My green plums are very sour

For a long time after that, I couldn't face Shu Yu calmly. It seemed that whenever I met her, I would always think of her crying in the rain.I avoided Shu Yu like an ostrich buried its head in the sand. As long as I didn't look her directly in the face, I could make up my mind and let my plan go ahead as usual.I didn't dare to face her, and I didn't dare to contact her again. An unprecedented self-blame drained my heart.

The new life is as colorful and busy as I heard in the past, and all kinds of new things are rushing in, making people overwhelmed, which largely diverted my energy, so that I don't have to always think about things with Shuyu .I even hypnotized myself, Shu Yu's new life may be more exciting than mine, maybe she doesn't have time to think of me.

I spent months in a state of self-deception and anxiety.During this period, except through Rui Rui, I did not know about Shu Yu's situation from any other channels. Similarly, all my situations were communicated to her through Rui Rui.

Although Rui Rui has always been big-hearted, her understanding of us is unmatched by others.During the National Day holiday in her first year of freshman year, she went to the coast to find Qiu Zicheng, and came to the school to visit me specially, and came to inquire about some things without hesitation.At that time, I also felt uncomfortable, and when Rui Rui asked about it, I simply told her all about it.Rui Rui looked very shocked, she was silent for a long time, then she sighed and smiled a little forcedly.Even so, she didn't show any objection, she just pursed her lips and hugged me.

Before the winter vacation, I hesitated for a long time whether to see Shu Yu when I went back. Thinking that we hadn't contacted directly in the past few months, I was afraid that she would still be angry, so I was going to make a side note. If there was any movement from Shu Yu, I would just Push the boat along the water to find her.

The city where I studied has very famous pastries. Before I left school, I went to a long-established shop to buy some and take them home.In addition to the two copies from my home and Rui Rui's, I picked some according to Shuyu's taste, and planned to give them away when I got home.

When I got home, it was not long before the Chinese New Year. The next day, Shu Yu's mother came to our house to discuss things with my mother.I went to the living room to say hello and chat with my aunt, and then I took out the box of pastries I had prepared for Shu Yu on the spur of the moment, intending to bring her to her by the hand of my aunt.

In front of my aunt and my mother, I naturally couldn't say that I brought it specially for Shu Yu. Even if it was just for the occasion, I had to bring my uncle and aunt along.

"I brought this back from the school on purpose. Auntie, you can take it home and taste it." As soon as I said the words, I felt a slightly surprised look from the side. Thoughtful look.I didn't think much of it at first, but when my mother saw it like this, I couldn't help but frowned slightly, feeling a little embarrassed and flustered.This kind of tone of asking for credit is really uncommon in my mouth, not to mention the word "deliberately" was emphasized, so it's no wonder she reacted in this way.

But now that I have said everything, I can't take it back and start over again, so I just wait for some feedback.As long as Auntie can bring the pastry back smoothly, Shu Yu will open it and try the taste, no matter how stupid he is, he will know that it was brought for her.If I'm lucky and my aunt relays my exact words, it will be more straightforward.

However, I don't know if something went wrong, whether Shu Yu didn't figure out what I meant, or guessed it but didn't want to talk to me, in short, she didn't hear anything about it.Since we met that year, there has never been such a long cold war.I was even more uncertain, and I hesitated until the school started again, but I didn't dare to take another step.

Not long after that, by chance, Tao Songnian and I joined the same WeChat group.A Chinese teacher in high school was about to retire. Every class she taught pushed people out to form a group. Everyone wanted to discuss preparing a gift for the teacher.Coincidentally, both Tao Songnian and I were drawn into this group.

It stands to reason that I wouldn't want to have anything to do with Tao Songnian again, but by accident, I actually sent her a friend request, and she quickly approved it.

We haven't chatted for a long time, and after adding friends, we just lie in each other's contact list and make decorations.But soon I found out that adding her is still beneficial. I have an extra channel to understand Shu Yu's current situation.Although I feel a little depressed every time I see them in the same frame, but anyway, I can see Shu Yu's dynamics through Tao Songnian's circle of friends, which is also an unexpected gain.

That night after washing up, I lay on the upper bunk to read the news, and after I casually swiped through Moments, I found that Tao Songnian had posted a new post, which was a candid photo of Shu Yu in a bar.I was a little drowsy at first, but I turned over on the bed all night after swiping the photos, unable to fall asleep.

Tao Songnian was also really interesting, after that Shu Yu suddenly appeared in her circle of friends a lot more often.I was still a little confused at first, because I looked through her past posts, and there were not many related to Shu Yu.But after we added friends, we often took Shu Yu with us, and the photos we posted were obviously taken secretly while Shu Yu was not prepared.After a lot of times, I gradually figured out some tricks, maybe it was specially published.

My feelings towards Tao Songnian have always been complicated, including gratitude and jealousy.But in any case, it is a kind of comfort to me to understand Shu Yu's life through her.

