【Taizhong】Fantasy Love

It was late when he got home, and Hongye was drinking tea in the living room, turning her head when she heard him come back.He walked upstairs wearily, with heavy steps.Hongye asked him what's the matter, he said nothing, she came up and said that your complexion is not very good.

May be too tired.He found a more convincing reason.

Let's go next door tomorrow.Seeing that his complexion was really bad, Hongye reached out and touched his forehead to test his temperature. He was taken aback when he heard this, and asked what we were going to do?Hongye said to agree on your marriage, isn't it set for next year, many things need to be prepared as soon as possible, if it is late, there will be chaos...

He interrupted Hongye's words.We are not married anymore.He said.

ah?Hongye didn't react, and the remaining half of the sentence was stuck in her throat. She was stunned for a long time, and after a long time, she asked, "Not getting married is...?"

personality clashes.He really doesn't know how to explain this matter to Hongye, saying that everything they have done so far is trading and acting?He should have said that, but what he said turned into continuing to perpetuate the lie.It's not appropriate to quarrel often.He tried to look indifferent.So get married.

In the eyes of Hongye, he really couldn't make it up, so after saying this, he hurried upstairs and returned to his room. The moment he closed the door, he felt flustered. He leaned his back on the door, a little absent-minded.He stretched out his hand, and he was still wearing that ring, which was silver and white, shining slightly.He looked at the ring carefully, and finally, as if he had made up his mind, he took it off his hand. His movements were a little rough, and there was a little pain from the friction between the skin and the metal. After the ring was taken off, his finger was red. A circle, in contrast to the rest of the white skin, seems to be proof that something has existed here.

He held the small metal ring, which was warm and lay comfortably in the palm of his hand, with a line of letters engraved on the inner wall.He squatted down by the table and rummaged through boxes and cabinets, trying to find the box that used to hold the ring, but he couldn't find it. He remembered that he had thrown the velvet box to Osamu Dazai that day, so he could only give up.He opened the drawer, and there were miscellaneous photo albums and notebooks inside, the top one was the high school yearbook.

Zhong Yuanzhong couldn't help pulling out the yearbook, the first page was their high school graduation photo.The day before the exam, they were kicked out of the classroom by the teacher, and they took this photo standing at the entrance of the gymnasium. It didn't rain that day, and there was no sweltering heat in summer, but it was cool.Friends at the same level clustered together and said goodbye to each other, girls sobbed and held their friends' hands, and boys wrote messy words on each other's shirts.The second button on Osamu Dazai's shirt has already been snapped up by girls, not to mention the second button, even the cuffs.Chuya Nakahara was chatting with his friends. He was standing under a tree with luxuriant foliage. While talking with his friends, he glanced at Osamu Dazai surrounded by girls from the corner of his eye. Alpha was removing the cuff on his left cuff The last button, and the girls around screamed for it.He thought it was funny, so he turned his head again. After it rained yesterday, the branches and leaves above his head dripped water, dripping onto his shoulders, dizzy with coldness.

Zhong Yuanzhong didn't remember who he gave his second button to in the end, it seemed that he gave it to a school girl who came to him specially, he pulled the shirt casually, and the button fell into the palm of his hand, the school girl The younger sister took it, showing a happy expression.Thinking about it now, he feels that Osamu Dazai must not remember who gave this important button to. After all, his neighbor seems to have always been that kind of person, affection is a burden, and love words are lies.When staring at the graduation photo, he seemed to hear the rustling sound of the wind blowing the leaves that day. In the photo, Osamu Dazai stood in the back row. His good-looking face was in stark contrast to the ordinary high school boys around him. He seemed to be smiling. , and like facial expressions, this half-smile expression is frozen in a certain frame.

When he finally closed the graduation album, Zhongyuan Zhong also realized that he had read it for so long. He put the graduation album back in the drawer and put the ring on it.

He doesn't know what's wrong with him, but he seems to have started to care more and more about Osamu Dazai. He hated this Alpha since he was a child, and the hatred became stronger after the conflict, until they had such an inexplicable relationship. .Throughout his student days, he was jealous of him and envied him. When he had the most negative emotions, he asked himself why he couldn’t get everything from Osamu Dazai, but he also relied on him at the same time. From the age of 14 to 17, all the most memorable and the most Sentimental and sincere memories are tainted with him. From the first meeting, the existence of Osamu Dazai has run through nearly half of his life. He can't and can't separate him.

