The actor is also giving up on himself today

The shooting that night was a scene in which Rong Tiao, played by Jian Ming, took the report in the hospital. It was not too difficult, but when he got the diagnosis report, he showed a combination of shock and relief.

Before Jian Ming's filming, Yi Xiao started to make a fuss again. He called Jian Ming to him and talked carefully for a long time before letting Jian Ming go to shoot.

Finally restored to his previous appearance, Jian Ming felt extremely happy, freed from the psychological pressure, and acted smoothly.

The night's scene passed smoothly. After filming, Jian Ming followed Yi Xiao to the room.

Yaoyao retreated very consciously, she felt that she wanted to live for two more days.

After the door closed, Yi Xiao sat on the sofa, pursed his lips and looked at Jian Ming.

The young man's stature is already tall, but he still looks thin.

Jian Ming walked over, looked at Yi Xiao, took a breath, and asked, "If you hear about an unbearable past, if you despise me, I will admit it."

"Sit down and talk." Yi Xiao, who had been silent all this time, finally spoke.

Jian Ming nodded, sat down and said, "I don't know who my biological father is. My mother just said that my biological father is worthless and can't take me abroad to become famous, but I didn't know until I went abroad. It's not so easy to become famous..."

Jian Ming smiled wryly and shook his head, "She gave birth to me in a container at the pier. She wanted to abandon me when she was born, but someone found out and sent us to the hospital. After knowing that the US has a green card at birth, she changed it. Got an idea."

"Later, she met that bastard Mexican man, that man was a drunk, and beat people when he was drunk. I protected her, but she turned around and scolded me, thinking that because of me being a drag bottle, she became a poor woman in marriage. It's worthless." The more Jian Ming spoke, the more bitter he became, and the colder he felt.

Yi Xiao saw Jian Ming's every move, so he poured a cup of hot water and handed it over, "Drink some water first."

Jian Ming took the water glass, staring at the swaying water, but didn't drink it, "After I grew up, she also gave birth to several children for that Mexican man. I have two younger brothers and a younger sister, but the Mexican man still treats her the same. No, if you hit or scold, she will only cry..."

"Oh! Isn't it ridiculous?" Jian Ming laughed hard, "Every time she shows off to relatives and friends in China, saying that she has given birth to a few mixed-race children, when I hear people ask me, she says I'm a fool, don't worry about it." .”

Yi Xiao pursed his lips, did not speak, and looked at Jian Ming quietly.

"I have to satisfy my younger brothers and sisters whatever they want, but I am just a child. If I can satisfy anything, they will find a way to let me go out to do odd jobs and come back to supplement the family."

As Jian Ming talked, he became more and more numb, as if he was telling someone else's story.

His thoughts seemed to drift back to when he was 15 years old. He walked into the bathroom with the small old checkered tiles and closed the creaking wooden door.

He took off his clothes and walked under the shower head, took off the shower head and tapped it in the palm of his hand.

The water pipe in the bathroom was very clogged, and every time it had to be beaten violently to get the water to flow normally, and the water that flowed out was pitifully small.

The sound of rushing water resounded in the bathroom, and Jian Ming stood under the water, washing his skin.

He looked very thin, but he kept growing taller, his waist became thinner and thinner, and his shoulder blades would always push against his clothes on weekdays.

Amidst the murmur of the water, there was a creaking sound from the door. The sound was not obvious under the cover of the water flow, but Jian Ming, who had been tense all the time, noticed it. He turned around suddenly and saw that wretched white man, With a rosacea, peeping inward.

"What are you doing?!" Jian Ming found the other party, and the young man's face flushed red. He grabbed the iron bucket on the side and smashed it towards the door.

There was a sound of fleeing in embarrassment outside the door.

Jian Ming hastily dried himself off, put on his clothes and came out, ready to find that wretched bastard to make a theory. This is not the first time he has mischievous intentions against him.

A woman with a loose bun was making mashed potatoes in the kitchen. Jian Ming rushed over angrily, but was scolded: "I heard that you injured your stepfather?! Why are you so ignorant? Hurry up and give your stepfather Apologize!"

Jian Ming glared fiercely at the injured man who was covering his waist on the sofa, and growled at the woman: "He just peeked at me taking a shower!"

Unexpectedly, the woman said: "What's the matter if you look at it? You won't lose a piece of meat!" The woman continued to reprimand: "But you can't beat your stepfather. It's wrong to beat someone!"

"Is it wrong to hit someone?" Jian Ming sneered, "Then he was right when he hit me? Then why didn't you stand up and say that hitting someone is wrong?"

"You?!" Anxiously, the woman came out of the semi-open kitchen, raised her hand and slapped the boy loudly, "I told you to talk back to me!"

On the sofa, the red-nosed man and the kids around him were laughing, as if they were watching some circus performance.

These cubs are all younger brothers and sisters who came out of the same mother's womb with him.

"Okay!" Jian Ming covered his face, turned and went upstairs, he thought about it, he must leave here.

Just as he was packing his luggage in the house, the door was roughly pushed open.

A man with a red nose came in, holding a bottle of high-purity brandy in his hand, and the strong smell of alcohol immediately filled the room.

Jian Ming stood up and stepped back unconsciously.

"Come here, have a drink with me." The man's ugly face was contorted, and there was a disgusting stench all over his body.

"This is my room, please get out!"

"Your room?" The rosacea-nosed man sneered. "Everything here is mine. If I want, even your mother can be kicked out!"

