one way indulgence abo

"Gu Yan, what are you doing?" Luo Chengcheng tried her best to restrain her shock.

As if he didn't hear it, Gu Yan gathered the lucky stars scattered around into a pile, and then continued his movements as if no one was there.Luo Chengcheng barely stopped, and then he realized that Gu Yan was afraid that he would step on these stars.

Su Miao was so annoyed by Gu Yan's dying look that he had nothing to say. Anyway, Luo Chengcheng also came, so he simply went outside to smoke, leaving space for the two of them.

"Didn't you go abroad again?" Gu Yan didn't lift his head, he looked at the lucky star that had just formed in his palm, his pale lips moved, "Why did I only get to the 1rd , and you appear."

Gu Yan didn't seem to be asking a question, but more like talking to himself.

Luo Chengcheng didn't speak, he bent down to pick up a few lucky stars, but Gu Yan grabbed his wrist.

"Let them go." Gu Yan looked at Luo Chengcheng, the deep-set eye sockets were covered with faint red.

The dead silence in Gu Yan's eyes made Luo Chengcheng's heart beat violently a few times. This doesn't look like what an Alpha should be, let alone what Gu Yan should be...

"Gu Yan, you're like a piece of trash right now." Luo Chengcheng let go, and a few lucky stars rolled down on the ground, as if throwing a sound.

"Trash? Maybe." Gu Yan's eyelashes trembled twice, "No matter how glamorous and powerful I am, you won't even look at me."

"No Omega will be tempted by an Alpha like you." Luo Chengcheng frowned, trying to make the hasty tone sound gentle, "Get up and have a good meal, Su Miao said you haven't had any food these days." How to eat."

After waiting for half a minute, seeing that Gu Yan was silent again, Luo Chengcheng finally became impatient. He held one of Gu Yan's arms and tried to pull Gu Yan up, but he heard Gu Yan "hiss".

Only then did Luo Chengcheng realize that Gu Yan's left calf was swollen quite a lot.

"Your leg?"

Sensing Luo Chengcheng's surprised and burning eyes, Gu Yan shrank his left leg, and felt a sharp pain in an instant. Seeing that Gu Yan's forehead was sweating, Luo Chengcheng understood the seriousness of the situation.

"There will be problems if you don't treat it. How long have you been like this?" After Luo Chengcheng asked, there was another burst of silence as expected.

After a long time, Gu Yan smiled, and finally spoke, but he answered the wrong question: "Isn't it just right if something goes wrong? If something goes wrong, I can't chase you anymore."

Gu Yan's indifferent look made Luo Chengcheng feel a burst of anger rushing to the top of his head, and his temples also began to throb.

Gu Yan in front of him is like a piece of wood that oil and salt can't get into. In the past, when facing Gu Yan who cherishes words like gold, Luo Chengcheng can use various methods to pry Gu Yan's mouth away, but now, he has long I don't have the patience anymore.

He directly dialed the hospital number, regardless of whether Gu Yanle was happy or not.

"Take you to the hospital immediately."

"What about you?" Gu Yan looked up at Luo Chengcheng.

"I'll go with you too." Luo Chengcheng didn't know what was wrong with her, so she made such a promise by accident.

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On the way to the hospital, Luo Chengcheng learned from Su Miao that Gu Yan's leg suffered sequelae from a fall three years ago to save him, and it would often fall ill in rainy seasons, requiring regular massage treatment.

It's August now, and the rainy season has only passed for a few days, but Gu Yan is bored at home folding stars, turning away all the doctors Su Miao called.

Luo Chengcheng said: "You should call 120 for him earlier."

Su Miao sighed: "I didn't expect it to be serious, but luckily you came."

Su Miao had to help Gu Yan manage the huge company while paying attention to Gu Yan's every move, which was really powerless.

Fortunately, Gu Yan is finally willing to accept the doctor's treatment, but only if Luo Chengcheng is within reach of him.

At night, seeing that Luo Chengcheng was about to go back, Gu Yan began to refuse the doctor to check his legs again.

Luo Chengcheng couldn't help but pinch Gu Yan's thin and bearded chin, and said in a deep voice: "Do you think you still have the right to play with me now?"

In the end, Gu Yan stopped and watched Luo Chengcheng leave without saying a word.He looked too hard, causing Luo Chengcheng to walk all the way and feel that his back was on fire.

