My green plums are very sour

After confessing to Ning Ran, I was not as relaxed as I imagined, but became anxious instead.During the whole process, Ning Ran's reaction was not what I expected. I thought she would point her nose and scold me for misbehaving, but the powerlessness and disappointment in her tone far exceeded anger, which made me very panic.I would rather she scolded me all over the face than being so depressed like now.

I have been suffering for several days in a row, and I have no motivation to do anything, let alone respond to any messages.

In the past few days, I have not responded to the messages Tao Songnian sent, and after I clicked on them, I put them aside.In the first two days, there were quite a lot of messages. Later, she did not receive a reply, so she gradually reduced the frequency of sending messages, and just greeted her every morning and evening as usual.

If it were in the usual way, I would naturally blame myself for being impolite, but at that time I couldn't control so much.

After thinking about it for a long time, I decided to talk to Tao Songnian. Some things may only be experienced by her, so I have to ask her.

Tao Songnian didn't ask me angrily because I disappeared for a few days for no reason, and when I texted her that she had a question and wanted to consult her, she quickly replied to me.I should have been gratified by this, but I always felt that I was not authentic enough, as if I owed her something.

I don't know girls who like girls except Tao Songnian, and I don't know what kind of feedback they will get when they confess their feelings to their good friends.All the experience that I can learn, currently only Tao Songnian can provide me with it.

So I decided to check with her, and my gut told me she would be more than happy.

We made an appointment in a physical education class. At that time, the number of people wandering in the school was the least, and everyone spread out for free activities. If we talked a little farther away, no one would hear it. It couldn't be more appropriate.

She was supposed to be studying chemistry at that time, but because of the division of arts and sciences, students in arts and sciences classes would often skip physics and chemistry classes, and the teacher would not say anything.She repeatedly said that even if I didn't look for her, she would skip that class, which dispelled my guilt.

As soon as the teacher blew the whistle and said to disband, I avoided the eyes of my classmates and walked to the opposite side of the playground from a distance. Tao Songnian was already waiting for me in the stands.

I think I must have been in a bad state at the time. Tao Songnian looked at me carefully, and swallowed the hello that was about to blurt out. After I sat down next to her, he asked me deliberately and easily: "It seems that you met me?" It’s a tricky thing, tell me, what do you want to ask?”

For a while, I was also a little uncomfortable to open my mouth. After all, I had been hanging out with her for several days. I only contacted her when I asked for something. I couldn't justify it.

I pondered for a while, organized my words in my mind, and raised my head to look at her, "I just want to ask, how did you tell your friends around you at that time? How did they know that you like girls? How did you react after knowing it? "

Tao Songnian was obviously a little surprised, he was taken aback for a moment, and then a look of reminiscence soon appeared on his face.

"How did you tell them?" She frowned and repeated my question again.

"Well. There will always be an opportunity." I added.There shouldn't be too many people who are purely overheated like me.

Tao Songnian gently kneaded her lower lip with the index finger and thumb of his right hand, thought for a while, and then said seriously: "I think I'd better tell you from the beginning, anyway, um," she spread her hands and pursed her lips Lip, "I don't care, you may also want to know."

I had a premonition that she might tell me about her past, so I didn't refuse and nodded slightly.

"Okay, you say."

Tao Songnian pinched his lower lip with his fingers again, leaned forward, propped his elbows on his knees, and stared blankly at the playground.

"I actually don't remember when I started to like girls. Maybe I was born like this. I always attract girls and I am attracted to girls. Maybe it's really my aura problem." She said with a self-deprecating laugh smiled.

"No, it's all because of your face." I teased softly.

Tao Songnian turned around with a helpless expression, and continued: "I didn't belong to this school when I was in junior high school, and I got here after the senior high school entrance examination."

"I guess it should be. If you were promoted from this school, then I should have met you when I was in junior high school, but I have no impression at all."

"Actually, it's just to change the environment. After all, this school is famous for its open style, which can save a lot of trouble." She sighed.

"When I was in the third year of junior high school, I was with a girl in the same grade. She was very enthusiastic. After we met by chance, we became very clingy to me. It didn't take long for us to confess our love logically, and then we were in school. Double out and pair in."

"In the beginning, I was really happy, and I was very involved, as if life was as sweet as honey. But the good times didn't last long, and she quickly retreated, because there were a lot of gossips and gossips in the school. She decided to Break up with me, the reason is only four words—"

"People's words are terrible."

Tao Songnian's tone was a little low, and there was a layer of melancholy between his brows.

"That's why you were admitted to our school?" I heard it calmly, but felt a little sorry for her.

