Bright

Later, they have become the only one in each other's life, and An Xuan still thinks of this time occasionally.He was shocked that Shen Yuanshu could have such patience to endure a person who was no different from a mental patient.If it was a different place, An Xuan asked himself, he might not be able to do the same.In fact, whether it was the beginning or the continuation of this relationship, Shen Yuanshu was more courageous than An Xuan realized at first.

Shen Yuanshu and him are completely different people, and their ways of doing things are completely different. It is not surprising that there are many misunderstandings between each other.But in the end, the purpose always points to the same place—in a sense, they are indeed the same kind.

It is cruel for An Xuan to force herself to take this step.Reason told him that he had to try to do something about the relationship between the two, but the control of the body by the disease for a long time made him unable to face this matter like a normal person.

He was the one who stretched out his hand actively, he was the one who collapsed and dodged, he was the one who clung to the other party, and he was the one who cried and retched.This was by no means a pleasant experience, he pushed Shen Yuanshu away, and he entangled him again.Repeatedly, again and again.When his body was completely opened at the end, he couldn't tell whether he was in the dimly lit studio or somewhere else.He didn't even know who it was.The confusion of consciousness made him scream silently as if his throat was being choked.

Until Shen Yuanshu brought the tip of his nose up, and said in a deep voice: "Look at me. Look at me. Don't think about anything..."

An Xuan sobbed and gradually quieted down.The cold slime and the warm tide saw each other, and finally the tide overwhelmed everything, covering him and engulfing him.He endured kisses and caresses in the chaos, which were familiar to him; he also felt filling and growth in tears and choking, which were strange to him.He should have been familiar with it, because it had appeared in his nightmares thousands of times.But eventually the nightmare changed form.It turned into clouds and cotton, which made An Xuan feel speechless and powerless.

He wanted to close his eyes, but Shen Yuanshu forced him to look at himself.This person is so strong, An Xuan can only do it in a daze.Consciousness sank in the water, he obediently let himself sink.

Only this time, the end of the sinking is not the abyss, but the rise.The moment he floated up, he thought, Shen Yuanshu's eyelashes are really long.

An Xuan didn't quite remember what happened afterwards.Everything that was soft and calm has somehow turned into a storm.He sank in the water again, unable to think about what was happening on the surface of the sea.

Shen Yuanshu kept kissing him.Kiss those places that An Xuan would never allow him to touch if he was sober.The man's sweat and panting enveloped him.Not all that ugly, dirty, muddy stuff.Everything around was warm, and he began to think that the salty smell came from the sea breeze, but the sea breeze would not be mixed with the smell of musk and citrus.He stuck out his tongue almost subconsciously, and licked the corner of Shen Yuanshu's lips.

Soggy and salty.

I don't know what caused this action.Shen Yuanshu reached out to touch the condom box again, then cursed and threw away the package.An Xuan turned her head dully and found that the box was empty.Small package for travel, only three in it.They have wasted one in the struggle, and the remaining two have been used up.

Shen Yuanshu rubbed his shoulder on his shoulder, "I knew it earlier..."

An Xuan knew what he wanted to say.If he had known this way, he would definitely bring more.

fraud.An Xuan stared at the ceiling limply.It's all nonsense.Shen Yuanshu has been thinking about this all the time, and now he finally got his wish.Do men have virginity too?An Xuan didn't know.But he felt sad for no reason.Obviously feel warm and comfortable, but still very sad.Tears flowed uncontrollably.

Shen Yuanshu kissed him, and his voice was a bit belatedly worried: "What's wrong? Am I okay?" He said guiltily: "Maybe I was a little too anxious... I didn't think so at first... But I think You seem to be comfortable..."

An Xuan hummed.

Shen Yuanshu became happy: "It will get better in the future. It will get better every time..." He put his arms around An Xuan, and whispered sweetly in his ear: "We can try slowly, there will definitely be something you like... You don't know how beautiful you look..." He lightly bit An Xuan's earlobe, and there was a bit of annoyance in his voice: "I haven't been so out of control for many years... I can't help it... How did I endure it?" After half a year before...you touch it, it's still hard..." He rubbed against An Xuan tirelessly, caressed endlessly, and said a lot of sweet words.

An Xuan shrank silently towards Shen Yuanshu's chest, he felt tired.

Tired, and there is a kind of indescribable loss and sadness.

Shen Yuanshu gradually became quiet, and after a while, he said softly: "Why are you unhappy. Is there something I'm not doing well?"