Su Miao followed Luo Chengcheng and sent him to the parking lot.

"Luo Chengcheng, you will come tomorrow." Su Miao was still a little uncertain.

"Well, I won't go back on what I promised you."

"Thank you."

Luo Chengcheng got into the car, and before starting the car, he opened the window: "Su Miao, I still want to thank you for helping me solve my confusion."

"You're welcome, you have the right to know this." Su Miao smiled helplessly, "Actually, I also have selfish intentions, after all, he is my friend, and in this world, only you can cheer him up...but When he is emotionally stable, I will still persuade him to think about it. As the biggest victim of the whole thing, you have no obligation to accompany him to bear the mistakes. Even if I am his friend, I will not refute this point, let alone force it .”

Luo Chengcheng actually knew from the beginning that Su Miao was using him to comfort Gu Yan, but he still followed Su Miao's idea, and subconsciously, he didn't want to see Gu Yan become what he is now.

"It's okay, let's take what we need."

It is indeed what each needs.

As Gu Yan's friend, Su Miao needed him to appease Gu Yan, but he just wanted to smooth out the "difficult to calm down" that had been aching in his heart for more than three years.

From the beginning to the end, his biggest doubt was whether Gu Yan loved him or not, and now, he finally got the answer, from Su Miao's mouth and Gu Yan's body.

The result of the fact is that he is not too embarrassing, at least Gu Yan has love for him, Gu Yan did not fall in love with him after three years of air, nor did he deliberately say that he loves him to trick him, Gu Yan did not lie to him , It's just that he has a mortal body, and he can't bear this love.

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For three consecutive days, Luo Chengcheng came to the ward at nine o'clock in the morning and returned at six o'clock in the afternoon. It was like clocking in and out of get off work on time, but most of the time he would bring his computer to write music.

Gu Yan didn't bother him, just sat on the hospital bed and looked at his profile for hours.

Once, he didn't even notice that the medicine was dripping. It was Luo Chengcheng who found out that the blood was returning, so he hurriedly dropped the mouse and rang the bell to call the doctor.

"Your leg is broken, not your brain."

After the doctor left, Luo Chengcheng reprimanded Gu Yan, but saw Gu Yan staring at him intently, with a rare brilliance in his eyes.

"What are you doing?" Luo Chengcheng became vigilant.

Gu Yan shook his head.He found that he was still the same as when he was a child, fascinated by the way Luo Chengcheng taught him seriously.He's like a masochist, but only Luo Chengcheng's.

"You're here, I always forget other things."

Gu Yan was obviously careless, but he felt wronged first.

"Then I'll just go, so that you don't have to treat your illness and rely on me."

Luo Chengcheng closed the laptop, got up and made a gesture to leave, but was caught off guard by Gu Yan who hugged her from behind. Gu Yan's leg injury was not healed, and she couldn't stand steadily, almost leaning on Luo Chengcheng.

"Don't leave Chengcheng, I was wrong, stay with me for a while."

Leaning against Gu Yan's thin but warm chest, Luo Chengcheng's originally cold heart suddenly fell into a ball of cotton wool, and the feeling of being lost made him forget how to refuse for a while.

He gently pushed Gu Yan away: "Lie down on the bed, I'll leave at six o'clock."

On the fifth day, the edema in Gu Yan's calf had completely recovered. He was an Alpha after all. Although his mentality was decadent, his physical fitness was still there.

When Gu Yan was undergoing a routine examination, Luo Chengcheng went to the corridor of the inpatient department to answer a call from Professor Lange from the other side of the ocean. The old man forgot his birthday last month, so he specially called to make up for his wishes .

Luo Chengcheng chatted with his mentor about the current situation and music for more than an hour. When he was about to go back to the ward, he accidentally ran into Ni Zheng who hadn't seen him for a long time.

"Ms. Luo? Why are you here?"

Ni Zheng carried a small box of cream cakes, walked forward nervously, looked at Luo Chengcheng up, down, left, and right, and was relieved when he found that there was nothing wrong.

"I'm here to visit the sick, how about you?"

"Me too, my er... friend is sick." When Ni Zheng said this, his expression was a little evasive, and he looked back at the closed door of a certain ward.

But Luo Chengcheng didn't care, he nodded: "Well, then go and accompany your friend."

