Rebirth: The Shura Field of the Two Slag Gongs

Adding up the two lifetimes, it was the first time that He Yan and Shen Qun drank alone.

They went to a KTV not far from the hospital, and the two ordered a dozen beers.

Shen Qun can drink, but He Yan only drank half of the bottle, and his face flushed.

"Just do it, you will feel uncomfortable when you are drunk, and you will vomit later!" Shen Qun said so, but his hands kept moving, opening half of the wine bottle.

He Yan held the wine bottle in his arms, half-closed his eyes and looked at Shen Qun with a smile.

"Don't smile at me so nicely," Shen Qun muttered, "He Yan, let me tell you, you are really annoying, I don't want to drink with you at all, I can't wait to set off firecrackers to celebrate,

I must have lost my mind..."

"Shen Qun," He Yan drank the remaining half bottle of wine in one go, "Bang Dang" put the bottle on the glass coffee table, "Can I sing for you? I will sing for you."

"I don't want to listen!" Shen Qun turned his face away.

"I'll sing it to you before I'm drunk."

When He Yan walked to the singing platform, Shen Qun burst into tears when he saw the title of the song.

We're not together at least like a couple

I was in pain, crazy, hurt, crying the worst in front of you

I know you can't take me back to that place

We are not together at least we are like family①

……

He Yan sang it over and over again, while Shen Qun lay on the coffee table and cried.

——I first met at the age of 15. At that time, Shen Qun was full of youth. He put He Yan's shoulders with a smile, and introduced himself: "My name is Shen Qun, Jun Yangqun, how about you?"

Little He Yan's whole body froze at that moment, and his voice was like a gnat: "My name is He Yan, why bother, Yan Yan."

"How do you write it?" Shen Qun deliberately spread his palms in front of He Yan.

He Yan shrank his shoulders, struggled out of Shen Qun's claws, took out a ballpoint pen from his school uniform pocket, and wrote "He Yan" stroke by stroke in Shen Qun's palm.

——Shen Qun blocked He Yan in the sports equipment room: "He Yan, listen carefully, we are the same kind of people, I like you, do you want to try to like me?"

He Yan rounded his eyes.

Shen Qun tilted his head and thought for a while, then suddenly stretched out his hand and flicked He Yan's forehead, and then kissed that finger. Said: "That's how I like it, do you want to try it with me?"

——After the morning exercises, Shen Qun pushed through the crowd from the back row and ran to the front, and pulled He Yan's hand in full view. It's not that you can't see people!"

He Yan lowered his head and was at a loss: "Others will gossip when they see it."

"Whoever wants to talk, let's go, let's be happy! I'm your boyfriend, you're my boyfriend, we're upright, He Yan!"

At that time, Shen Qun was at least ten centimeters taller than He Yan, so he could easily touch the top of He Yan's head: "Don't be afraid of He Yan, this sunshine belongs to us too, we are not monsters, don't be afraid, there is me!"

——On the basketball court, Shen Qun made a beautiful three-pointer, the whistle sounded, and the audience cheered. Shen Qun flew to the auditorium, picked up He Yan and circled several times in a row: "Xiaoyan Xiaoyan Is your boyfriend handsome?!"

He Yan was turned dizzy by him, shy and anxious, but he still didn't forget to take out a band-aid in his pocket: "Your knee is broken, I'll stick a band-aid for you—"

"No post!" Shen Qun put He Yan down and turned around to run, He Yan chased him angrily, Shen Qun's crazy laughter almost broke the roof of the basketball hall.

——In the library, He Yan was concentrating on reading a book, when suddenly a pair of warm hands covered his eyes, and the owner of the hands had a strange voice: "Guess who I am?"

He Yan replied with a smile: "You are Crayon Shin-chan."

"Then you are my Xiaobai!" Shen Qunle couldn't help but lowered his head and kissed He Yan's face, and He Yan gave him a non-threatening look.

"You have written so much," Shen Qun sat across the chair, looking at He Yan's paper, "copy it for me!"

"No!" He Yan covered the paper, "Write it yourself! Who else will copy it for you during the college entrance examination!"

"Don't be afraid, it's not that I don't know how, or I'm too lazy to write it myself!"

"That's not okay," He Yan insisted, "The homework is to consolidate..."

"Okay, okay!" Shen Qun surrendered, "I'll write it myself, and I'll finish it when you have the time to talk about it!"

——In the college entrance examination, He Yan checked Shen Qun's score first, and he was sure. Just as he was about to call Shen Qun, the phone rang: "Xiaoyan, Xiaoyan! I checked your score first! You got 668 in the exam, you must be Can go to Beijing University!"

