[BTS] Winter is here

Min Yoongi was in a trance, he suddenly remembered that he was ridiculed by his colleagues in the past few years when he first debuted, and he was asked face to face what he was in front of everyone.

Idol? rapper?He only thought that he was a clown chasing his dreams, thinking that he could be seen by wearing a layer of beautiful clothes, but a clown was a clown after all, a person who crawled out of those rotten and despised places.

But when he met You Xia, he probably had almost healed himself. Life is like this.In other words, he has learned to compromise with life, and he has taken a lot of light on it.

But Jin Youxia, a girl, taught him a lot.

Of course, there are many regrettable things in this world. I regret that I didn’t buy the strawberries I wanted to eat. I regret that I couldn’t talk to the little wild cat on the side of the road. I regret my cowardice and some things that I didn’t keep.

However, regret is part of the final ending. Strawberries will still be available for purchase next weekend, and the little wild cat will go home with a super kind owner in the end. Everyone will continue to move forward. Things that are not kept will not stop because of regret. .

Jin Youxia is a little sun, which is recognized by everyone.She tirelessly told him how beautiful life was, filling his life bit by bit with happiness and fulfillment, but now this girl told him that she was so tired and wanted to give up.

If the sun doesn't shine, how will the weeds live in the ground?

"Brother, you know, I don't have much obsession with becoming an idol," Youxia sat on the sofa and said every word without showing any color on his face, "I was just an idol from the beginning. I want to experience what your life is like, and write a good song, if the president hadn't approached me to persuade me, I would never have done this."

"I prefer to stay quietly in school and study. I hate gossip and being talked about. I don't believe in those hoarse loves, carrying other people's expectations, becoming a star in other people's hearts, and carrying other people's hopes. Being alive is just a burden and trouble to me."

"I thought about it for a long time. What they said was not wrong. I was just a coward. So I wanted to quit. It is meaningless to persist now."

"...But your contract hasn't expired yet." Min Yoongi opened his mouth, his mind blank, and said this for a long time.

"I've already figured it out. Compared to me, Ye Xing is more suitable to be the captain. I can slowly reduce my activities to give everyone a buffer period, and I will continue to write songs for the group. I don't want to become a blockbuster. That's it. Everyone will get used to it slowly disappearing, right?" Youxia seemed to be drained of strength suddenly, tears streaming down her face, "I don't have the strength to shout any slogans anymore, brother, I don't want to do it anymore."

You Xia seldom cried, or rather, Min Yoongi had known her for so many years, and he had never seen her cry.

She is such a person who always forces herself to think in a positive way when encountering sad things, but sometimes the ending cannot be changed, so in the end, Jin Youxia can only rub her depression night after night. It was broken and swallowed.

Min Yoongi felt that he had taken a deep breath. He expected a lot of words, persuasion, and scolding, but now he saw Youxia's haggard face because of bad spirits, seeing her pretending to be calm and strong but still couldn't bear it. With a teary look on his face, he couldn't say anything.

The word idol is his only address, his only self-esteem, and the reason for his persistence.

Do you want to agree?Want to support?The maliciousness of the Internet tortured the little girl he held in his hands like this, he could see that she was really, really tired.

Min Yoongi suddenly remembered that when he was very tired before, his symptoms relapsed. He hid alone in the toilet and watched the water from the faucet drop by drop. He looked at the ground downstairs of the company and wanted to jump down.

At that time, Youxia would quietly be by his side, unable to drive away, but just hugging him tightly, telling him not to give up, telling him to believe in tomorrow and hope.

"No," Min Yoongi repeated, "No, I don't agree."

"...Why?" Youxia tilted her head, looking straight into his eyes.

"There is no reason," Min Yoongi's tone suddenly became firm, "I won't allow it, you can't do this."

"..."

"Okay." Youxia lowered her head in silence, finally nodded slightly, "If it's your wish, bro."

……

Coming out of Dahei, Youxia saw that Yexing and the others hadn't left yet, and they turned on the lights in the dark night, as if they had created another space in this world.

She stood under the company for a while before eventually walking to their car.

"Are you sleepy? Let's go back early." Zhiyi bought a cup of hot milk from somewhere and handed it to her from the driver's seat.

