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"Yeah, I killed him." Huang Zekai stood by the window with a glass in his hand where he could see the pond. The sunlight outside the window made it difficult for Jojo and Lin Xi in the room to see his expression clearly.He seemed to be immersed in the emotions of the narrative, and didn't care about the audience's reaction, just continued to narrate: ===

I lost my temper at him, closed the window hard, refused to open it no matter how much he yelled, and ordered the tutor not to open the door for him.I ran back to my room, buried my head in the covers and cried, feeling a sudden and unbearable betrayal.

Not only that, but the situation is getting worse.My father just came back that day, and I happened to see Kangkang picking up small stones and smashing the glass in my room to attract my attention... He mistook him for a bad boy who came to destroy, and immediately asked the driver to drive him away, and rushed to the The room yelled at me for provoking uneducated bumpkins.He forced me to find out the energy of my relationship with Kangkang, and also knew the reason for our dispute. He was furious, and found a broom from the kitchen in a rare and down-to-earth manner. He made me kneel on the ground, beat me desperately with the broom handle, and forced me to I swear that I will never associate with little country bumpkins again, and I will never mention the word homosexuality again.

I still remember his scarlet eyes and ferocious expression, his saliva flew out under the light and hit my face.He yelled while whipping me: "Like boys? How dare you embarrass me like this!? How dare you let me embarrass me in front of the dead son of the earth turtle!? Kill you, I will kill you! Huang Zekai, listen to me! , if you dare to associate with that kid again, and dare to mention the perverted thing of liking men, I will pull your tendons, peel off your skin, and throw you into the pond to feed the fish! Do you hear me!? You give me swear!?"

I have never been beaten since I was a child, and the broom whipped me so painfully that I surrendered without any resistance... Not only that, but I also attributed the pain to Kangkang.At that time, I thought, all blame Kang Kang for calling me a pervert, all blame Kang Kang for quarreling with me, all blame him for not being able to accompany me often, all blame him for disturbing me...it was all his fault!

I was beaten so badly by my father that the skin on my back and butt was rotten. I couldn't even get out of bed the next day and had to lie on my stomach.

In the afternoon, I heard someone smashing my window with stones, and my tutor also came to tell me: Kangkang came to see you, and he said he wanted to apologize to you.

But I didn't want to pay attention to him. He even scolded me and caused me to be beaten for the first time in my life... I buried my head in the pillow and pretended to be asleep.The tutor sighed and left my room.The sound of smashing the window stopped soon, and Kangkang seemed to be persuaded away by his tutor.

I thought he would not come again in the future, but I didn't expect him to come again the next day... This time he didn't throw stones, but stood downstairs in my house and shouted: "Zeze—I'm sorry! I shouldn't scold you...I I apologize to you! Don't ignore me, okay?" "I heard that you were beaten...does your butt still—— hurt—?" I listened blushing in the room, and said to myself, he really lacks a tutor My little bumpkin, can you call out your ass?So it became even more angry.

Seeing that I didn't respond, Kangkang finally left.But he never gave up, and would come over every day after school.He asked his tutor to spread the word, and he yelled outside, telling me that he didn't know what perversion meant, and told me that everyone said that men who like men are perverts, and he believed it, just like believing that my home is a haunted house.He told me that he was willing to listen to anything I said... He even shouted that he likes me too, it doesn't matter even if he is a pervert like me, I am his best best friend, begging me to show my head and take a look at him...

The injury on my body gradually healed, and on the fifth day, I was able to stand by the window, through the curtains, snicker and watch him play tricks and apologize.I thought that day, if this guy comes tomorrow, I'll tell him I forgive him.I will pull him to read that psychological magazine together, and tell him that it is not a perverted thing for a man to like a man, and I also regard him as my best best friend...he is my only friend.

But this tomorrow is different from what I imagined.

Having said this, Huang Zekai drank the coffee in the quilt.He sat obliquely on the window frame, playing with the photo frame that was under his arm just now, and took out the photo of Kangkang in his hand.

Lin Xi and jojo didn't interrupt him this time, they all clenched their fists subconsciously, knowing that the cruelest truth about Kang Kang's death was coming next.

Looking at the photo of Kangkang in his hand, Huang Zekai continued: ===

The next day, I was sitting on the first floor playing the piano, waiting for Kangkang to come and play with me.But before Kangkang came, his father came back early for an unprecedented time.I was afraid that my father would be beaten if he found out that he was still playing with Kangkang, and I was also afraid that the tall driver would pick up Kangkang's ears again, so I stopped after playing for a while and said that I wanted to go back to my room to read.

When I got upstairs, I stood by the window, staring at the direction Kangkang usually came from.Soon, Kangkang appeared.I immediately waved to him vigorously and told him "Go back! My father is at home, don't come over!" Seeing that he was so happy to see me, he didn't understand what I meant at all. Instead of leaving, he waved towards the window facing me Running over from the location, getting closer and closer to the pond...

Just then, the door was opened.My father found out that I was suspicious and came up to check what I was doing, and immediately found that I was waving to Kangkang.He was so angry that he rushed up and grabbed my hair and slapped me twice.I fell to the ground and heard him yelling out the window: "Get out! Get out of here, don't bring Huang Zekai down!"

I immediately got up from the ground, leaned on the window and looked out, trying to tell Kangkang that this was just Dad’s idea, and I didn’t want him to stay away from me, but I happened to see Kangkang who was standing by the pond because he was frightened... kicked slipped into the pond.

"Kangkang!" Seeing this scene, I immediately screamed, hugged my father's leg and said to him: "Dad, he fell into the water, he fell into the water!!!"

