Joker Xue

When I heard the news of Xue Zhiqian's suicide, my first reaction was, is this guy dead?so what?Are we so dead without confrontation because of this little shit?No matter what this guy has done to my life, is this guy really planning to disappear forever?

I admit that I hated him at first, and even hoped that one day he would die, so that I could directly take the default blond hair and make a fortune.

However, when you gradually have an intersection with a person, when you slowly begin to understand a person, when you find that his shortcomings have become natural in your eyes, and even his unique characteristics, with It's kind of cute, when you find that you think of someone inadvertently...

This is probably what the Japanese say, the so-called fetters.

And I didn't even have time to tell him that I already regarded him as a very important person...

For a moment my nose was sore.

However, in turn, I couldn't believe it.

Will Joker Xue really want to leave this world?Is this really the Joker Xue I know?

After all, in my memory, whether it is for his ex-wife, work, or fans, which serious and responsible Joker Xue should he be?How could he just leave everyone who cared about him and disappear from this world?

But suddenly, my thoughts were interrupted by a cell phone that hit me hard in the face.

Yes, I think it's my own, but these reporters are still pointing at me and talking to eat.One by one, they tried their best to hit the camera microphone in my face.If this continues, I guess I will have to sacrifice if I can’t even get out of the airport.

Just when I was blocked by circles of reporters, I finally heard a familiar voice in my ear.

"I'm sorry! I borrowed it! I'm sorry! Don't take pictures! Don't take pictures!"

Zhang Mingming's voice broke through the crowd and came to me.She pulled my arm like a carrot and pulled me out.

It was probably because the scene was so chaotic that day that I had no memory of the details of leaving the airport that day.

I just remember asking in a panic, "Is he still there?"

Zhang Mingming pushed away the paparazzi next to him, and squeezed out a sentence: "Here!"

Then, Zhang Mingming sent me home, and I considered asking him about Xue Zhiqian along the way, but I couldn't open my mouth.

Sometimes people are like this. When they are in a panic, they can do what they want without hesitation, but when they are sober, they are often the most timid.

"Where is Xue Zhiqian now... um... I... He promised me to wait for me to come back to discuss the termination of the contract." This is the only reason I can think of to see him.

When Zhang Mingming heard me say that the contract was terminated, he stood still, looked back at me, and said slowly, "You want to... take advantage of the danger to hit him?" I could see the sarcasm on her face, but I didn't refute She just wanted to misunderstand her.

"...Yes, at such a young age, you can learn very quickly!" Zhang Mingming's innocent face showed a sophisticated smile.I remember Sister Wu said that Zhang Mingming is docile in front of Xue Zhiqian, in fact, this kind of scheming is definitely quite high in the entertainment circle.But what's the matter, anyway, my sister is not afraid of her, so let's fight her at worst!This is a fight with a woman, but I have never been afraid of anyone.

"But...he should have a long memory." Just when I was about to attack with all my strength, Zhang Mingming suddenly changed the subject, changing from a strong manager to an indifferent passerby in seconds.There was no malice on her face, but no love either.It's like talking about someone who has nothing to do with you. "He's home, good luck!"

She glanced at me again, then turned and walked away, looking disgusted as if there was an infectious disease here.Leaving me stunned in the corridor with a dazed expression on my face.

What happened to them?

I sat at home for less than a quarter of an hour before knocking on Xue Zhiqian's door.

Well, you can say I have no dignity.I just want to see Xue Zhiqian, I just worry about him, I just don't understand why I should be reserved, what's the matter!

Of course, getting into his house was not so smooth... But can you believe how smart I am?I found a lock picking company...

Don't ask me how I let them unlock it for me... At least few people who know Xue Zhiqian don't know that I am his girlfriend, and it is estimated that no one will refuse the girlfriend of a person who just attempted suicide to see his boyfriend Friends, this society is still very positive when facing life.

However, it was a little embarrassing that no one was in his house after unlocking it.So after a series of sighs of "false alarm..." and "fortunately it's okay...", those who opened the lock and those who owned the property were unwilling to stay for a long time.

And his house was so suddenly empty, I didn't know what to do.There are some photos in the living room of his house, almost at any time.When I was young, I was very delicate, like a little girl. When I was in middle school, I had a school face that was very eye-catching. When I was handsome, I was so handsome. When I got married, I was very personable, and there were many friends with my family He mixed in with some children who were slightly younger than me, and he also looked like a child, although I don't know what year it was.Of course, there was also the one with Zhang Mingming, it seemed to be the backstage of a performance, a selfie, Zhang Mingming smiled sweetly, and he, with his chin resting on her shoulder, looked innocent with bright eyes.I just stood in front of that picture, I didn't know what to think, I just stayed there.Until a guy tapped me on the shoulder from behind.

