Joker Xue

Life is like honeycomb coal, which is full of holes under the seemingly complete appearance.

Seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages is the instinctive reaction of living things.

When people encounter difficult things, they subconsciously want to escape.

It's like after all the messy things before, I should have made it clear to Xiao Ming, but I never mentioned him.

Just like now even if Xiao Ming is standing in front of me, I don't have the courage to swallow what is in my mouth.

Wrong time, wrong place, wrong person.

A meeting that shouldn't have happened.

In the embarrassment of the two of us looking at each other, the relationship that was already scarred showed its ugliest cut.

"You are here..." I was like a child who made a mistake.Because I didn't receive his breakup text message, I always felt that the person who caused such embarrassment was mainly me.I didn't tell him that I came here, so being bullied by Wu Jialei can only be regarded as my fault.

"No. Passing by." He was expressionless, as cold as a steel statue.

"That..." I was thinking about how to explain it to him, but before I finished speaking, he turned around and wanted to leave.

I just thought he was playing his temper and asked me to coax him.I quickly admitted my mistake.

"... Xiao Ming, that... I was wrong... Anyway, there is no real harm..."

When he stopped, I was about to breathe a sigh of relief.

"You don't need to say so much. Your business has nothing to do with me." After speaking, he continued to walk.

I froze all of a sudden.Is he really angry?Why would you say such a thing?

My mind went blank for a moment.When I reacted, I burst into tears.The grievances of the past few days and Xiao Ming's indifference are like a sharp knife piercing my heart directly.I was anxious, even more anxious than entangled with Wu Jialei.

"Xiao Ming! Don't go, listen to me..." I ran after him without even wearing my shoes. "I didn't tell you on purpose... I was also thinking about our future... and Wu Jialei, it was just an accident, nothing happened..."

I tried my best to explain, but Xiao Ming's indifferent face didn't change at all.

I admit, I'm very cowardly, just a stalker.It's like the déjà vu of a cheating young woman.Although I didn't cheat.And I am not without anger towards Xiao Ming.

I'm not stupid.

I know it's not normal at all to not answer calls or texts for so long.I also know that it is not normal for him to dress so extravagantly and exquisitely today.I also know that the memory fragment of Wu Yiwan pulling the corner of his clothes behind him that night in my head is probably not a dream at all.

But when I heard him pass by and saw him leave me without looking back, I really panicked.

I am afraid that he will leave, I am afraid that he will be disappointed in me, and I am afraid that this relationship will end again because of me.

After his car accident that year, I desperately carried him to the hospital, and wept until I fainted under the red light in the emergency room.In order to pay for his surgery and medical expenses, I even lied to my family that I had been kidnapped.My hands were shaking when I held the hundreds of thousands of cards.However, when I ran back to the hospital panting all the way, the medical bills had already been paid.And beside his bed was Wu Yiwan who was looking surprised, trying to talk to him who had just woken up.

I didn't have the courage to go to him again.And afterwards I often saw Wu Yiwan taking care of him by his side.I have no face to intervene in them.

Even then he came to me again and we started hanging out again.What happened back then was also a topic that none of us dared to bring up.

To be honest, I feel inferior to Wu Yiwan.Back then, jealousy was nothing more than lack of self-confidence.As for Xiao Ming, it was a heart-piercing love at first, and then years of guilt accumulated.

Like I said, I'm considered pretty, and it's not like no one has chased me for so many years.The reason why I haven't been in a relationship for so many years is actually because of Xiao Ming.

There will be such a person in everyone's youth.

From the moment you fall in love with him, you become a slave of love.

It was then, and it is now.

The difference is that back then I thought he didn't love me anymore, so I chose to quit, don't bother.But today, after he confessed his love to me, I tried my best to preserve this relationship.

I quickly walked to the door, and stood there blankly with open arms, like a beggar blocking people from begging at the door.

"Xiao Ming, can we talk?" The scene of these words seemed familiar.Suddenly remembered that Wu Jialei had the same tone that day.

Sure enough, Xiao Ming also ignored me.He squeezed my shoulder and threw me aside.

"We have already broken up, there is nothing to talk about." After finishing speaking, he left without looking back.