And my father actually said to me: "That wild boy can swim for sure, you don't have to worry about his life!"

How can I not worry?Seeing that he didn't intend to help me at all, I left and ran outside, and even fell and knocked out a tooth when I went down the stairs... It was because of this fall that I was caught by my father.He picked me up and didn't allow me to save others.I kicked him hard, and finally scratched his eyes with my hands, and finally struggled away, rushed to the door, and opened it!

I watched Kangkang.I saw him struggling. Although there was a distance, I knew that Kangkang must have seen me too...He kept raising his hands, and he called my name: "Zeze! Help!" His expression was very painful, It was as if there was something holding him underwater!

I ran towards him immediately, getting closer and closer, but when I was about to reach the pond, my father caught up again. He pushed me down and pressed me to the ground. Look at Kangkang...let him...watch him...little by little...sink into the pond...never come up again...

"He drowned." At this time, my father said in my ear: "You see, people who disobey me turn you into a pervert, and this is the result."

"Pervert, your dad is the pervert!" Hearing this, Jojo couldn't bear it anymore.He jumped up, like a cat that had its fur puffed up and entered a fighting state: "It was your father who killed Kangkang, damn it, you should have pushed that old pervert into the pond then!"

"Jojo!" Lin Xi held the people around him to keep him from getting too excited, but she couldn't control her emotions: "But your father is indeed... this is simply a deliberate murder!"

"Yeah, deliberate murder, it makes people hate to the bone, I should avenge Kangkang..." Huang Zekai didn't look at the excited two, he just looked at the photo in his hand, and continued: ===

I watched Kangkang drown before my eyes and was dragged home by my dad.His courage to resist just now was completely gone, and I realized that if I dared to disobey my father again, he would not hesitate to throw me into the pond too.

I became very well behaved and very silent.I'm not talking, and I'm not leaving my room.The good-tempered old tutor was fired, and the new tutor likes to whip people with a pointer.My mind goes blank all day long, like a puppet.

A week passed like this.One day, my father suddenly called me to the kitchen.He pointed to a pot of boiling oil and told me: "If you dare to talk nonsense, I will let you drink this pot of oil and scald your internal organs!" Mouth, then, was taken out by my father to meet people...

I met, Kangkang's grandma.

Kangkang's grandma looked very old, she was wearing gray clothes, her hair was all white, her eyes looked like glass beads stained with dust, she stared at me for a long time before asking: "Are you Zeze? "

I nodded silently.

Kangkang's grandma laughed, showing a few broken teeth: "Hey... grandma has cried too much recently, her eyes seem to be broken from crying, and she can't even see Zeze clearly, but Kangkang and I said, Zeze is a handsome guy, it's a pity I can't see it... So, it's not good to cry too much. Zeze, what grandma told you today may make you very sad. You promise grandma not to cry all the time ,OK?"

"Your good friend, my grandson Kangkang...he drowned in the pond in front of your house. Hey, Kangkang is naughty and courageous. All the children in the yard know that this is a haunted house. No one dares to come here, but he came here... Fortunately, he came here to meet a good friend like you. You don't know, after Kangkang came home, he talked about you every day, saying that you are good-looking, you can play the piano, and you can play the piano. Huahua, knows a lot of words... Oh, he adores you! He pesters me every day and tells me: Grandma, when Kangkang comes to visit our house in the future, you must give him the most delicious egg cake in the world ... I must give Zeze the best and best things in the world! But no, Kangkang is too naughty. I told him so many times, don't get too close to the pond, don't get too close to the pond, he I just can't remember... In the end, I drowned in that pond..." The old lady couldn't help wiping her tears when she said this.

And I also cried badly.

Seeing me crying, she immediately reached out and wiped my tears.Her hands were so rough, it hurt my face when touched... But those hands were really warm, but they were quickly knocked off by my father.Kangkang's grandma showed an embarrassing expression. She rubbed her hand and stood up: "Hey, good boy, promise grandma not to cry, don't cry to your eyes. Grandma is leaving soon, and you don't want to cry." So sad...Although Kangkang is gone, the creepers he planted for you are still there, grandma saw that they have sprouted..."

I cried more and more, and the fear in my heart was replaced by courage.I opened my mouth, determined to tell the truth even if my internal organs were scalded, but my father hugged me hard at this moment, pressed my head, and didn't allow me to make a sound. He didn't let go until Grandma Kangkang left. hand...

I failed to tell the truth.Kangkang's grandma died of illness within two months after returning home.Until she died, she didn't know that her grandson actually had a chance to be rescued.

Immediately after I heard the news from the driver, I fell ill.He had a high fever, kept talking nonsense, and called Kangkang's name.My father panicked, and secretly asked someone to find a Taoist priest, and hid talisman papers in every wall of the room... I don’t know if it worked. It didn't work out, and was finally sent to the hospital, and then went abroad.And this villa, according to the instructions of the Taoist priest, remained vacant as it was...

"Look, I was the one who killed Kangkang. I was the one who lured him, I made him approach the water, I watched him drown but didn't save him, I didn't tell the truth about his murder... ...I was sent abroad and escaped for more than ten years, and this secret has festered in my heart for a long time...Now, it is time for me to pay for my sins." Huang Zekai said, standing up.

"No, I can't blame you. You were only 7 years old at the time, and you couldn't resist at all, and there was something wrong with that pond too, it..." Seeing Huang Zekai's expression was wrong, Lin Xi immediately stood up to persuade him.

But Huang Zekai didn't have the patience to listen to what he said. He put the photo in his pocket, turned over and jumped out of the window, and ran to the pond!