"..." Ni Zheng originally wanted to talk to Luo Chengcheng a few more words, but when he thought that there was someone waiting for him in the ward, he said goodbye to Luo Chengcheng anyway. There is still a lot of time to see Luo Chengcheng.

When I returned to the ward, it was almost five o'clock, Luo Chengcheng met Gu Yan's scrutinizing eyes as soon as she entered the door.

"Why have you been out for so long?"

Luo Chengcheng felt guilty for no reason. He turned his head and said while packing his things, "I chatted with the professor for a while."

"you are leaving?"

"Yeah." Luo Chengcheng installed the computer, "Today is Friday, Luo Yiye Kindergarten gets out of school early, I will take him to play."

Luo Chengcheng didn't deliberately avoid Luo Yiye from Gu Yan, because the more he avoided, the more suspicious he would be.

"It's been a long time since I saw Luo Yiye, how is he doing recently?" When talking about "Luo Yiye", Gu Yan's heart still hurt without any suspense, no matter how cute Luo Yiye is He is a symbol of Luo Chengcheng being marked by others.

"Very well, in good health, alive and kicking."

Gu Yan nodded: "That's good."

Luo Chengcheng packed up his things and walked out. When he got to the door, he heard Gu Yan say: "Su Miao told you everything."

"how do you know?"

"Otherwise you wouldn't come here every day, you have work to do, and love to talk about." Gu Yan smiled a little embarrassedly, "I guess he must have exchanged these with you, Su Miao, a bitch guy."

Gu Yan felt bitter in his heart.Su Miao still told Luo Chengcheng everything he didn't dare to tell Luo Chengcheng, and he finally became a complete loser in Luo Chengcheng's mind, a poor wretch.

He knew from the beginning that Luo Chengcheng didn't come voluntarily, but he was too greedy for this feeling, no matter it was illusory or not.

But the illusion has its limit. When he went out to find Luo Chengcheng and saw Ni Zheng, he couldn't deceive himself any longer.

"If he doesn't tell me, I'm afraid I will be kept in the dark by you all my life. I will never know how I was hated by others."

Gu Yan smiled, with a sad expression on his face.

"Since you mentioned this, let me ask another question. I want to hear you answer it yourself."

"what?"

"You hated me back then, did you hate me because I was the son of your family's enemy Luo Yao, or because I caused you to be under house arrest by your grandfather, or because you had a new or old hatred, both."

"None." Gu Yan smiled wryly, "When you reached out to me 13 years ago, I swore that no matter who you are, as long as you hold on to me, I will walk with you to a warm place. But I thought you let go... I thought you approached me just for fun."

"That's why you want to treat him in the same way?" Luo Chengcheng couldn't help laughing after hearing this.He and Gu Yan have been entangled on and off for more than ten years, and it's only because of a sentence that he didn't finish listening.

"I always thought of you as a liar, but in the end I found out that I was."

"You are too paranoid Gu Yan, if I really treat you as a plaything, I won't chase you again in ten years."

Luo Chengcheng never turned around, Gu Yan looked at Luo Chengcheng's small trembling on the shoulders and back, and said in a hoarse voice: "I'm sorry, Chengcheng. Whether you accept it or not, I have to say sorry to you. I misunderstood your intentions and lied to you at the beginning, although I regret it all the time, but if I do it all over again, I can't help but fall in love with you."

"And then I deserve to be tricked again, don't I?"

"No, I will try my best to love you quietly, without letting you know." Gu Yan looked out the window, "How can I be willing to let you meet me again."

Gu Yan's profile turned into a fragile silhouette and landed on the retina, and Luo Chengcheng's heart felt as if it had been pinched by something.

It's not that he doesn't believe that Gu Yan once really loved him, but for him, Gu Yan's love for him is aggressive. Gu Yan lacks a sense of security, so he will wrongly blame him and hurt him because he didn't listen to what he said. At the same time, Gu Yan's love is also possessive and suffocating. Gu Yan cannot accept even a centimeter away from him.

Perhaps, Gu Yan is different now, but just like what Su Miao said, he has no obligation to take responsibility for his mistakes, let alone accompany Gu Yan in his transformation.

But there is no obligation and no obligation. As for whether he is willing or not, the decision is still in his hands.

"Chengcheng, I will cooperate with the follow-up treatment from tomorrow, so you don't need to come here in the future, this place is far away from where you live."