[Luhan] Rebirth: Chasing the Deer

Suy searched for many places, from the South District to the North District, and then took a detour, turning from the East District to the West District, and searched all the places where people could hide, such as canteens, cafeterias, indoor gymnasiums, and even football fields. Let it go, but there is none.

Fortunately, God was kind to her, fortunately she did not give up, even if it was a ten-thousandth hope, she still found him, walked through the grove, where the water and the sky met the sky, her boy sat quietly by the lake, staring into the distance , the figure shrouded in rain was shrouded in mist, indistinctly, so hazy that it seemed to dissipate at any moment.

Looking at it, Su Yi's heart seemed to be pulled hard, and she felt uncomfortable. She lowered her eyes, and finally took out the umbrella that had been clutching her chest, but hadn't opened it. .

She held the handle of the umbrella tightly, walked slowly behind the boy, moved her wrist forward, moved the umbrella over his head, suppressed the trembling of her voice, pursed her lips and said, "Hey, go back."

Lu Han, who had been stiff and motionless, his eyelashes trembled slightly, as if waking up from a dream, he turned his head lightly, looked at her with dark and empty eyes, seemed to struggle to distinguish, and after a long time, he called out with a hoarse voice. Said: "... Xiaojie?"

"Well, it's me." Suy felt sad, and the hand holding the umbrella pushed a few centimeters towards him.

She has never seen a boy like this, such a embarrassed appearance, pale face, purple lips, wet and thick lips sticking to the ear side, fine and messy, beautiful black jewel-like eyes. Looking at her angrily, it seemed to be covered with a thick layer of dust. The originally clean and tidy clothes were splashed with a large amount of silt, a black patch, soaked and magnified, and it was an indelible mud print.

From head to toe, the whole person is in extreme despair, how can there be any shadow of that proud boy?

After a while of silence, Lu Han slowly turned his head back again, with his head down, without any expression on his face, in a sorry tone, "I'm sorry, can you stay away from me now?"

"...Why?" Suy's heart turned cold, but her feet stubbornly did not move a bit, imitating his tone, and asked lightly.

In fact, you can guess it without asking, I am in a bad mood, I want to be alone, I don’t want to see you... There are thousands of reasons, but these are not the reasons for me to leave you.

"Because..." Lu Han twitched the corners of his lips, and replied seriously: "I can't laugh anymore."

Su Yi was stunned by the completely unexpected answer. She didn't understand why, and asked in confusion, "What does this have to do with you wanting me to leave?"

Lu Han was facing the lake, still not looking at her, grabbed a handful of mud on the ground with his cold hands, squeezed it subconsciously, and then whispered: "Someone once said that when I don't smile, it's scary."

So, better stay away from me.

Su Yi understood it, and was shocked. Looking at the young man, something was accumulating in his eyes. He was terribly sour, and said dryly, "Who said that?"

Who is so blind?

Who said that?Lu Han blinked in confusion, and an extremely distant memory resurfaced in his mind. In the memory, the little girl with the shofar braid looked at him with a face full of fear, and said, A Lu, you are so scary when you are not smiling, I don’t like it .

From then on, he smiled every day, just to make her not annoying, but now that she was gone, it seemed that there was no reason to smile anymore.

Seeing that Lu Han didn't speak, Su Yi shook her head and sighed, put away her umbrella, and turned around.

The rain poured down on the head again, Lu Han's throat moved, and finally returned to dead silence, lowered his empty eyes, thinking meaninglessly, should he leave, must he be hated.

Even though his thinking is slow now, through some simple judgments, he can see that Suy came to look for him. He must have been looking for him for a long time, otherwise, he would not be like him, soaked all over, but he looks like this. It's normal for people to hate the ghostly appearance, after all, even he himself hates the current self.

While thinking this way, there was a sudden heaviness behind his back, hot breath followed him, and the warm umbrella returned to his head again.

Lu Han opened his eyes slightly, his dull brain was unable to react, but the voice coming from his ears was so clear, gentle and nice.

"I'm not afraid of you, nor do I hate you, on the contrary, I still like you very much."

The girl said so, still chatting with her friends in a relaxed and natural tone, brisk with a little carelessness, she sat back to back with him, just like him, sitting willfully on the ground, the umbrella was big enough to cover them all , isolated from all storms, peaceful and quiet.

"Not only me, Lao Gao, Shi Shi, Shu Yu... they all like you, but also worry about you. They asked me to take you back."

Suy looked up at the sky, looked at the completely opposite scenery to him, smiled and said, sighed softly, a little frustrated and helpless, she confessed in this way twice, is she too brave or too timid?

But, I really really like it.

I like it so much that I want you to know it, but I am afraid that you will know it.

I like it so much that I dare not hug you hard, use my temperature to melt your temperature, and only dare to give you some support through my back.

Like carefully, love sincerely.

Su Yi thought, she should not simply like him, nor simply love him deeply, it should be deeper than this, with emotions that are too much to express in words, always clamoring to explode, but always being caught by her rational Nervous restraint, continuous precipitation, accumulation again, endless, one day, it will drown her and swallow her, and then, it will be beyond redemption.

"However, I don't deserve you to treat me so well. Obviously, I have failed so much in life. Whether it is friendship or love, I have messed up. I can't do anything, I can't do it..."