An Xuan opened her eyes: "No. You're fine." Her thoughts were confused, she wanted to say a lot but couldn't say it, it seemed that there was no need to say any more: "I'm tired."

Shen Yuanshu bowed his head and kissed him: "Then go to sleep, I will watch over you."

An Xuan closed her eyes, listening to the breathing of the people around her slowly and steadily.The room is very quiet, you can hear the sound of the waves.He stared out the window in the dark, at the stars and the horizon below them.The vast and empty night did not calm him down. On the contrary, something dark gradually grew.

Can one person really own another person completely?Maybe there will be, but that lucky person is not him.An Xuan knew a long time ago that there is no such thing as luck in his life.Those who love him and those he loves will leave him in the end. They leave him to face the world, hurt and unknown fate alone.

Now he seemed to hear fate whispering again.Either way, the invisible hand might take this person away from him.Shen Yuanshu would leave him no matter what he did.This thought was so clear that another crazy thought followed.

After an unknown amount of time, An Xuan turned over and sat up silently.Shen Yuanshu seemed to be in a deep sleep.In the weak light, his tall nose bridge and brow bones cast a thin and beautifully contoured shadow on the other half of his face, and the Adam's apple under his neck slowly rose and fell with his breathing.An Xuan stared at him, what a nice person.The person closest to me in the world.

He didn't want to lose him, and wanted all the tenderness and happiness to stay in this moment forever.So there is a very safe way, maybe the only one.

He lowered his head, stretched out his fingers to touch Shen Yuanshu's neck, and then gently covered his whole hand.

Then he slowly tightened his fingers.

At this moment, Shen Yuanshu grunted, reached out and groped on the bed a few times, and then put his arms around An Xuan's waist.

An Xuan woke up like a dream, her fingers slipped from Shen Yuanshu's neck.Shen Yuanshu's neck was clean, not even a fingerprint was left.An Xuan looked down at her hands, wondering if all this was a dream or reality.

He thought he might have gone mad.

Finally, he lay down quietly without returning to Shen Yuanshu's arms.

Unexpectedly, Shen Yuanshu's hand stretched out from behind and hugged An Xuan's waist tightly again.

An Xuan stared at a point in the darkness, tears welled up again.He curled up, his shoulders shaking silently.The person behind him came over and took him into his arms.

Warmth surrounded him again.

An Xuan didn't know how she fell asleep.Morning came as promised every morning.The sky was bright, making him suspect that everything that happened the night before was just a bizarre dream.For a long time, he has been unable to distinguish between dreams and reality.Now that situation seems to have reappeared.

until he tried to sit up.

The sensation in his lower back and in his privates was indescribable, and he could barely support himself.Shen Yuanshu rushed over just before he fell to the floor, and held him firmly in his arms.Seeing that An Xuan remained silent, he cautiously said: "It's my fault...it's been a long time...it won't be like this next time..."

lie.An Xuan thought angrily.He started talking nonsense again.

However, thinking about what happened the night before, his mood slipped again.In the end, he didn't say anything, just pushed Shen Yuanshu away, and walked unsteadily to the bathroom alone.He heard Shen Yuanshu behind him sigh heavily.

When he came out, Shen Yuanshu was leaning against the door with his arms folded.He looked at An Xuan and looked into it: "Is there anything you want to tell me?"

An Xuan shook her head silently.

Shen Yuanshu lowered his head: "Then let's eat first."

The days went on as usual, but their conversations with each other had been simplified as much as possible.No one seemed to have the desire to speak first.An Xuan has always talked less, but Shen Yuanshu's behavior is very abnormal.

An Xuan sat on the terrace in a daze with her knees hugged, realizing sadly that maybe all this might be over soon.

Shen Yuanshu didn't know when he walked behind him: "Are you feeling better?"

An Xuan hummed.

The person behind snapped their fingers: "Let's go, let's pack up."

An Xuan clenched her fists: "Are you going back?"

Shen Yuanshu said unexpectedly: "Where are we going back? Didn't we agree to go surfing?"

An Xuan's hand loosened.

After leaving the villa, it became more and more lively along the way.Shen Yuanshu is familiar with the road, An Xuan doesn't have to worry about anything, just follow behind him.The hotels are all booked, put down the things, Shen Yuanshu dragged him straight to the beach.

For the first time in so many days, An Xuan saw him so excited.Holding the surfboard between his hands, Shen Yuanshu vigorously went down to try twice, then grabbed An Xuan, and began to explain the rules and methods of surfing to him seriously.

