[BTS] Winter is here

Jin Youxia couldn't sleep.

This is something Lin Yexing discovered very early on.

Since that incident happened, as usual, she climbed into Youxia's bed and huddled with her when she came back from the studio, but the lights in the room were always on.

Youxia would always read a book and wait for her to come back, then greeted her with a smile to go to sleep, and hugged her as if falling asleep.But every time Lin Yexing wakes up in the middle of the night, he can always feel that the people next to him have got up and sat on the bed at some point, silently looking at the night outside the window.

This situation is undoubtedly a kind of torture for You Xia, but she can't control it at all.

A busy schedule filled her time. Every night, when she touched the pillow and was about to fall asleep, her eyes were filled with red blood donations, women's ferocious faces and wide-eyed eyes, and countless reprimands and angry words. The sound of cursing.Those complicated evils built high-rise buildings, which made her unable to escape.

Some people, they don't even need to slap you with their own hands, they can bruise you all over your body with words alone.

She couldn't sleep, and she was also afraid of the horrible scenes that kept coming to her door at night.

So I just gave up and stared out the window all night long, just lying in the car and dozing off between each trip.

Jin Youxia couldn't sleep.

She got used to wearing a mask to hide her expressionless face under the cloth.She understood that when she took off the mask, she had to put on a mask called Golden Winter.

The rainy season is coming.

It is the long, gloomy rainy season.

Sitting in front of the desk like this, Youxia watched the raindrops pass by the window, and the last bit by bit returned to nothingness.

She felt the cold air coming out of the window, penetrating into her body, suffocating her, but with an inexplicable sense of relief.She touched the glass with her finger and drew a fork.

Wrong answers, all wrong answers.

She thought she wrote the process smoothly, but in the end she didn't even know where she went wrong.

Today the members are all at home, but no one bothered her, even Xinyi and Zhiyi, who usually watch TV dramas in the living room, stayed quietly in the room. Kelin locked herself in the room as soon as she got home. In the online scolding battle, there are many who claim to be her fans, and those harsh words seem to choke the child's words. Every time you Xia and her look at each other during activities, you can always see her apologetic and scared eyes.

Youxia wants to tell her that it's okay, it's none of your business.But she found that she had no strength at all, no strength to comfort others, no strength to smile and say that I was fine.

"Buzzing" the sound of the phone interrupted her thoughts, You Xia picked up the phone, it was Cate.

After picking up the phone, they were silent for a long time, and the other side just asked in a calm tone: "...Do you want to quit?"

"…what?"

"Quit the team, quit the entertainment circle. I still have some contacts here, and I can let you quit without any worries."

Youxia was stunned: "Cate, you..."

"Anyway, you don't have that much desire for the stage, do you? Compared with these, you prefer to read and learn to translate texts, right?" Cate interrupted her, "The cheers and applause didn't move you very deeply. They said that you Your brother and his reputation are ambitious, but in fact, you don't even have much ambition for the future of your group, do you? Let alone wanting to win such a pitiful amount of attention for yourself."

"I can accompany you to study in the United States, and let you live the life you really like," Cate said with rare patience, "As long as you agree, I will do everything."

"Why?" You Xia asked, "Why are you willing to do this? We have known each other for less than a year."

Cate laughed softly: "I knew you before, you were the speaker for the new students at the opening ceremony, I've seen you before."

"You Xia, you don't even know how special you are."

The girl in the coffee shop who reads a book quietly exudes qualities that are different from everyone around her, bright, beautiful, and superior.

Her youthful appearance fits all her longings.

"I grew up in a family with nothing. Whether it's cold eyes, abuse, or ridicule, I have experienced all the malice in this world to get to where I am today," Cate recounted his experience in a calm tone, "I am very envious You, you are the cleanest person I have ever seen in this world."

"So, I'll help you, and I can do it."

"...Let me think about it," Youxia felt caught in another impasse, a huge net entangled herself, she was holding the scissors in her hand, but she was still hesitating, not sure if she wanted to be destroyed together with this deadlock, or she was afraid of cutting the huge net After that, I have nothing.

Unknowing when she hung up the phone, You Xia looked at the window, the rain stopped, she opened the window, and the cool wind came blowing in, mixed with the pleasant-smelling water vapor.