Leaving me alone, I suddenly sat on the cold tiles and silently shed the remaining tears.

Yes.It really happened.It still happened.

The thing I've been dreading since Xiaoming and I went to fl road that day happened faster than I imagined.

We have been mending the relationship for many years, and after just a week of reconciliation, Xiao Ming tore it in half with his own hands.

This time it didn't end without a problem, it wasn't because of a misunderstanding between the two of them, and there wasn't a broken connection.Instead, it was clear, thorough, and decisive.

Years later, I even thought it would have been better if I had received that breakup text.Because what really pushed my relationship with Xiao Ming to a dead end was not his breakup text message, but this scene that morning.

It was many years later that I found out that the reason why he went to my room that day was that he didn't know that I was awake, and because he was worried about me, he got the room card and wanted to come and see me.

It was also at that time that I began to believe that not all lovers can eventually get married.

After Ni Hong got off the plane, she was bombarded indiscriminately by Ni Yujie.

"Where are you, why didn't you go to class?" "Where are you, come back quickly!" "If you don't come back, believe it or not, I will stop your card!"

I glanced at it, and before I finished reading, a phone call came, which startled Ni Hong.But after seeing the word "Mom", he threw the phone into the bag.After thinking about it, he took it out again, hung up Ni Yujie's phone, and set it as a blacklist.Then he called Wu Jialei with the corner of his mouth slightly raised.

"Brother, I have already arrived in Harbin, you can find someone to pick me up!"

"...You! If you don't make trouble for me, you can't live!" Wu Jialei blamed, but the corners of his mouth also raised.

When Xue Zhiqian returned to the room, he found that the door was open, and Lu Su, who was only wearing pajamas, was sitting on the sofa in a daze.Of course, this should be considered a small scene compared to before.And it was obvious that her mood was not as agitated as before, but rather quiet like a disillusioned monk.

Xue Zhiqian walked in, closed the door gently, and then brought a piece of clothing for her to put on.

"Why is the door open? Has anyone been here?"

"Yeah, my boyfriend...has...broken up..."

There's nothing more poignant than looking at a girl who's trying to smile with tears in her eyes.

He would rather be the previous Lu Su who went crazy after being wronged.He stared blankly at her, not knowing what to do for a moment.

But suddenly.He recalled the scene in the corridor just now in his mind.

The person I met in a hurry, the person who forgot to call to say hello.

"Wait...you mean...your boyfriend is...the one who just went out?"

I saw Lu Su's face lost the smile for a second, and suddenly became serious like a blade. "If you are afraid of offending the director, I can leave tomorrow. You can come to your aunt directly."

"Ah...that's not true...I just... think you're too modest...I still remember, you said your boyfriend is ordinary...that's what you mean by ordinary..."

Lu Su sneered: "Yeah...but I was wrong. Even Bai Fumei like that can get close to him, how can he be considered ordinary?" As he spoke, he got up and went to wash up, looking like he wanted to be self-reliant.

In fact, people are fragile.Who doesn't like to let off steam in times of pain?Just like I tortured myself desperately after being bullied before.

It's just that people are very sensible.You may also find that, in fact, the willful people around you who are always venting are people who care about and love.Someone who understands has a rich heart, so he will pay special attention to himself and worry about gains and losses.

And those who know that no one will take care of them even if they vent, always suffer alone.

Because people who are empty inside will only make themselves more lonely if they vent.

So instead of adding trouble to yourself, it is better to save your energy and use silence to suppress your pain.

Just like me now.

When I brush my teeth and look at myself in the mirror, my mind is completely empty.

A person's life seems to have unloaded a lot of burdens, but the price paid is to peel off a layer of skin from the heart.And this recovery cycle, who knows how long it will take...

"Hey! Do you have some misunderstandings about him? How long have you known each other?"

This guy...Which pot does not open and which pot...Do you have to hold on to my pain?

I rolled my eyes at him and continued brushing my teeth.It means "You want to take care of it?"

"You know that people in their class are actually very messy. You are just a county magistrate, and he has a lot of one-night stands, right? What's more, he doesn't! So, I advise you to relax!"

I hadn't intended to listen to him.But the more he talked, the more I couldn't understand.I frowned unconsciously.

Then, I became a perfect expression of the nature of a woman...