Naturally, I was taken aback and my hair exploded instantly. "You're sick! You don't know how to scare people to death!"

"Get rid of it, you came into my house without saying hello, okay! I haven't said that you scared me to death! What are you doing here! Hey, and oh, how did you get in?"

In fact, I blushed a little when he asked me why I came here, but when he talked about how I got in, I immediately laughed out loud.After telling the whole story, Xue Zhiqian couldn't help laughing.

"It's ok, you... you won't need a key to enter and exit my house from now on!"

"Cut! Who wants to come to such a lousy place like you!" I rolled my eyes and looked arrogant.

"You!" He said seriously.

I collapsed in an instant...

"I'm...I'm here...to tell you about the termination of the contract!"But I regretted it after I finished speaking.

His face lost all energy in an instant, he forced a smile, and tried hard to hide his disappointment. "Yeah, it was agreed before. Originally... I planned to let Mingming..." He paused here, the corners of his eyes were a little wet, and he didn't continue. "Another day, anyway...it's so close, another day...I'll look for you again." She was still smiling, but it made people feel distressed.

He started walking towards the kitchen, aimlessly, maybe, just to drive me away.

So, there is no reason to stay here.Maybe, he should have walked away in despair.

However, I don't know what happened to me that day.Probably because I was stunned by the shock just now, I went to the door and turned back, hugging him without saying a word.

It was winter at that time, in Shanghai without heating, and in the cold-colored kitchen, I could clearly feel the warmth of his body, and he probably could also feel the temperature of my breath.

I buried my face in his shoulder wantonly. "owe you……"

In fact, from the perspective of a person in the 21st century, two love affairs, dusk, two people, hugging, no matter how you say it, something has to happen to be worthy of the hormones of the two of them!

However... It was only that day that I really got to know Xue Zhiqian from the perspective of a woman.

When I found that our feelings were too ambiguous, to be honest, I was a little scared myself.

This is not the time for camping, there are many aircraft seats, and many staff members are watching there.

This is his home, and he is obviously in a very uncomfortable state right now, so... isn't it just home delivery?

So, he ran away.Didn't even dare to look up at him.

The door shut with a bang.

Under Xue Zhiqian's long bangs are a pair of gray eyes.

Why, no discomfort?

Emotionally clean, he never likes to be touched by unfamiliar people.I hate this kind of unrequited feelings even more.

It shouldn't be like this.

The one I love is obviously Ming Ming.

Just to comfort each other.

It's just that it's ambiguous.

In the dark night, in a room with no lights on, the sound of the guitar is noisy and sad.

Creative musicians like to use notes to play with the world.

As a musician, no matter how you treat the world, the moment you touch the strings, your heart must be the most sincere.

Eyelashes drooping, half asleep, half awake, even forgetting his own existence when he flicked to the emotional point.

That night, the sound of the piano seemed to go crazy.

He even forgot how he fell asleep.

I just remember that when the sky was just dawn, he suddenly woke up.

The piano on his body has been warmed by himself, but his body feels cool.The night in Shanghai is really cold...

Suddenly, I found that one of the strings was broken.Suddenly remembered that yesterday, I should have fallen asleep after the string was broken.

The heart of Aegean rose suddenly.Brave yourself up, and carefully changed the strings.After the replacement, there was a burst of emptiness again.

Then, as if thinking of something, he took out the recording pen that was always in the studio.

Holding the Aegean, listening to the sound of the piano, listening to the melody of yesterday, it seems like a lifetime away.

No one knows what his music is saying better than himself.Nothing can express what's on your mind more honestly than music.

From the suspicion of Ming Ming to the jealousy of Xu Zeyang, the relationship has reached the pain of incongruity.To the final anger and helplessness...and...the last...the moment of the string section, it is the helplessness of liking Susu but not being able to bear to let go of the relationship for many years, and not being able to bear to delay her wonderful youth.The melody was deep and shocking.As far as the author is concerned, it is as violent as poisonous.

Without saying a word, Xue Zhiqian picked up the piano and rushed to the door of her house.

Wanted to knock down the door of her house, rush in, and tell her he loved her.However, it still feels that way.The kind of humbleness that comes from the heart after falling in love with others.

He sat at the door of her house in a state of embarrassment, his clothes thin.

Silently make up the melody after the broken strings.Then, involuntarily, I played the piece repeatedly.Until an aunt in pajamas scolded in authentic Shanghai dialect: "It's early in the morning, it's so noisy!" He returned home disheartened.

Before leaving, he glanced at the door of her house and thought of the last line of the lyrics.