The young man hugged his head, bit his lip, and growled in pain. For love, even if he did not realize it, he ignored friendship, and the love he cherished was being worn away little by little without knowing it. .

What Wanwan said is right, he can't do anything, he can't give her anything except affection, and in front of that man who can do everything, it seems that he is the only and best thing to do. choose.

He can't bring happiness to anyone.

"You... don't feel inferior, do you?"

Su Yi was taken aback by the hysterical appearance of the young man, it was unimaginable, you are Luhan, ye Luhan, you would actually feel inferior, so how do people like them live?

After a brief surprise, Suy thought about it again. It seems that there is nothing wrong with it. Although you are you, you are not the future you.

Until now, she never seemed to separate the current him from the future him, maybe because there is no difference, as gentle, kind, proud, and... as stupid as she imagined.

But after all, he is still different from the glamorous ones seen on TV. Now he is more real, hurt, sad, and sad. In the face of cruel reality, he will constantly deny himself, doubt himself, and be sensitive and fragile.

"It's not inferiority, it's the truth." Lu Han pursed his lips tightly and corrected her wording awkwardly. When the hard facts were in front of him, inferiority complex was just an excuse to avoid failure. He was not inferior, but neither Conceited enough to overturn material based facts.

After all, isn't it low self-esteem?

Su Yi was speechless, and couldn't understand the young man's stubborn attitude of not admitting it.

Presumably, this is a way for the young man to persist in his last pride. Su Yi felt a slight pain in his chest, squinted his eyes, looked at the sky, suddenly smiled, and eased his tone, "If this is the truth you said, then I see Yes, totally different from you."

"……Different?"

"Yeah, it's different."

Suy nodded vigorously, shed all her strength, and leaned on his back in a domineering but dependent posture. She raised her head lightly and spoke seriously——

"If it's friendship, what I see is that you take care of us like a big brother, just like the last time someone gossiped about time, didn't you beat me up without saying a word? And Shu Yu, so many people can't understand her Temper, if you weren't there, world wars would definitely break out in the class every day, and in the end...it was me, I haven't thanked you for Zhou Qing's incident last time, it shouldn't be too late to say it now, right?"

"If it's love, what I saw was that you worked so hard for Jiang Wanwan's birthday present. Last time I finished painting and came out of your house, you should still be doing it. Don't tell me you're late for school the next day. I still dozed off in class, and I must have stayed up all night. These things, I think, can’t be bought with any amount of money. As for your breakup, I can only say that Jiang Wanwan wanted too much and wanted too much. Urgent, it’s not that you don’t have it, but that she didn’t have the patience to wait until you have it, so it’s normal to choose someone else, in other words, it’s because she doesn’t love you deeply enough.”

Su Yi tried her best to hold back her anger, spoke objectively and tactfully, and silently swallowed [-], bitch... some non-civilized proprietary curse words into her stomach.

"If you say you can't do anything..." At this point, Suy paused, curled the corners of her lips, and smiled softly, with a proud and affirmative tone, "In the future, I see that you have achieved Dream, become a star, sing your favorite song, become the person you want to be, be loved and sought after by thousands of fans, absolutely beat people like Lin Mo by hundreds of blocks!"

Speaking of this, Su Yi's tone became agitated, using both hands and feet to fight for him, Jiang Wanwan blindly regarded Lin Mo as a treasure, how could he think so?It's too hot, isn't it!

Lu Han was listening carefully at first, but at the end, he couldn't help being amused by her, shook his head, and said softly: "You can really talk nonsense!"

Even though he said that, his expression was no longer as depressed as before.

"I'm serious." Suy muttered unconvinced, and lamented to the sky: "Why didn't you ever believe me?"

The confession is the same, and it is still the same now. Although she loves to lie, she has never lied to this person. Is her credit so bad?

"Then there must be an objective basis. The future you mentioned is too illusory." Lu Han also raised his head and sighed.

But I saw it with my own eyes!

Suy opened his mouth, thought for a while, and closed it angrily. Anyway, time will tell.

"Then don't mention the future, let's talk about the present." Su Yi stood up suddenly, stretched her waist, stretched her muscles and bones, and smiled at the people on the ground, "Student, have you recovered from your emotional injury? We can go back right?"

What is it like to sit by the lake with an umbrella on a rainy day? Although she is happy to be alone with him, this weather!This place!It's fine if it's not beautiful and romantic, but should it still be so difficult?She really didn't feel anything other than shivering from the cold.

Lu Han hesitated for half a second, but still shook his head resolutely, before Suy could ask why, he coughed dryly and said subtly: "Right now, I'm still taking the math test."

Therefore, there is only one dead end to go back.

Why do you, a lovelorn, remember better than I do?Su Yi was inconceivable, but he also thought of this question. The old witch's paralyzed face instantly appeared in his mind, silently swallowed, sat down silently, held the umbrella silently, and lay down on his back silently again.

After finishing a series of actions, the two sighed at the same time. No matter what the future holds, they are just children at the moment.

"Why don't I hold it up." Lu Han felt embarrassed to speak when he saw that Su Yi had held up the umbrella for nearly half an hour.

"Take it." Suy handed him the handle of the umbrella unceremoniously, wishing for it, her arm was already so sore that it was numb.

Lu Han accepted it humbly.

Then the two silly children stayed up in the rain for nearly an hour, and didn't dare to get up and go back to the classroom to take their schoolbags home until the bell rang for the end of class.