He Yan was delighted: "I also checked yours, and you will definitely be able to go to Beijing University!"

The two of them shouted and laughed holding the phone, feeling joy and sweetness for each other's tacit understanding.

——On the first day of college freshmen's registration, He Yan helped Shen Qun make the sheets and put on the quilt in Shen Qun's dormitory. Shen Qun generously told his roommate: "This is He Yan, we are lovers!"

The roommates were dumbfounded, He Yan was a little at a loss, but Shen Qun shook his head and tail, proudly: "We Xiaoyan can do everything, you are envious! My boyfriend is awesome!"

——In the first year they came to Kyoto, they visited almost every scenic spot in Kyoto. They climbed mountains, stepped on waves, and swam across lakes. Shen Qun shouted "He Yan, I like you" in every place , At that time, he knew that every sentence he said was sincere.

15-year-old Shen Qun accompanied 15-year-old He Yan.

19-year-old Shen Qun lost 19-year-old He Yan.

Finally, in the past four years, a once-in-a-lifetime rebirth has ushered in. He thought he could get He Yan back, but He Yan still doesn't want him...

"Xiaoyan, why? Didn't you stay with Zhou Yancheng? Aren't we always good? You still treat me so well. Why can't we be together again...I still like you..."

Shen Qun cried until he couldn't breathe: "Why...why..."

He Yan hugged Shen Qun's head, and his face was full of tears: "Shen Qun, Shen Qun, listen to me, you are the closest person to me except my father, no one is more important to me than you , but we... Shen Qun, haven't you found out yet? The relationship between us is no longer the love we had when we were 15 years old. You are my relatives, and I am also your relatives."

"Four years have passed, we have all changed..."

"Then we can be friends...we can be together..." Shen Qun shook his head, "I will listen to you, I will be obedient, and I will never make you sad or angry...I She's been very nice now..."

"Shen Qun," He Yan hugged Shen Qun tightly, choking and almost speechless, "You deserve better, someone who loves you wholeheartedly..."

"You are the best...you are the best...uh...you were obviously going to be with me earlier, I knew it..."

He Yan's tears fell like rain: "It's my fault, it's all my fault... But Shen Qun, Zhou Yancheng is also reborn, I don't need to be with him, but I can't... I can't Sweet...I can't...do you understand?"

He Yan couldn't understand Zhou Yancheng's attitude in this life. Zhou Yancheng was sincere to him. Of course, He Yan could not accept Zhou Yancheng, but if he was with Shen Qun, it would be a thorn in Zhou Yancheng's eyes all the time. Can't do that.

Shen Qun looked at He Yan with tears in his eyes, he understood, he understood everything.

He Yan didn't say it out, but what Shen Qun knew was that He Yan liked Zhou Yancheng. If He Yan, who had just been reborn, was still in his heart, under Zhou Yancheng's persistent pursuit, when the fact of his rebirth was revealed, He Yan would never let him go. He couldn't be indifferent to Zhou Yancheng either. There was as much love as there was hatred in the previous life.

And his love for Shen Qun is no longer the same as it used to be. He Yan doesn't want to make a deal with Shen Qun with one heart. He Yan thinks it's unfair to Shen Qun.

Shen Qun doesn't care about fairness or unfairness, but he knows that He Yan will not be happy. He wants to be with He Yan, and he also wants to let He Yan live a happy life. He Yan is with him with the burden on his back. How can you be happy?

Shen Qun knew that if there was no room, He Yan would not give him any room.

He Yan didn't give it to him four years ago, and He Yan still won't give it to him after rebirth.

At that time, he and He Yan were strangers, but now He Yan is holding him.

Shen Qun can only cry happily in He Yan's arms, cry, cry, let all the sadness, self-blame, regret, resignation, unconvinced... all cry away!

After a long time, they finally managed to calm down.

"Then you..." Shen Qun was sobbing, "Why did you..."

"Why am I not with Zhou Yancheng?" He Yan pulled a bitter smile, "Why are we together? Like in the previous life, he married him, and then I hid it behind my back? Didn't I die once, all problems are It can all be resolved.”

"Since he is reborn, he will definitely not get married again." Shen Qun said with tears in his eyes, somewhat reluctantly.

"Even if he can do it by himself, what about his family? Why bother to make trouble for me? Two people are together to make each other's life better. If you use either party's sacrifice in exchange for love, you will end up unhappy. flat."

"Xiao Yan," Shen Qun stared at He Yan, his eyes were full of unwillingness and deep distress, "You are too sensible, do you know? You are too rational..."