On Monday, I got up very late as usual, and then squeezed into the subway without hesitation with a bag of bread in my mouth.Running up and down the elevator, he secretly rejoiced with the people around him, tacitly.Because the next wave of brothers will not be so lucky~

Stepping on the time to go to work, I stepped on my high heels and walked to my seat calmly.This feeling, as if the undergraduate exam just passed the [-]th point, it is impossible to be grateful~

Clean up the dusty table, pour a cup of coffee, turn on the computer, and transform into an elegant clerk, perfect!

however……

Your sister...the desktop is still a photo of me and Xiao Ming...my heart trembled.Three times, five divisions, two, change it, and feel better.

After calculating the data for a while, I wanted to get a pen out of my bag, and saw Wu Jialei's MOMA gene information.Apart from anything else, throw it away.

Oh my god... I must have been a workaholic in a previous life, otherwise why would there always be distractions?Just after throwing away the information, I saw the paper cup of Yonghe soybean milk in the trash can again... Xue Zhiqian drank this soybean milk all the time when recording the reality show... Thinking about him is good, and the memory of him is like a cannonball looking at my head.Why does this lingering guy always occupy my brain so easily?It's like a Trojan horse virus...Your uncle, I'm so fucking out of control...Can I still throw away the trash can at work...

Fortunately, at this time, Sister Wu came to save me.Hearing that Sister Wu is looking for me is always the best way to refresh my mind.I frantically ran to find Sister Wu.But I didn't expect that a huge pit was waiting for me in front of me.

As an accountant, frequent business trips are common.And for someone like me who doesn't like running around, it is undoubtedly great to have the opportunity to work in Shanghai.It's really nice to have someone to provide you with meals without leaving home.

And this is what Sister Wu told me this time.

"It's a small company that cooperates with the company. Come back after work." Sister Wu said calmly.I'm already having fun.Gearing up, he said excitedly, "Okay, then when shall we set off, and how many people will we go to?"

Sister Wu glanced at me and smiled, "This afternoon, it's just you."

"Huh???" the black man asked.

"Myself? Are you kidding me? How can I do it myself?" Usually, this kind of thing needs to involve several people, and there must be a person in charge.What can I do as a rookie with little knowledge...

"I'm not kidding. The company is relatively small, and you alone are enough. When the time comes, it will be yours."

"Hmm..." How to say, I always feel a little strange.After all, what Sister Wu is best at is sugar-coated cannonballs.However, I... always... love to take advantage of small things... I won't list them one by one... Anyway, I can't sleep if I don't take advantage of it.

In the afternoon, I packed up and went to report.

Went to have a look.The company M is really small, with less than 50 employees from top to bottom.But the decoration is very particular, with a grand and low-key style, it doesn't look like a seller of pots and pans at all.

... Well, I am vulgar.What people sell is high-end day one hundred.Things look ordinary, but you just can't fault it.And there are many things with very different styles, which look like art.

And then... when I saw an 1800 cup, I didn't watch it anymore...

I don't know how high-end it is, but I probably won't be able to use it in my life...

It may be because the boss was on a business trip when I went there, and the company seemed particularly deserted due to the small number of people.Everyone was doing their own things in a leisurely manner, occasionally slacking off openly and aboveboard... It was in stark contrast to the staff on other floors who were in a hurry to catch up every day.

Don't talk nonsense, start working.

The advantage of working alone is that it saves the trouble of communicating with each other, and you can do whatever you want, since you are alone anyway.The disadvantage is that a person has to run here and there without any chance to breathe.And before that, I basically did things with division of labor. I was not very proficient in the things I haven’t done for a long time, so I could only bite the bullet and ask everywhere to learn... I even read books when I went back and had nothing to do...

On the afternoon of the first day, I briefly understood the basic situation, got the data that should be taken, made a plan, and arranged the time.Not too bad.And the dinner bought by their company is very to my liking.

The next day... I was exhausted like a dog! ! !The people in their company are really outrageous... all kinds of data are blurred like ghosts.While I was doing the work of several people by myself, I had to deal with their various loopholes...I really don’t know how this company survived until now?What are these people doing here all day?Do you want to eat rice?

But people are also forced out.In the past, I always worked with the team, and many things were muddled, almost enough.Now that I feel better, I now take responsibility.Work every day until the old eyes dim.

But their boss is very righteous, even if he knew that I was in Shanghai, he even booked me a suite near their company~ So every day, I am tired at work, and I am the emperor after get off work~

In this way, time passed very quickly.

In the case of rushing to work day and night, I finally completed the account sorting and data statistics one day ahead of schedule in the case of seven days of planning.

To be honest, their company really doesn't earn much every year.And no matter how good or bad the year is, they give employees a lot of bonuses, so the company has very little left in the end.

When the data first came out, I also doubted what made such a god-like company survive until today.But that's not what I should be asking.

For the first time, the secretary picked a lot of thorns.But this is nothing new, just change it.

But... this change to the fifth time... really makes me a little upset.

Fortunately, Company M is actually very righteous.If it weren't for the first impression of A, the labor and management would have left the company long ago.

