my cp turned out to be

When the gardeners planted the sixth peach tree in the yard of Zhao Zixuan's house, Zhao Zixuan met the blind date arranged by his grandfather.

The blind date is the daughter of a high-ranking official in the capital. She also studied in the UK. She looks delicate and behaves dignifiedly. A good wife who doesn't let the eyebrows go.

Zhao Zixuan was very satisfied after seeing her, so he spent more and more time with his fiancée according to the requirements of his grandfather and mother, often sleeping out.Missing Ah Jun (or when the desire is urgently to be relieved), I hurried back to the house full of peach blossoms, and pulled him directly onto the bed sheet.

Sometimes, Ah Jun would ask him the reason why he didn't go home, and he just responded simply: "I'm busy."

After hearing this, Ah Jun smiled and didn't ask any more questions. He blinked his peach blossom eyes twice, and there was a light that no one could understand.The 24-year-old man still smiled like a child, cuddling in the man's arms and acting like a baby: "Zixuan, you won't leave me, will you?"

"No." Zhao Zixuan always smoked a cigarette to perfunctory.

Ah Jun didn't care about his attitude, he raised his head and kissed the corner of his mouth: "I won't leave you either."

"I know."

"Hey~" Ah Jun laughed again, grabbed Zhao Zixuan's hand and played with his fingers, "It's so fast, we've been together for seven years."

"Well, we will have many seven years in the future." Zhao Zixuan would always say this.

The peach blossoms in the yard bloomed and withered, and when midsummer came, Zhao Zixuan got engaged to his blind date, and the time to go home became less and less.

In August, he returned from a vacation in Europe with his fiancée.When his fiancée went shopping in Hong Kong with his best friend, he took time to visit Ah Jun. As soon as he entered the courtyard, he found the man sitting under the peach tree in a daze: "Ah Jun, I'm back."

Ah Jun looked up at him, but said nothing.

Zhao Zixuan thought about it, and laughed calmly: "It seems that you already know? Who told you?"

Ah Jun pulled out an ugly smile, and replied softly: "Your engagement banquet invited Young Master Li...his driver accompanied him, and took it as gossip. It is said that it was a...very grand engagement party. You..."

"Driver?" Zhao Zixuan interrupted him, his expression was vigilant and dissatisfied, as well as a bit of disdain that couldn't be concealed, "Why do you have contacts with other people's drivers?"

Ah Jun listened, and showed a pale smile for a while: "Don't worry, people nearby think I'm your male servant. So, other people's drivers, part-time workers, maids and so on have nothing to do with me." good."

Zhao Zixuan raised his eyebrows, showing a smile mixed with relief and indifference.He took a step forward, rubbed Ah Jun's hair, and laughed again: "Maid? Thank you for thinking it out, hehe, okay, this identity suits you well. If you like to associate with those people, you can do whatever you want, Just remember, don't let others know about our relationship." After finishing speaking, he turned and walked into the house.

"Zixuan..." Ah Jun's body trembled, as if he had been stabbed by the man's words.He called out dryly, called the man and asked, "Is there anything you want to say to me about the engagement?"

"What did you say?" Zhao Zixuan looked back at him, "You already knew I would be engaged, didn't you?"

"I thought..." Ah Jun subconsciously said, but he stopped immediately and lowered his head silently.

Zhao Zixuan's curiosity was aroused, he returned to Ah Jun and squatted down: "What do you think?"

Ah Jun didn't answer.

Zhao Zixuan forcefully raised his face, forcing him to look at him: "What do you think?"

Ah Jun stared at Zhao Zixuan, and there were many emotions in his eyes that he couldn't understand: "I thought...you didn't get married because of me. I thought that you didn't have a regular female partner in the past few years. Not in the next few years. I thought, we still have many, many, many years…”

"Ha!" Zhao Zixuan was amused, his face softened for a moment, but then it was replaced by ridicule and disbelief.The man lowered his head and kissed the young man's lips, "Ah Jun, you are really my baby. After all these years, you are still so naive? Or... are you stupid for loving me?"

"I love you, Zixuan." A layer of steam appeared in Ah Jun's eyes, and he stretched out his arms around Zhao Zixuan's neck childishly, kissing his lips repeatedly, and rarely said willfully, "Isn't it enough for you to have me?" ? I can give you the feeling of home... So, don't marry a woman, okay? Let's live a good life, two people, forever, huh?"

Zhao Zixuan's face turned cold all of a sudden, and he pushed him away a little rudely: "You forgot your origin."

Ah Jun fell to the ground.He didn't stand up, lowered his head, and his voice became colder than ever before: "Yes, I also feel that I have forgotten my roots, so everything I have endured now is a punishment for my greed. Zhao Zixuan, during the time you played missing Here, I have asked myself more than once: If I hadn't slept with you, would everything have been different?"