However, the longer the time dragged on, the harder it was for me to muster up the courage to face myself. Gradually, I felt a feeling of being closer to the hometown and being more timid. I thought of it from time to time, but it was just a thought.

I didn't expect that Shu Yu would come to the school to look for me.At that time, I had just participated in a competition and won an award. In order to prepare for the competition, I didn’t go home for the whole summer vacation. It happened to be my dad’s birthday a few days after the competition, so I took a few days off to go home and have a look.

Unfortunately, I didn't know when my mobile phone was gone, and I found out when I got off the car and wanted to call home.I have been vigilant for so many years, but I didn't expect to be thieves sometimes.Originally, I was just sneaking in during those few days, and it was rare to have time to catch my breath, so I didn't worry about it, and bought a new mobile phone and number card when I was going back to school.It turned out that the number was registered with my dad's ID card many years ago. For convenience, I canceled the old number and opened another one myself.

Who knew that she would miss Shu Yu's call by such a coincidence.Maybe it's just fate.

When I went back, my dad drove me to the airport. It is said that taking the high speed is the most convenient, but I made an excuse that I was afraid of high speed congestion on weekends, so I asked him to go around the urban area of ​​the provincial capital, and deliberately pointed the way from Shuyu and the others. I went around the school gate, thinking that I didn't show the mountains and the water.

Unexpectedly, I hurried back to school in the middle of the night, only to realize what I had missed.When the vacation was sold out, the dormitory manager said that someone had come to see me, but I didn't take it seriously.

When I went upstairs, I packed my luggage and listened to Yu Fengchi's complaints.

She is a classmate of mine, and she claims to be a celibate, and she hates people talking about love all day long.Not long after the first year of freshman year, when I was participating in a group activity, I was stalked and stopped to ask for contact information. She couldn't see it and jumped out and taunted him. Since then, we have known each other.When the dormitory was reassigned as a sophomore, I simply applied to live together, and the relationship has always been good.Sometimes I just leave it to her that I'm too lazy to deal with. Anyway, it's not me who offended anyone, so she doesn't care about it.

"Why did you meet this kind of brainless kid again? Just like a kid with no hair, he still shouts his name downstairs in the dormitory, making it so lively, it's not a soul." Yu Fengchi usually doesn't look very good Speak, but it will be a little mean when you open your mouth.

I opened the suitcase and took out the clothes. I didn't stay idle, and asked her cooperatively: "So? What are you doing?"

"Poured a basin of water directly down, right in the heart."

"……Thanks."

"polite."

I was still packing up here when the phone that was thrown on the table vibrated suddenly.I grabbed it and saw that it was a message from Tao Songnian.

"You haven't seen Shu Yu?" This was the first exchange of news since we became friends.

I was a little stunned, and suddenly remembered what Auntie Suguan said, and I was stunned for a while, my mind was empty.Could it be that the dormitory aunt said that the person who came to see me was Shu Yu?

Tao Songnian then sent another message, which quickly confirmed my guess.

"What's going on? Shu Yu went to your school two days ago, didn't you know?"

I stood there stupidly with my mobile phone in my hand, my heart fluctuated violently, I just exhaled heavily, and finally I couldn't stand, my legs gave up and I squatted down hugging my knees.

This feeling is worse than losing a jackpot winning ticket.But what can I say?Maybe this is fate.

"I don't know the specific situation. Judging from the news that Shu Yu sent me back, it seems that I have just arrived home not long ago."

I have taken the train back from school several times, and of course I know how tiring the journey can be.Thinking of Shu Yubai's trip and another dozen hours of driving, I couldn't help but feel sad, and I lay on the table with my face covered and sulked at myself.

Those hesitant feelings before are now slapped hard on my face like a slap.

I always thought that I had no regrets, but that night I watched the dim moonlight on the balcony and listened to the beeping sound from the handset of my mobile phone, and I really couldn't find any reason to justify myself.

The next day, Shu Yu's flat tone on the phone made me feel that it would be useless to talk too much, so I had no choice but to shut up embarrassingly.She seems to have become particularly sensible and general, as I have always expected, but it also makes me feel strange.

The situation between us didn't ease much because of that phone call, and she seemed to really not want to talk to me anymore.I tentatively sent her a message on the eve of the confirmation of the quota for the insurance research institute. As long as she was willing to say something, I could ruthlessly reject the matter.However, Shu Yu just replied "Oh" to show that she knew.

The tutor was very confused about my idea of ​​going back to the provincial capital. Before I graduated, he had recommended me to go to a well-known institution in the industry. After learning about my thoughts, he persuaded me for a long time until I agreed to go Stay and try, it's not too late to go back if it doesn't work.

But I gradually lost the desire to go further.Academic and professional achievements no longer bring me any sense of satisfaction.I know where that emptiness comes from, it tortures me every day, what are you waiting for?