I rinsed my mouth loudly, then spit out the mouthful of mouthwash with a bang, and said to Xue Zhiqian as if I was about to fight: "What are you talking about? Why are they in this class! Why is it a one-night stand! We have known each other since we were in college! Besides, he is a working-class man! I will sign a contract with you and then appear in this variety show, earning no less than what he has earned in the past few years! You don’t know the fuck, don’t let it go That blind BB!"

Seeing me swearing, Xue Zhiqian's eyes were full of bewilderment! "You... how can a good girl speak so badly! You have such a face for nothing!"

"What's the matter? No matter how ugly your words are, your words are ugly! Don't you fucking think about it, you should say this to a decent girl!"

Maybe I was too depressed.So once Xue Zhiqian provoked me, I couldn't suppress the anger.

I dare not vent to myself, but I can't suffer a little from others.Empty inside, but that's all.

Xue Zhiqian looked at me for a while, then bit his lip. : "Maybe I misunderstood. I really don't sound very nice. However, I want to tell you that people who work in the central government cannot actually be regarded as working class. Besides, his father is Sun Ruyu. Yes! You heard me right, It is the Sun Ruyu who will be heard on the news broadcast."

Well...you who are reading the article should already know this fact.

But! ! ! ! !Have you ever thought about how it feels for me, who was just bullied and dumped, and then found out that my friend who I have known for seven or eight years has actually lied to me for seven or eight years?

In the past few days, my mind has gone blank countless times, and when I go blank again, my appearance is much more natural.

"…Is what you said true?"

"Of course it's true. So, I advise you, save your effort."

I froze for a while.He lowered his head, hiding his face under loose hair.His hand accidentally touched the mouthwash cup next to him.A small half glass of water was spilled on the ground, making a crisp sound.

Suddenly, I pushed Xue Zhiqian away and rushed out the door like a gust of wind.To be honest, I actually don't know what I'm thinking.It feels like sleepwalking.In other words, everything in those few days seemed to be sleepwalking, which was very unreal.

I desperately knocked on Wu Yiwan's door.Knock and knock, there is no movement.

"The director came back this time to send him away, and he should have left now." I only heard Xue Zhiqian's voice, and I rushed out without even taking a look at him.

At that time, I didn't even think about whether I could see him, but I just thought, I must see him, I must ask him.

However, after running all the way, there was not even a hair in the corridor of the hotel.I still want to chase.

Finally, in the lobby, through the glass door, I saw Xiao Ming and Wu Yiwan packing their luggage.

I accelerated and ran out desperately.When he stopped, he fell down.

However, at this time they had already got into the car and closed the door.

I got up in a panic, my thin clothes were covered with snow and my body temperature made me feel cold to the bone.

I suddenly realized how sloppy my trip was.

In fact, there is no difference at all, is there?Already broke up.What else can I ask him. "Do you love me or not?" It was his own words to break up. "Why did you lie to me?" After breaking up, it doesn't matter. "How can I not compare to Wu Yiwan?"...It's so fucking ridiculous, it's obvious that I can't compare with anything.He was a childhood sweetheart, and he was in the same family. I, a person who almost killed him and was abandoned once again, what a fart?

I stood shivering on the snowy street.

The ugly reality pierced my heart coldly like those icicles falling on my face.

The most frightening thing was that I was so sober.

Then, the car door opened.

I don't know what kind of embarrassment I faced with the two of them.

But just as I was about to say hello and run away, my hands suddenly became warm.

"Su Sufei said that she would send you two off. When we went, you just left the house, and then she was so anxious that she chased her out without even putting on any clothes." Xue Zhiqian's voice was indulgent and natural.Said, wrapped the coat on my body for me.Then it was very natural, hugging me from the back and closing the clothes tightly in the front... Make up your own brain...

Of course, I am a little embarrassed, but I know that it is even more embarrassing to refuse at this time.

"Really!" Wu Yiwan subconsciously glanced at Sun Mingda, and only smiled after confirming the disgust on his face.

"Susu is very emotional!" These words are yin and yang.The ghost couldn't hear her being sarcastic.

"I call her a hot-blooded girl. Let me tell you, once she gets angry, she can't be stopped!" Xue Zhiqian's usual neurotic tone.

