My green plums are very sour

Primitive animal instinct.

This explanation seems a bit too simple and crude.But after a series of comparisons, I feel more and more that my actions are exactly the same as those animals in the courtship period, stupid and naive.Attempt to attack potential "rivals in love" by tit-for-tat. At the same time, they can also use this to gain attention, so that people they care about can focus on themselves and win a greater chance of winning.

But there are still loopholes in this statement.Although I can accept the fact that I am not completely out of animal nature, I am human after all, an advanced animal mentally controlled by emotions.

At this point, the biggest difference between humans and animals is motivation.Animals have such an instinct for reproductive purposes, while humans do it more for emotional interaction.Of course, reproduction may also be part of it.

However, my instinct for Shuyu can never be for the purpose of reproduction, it can only be because of emotion.But if I really want to say how ugly Yinmao is, I really can't tell.

I know Shuyu just like I know myself.The tone of her speech, the look between her eyebrows, the handwriting she writes, the food she likes to eat, the strides she takes when she walks, even the size of her clothes, the date of her menstrual holiday, I know everything, and I remember it better than she herself.

Is that enough?I don't think so.In addition to the understanding brought about by the accumulation of time, my feelings for Shu Yu also have some more complicated factors.

She was already deeply influenced by me at that time, and her habits in many things came from the same school as mine.She's like a statue I've built over the years, and I never wanted to be Pygmalion.

Although in the eyes of many people, including Shu Yu herself, I am the one who plays a bigger role between the two of us, because I always think too much, and I have to guide her to worry about her.But at the same time, she didn't do nothing, but what she did was so life-like that it was easy to be ignored.

After she successfully accepted me as a new friend, she has been taking care of me silently.Help me eat my nasty breakfast, stand up when someone provokes me, drive me to and from school no matter the weather, and trust me with all my heart and soul.I have received as much from her as I have given to her.

I still find her silly, but also cute, and I have no reason not to like her.

Cute is a very subjective word.When people use this word to describe someone they like, it is not based on any external factors, but a feeling from the heart.

I can think of many moments when I thought she was cute, and every time the joy in my heart made me smile involuntarily, it brought a wonderful sense of satisfaction.

She was ashamed when she was tricked by me that she would wet the bed and was forced to go downstairs to the bathroom with me, she was guilty of stealing a small movie and made me grab my bag, and she was cunning when she deliberately rubbed on me sweating profusely after playing.The behaviors and manners that were not so well-behaved in my eyes have all become cute.

I like the way she looks at me with concentrated eyes, a pair of upturned eye ends inadvertently raised lightly, thick eyelashes fluttering along the direction of the corners of the eyes, there is an effect like eyeliner, but the eyes are clear and ignorant , which looks contradictory and harmonious.I enjoy being watched by her like this.

It's because I have a good ability to accept, and it took me a little effort to realize that I have some animal-like emotional interaction needs with Shu Yu.In layman's terms, it is about the appeal of love.

I have always felt that this kind of thing is not necessary, and I have never considered it in my life planning, let alone this appeal is related to Shuyu.Shu Yu is always in my life plan, but the emotional interaction with her based on love is not included.

I'm actually a little angry.I was angry with myself for having side effects, and I found out these things that were not in my life plan.I was also angry that Shuyu was unconscious, and she wanted to make Tao Songnian and I become good friends with all her heart, which made me want to grab the flesh on her waist and twist it hard.I already had a premonition that the development of this matter would not be too smooth. The obstacle is not on the road, but ourselves.

Every time the three of us show up together, I have to work hard to control the emotional fluctuations in my heart, and I always feel very uncomfortable.I think Tao Songnian should have the same feeling, but her symptoms are milder than mine, and she even gave me a sneaky look occasionally, still with that kind of clear and playful look, which made me have to put on a straight face to guarantee that show traces.

At first, I also went when Shu Yu said she wanted to have dinner together, just to save her face.But after doing it more times, the stimulation became more and more severe, and I was unwilling to go again.

I have always felt that my appeal to Shu Yu was not strong enough to a certain extent. Even though I hated other people's coveting of her, I had turned myself into an inexplicable hedgehog because of it.But I forgot that people are greedy and greedy. I already have a part of Shuyu, and now I still desire more.

If this is the inevitable result of an emotional awakening, then I'd say it's coming on too hard.

