu Jianxing replied.

Nodding, Sheng Yexing continued: "I'll give you a book in full bloom later on, suitable for all ages. I myself can't accept the death of my parents until now, and I can't understand why this 'orphan' ' It will be me. Death can only be accepted."

Lu Jianxing was even more confused.

How did that person feel when he died?

His eyes were clear, and Sheng Yexing could only rely on his own understanding of him to make judgments and interpretations: "For the dead, it is a moment, but for those around him, it is a long, lifetime-long event." process."

"Death is separation." Lu Jianxing lowered his head, and glanced at the two people's hands that were clasped as they were when they came.

Sheng Yexing looked back tacitly, squeezed Lu Jianxing's sweaty soft palm, and said firmly: "The only thing that can be separated is death."

Looking at Lu Jianxing's side face, Sheng Yexing understood the meaning of those "tuogu" in movies and TV shows.

Indeed, everyone in this world will have people who are worried. Sheng Yexing didn't believe it before, but now he does.

Hope he doesn't depend on me too much.

If one day I have any accident, then I can't continue to accompany him.

In my absence, he needs to learn to take care of himself and love himself.

After saying these words like reciting lines from a movie, Sheng Yexing adjusted his sitting position comfortably, and called out in a low voice: "See you on the road."

Ever since "Bing Pi'er", "Jian Xing'er", "Lu Ge" and other nicknames with different styles and complete sets, Lu Jianxing seldom heard Sheng Yexing call him by his first name, so he turned his head nervously to look at him. he.

"It's nothing." Sheng Yexing laughed, with the corners of his mouth raised, "It's pretty good."

On the day of going back to school, the road from the train station to the suburbs became very far away, and the car swayed on the road.

Sheng Yexing was leaning against the window to look at the scenery, but for some reason, he swayed to Lu Jianxing's shoulder and leaned on his head. As soon as he closed his eyes, his eyelashes were covered with an evening glow.

In the evening, the brothers greeted the two of them, and arranged cold beer, barbecue, and braised meat, and filled the round flower bed downstairs in the dormitory.

Zhang Ma passed by and was stuffed with two spicy rabbit heads.

Teacher Tang Han and Ji Chuan also came and said to check the situation.

My aunt called and told Sheng Yexing to go home next month and bring a change of clothes to school.

The "reception banquet" was organized hastily and chicly, and all sat on the floor with newspapers on the ground.Lu Jianxing was surrounded in the middle, sitting on a small stool without saying a word, playing games, eating only grilled eggplant, and picking out all the cowpea and wild peppers that were added inside.

Sheng Yexing was in charge of the "speech". He talked about what he saw and heard in the capital.

I don't think it's necessary to mention it.

After Dongxia asked, Sheng Yexing said it was okay, and his mood was much more stable.

Lu Jianxing ate four of the roasted eggplants. Sheng Yexing said he went over the wall to buy some stomach-invigorating and digesting tablets. Since Sheng Yexing drank alcohol, Dong Xiala couldn't hold him back, so he had to let Gu Qunshan hold him back, saying he was drunk If you go over the wall, you will fall to your death.

The two sides were at a stalemate, and Sheng Yexing came down after more than ten minutes, his eyes still wandering.

"I will report you tomorrow." Gu Qunshan was furious.

"There's nothing to collect...I'm still wondering when Mr. Tang Han will return the motorcycle keys to me."

Gu Qunshan said unhappily: "Wait for you to get better."

Sheng Yexing said "Oh", "Forget it, I'll ask the delivery man to deliver it for me."

Gu Qunshan grabbed Sheng Yexing's wrist, "Hey, no... why are you caring about him so much?"

He let his arm be dragged by someone, with a cool expression on his face: "For the future of the motherland."

"You want to control..." Gu Qunshan shrank his head and scratched the back of his neck, "Scorpio is really scary."

"What happened to you, Scorpio?"

"Nothing, it's fine."

"What seat are you in?"

"I..." Gu Qunshan blushed strangely, "I'm a Virgo."

"I think you're made of paste," Sheng Yexing put down the Coke can, wiped off his sweat again, and was about to go on stage, "Eat more meat, and keep your stakes steady. Look at how brittle your body is. Once you play defense, you will lose weight." If you get caught, I will send you to the frontier and wave the towel like this."

When Gu Qunshan heard that he was going to be sent to the bench, he quickly stood up straight and expressed his determination: "Don't, don't, don't! I don't want to guard the drinking fountain, I have to start."

"Is this what you're promising?" Sheng Yexing knocked him on the back of the head, "If I don't fight next year, you have to be the main force."

"Why don't you fight?"

"Not necessarily." Sheng Yexing just said.

As he spoke, he glanced at the place where Lu Jianxing was, and Lu Jianxing seemed to be in a daze again.