Youxia noticed that her eyes were red, and she looked like she had cried. Yexing sat in the co-pilot silently, covering her head with her coat, wondering if she had fallen asleep.

You Xia pursed her lips and took the milk.

It doesn't matter, anyway, I have decided not to leave.

If it is ultimately my responsibility, I will put on my armor and walk with courage.

……

After that day, Youxia seemed to have returned to normal, playing songs full of energy every day, caring for everyone as usual, and teasing with the members.Maybe it was Min Yoongi's persuasion that worked, but Ye Xing breathed a sigh of relief anyway.After today's song playing session, they still have a week of playing songs. Xieyi and Ke Lin are the temporary hosts for today, and the two went to the host waiting room.In private, Xieyi secretly asked her if Youxia had any conflicts with Kelin, but Kelin always wanted to take a detour when she saw Youxia. , the same attitude towards Kelin as usual.

Weird and normal.In this special period, Ye Xing also probably guessed the reason for Kelin's awkwardness, but he couldn't say anything.

You Xia sat on the chair and waited for Sister Cody to give her a style, swiping her phone boredly.

Recently, Tian Zhengguo has been bombarding her with messages, but he never mentioned those pornography. He doesn't know where he collected so many jokes, and he sends her several jokes every day.

Big-Eyed Rabbit: Are you going to be on stage later?I will use my mobile phone to watch the live broadcast as soon as possible in the afternoon!

Jin Sun: Well, there is about half an hour before it starts.

Big-Eyed Rabbit: Let's go out and play when your playing period is over!I've been traveling a lot lately and I'm tired TT

Jin Sun: Okay~ I want to go to England, I want to go to Hogwarts to join Slytherin [rabbit expression]

Big-Eyed Rabbit: kkkk okay, maybe you can still receive the letter from the owl

Jin Sun: But I am no longer a child, I am beyond my age so I can’t go to school anymore

Big-Eyed Rabbit: Well...it doesn't matter, if it's for You Xia, I can also build a Hogwarts

When Youxia received this sentence, her heart suddenly moved, and she couldn't help laughing out loud.

Kim Taeyang: Okay, since it’s my brother’s promise, I will seriously believe it kkk

Big-Eyed Rabbit: Please believe me, my girl.

"Sun, we'll be on stage soon~" Zhiyi poked her head out of the door to remind her.

"Inside," Xia Meng stood up, suddenly felt her brain "buzzing", she supported the table, and recovered from the dizziness after a while.

"...What's wrong?" Zhiyi came over and asked her with concern.

It is probably because she has not had a good rest after days of high-intensity work, which made her a little hypoglycemic.

"No, it's okay." You Xia smiled at her and comforted her.

When everyone gathered, Youxia followed Zhiyi to the stage, she was standing second, Kelin was standing in front of her, Youxia saw Kelin turned her head and looked at her, so she smiled back, but Kelin As if being scalded by something, he was frightened for a second, then turned around abruptly.

And Xia Wu blinked his eyes, but didn't react any more.

The intensity of their dancing is really high, and You Xia wondered if she hadn't eaten breakfast, so she danced very hard.

With a rhythmic melody, You Xia squatted down and jumped up, making two waves in a row.

In front of him was the beautiful Haiyang Bang, and with a smile on his face, Youxia sang the last line and made the ending with everyone.

so tired.

After the song was over, Youxia bowed deeply to the audience, and walked down the stage step by step, feeling her legs and feet were sore and weak, leaving behind big drops of sweat.

I'm so tired, I don't have any strength left.

Youxia saw Kelin walking forward quickly, trying to keep up with her.

I'm really tired, can I have a rest?

She felt a little blurry in front of her eyes, and her brain began to fail again. She saw the staff coming up, and she heard a loud noise in front of her.

Just a little while, I will rest, a little while...

So she didn't feel any more, only heard someone's exclamation, and a long series of noises.

The author has something to say: Seeing everyone being abused, I can't control typing late at night again.

Have you discovered Youxia's psychological journey?In fact, rather than leaving the team, she wanted to find an outlet to express her grievances and sadness, so our sugar appeared and gave her a reason to persevere.

I'm really going bald... Good night friends.