After all, Shu Yu has a pair of peach blossom eyes, destined to attract bees and butterflies.As much as I love the way she looks at me, I hate it when she looks at other people with the same look.When I noticed that Shu Yu's eyes were becoming more and more interested in Tao Songnian, that kind of uncontrollable jealousy quickly swept over me, making it difficult for me to maintain a normal state of mind when facing the two of them at the same time.

I couldn't let myself lose control, so I chose to avoid.

But in this way, I realized more clearly that my desire for Shuyu is growing day by day.

Sitting on the back of my bike every day is a torment.I'm so close to her, I just need to turn my head slightly and move my shoulders, and I can stick to her thin back.Although Shu Yu hardly drank milk because of lactose intolerance, she smelled of milk, like a newborn baby, which made people feel at ease for no reason.

Sometimes I would bury my head on her back and sniff her breath lightly.I didn't think it was a problem before, but later I always suspected that it was a bit insignificant, so I gradually reduced the frequency of doing it.

Compared to this, the test I received when feeding her breakfast every day really made me flustered.In order to save time and seek convenience, every school day, I peeled off Shu Yu's breakfast and fed it to her mouth from behind.

She wants to watch the road ahead, so naturally she can't turn around from time to time. When I feed from behind her, I have to lean half of my body on her back and hold the food to find her mouth. Sometimes it is inevitable that I will be knocked on my hand by her teeth. , or the back of your hand just brushes her lips.Too much contact always makes me feel strange, and the itching felt by the body in the sense of touch has turned into a commotion of fluff on the apex of my heart.

But to be honest, I like and enjoy this feeling.

From the very beginning, I suspected that Tao Songnian had ulterior motives in getting close to Shu Yu, but since she did not do anything out of the ordinary, it just greatly increased the chance of appearing in front of Shu Yu, so until she made those two boxes of dim sum Only then did I confirm that she was really coveting Shu Yu.Even if she didn't say anything, it was out of good intentions to give us food, but in my eyes she was already provoking.

I accepted this kindness, but it made me unable to eat at all, and my stomach felt uncomfortable like a weight, so I simply lay down on the bed for a whole noon.Shu Yu was terrified when she came to look for me, and the anxious look in my eyes was like a shot in the arm, saving her life again.She still cares about me.

I can control myself not to care who she associates with, or who always appears in her mobile mailbox, but once these insignificant things affect her study, I will habitually preach.

She should know the priorities and when to do what.This is what I demand of myself, and it is also what I have consciously instilled in Shu Yu and Rui Rui over the years.It doesn't matter whether you say I have obsessive-compulsive disorder or nosy, if I don't care about them, I don't bother to care about them at all.

However, Shu Yu's reaction made me feel a little cold.She admitted that she wasn't focused enough and didn't fully focus on the exam, but she took Tao Songnian out and defended her vigorously.

So what if I knew she was right?I've never been so angry, and for a moment I even thought I'd just let her die, and I'd never mind her business again.

This is the most serious cold war that we have broken out in the years since we have known each other.For the first time, I felt so urgently that my position in Shu Yu's heart was challenged.I have a sense of foreboding.

It turns out my hunch was pretty accurate.

When I came out of the supermarket and saw Shu Yu and Tao Songnian standing together not far away, my fingers unconsciously grasped the snacks I just bought, secretly biting my back molars, turned around and left, pretending not to notice them at all .

Shu Yu quickly caught up and followed me without saying a word, like a silent little tail.I knew she was right behind me, but I was angry and didn't want to talk to her.If she hadn't been suddenly frightened by the neighbor's dog and grabbed my hand in a panic, I might not have talked to her until I entered the house.

But soft-heartedness comes at a price.

She blushed and told me nervously that she and Tao Songnian had a crush on each other.

I actually don't remember what was going on in my mind at the time. To use a very tacky metaphor, it was like a bolt from the blue, which made me lose my strength immediately.

Although I have worked hard to control my emotions, my tone has become very impatient.I said I wouldn't meddle in their affairs, when in fact I knew I had no position and probably wouldn't have the chance to meddle again, just to make myself look less of a failure.

I almost ran away, afraid that if I stayed there, I couldn't help but hold Shu Yu by the collar and ask her to open her eyes a little more.Can't she see the person standing in front of her?