"If I didn't sleep with you to study, if I foolishly ran to Beijing with you, would I have married a wife and had children, and lived a peaceful life? If I can make up my mind to leave you after Henry's incident, I am Wouldn’t it be that you would not become your taboo and live in shame like a ghost? If I hadn’t fallen in love with you at the time, let alone indulged my love delusion that you would love me, then I wouldn’t be like a deep palace Like a resentful woman who spends her days withering peach blossoms?" His voice was so cold, as cold as a heart that was no longer hot, and Zhao Zixuan shivered slightly from the cold.

Zhao Zixuan didn't know why he was trembling, but he felt that someone was gripping his heart fiercely, his mind was filled with fear and heartache, buzzing: he wants to leave me?Ah Jun wants to leave me?Accompanied by this thought, anger immediately came to his mind. Zhao Zixuan couldn't help but hold Ah Jun's shoulders hard, and asked in a harsh tone, "What do you mean by that? Zhou Jun, do you regret it?"

Ah Jun didn't raise his head, and didn't say whether he regretted it, he just said: "...Zhao Zixuan, let me go."

"what!?"

"Let me go, Zhao Zixuan, I can't be your toy, I can't be your pastime after marriage - I can't stop loving you." Ah Jun said softly, "If you continue to lock me here, then One day, sooner or later, I will turn your life upside down and do something we both regret... Let me go. Don't worry, I will not reveal our relationship to anyone. I will go home Go, and guard the peach blossoms in our house obediently."

Zhao Zixuan's throat rolled, and he opened his mouth, but he didn't know what to say, but his eyes were extremely dry, and he screamed hotly for the moisture of tears.He blinked unconsciously and shed a tear uncontrollably.

Ah Jun didn't realize it at first, but he was still talking: "I just give you a suggestion. Next time you are looking for a toy, don't find someone who will fall in love with you. For that person..." He suddenly stopped talking , staring blankly at the liquid that fell on the back of his hand, then looked up at Zhao Zixuan: "Are you crying?"

Zhao Zixuan didn't answer, but kissed Ah Jun's mouth arrogantly.

Ah Jun did not resist, his lips were as soft and warm as ever, as if he had never said those indifferent words.

"I won't let you go." After the kiss was over, Zhao Zixuan said hoarsely.He hugged Ah Jun horizontally, and rushed into the nanny room that had been empty all this time...

"...Since then, Ah Jun has been ordered by Zixuan to live in the nanny's room as punishment for his request to leave. Ah Jun is also very obedient, he cleaned up the room very cleanly, and never mentioned the matter of leaving again. I'm becoming more and more like a servant." Henry said, taking a deep breath on his cigar.

Lin Xi's expression was very tangled: "This...let me ask, these things happened between Zhao Zixuan and Ah Jun, why do you know such details?"

"It was Zixuan who told me." Henry Hai's blue eyes flashed through complicated emotions, "On the day Ah Jun proposed to leave, Zixuan dragged me out to get drunk, repeating over and over again: How dare he leave me... I asked Did he fall in love with that country bumpkin, but he insisted that he just didn't want to be reconciled to the failure of his many years of nurturing plans."

"Zhao Zixuan is such a self-deceiving person." Lin Xi sighed.

Henry shook his head: "He's not, he just doesn't want to accept the fact that he loves Ah Jun."

"Why not, since they are all men?"

"No, it's not that Zixuan can't accept a male partner, he just can't accept that partner is Ah Jun." Seeing Lin Xi's confused face, Henry explained again, "In the final analysis, what Zhao Zixuan can't accept is that he falls in love with a man. A country bumpkin. In his eyes at that time, his fiancée was more suitable for him than Ah Jun, because the former could chat with him about operas, travel around the world and taste wine together, but the latter could only deal with servants and drivers, and only gave him Cook and have sex with him."

"What's the reason!" Lin Xi frowned, "It's just putting the cart before the horse! Isn't the reason why Ah Jun deals with servants because he keeps them at home?! If Zhao Zixuan really wants to be with Ah Jun, he can do it. Teach him to listen to the opera and taste wine! It’s just taste, isn’t it just training? Tsk, let me tell you, he just doesn’t want to be with Ah Jun!”

"He was really unwilling at the time," Henry shrugged, with a little helplessness and understanding, "After all, he believed that Jun was just his toy—who would be with the toy?"

"Toys or something, I just wanted to say—this kind of thinking is really fucking stupid." Lin Xi said coldly, "Ah Jun deserves to leave him, even if he is a farmer in the deep mountains and old forests, it is better than staying by his side Much more!"

"Maybe." Henry's blue eyes dimmed, "It's a pity we don't have a chance to know the answer."

"What do you mean?" Lin Xi had an ominous premonition, "Why don't we have a chance to know the answer."

"Because Ah Jun died as early as the spring four years ago."