"Damn! What on earth do you want to do?!" Jian Ming was completely angry, and he threw the clothes in his hand into the travel bag resentfully.

"What do I want to do?" The man showed a lewd/evil smile, "You can sleep with me at night. I'll give you pocket money, how about it?" He said, and he took a step forward.

Jian Ming seemed to have heard the most disgusting words in the world, so disgusting that he almost vomited.

"How is it? Your mother treats you badly, I can treat you well!" As he said, the man smelling of alcohol approached slowly, his eyes glistening obscenely.

"Fuck you!" Jian Ming pulled a desk lamp from the side, and knocked on the white man's cap.

The man was hit, and his head was bleeding immediately, but he, who is strong, immediately grabbed Jian Ming, threw Jian Ming on the bed, cursed, and pressed his strong body directly on top.

"What's the saying in China, you don't eat fine wine when you toast, you are the most typical example!" As he said, he raised his hand and slapped one ear on Jian Ming's face, the other was covered with rough hair Jian Ming's hands squeezed Jian Ming's hands that were trying to resist.

The foul-smelling breath sprayed on his face, and Jian Ming struggled hard, shouting: "Mom! Mom! Where are you?! Come and save me!!"

The sound of objects falling to the ground sounded outside the door, as well as the sound of footsteps walking away in embarrassment.

"Did you hear that? She doesn't care about you, you'd better sleep with me!" Saying that, the furry hands burrowed into Jian Ming's clothes.

Jian Ming went completely crazy, he suddenly raised his head, and slammed into the white man's nose.

A nosebleed sprayed out, and the man smelling of alcohol covered his nose and stepped back, giving Jian Ming a chance to escape.

Jian Ming opened the door and ran downstairs, but unexpectedly saw his mother who was holding the key and was about to lock the door.

"What are you doing?!" Jian Ming knocked on the door like crazy, "Open the door quickly and let me out!"

The middle of the door is glass, and Jian Ming clearly saw the person called mother put the key in his pocket, and her heartless voice floated in through the crack of the door: "Actually, you have nothing to lose, your stepfather is too lonely , you can accompany him."

"Fuck your loneliness! Do you have any brains?!" Jian Ming roared, knocking on the door while looking behind him.

The blood-stained man staggered down the stairs, his whole face looked very ferocious. At this moment, he was staring at Jian Ming with vicious eyes.

One step, two steps, the demon is approaching.

Jian Ming leaned against the door, behind him was the hope of being locked.

Or die together!Jian Ming was thinking like this, staring at the devil approaching him.

Maybe it was because he drank too much alcohol, the Caucasian man's footsteps became more and more vain, and within the last distance of approaching, he finally fell heavily on the ground and fell asleep.

The mother who was guarding the door saw it through the glass, opened the door immediately, and rushed in.

"Peter! Peter, are you okay?" The woman shook the man lightly, "I'm Man Ling, wake up and look at me!"

It was such a touching scene of a husband and wife loving each other, Jian Ming's strength seemed to be pulled away, he leaned against the door frame and watched the scene quietly.

The mother didn't pay any attention to Jian Ming at the door, she just carried her husband upstairs, "Quick, go back and lie down, I'll find medicine to help you treat the wound later."

The drunken man was swearing and swearing and swearing at Jian Ming, but no one cared except for making Jian Ming extremely sick to his stomach.

Jian Ming took a fruit knife from the dining table, turned around and walked out of the room silently.

This is not a cowardly and incompetent mother who has suffered domestic violence, but the eagle claw of the devil's accomplice. From then on, he has nothing to do with that warm home.

Jian Ming walked out and found that it was raining outside. Drenched in the rain, he came to the park, picked a secluded place, and sat weakly on a bench.

All the flames of life seemed to be extinguished by this rain. He took out the fruit knife and cut it on his wrist.

……

"I woke up later and was in the hospital. Because I was underage, the government paid for the medical expenses. Afterwards, I attempted to commit suicide and was judged to have an anxiety disorder. I was sent to Green Garden for recuperation."

After Jian Ming finished telling a "story", he was already sweating profusely, but the corners of his eyes were dry, and no tears shed.

Yi Xiao hugged Jian Ming heavily, "Is this the reason why you avoided me and joined as a trainee?"

Jian Ming lowered his eyes, "Yes, at that time it was said that the closed training was for one year, but he was going to Korea to sign the contract. Who knew that after signing the contract, it said that the closed training was in South Korea, and all the trainees who had arrived had their passports confiscated. When I contacted you again, your phone was disconnected..."

Yi Xiao felt sore in his heart, he was the one who deleted all of Jian Ming's contact information.

"I'm sorry..." Yi Xiao hugged him even tighter, and said three words that he seldom said.

Jian Ming was stunned, and then understood, "You think I'm using you, but I can't explain it..."

Explaining means opening up the scars, and he doesn't know whether the ugly scars will affect Yi Xiao's feelings for him.

"So now, will you despise me?"

"I just feel that I'm so stupid..." For the first time, Yi Xiao felt that he was so useless, so weak that he could let others trample on his heart.

Jian Ming hugged Yi Xiao back, "It's okay, that's all in the past, I didn't know you then..."

As he said that, Jian Ming saw the notebook in the corner, and said lightly: "It records all my feelings for you."

"I know." Yi Xiao didn't hide anything, "I've finished reading this afternoon."

Jian Ming: ...

This notebook records Jian Ming's feelings after becoming a trainee, and records like a diary every day, but most of the content is about missing Yi Xiao...