He admitted that he really cared about Dazai now, and he began to cast his eyes on him involuntarily, he remembered every word he said, Dazai's sly smile, good-looking fingers, walking posture, all unconsciously projected in his mind.When did it start?He couldn't find the answer, maybe it was the day Dazai Osamu agreed to help him, or maybe it was in the process of doing something together later.Nakahara also knew that he had been deceiving himself for too long, he had paid too much attention to Osamu Dazai, but he always thought it was because he hated this person, maybe the mood swings of disgust and liking have always been Nearly, like murder is about equal to love.He has been with Dazai Osamu for so long under this skin of disgust, until now he can no longer wear it.He used to be able to attribute his gradual surge of emotion towards Osamu Dazai to the pheromone after he was temporarily marked, but now the bite mark on the back of his neck has long since disappeared, the wound has healed, and the blood that once melted into his blood and ran through his limbs and bones The pheromones belonging to Osamu Dazai have long since dissipated. Before, he could comfort himself that it was the mutual attraction of pheromones that made him change his view of Osamu Dazai. But now that everything is gone, there is no excuse, no explanation, how can he convince himself? ?

There is no way.He almost wanted to laugh at himself. When he made a deal with Osamu Dazai a few years ago, he never thought that he would have such a messy day.He admitted that he fell in love with Osamu Dazai, an Alpha whom he had never seen through and who he hated the most.He laughed at his lack of awareness, and he also laughed at the fact that the person he fell in love with was Dazai Osamu, who couldn't do it?He did help him. Since the age of 14, they have had a skin relationship that is countless times closer than others, but what does this mean?Nakahara couldn't help but think of Osamu Dazai's second button. His neighbors must not remember which girl he gave it to around him. Maybe he is like that button collector now, and the things he received It is meaningful enough, but the person concerned never cared about it. There is indeed only one button, but if there are a thousand, Nakahara has no doubt that Osamu Dazai will give it to a thousand girls in need.What he received now was like a button that Osamu Dazai had given him since he was 14 years old, everything they had done together now, and all the kindness that this Alpha had ever had.He cared about the button belatedly, and fell in love with the owner of the button, but what about the owner?Buttons can be given to anyone, the owner has always been like this.

It was a fruitless and bad deal.he thought.Osamu Dazai didn't ask him for anything, but he inadvertently handed over his admiration, he almost wanted to laugh.As he closed the drawer, he glanced at the ring with his name engraved on it.This is the last time I see it, Chuya Nakahara thought.

The next day he made a special trip to the next door to express his apologies to the owner next door for their inability to get married.The head of the family was astonished and regretful, and kept asking him why.Dazai Osamu was also there, but he never spoke, nor did he lend a voice, leaving Chuya Nakahara alone to tell pale and hypocritical lies.He said that our personalities are not suitable, and we still can't adapt to each other after all. After these two days of careful thinking and consideration, I think it's better to forget it.Nakahara also wanted to ask why Osamu Dazai didn't help him with a few words, but then remembered that their deal had ended, and Osamu Dazai didn't need to help him anymore. Even though all the follow-up work was difficult and embarrassing, he was really needed One person aftermath.The Patriarch didn't say much. After all, he admired Chuya Zhongyuan very much, and he couldn't force anything. After all, he agreed to terminate this hasty engagement.During the whole process, Nakahara didn't dare to look Dazai in the eyes, obviously they were so close, Dazai stood beside him with his legs leaning on the sofa, listening to them quietly without saying a word.Zhong Yuanzhong also saw him from the corner of his eyes, his face was expressionless, his dark hair was soft and neat, and the morning light shone on his hair like satin.

I think it's a pity, but I respect your choice.The Patriarch sent him out with a regretful and serious expression.Of course, if there is still a chance to reconcile, I also hope that you can have a good talk with him again.

I will.He can only agree.

He didn't say a word to Osamu Dazai from the beginning to the end, he just came here in a hurry and went back in a hurry.He didn't know whether Osamu Dazai saw him take off the ring, let alone whether Osamu Dazai took off the ring.At night, he sat alone in the attic in a daze, and the pictures of the past were spinning in his mind frame by frame, making him feel confused and slightly sad.It started to rain again outside the window, at first little by little, and then it fell bigger and bigger, all hitting the window panes of the attic, crackling.He simply opened the window, everything was like the first time he was in heat when he was 14 years old, the narrow and cramped space was filled with youthful pheromones, and it was like their reunion five years later, he stood in this position , Watching Osamu Dazai jump in from the window, he asked him if he could get engaged, and the other party said yes.But Osamu Dazai won't come here now, and of course he won't come again in the future. All memories should be sealed, and even this attic should be sealed into the old fragments together.

It wasn't until Hongye knocked on the door that he was pulled out of his chaotic thoughts.He shook his head and asked Hongye if something happened. Hongye said nothing happened, so he came to ask if you really are not married anymore.

yes.He sighed, then nodded.

Well, I guess so too.Hongye said softly.I hear... Osamu Dazai is going back to Tokyo tomorrow.

TBC