"Come on, auntie! You can give it away too, let's go back! If you wear so little, who cares if you catch a cold!"

Xue Zhiqian's temperature penetrated a little bit in my ears.Sudden concern may always be warmer.

I forgot how I ended up going back that day.In my memory, there is only Xiao Ming's indifference.Also, I just remembered the logo on the dress I wore that day, which was the same as this one. DSP, the brand that bought countless birthday gifts for Xiao Ming in those years.

On a certain mountain in the northeast in the afternoon, Xue Zhiqian looked at the two black eyes on the face of the snowman in front of him, and suddenly remembered her deep eyes.Her presence fascinated him like a mystery.

Why do I always feel that her eyes are so familiar?Why do I always think of her inexplicably?Why do you always want to protect her involuntarily?

He was so absorbed in his thoughts that he didn't even hear the people next to him talking to him.In broad daylight, he patted the snowman's head with his hand, "You are poisonous!" When he realized it, he found that everyone around him was looking at him.He touched his head in embarrassment, and asked weakly: "What...what's the matter? Why are you looking at me?"

One star replied at a loss: "I asked you how your snowman was made, and you said...it's poisonous..."

Xue Zhiqian's face turned red with a swipe.Then he bowed and apologized. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry...Let's make up a shot later..."

In the VIP ward, Wu Jialei, who heard the sound of Ni Hong's high-heeled shoes, quickly hid all the snacks in the drawer, and then covered the snack bags in the trash can with toilet paper.

"Brother, how are you? Is it still hurting?"

"What the hell does it hurt? You treat me as you, and you scream after every injection!"

"Brother, look, this time I added several ingredients to the tonic soup I made for you! They are all tonic. Drink it quickly!"

Wu Jialei saw Ni Hong open the lid of the insulated lunch box.An astonishing smell like all kinds of rotten leftovers came together.Wu Jialei held his breath and tried his best to suppress his already reactive throat, but he still tried his best to keep smiling.

"Our Honghong hands are so skillful! We learned how to make soup so quickly!"

"That's it!" Ni Hong smiled like a sunflower. "Brother Dice, do you want to drink a little too?"

The dice next to them were about to sneak away while they were not paying attention, but Ni Hong saw it.Dice saw Wu Jialei making countless gestures behind Ni Hong's back, and the wrinkles on his face witnessed his entanglement.

"Ah... I don't need it... Or... your brother needs it more!"

Wu Jialei gritted his teeth fiercely.Run your hand across the neck to demonstrate.Mouth is full of helpless smile.

"You ignorant!"

Wu Jialei's acting skills are natural, and he still looks like he is enjoying the soup until he drank the soup in one gulp.But when Ni Hong went out to wash the lunch box, the moment the door closed, he couldn't hold back any longer, and ran straight to the toilet feeling sick.When the dice came, the water was already brought.The moment Wu Jialei drank the water, he found himself in tears.

"Brother, you are really hardworking!"

Wu Jialei smiled lightly, with a fatherly smile on his face. "Who told me to be such a younger sister!"

When Zhang Mingming told me to start recording our part tomorrow, Xue Zhiqian's mouth stopped when he was eating.

"The afternoon of the first day is to buy some vegetables and make a dinner. It's still the family members you met that day. Then there will be a small skiing competition on the second day. In the evening, we will have a picnic outside together. Then the third day is the later stage Just a few small questions and a few interviews. You must remember to relax, and then don’t be nervous if they ask Qianqian questions that you don’t know. , you can call card at any time, so don't be nervous."

I nodded as I listened.But not a little nervous.To be honest, I was much more nervous than this during the previous recording, so I almost didn't say a word that time, just sat there like an idiot.But now, without Xiao Ming, maybe because he doesn't care much about his little money from the bottom of his heart, the whole person is extraordinarily relaxed.And to be honest, cooking and skiing are both my strengths, so there is nothing to worry about.

But Xue Zhiqian was quite strange that night.He didn't say a word during that meal, and just ate with his head down all the time, and the rhythm of eating was very mechanical, which made the atmosphere of this meal strange.Finally, the assistant who was eating next to him couldn't stand it any longer, and asked in surprise, "Hey, Joker Xue, what's the matter with you?"