As an adult, Lu Jianxing will start to think about some issues that he would not have thought about before, such as knowing that he has this "problem", it would be better not to be born...

But as soon as he thought about it, he felt sorry for his mother, and quickly pushed back this unfilial thought.

The world in his life seems to be really different. He used to think that he was three years old, and there were still many three years left.

Lu Jianxing can open a room, can surf the Internet, can be sentenced, and can shout: I am not a fucking child anymore.

Two ounces of wine to accompany the wind, Lu Jianxing dipped his chopsticks in some wine and licked his lips, listening to their bragging one after another, chatting from pornography to lol, and then from mobile games to chatting about how not to listen to English sleep.

Seeing a group of boys chatting, laughing, and fighting in the dark, Lu Jianxing occasionally feels a little envious.

To be honest, Lu Jianxing's grades are not very good, and he dozes off when he listens to foreign languages...

Sometimes he wonders that when most people hear about "autism", they feel like they are a group of geniuses.

I don't know when it started, but Lu Jianxing has also developed a new habit, that is, he must go to the rooftop to watch the sunset every evening, sometimes at 06:30, sometimes at [-] o'clock, and no one is allowed to follow.

The rooftop he went to was the one that held hands with Sheng Yexing. The wall covered with the "Code of Conduct for Second City Students" has been repainted, and some naughty students wrote some Q numbers, WeChat IDs, and a few more on it. A line of lyrics that doesn't know the tune, Lu Jianxing brought a note pad when he went to the rooftop for the fourth time, and pasted the note on it when he finished writing it.

When writing was useless, he used it to fold paper airplanes, threw them into the setting sun, and soon went with the wind of the setting sun.

After waiting for half an hour, Lu Jianxing went downstairs again.

Sheng Yexing waited at the stairs with a stern face, and would ask him, "Why do you fall in love with the evening?"

"After a while, you will be able to sleep."

Lu Jianxing said as he pursed his lips and let out a long breath.

The summer is too hot, the heat makes him dizzy, like soaking in boiling water.

The next morning, Sheng Yexing ran out to the rooftop during morning reading time, wanting to see what is so mysterious about this place.

Lu Jianxing's note paper is light yellow, sticking to a pile of A4 printing paper, it is very eye-catching, and the font is also crooked, Sheng Yexing knows it is his handwriting at a glance.

Tore off the sticky note that was about to lose its stickiness, facing the light, Sheng Yexing carefully read out word by word.

"When you close your eyes, the world goes away...

Only your gentle weight is always testing me. "

Um?Will you still write these?

After the ecstasy, Sheng Yexing calmly took out his mobile phone and searched on Baidu, and found that it was written by a Japanese poet named Tanigawa Shuntaro.

It's okay, otherwise I would be really surprised.

It's good that Lu Bingpi'er can write some sentences, it can be regarded as a manifestation of the improvement of empathy ability.

Sheng Yexing's hands were itchy, and he wanted to take this post-it note away and keep it...

Sheng Yexing held back his impulse after hesitating for a long time with his hand next to the sticky note.

Just let this piece of paper dance in the sunset of Shier forever, and it’s best to keep everything as it is.

On the first weekend when they came back to continue their high school life, the school organized their class to go to the orphanage to watch the performances made by the elementary schools in the city with their grandparents.

Lu Jianxing was sitting in the open-air dam with a stool and was bored watching. After a program was over, the audience applauded together, but Lu Jianxing just froze and did not move. When everyone applauded, he raised his hands and clapped his hands. Applause Very loud.

At first, some people kept turning their heads to look at him, but then they disappeared.

"Don't look." Li Dingxi added lightly.

Gu Qunshan also chimed in: "I see Xing'er, everyone, don't keep turning your head."

In addition to the classmates in the class, some elders, and the elementary school students who accompanied the show, the more they reminded them, the more they wanted to watch, and people kept looking back.

Sheng Yexing and Lu Jianxing sat in front of each other, and Sheng Yexing was putting his feet on the legs of Lu Jianxing's stool in a protective posture.

"Baby, sit here," Sheng Yexing leaned forward and whispered in Lu Jianxing's ear, "I'll change seats with you."

"Huh?" Lu Jianxing didn't understand why.

"Change, I want to bask in the sun more."

"Oh." After saying this, Lu Jianxing looked up at the sunlight falling on his shoulders, thinking that they are all the same!

After changing positions, the elementary school students who kept turning their heads bumped directly into Sheng Yexing's eyes. Sheng Yexing chose to raise his eyes to meet them, with a look of "turn around and try again".

Lu Jianxing didn't know that Sheng Yexing's eyes were as cool as a hound guarding cubs, and he was baring his canines to let outsiders see his territory clearly.

"Yeah, having an older brother is so fierce."

"Don't look back."

"Let's watch the show."

Lu Jianxing only heard a few younger brothers whispering to each other.