She lowered her head slightly and curled the corners of her lips, "Hmm. Among the few schools in the city, there is no school with a more open style than this one. Besides, the quality of teaching here is second to none. I have no reason not to come, isn't there?"

This is true. "Then what?"

"It's really different after I came here." Tao Songnian suddenly bent his eyes and smiled, "On the first day of my first year of high school, I was stopped by two girls in the hallway, in front of so many people coming and going. face, asked me if I like girls and if I have a girlfriend."

"I was stunned at the time. I fumbled a few words and then found an excuse to slip away." She suddenly fell into the memory, with a look of dumbfounding on her face.

To be honest, I was also taken aback, but just thinking about it casually felt that the scene would be very embarrassing.

"Later, one of the girls became my girlfriend." Tao Songnian rubbed his nose and put away his smile.

I snorted and squinted at her, "Second term?"

But she seemed to suddenly become sad, and pursed her mouth, "Yes. She is a very high-profile person, and we don't shy away from it at all when we are together. In fact, there is nothing to shy away from. The people around me seem to have changed overnight. By acquiescing to our relationship, no one expressed surprise or other opinions, and some people in the class even came to ask me specifically, just out of pure curiosity and without any malice."

"However, within half a month of being with me, she broke up with her ex again and blatantly cheated. During that time, I received all kinds of spies from my friends almost every day, and every day someone told me where to meet again Here they are."

"Before I had time to mention breaking up, people came to my door and dumped me face to face."

At this time, I should have comforted her a few words, or kept silent and sorted out my thoughts.After all, I'm still a little uncomfortable.But I stared at her, let out a short laugh from my nasal cavity, and said teasingly: "It turns out that you also get dumped sometimes."

Tao Songnian was silent for a while, then shook his head helplessly, looked a little more serious, and sighed, "No one is invincible."

"But there are still many people interested in you." When I said this, of course I remembered what happened before, and my tone was a little cold.

She lowered her eyes and looked at me, with a very shallow smile on her lips, and then changed the subject, "Actually, I didn't really tell my friends around me that I like girls very deliberately. After all, I was stopped by someone on the first day of school." The hall has asked, and it would be very strange if someone didn’t know about it. I told my friends that even if there was no incident in the hall, they would still be able to see it.”

"What about you? Who are you thinking of telling?" After I digested for a while, she asked me.

Tao Songnian lowered his body and moved a little towards me. His right hand seemed to be inadvertently attached to my hand, and he gently held my thumb, feeling warm to the touch.

I was preparing to speak, when I suddenly felt like being stabbed by a needle, I quickly withdrew my hand, my body was so stiff that I couldn't speak.The surrounding air seemed to freeze suddenly.

At that moment, my mind was filled with Ning Ran's muffled voice. "You and Tao Songnian, have you ever held hands?" The constantly changing body temperature on my back seemed to pull me back to the night not long ago.

I took a deep breath and tried to move my fingers, but the sense of touch seemed to disappear quickly.

Tao Songnian was stunned for a while, sat up straight, blinked slowly, and laughed at himself, "Look, what did I just say? No one is invincible."

I pursed my lips and frowned, feeling guilty again, but I couldn't speak.

Seeing that I was silent, she changed her tone and asked gently: "Don't you have something to consult me? Who are you considering telling? Or have you already told someone?"

I raised my head with a stiff neck, looked at her blankly, pinched my pants with my fingers and kept rubbing them, "That day, when I came home, I was on the driveway of the community, and Ning Ran guessed it because of a sudden fever. She... She seems very upset, but it's not because I like girls. She didn't reprimand me that it was wrong, just, she looked unhappy. She also asked me a strange question. I don't know what's wrong, is she being Am I scared?"

After speaking, my voice became softer and my thoughts became confused, my eyes were full of questions, and I looked at her with a look of praying for an answer.

Tao Songnian blinked very slowly, his eyes were a little dark, but after a while, he softly uttered a sentence that made my brain almost explode.

"Shu Yu, have you ever thought about the possibility that Ning Ran actually likes you?"

I thought I had an auditory hallucination, my ears were buzzing, my temples were throbbing, and my back was getting hot.I think I understand what kind of like she means by "like".But how is this possible.

"This joke is not funny at all." I don't know how long it took before I forced out such a sentence.

"I'm not joking." Tao Songnian maintained a serious look, with a gentle but firm tone.

Her answer made the calm I had managed to maintain immediately collapse, and a surge of anger surged up in my heart, I frowned and gritted my teeth in a calm voice: "Don't make such guesses casually, you don't understand Ning Ran at all."

Tao Songnian was still approaching, but his eyes showed a trace of pity, "I really don't know Ning Ran."

"But I know what it's like to like someone."