A lot of helplessness flashed in He Yan's eyes, and there was also endless sadness: "You all don't care about it one by one. It seems that it has nothing to do with you if the sky falls. If I continue to play havoc with you, everyone can't do it these days. pass."

Shen Qun picked up a bottle of wine and drank most of it down, and finally wiped his mouth: "I don't care! Anyway, you are my partner now! You can't dump me! You admit this? You will always stay Are you in the company?"

"Of course," He Yan nodded, "We are not only partners, we are relatives."

"Then you will always treat me like this in the future?"

He Yan nodded desperately.

"Even if you are with others in the future, you have to be the best to me. If I don't like him, you must not choose him, you know?"

He Yan laughed: "You are being unreasonable..."

"I don't care! Aren't relatives more important than others!"

He Yan nodded: "Okay, listen to you."

"Then if I fight with him, you have to help me too!"

"Always help you!"

"During the holidays, I have to go to my house to see my parents!"

"That is required!"

Shen Qun bit his lips, he turned his head away, wiped his eyes fiercely, and finally turned his back and said viciously: "He Yan, you are too bad! You are too bad, too bad! I'm fucking... You are so miserable..."

He Yan lowered his head, Shen Qun suddenly turned around and hugged him hard, Shen Qun lowered his head, and kissed He Yan's lips fiercely, He Yan closed his eyes, Shen Qun just stuck to his lips, two faces There were still tears on the face, and it was impossible to tell whose tears were on the other's face.

"Xiaoyan," Shen Qun murmured, "I accept your refusal, but you have to promise me that you must be happy, if you dare to let yourself have a bad life, I absolutely absolutely will continue to pester you! "

"En!" He Yan responded, tears streaming down like rain.

"Come on!" Shen Qun let go of He Yan, took a deep breath, "Today, we will not go home until we are drunk!"

He Yan also picked up a bottle of wine: "If you don't get drunk, you won't return!"

The mouths of the two bottles collided with each other, He Yan and Shen Qun raised their heads, and swallowed their respective drinks together with tears into their lungs.

At the end of the day, He Yan was the first to get drunk. His eyes were blurred and he leaned on the sofa. Shen Qun squatted in front of him and touched his face: "Xiao Yan, if Zhou Yancheng doesn't get married again, he will treat you well. Will you still be with him?"

He Yan froze, as if he couldn't understand what Shen Qun said.

"Do you like him? Do you like Zhou Yancheng?"

He Yan understood this sentence, he hesitated for a while, then nodded slightly, almost invisibly.

"He shouldn't be sorry for you anymore, he came back because of you, Xiaoyan, I'm sorry, I lied to you, I didn't die for you, Zhou Yancheng did."

However, He Yan had already closed his eyes, breathing steadily, and fell into a deep sleep.

Shen Qun sat on the sofa and hugged He Yan in his arms. There was a wet towel in the tray on the coffee table. Shen Qun wiped He Yan's face. He Yan cried a lot before, and his cheeks and nose were red. Qun wiped He Yan's face, and his own tears fell down again.

"Fool," Shen Qun wiped his face indiscriminately, and murmured softly, "Who said that I am not in love with you when I was 15 years old? I like you so much, but you don't like me anymore..."

Shen Qun is not stupid. Since his rebirth, He Yan has loosened many times, but it was not a heartbeat, but a touch. If there is no Zhou Yancheng, the two of them will follow the steps, and one day they will be together again.

But who is to blame?If he hadn't gone astray four years ago, He Yan would have belonged to him. Zhou Yancheng was right, he pushed He Yan to him, and he didn't fight for it in those four years. Not eligible anymore.

It's not that He Yan asked Shen Qun to find a better one, but that Shen Qun should let He Yan to find his happiness.

He Yan, he is the most beautiful and bright color in Shen Qun's life. At least compared to the previous life, they will always be family members in this life, and they can always treat each other well.

"Fool..." Shen Qun gently placed a gentle kiss on He Yan's forehead, "This... This is already very good... Really good..."

"I will wait for you," Shen Qun confessed in a low voice, swearing, "I will wait for you in the next life... the next life... there will always be a lifetime... I should wait for you..."

In the dimly lit box, only the singing on the jukebox is softly repeating infinitely:

But only you were with me in the first place

Only you can understand the dreams I want are never big

We're not together at least like a couple

I was in pain, crazy, hurt, crying the worst in front of you

We're not together at least we're like family

Always care far and far share...②

(——Rene Liu "We Are Not Together")