As I said, their food is very suitable for my appetite, and almost every meal is my favorite.And the secretary is very enthusiastic. Apart from taking good care of me at work, she even takes care of my basic necessities of life.Except...their company's finances are really not flattering, it is really a thoughtful company~

And even if they always express dissatisfaction with my work, the secretary will give me reassurance every time I make a change, so my salary will increase step by step. The price is to repeat boring work and endure them again and again One negative.

but.I am not disgusted.

Calm down, get to work, and start over.Isn't this exactly what I want?

So, I am like this every day~happy~extravagant~working like chicken blood.It was like a practice, wasting time and paralyzing myself.Or maybe he was escaping from something.

Zhang Mingming did not say goodbye to Xue Zhiqian, but just sorted out the received announcements and sent them to Ke Ke.She expected that Xue Zhiqian would be in a hurry without her, but she didn't expect that without him, she would not be as strong as she thought.Being by Xu Zeyang's side, whether it's a manager or a lover, no matter which one it is, it's a bit embarrassing.

While Xu Zeyang was reading the script, someone suddenly handed him a cup of milk tea.Just drink it, it's not bad.However, when he took the second sip, it suddenly occurred to him that he had lied to a woman that he liked this taste the most.

Just as he was about to turn around, two vine-like arms were wrapped around his neck.

"tasty?"

"Ah."

The woman behind her smiled shyly, her arms around him slowly tightened, and she even bit his ear.

He forced a smile, the smog in his eyes getting deeper and deeper.

He is not a man with a delicate mind, and he has no idea why drinks are delicious. To him, they are just water with a different taste.Just like Yingying Yanyan in the entertainment circle, there are many beautiful people, but to him, they are just different faces one after another.

As for the taste of this cup of milk tea, he has only considered it official until today, so he tasted it carefully.In the past, she only worked for Wu Jiaqian, even though she had bought countless cups for herself, she had never tasted this kind of milk tea seriously.

But is it good to drink?

To be precise, I have no idea.

It's like a gift from someone when you buy something, who cares if it's good or bad?Fortunately, this is not all defective products, and it has a little taste, but it is not annoying.It is still possible to quench one's thirst and respond to emergencies after gossip and dinner.

In the private room of a high-end hotel, Sun Mingda respectfully toasted the family in front of him one by one.After drinking the clear wine, his body burned like a hot flame.

However, the three elders remained silent, making him look like a clown.

Still squeeze out the most sincere smile, and pay more attention to the look in Wu Yiwan's eyes.

"Uncles, aunts, and grandpa, Wanwan and I are childhood sweethearts. What is in my heart, Wanwan is the clearest. We decided to invite you to sit here together, because we have prepared for a lifetime. So , please allow me to solemnly propose to Wanwan."

Wu Yiwan's grandfather lowered his head and played with the cup at hand, keeping silent, while her mother took a sip of the fine Longjing tea lightly, while her father crossed his legs and narrowed his eyes to look at the young man in front of him who was no stranger to him.

The scene was so embarrassing that I couldn't breathe normally.

Finally, Wu Yiwan couldn't sit still: "Dad, we've already discussed it. It's almost the end of the new year, and we want to pick a good day before the end of the year to get things done!"

There was silence in the room when he finished speaking.

Sun Mingda thought about it carefully, the two of them have not been in contact for a long time, when did they say this?Everyone in their family is dissatisfied with themselves when they come here. Will saying that make their impression of themselves worse?But at the same time, he was a little bit delighted, after all, the words were not spoken from his own mouth, but from their precious daughter, so his purpose became much weaker, and this was also considered a one-off Temptation, even if there is a one-ten-thousandth possibility, if they agree, then wouldn't they make a lot of money!However, what if you firmly disagree and tear your face apart?What capital do I have to talk to them...

For a moment, cold sweat was left on Sun Mingda's face.

For a long time, no one in the room spoke. Wu Yiwan gritted her teeth and looked at her relatives, even pleading in her eyes.At home, she has always been an uncompromising little princess. This is the first time that her parents and grandpa agreed without even thinking about what she said.

"Dad, if you don't say anything, I'll take it as if you agreed. Anyway, you know better than me what Mingming's family is like. I am willing to marry Mingming and hope to get your blessings."

Speaking of this, Wu Yiwan's heartbeat was already too fast, and Sun Mingda's heart was already in his throat, just waiting for their family to complain.

Finally, Wu Yiwan's father stopped playing with the cup.There was no sound, but everyone in the room looked at him.

He took his time and wanted to put the cup back in place.Just when everyone thought he would respond in a peaceful way, he slammed the glass on the glass turntable before it fell off the table.

bang.

The sound of glass colliding reverberated throughout the private room, creating a burst of coolness.

The author has something to say: finally understand this bug

The next chapter is issued on May [-]st

☆, reunion