Another day, she was like a whale thirsty in the rain, indulging in this deadly short tenderness.

That night, she really suffered from insomnia again, and You Xia felt that Ye Xing beside her was already fast asleep. Pressing her temples, she felt that her headache was about to burst.

During the day, Cate's words lingered in her ears, as if a steel wire was pulling her throat. She was hanging on the edge of the cliff, knowing that she could climb ashore with just a little effort.

But she needs a voice to convince her, telling her to jump off this abyss without hesitation.

Youxia turned over and got out of bed, quietly covered Ye Xing with a quilt, and ran to the balcony to enjoy the wind.

Downstairs was endless darkness, swallowing up the pink pear trees that came to fill the garden, the voices of the crowd, and the wandering ghosts. Youxia turned on the screen of her mobile phone and became the only light in the night.

Her eyes stayed on the chat interface with Min Yoongi, the latest one was that Min Yoongi told him that he had returned to his country.

You Xia exhaled, the wind picked up, and the coolness split her face, forcing her to make a decision as soon as possible.She typed word by word: Are you asleep?Where.

He replied quickly: What about the company, why are you still awake?

Youxia started typing faster: I want to find you.

It was rare for Min Yoongi to agree to her late-night visit with a good temper without asking too many questions.

Youxia let out a breath, as if she had exhausted all her strength and pressed the send button, she ran back to the room to change clothes.

There was no sound in the dormitory, and Youxia was looking for her shoes on her mobile phone.Xieyi is a shoe-buying maniac. She doesn't know when she stuffed all her shoes into the shoe cabinet. Youxia searched and searched again and again, but she was still lost in the vast sea of ​​shoes.

"Where are you going?" Suddenly, a voice came from behind.

Youxia was startled, dropped her phone to the ground in fright, and screamed silently.

"...Ye Xing?" You Xia asked tentatively as he recognized the person from the blurry figure.

"Hmm... you want to go out?" Heiye covered Youxia's eyes with a layer of veil, she couldn't distinguish Yexing's expression, only heard her deep voice.

"I want to find brother Yunqi." Youxia said in a low voice.

She heard Ye Xing being silent for a while, only the sound of her breathing in the air.

"It's too late, I'll ask Sister Zhiyi to see you off." Yexing didn't allow her to refuse, turned around and went to Zhiyi's room, and only told her to wait for them.

……

The air conditioner was installed in the car, and Youxia was sitting on the train leading to the fantasy forest. Yexing played a lazy song, which seemed to be called "So Close To Magic". During this time, she always played it to Youxia during the break.

Her companions, throughout, never questioned why she was out late at night, just sent her where she was going with all the care and love.

Her companions, they used love to grind her into a person without edges and corners. They piled up countless meaningless little things in life to build a castle, so that she could live in it with peace of mind.

You Xia looked out of the car window, only yellow street lights flashed by the window one by one.

"We'll wait for you below, and we'll go home together later, okay?" Han Zhiyi parked his car at Dahei's company, turned his head and asked Youxia softly.

You Xia nodded slightly and smiled at them.

The company was closed, and Youxia looked up, and saw the bright light in the upstairs window.

She went upstairs and pressed the password to open the door of Min Yoongi's studio.

A few days after he came back from the United States, Min Yoongi still couldn't adjust to his jet lag, so he took a sip of the coffee at hand and wrote on the paper bored.

As soon as he got off the plane, he found out about You Xia's hot search. He wanted to call You Xia several times but put it down. He understood the child's heart. If she didn't take the initiative to talk, no one could force her.

But she was still worried, and could only secretly listen to a word or two when Taehyung and Jungkook called her.The reply is still the same "I'm fine, don't worry".He was very worried, and he hoped that his worry was unnecessary.

"elder brother?"

Min Yoongi turned his head and saw You Xia's familiar face.

He saw Youxia showing an expression of crying or laughing, then he calmed down and said a word calmly.

"I want to quit."

The author has something to say: If seeing Caiyan only made Youxia feel uncomfortable, then being subjected to cyber violence is what really broke her down.But my Youxia is an optimistic child, so these things won't torture her for too long!

Thanks to the little angels who voted for me or irrigated the nutrient solution~

Thanks to the little angel who irrigated [nutrient solution]:

Must not eat 3 bottles for supper;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!