Who knew that this product would become even weirder when asked.Neither standing, nor sitting, nor eating, nor not eating. In the end, he was so angry that he said he was full and left.

Then, as you can imagine, the first day of cooking went particularly smoothly.Among the few family members who came here, the only ones who can really cook are me and Xu Zeyang's mother.Xu Zeyang's mother is very good at cooking, and all the dishes from her hometown are special dishes.And I made a few delicate dishes relying on what I learned from my mother and the experience of cooking in the past few years.

Although Xu Zeyang is bad, his mother is really good.The two of us chatted and did it, and we felt pretty good about each other.I also learned a few small dishes from Xu Zeyang's mother.All in all it went well.

As for the rest of them, they were all very cheerful and eloquent.So it became that the two of us were in charge of cooking, and a few of them were in charge of grocery shopping and making jokes. The two groups of people did not interfere with each other, and they could enjoy themselves happily. It is a standard reality show configuration.

But around evening, Joker Xue and the protagonists came.In fact, they are resting all day, but the effect of the program is to make them very tired after activities during the day, and then come back to eat the meal we cooked.Also act like a surprise that you didn't even know we were here before.My feeling is that these people are really good at acting... The three celebrity couples are hugging and kissing, their acting skills and their feelings are really perfect.Needless to say Xu Zeyang and his mother, there is no need to go too far.So the slightly embarrassing acting skills of Xue Zhiqian and I are a bit special.

I...an amateur, naturally I can't make out with him.But the problem is that Xue Zhiqian didn't know what happened that night, and his acting skills were fucking offline.In the end, the two of us were stuck in the face by them, and then both of us blushed to the neck.Anyway, on that day, my impression is, embarrassing...

Then there is nothing left for me.This is Wu Yiwan's first variety show, she is really serious, in short, she is perfect.

Then the next day, Zhang Mingming told us to eat more early in the morning, and then invited the guide to explain the precautions to us over and over again, for fear that there would be any mistakes between the two of us.But they don't know that I, a child from Northeast China, already learned to ski when I was ten years old.But what I don't know is that although Xue Zhiqian is a southerner, his skiing skills are really... I wanted to be amazed by his fancy skiing skills.My old lady is considered heroic among our brothers and sisters, but compared with him, she is simply~~ This competition is not a group match, but an amateur match between me and him.Originally, two people were skating with sticks like two people with three legs. In the end, the two of us slid as if we were fighting each other~~ We were far ahead of the finish line, and neither of us slowed down~~

But later~~ My technique according to Xue Zhiqian was still almost there. When I turned a corner, I lost my mind and fell sideways.

Seeing me fall, Xue Zhiqian immediately slowed down, slid to my side, pushed off the snowboard and came towards me.

I was fine at first, but when he came, I felt ashamed, so I wanted to get up by myself~~ However, when people are in a hurry, they tend to perform abnormally, and they are still wearing snowboards, so I can't get up all the time.Including when Xue Zhiqian came to help me, I still didn't want him to help me, I kept struggling~~ As a result, after struggling and struggling, the two of us fell together, it was still the kind where he leaned sideways on me...

When I saw his face so close to mine, I was completely blinded, I didn't know what to do, and I didn't move.So did he, and I could see his eyes glaze over, too.The two fell on the snow like idiots.Until a machine came over later... it was even more embarrassing.However Xue Zhiqian didn't react, I was pressed down by him and couldn't move, so I just hit his head on the head and knocked him aside... I was so embarrassed to death... I don't want to recall any more...

So when I got up, I slapped my butt and left to rest.

However~ this is not the most embarrassing thing today~

Before Zhang Mingming told me that the picnic was over, I naively thought so.

As a result... everything went smoothly until the picnic.

After the picnic, Wu Yiwan suddenly came to tell us that we would camp here...of course it wasn't really camping.Just to make a show, each group set up a tent here, shoot some material enough for them to edit.And it's a world of ice and snow, obviously no one would think that anyone would really do anything in it.

But... the other group is a couple who kiss each other, Joker Xue and I are nothing...

At this moment, I just want to say: Why is it so difficult to earn some money in this world...

☆, a little sweet