This is not a difficult task, An Xuan learns it very quickly.After two hours, he was able to glide on small waves alone for a while.Shen Yuanshu has been closely following behind him.After An Xuan dashed over a small wave less than one meter high, he smiled and kissed him.

Everything was natural, without any haze, as if the silence of the previous two days had never existed.

An Xuan wanted to say something, but didn't know what to say.Shen Yuanshu stroked his shoulder, and looked at him seriously: "Your sense of balance is really good."

An Xuan shook her head: "It's not as beautiful as you."

Shen Yuanshu laughed: "How can this be compared, I have been playing for more than ten years."

An Xuan looked at him: "Then you go, I'll go up and rest for a while." Shen Yuanshu had been with him before, but An Xuan knew that he was always eager to try.He had mentioned surfing many times before he was on vacation, and he seemed to really like the sport.

Shen Yuanshu patted him: "Then I'll pass by, don't go far."

An Xuan watched him run a few steps, lay on the surfboard, and paddled out nimbly.

December is not the best season for surfing, but probably because Christmas is approaching, there are more tourists on the beach than An Xuan expected.He sat on the beach with his knees crossed and took a few sips of water.Unexpectedly, someone came to chat with him soon.

An Xuan responded a few words casually for no reason, only to realize that the other party was here to hook him up.He sat there for half an hour, and three people came over.An Xuan almost suspected that there was something wrong with this beach.When another person asked him in broken Mandarin if he wanted to have a drink together later, An Xuan responded coldly in a foreign language: "I have a boyfriend."

The other party shrugged and said indifferently: "So what? Don't you want to change your taste?"

An Xuan got up and tried to walk away.But he was grabbed by the opponent.He's not short, but the other side is stronger than he looks.Just as he was trying to break free, a hand stretched out from the side, clamped the man's wrist, and threw it away.

With the surfboard in one hand and An Xuan in the other, Shen Yuanshu began to speak a series of foreign languages ​​that An Xuan couldn't understand.The man spat angrily and left unwillingly.

Shen Yuanshu looked very unhappy: "You are really too flamboyant."

An Xuan tried to explain: "I just sat there...I don't know why they would..."

Shen Yuanshu stared at him sullenly: "When will you have a correct understanding of yourself?"

An Xuan was at a loss.

Shen Yuanshu turned his head away: "Forget it. We still..." At this moment, there was a wave of excited cheers from the sea.The new wave got higher.Shen Yuanshu looked at that beautiful big wave, his eyes lit up.He hesitated for a moment, and said to An Xuan: "You stand here and wait for me. After this time, we will go to dinner."

An Xuan nodded and watched him stand by the seaside with his surfboard in his arms.

There were many waves before and after the big wave, Shen Yuanshu finally found the right opportunity, and when another wave came, he paddled to catch the wave.However, just as he got up and stood on the surfboard, a surfer behind him couldn't wait to stand up, planning to grab the waves directly.

In principle, surfers default to one person and one wave. If someone stands up at the front of the starting point, the people behind should stop immediately to avoid it.Shen Yuanshu had waited gracefully for a long time before, and that person had made waves at least twice before him.

The waves were high and the wind was fast, and the accident happened almost instantly.When Shen Yuanshu fell, he used the surfboard to block it, and then disappeared into the water.

The culprit floated up in embarrassment and swam towards the shore, but Shen Yuanshu never disappeared.

The surfers present scolded the surfer loudly and then shouted at each other.The safety boat also drove over there.

An Xuan quickly rushed into the water when Shen Yuanshu fell.However, professional rescuers were more experienced than him. Shen Yuanshu appeared on the sea and was dragged into the boat.

An Xuan watched them carry the man to the beach, and felt her feet go soft for a moment.He stumbled and ran over, almost falling beside Shen Yuanshu.

Shen Yuanshu turned his head, spit a few mouthfuls of water, and let out a long breath.Seeing An Xuan, he said in a low voice, "What's your expression? I'm fine..." He sat up slowly, rubbed his shoulders, and wiped his face.

The rescuers exchanged a few words with him, returned the surfboard to him, and left after confirming that he was really fine.

Shen Yuanshu said angrily: "That person just now was too fucking wicked..." Seeing An Xuan's expression, he comforted him, "It's all right now. It's really all right... I've been playing for many years. Here The height of the waves is less than three meters..."

An Xuan rushed over and hugged him tightly.