Chang'an fruit is not sweet

Because he was going home for the New Year, Gu Changan accompanied Lin Guo to cut his hair short the next day after the exam, and dyed it a less obvious brown.

After coming out of the barbershop, Linguo was not very excited.

Gu Changan coaxed, "It's okay, it grows fast, and it will grow within a few days after returning."

Ling Guo pouted, "I won't keep it anymore, no matter how long I keep it, there will be a day to cut it off."

Gu Changan squeezed the child's shoulder, "You can do whatever you want."

"You will always cut it when you grow up, you will always say goodbye when you meet, you will always break up when you are in love, and you will always have to live..."

Before he could finish speaking, he was pulled into an empty corner.

Gu Changan's complexion was very bad, "Don't say such things."

After Lin Guo realized it, he lowered his head, "I'm sorry, I'm not that..."

Gu Changan pinched his chin, forcing him to look up at him, "Don't say such things in the future, okay?"

Lin Guo was stunned, he hadn't seen Gu Changan like this for a long time, the last time he was so angry with him was when he was freshman, right?

He hooked the corner of his mouth and smiled, "It will happen if you don't say anything."

This smile fell into Gu Changan's eyes for some reason, it was a bit miserable, obviously Lin Guo was fed by him, his complexion was rosy and he had gained a few pounds, but it made him see some sick fragility, as if he couldn't catch it for a while. The wind of living is like a patient who has long known that his life is not long, telling his relatives that even if I don’t say it, I will soon return to the west.

No.

No.

"No," Gu Changan lowered his head and kissed Lin Guo's forehead, and murmured, "No."

Lingo smiled again, "It's not that you won't do it if you say you can't."

"Linguo," Gu Changan looked at Linguo, begging in his eyes, "Don't say such things."

Lingo grabbed his hand, opened his clenched fist, and stroked the marks left by the nails that were about to dig into the flesh, "Look what you are doing, I'm just teasing you."

"Stop teasing me like that," Gu Changan leaned his head on Lin Guo's shoulder, "I'm scared."

Lin Guo patted him on the back reassuringly, "It was my fault, don't be angry."

"You know I won't be angry with you." Gu Changan said sullenly.

"Well," Lin Guo asked Gu Changan to look up, and straightened his collar, "Let's come back early after the Chinese New Year, I want to see you sooner."

Gu Changan smiled, "I can see you when I go home."

"It's different, living a life is different from dating." Lingo said.

"it is good."

In fact, Lingo wasn't teasing him, they both knew that.

It's just a trial.

But it doesn't work either.

Can't hear.

Gu Chang'an couldn't imagine, is the kid breaking up with him?

Is there something he didn't do well?

If something is wrong, just tell me, please don't treat me like this.

Afterwards, Lin Guo's strength proved that that day seemed to be just a temporary joke, he was soft and obedient, no different from before, even more clingy.

After the new year came back, Gu Changan enrolled in a cooking class, aiming to become a more qualified home cook.

Lin Guo made a cover song on the Internet, and welcomed a group of fans who were fans of his singing.

[Pineapple Coke Chicken: Look, look at my sugar! 】

[Fudge: Look, look at our unusual toffee! 】

[Hard candy: Faithful toffee is blowing my brother Gu, and toffee didn't come out to blow it the first time after he released a song? 】

[The first wholesaler under Boss Gu: You didn't look at Boss Gu's Weibo two hours ago, Toffee Blows off to a cooking class. 】

[Just a passer-by: I thought the song was pretty good at first, but I flipped through Weibo and turned it off because of wheat bran circle fans [smile]]

[Candy Army: You are a fart passerby, black in the skin of a passerby, when did the toffee lose its wheat bran, the two of them have been together for a long time, just sharing daily life, what kind of drama are you adding to yourself there?]

[Just a passerby: Hehe, is this the quality? 】

……

Even if Lin Guo saw this kind of comment, he didn't see it. In fact, he thought that such a person was quite interesting. If you cancel it, you can cancel it. What do you mean by making a special trip to tell me?You don't like me in the first place, and I won't be reluctant if you leave.

The novel of Pineapple Cola Chicken has written nearly 20 words, and it should be almost finished. It is a small daily story of a couple, and it is quite interesting to connect it together.

Indeed, we can find shadows of the two of them in the protagonist, and there are several stories written about them, such as when Gu Changan was renting a house, he took a seal and posted it on Weibo.

Lin Guo recalled what happened last year and couldn't help laughing.

It's so cute, whether it's Gu Changan or himself, they must have been too stupid back then.

Suddenly, the conversation at home during the Chinese New Year crashed into my mind.

"It's all perverted."

"Don't say such things, bad luck."

At dinner that day, his mother said that the son of his colleague Lao Liu actually liked men and brought him back, but she and the couple were very angry.

The disgust on his father's face couldn't be hidden at all, he said, they were all perverts.

His brother corrected him patiently and said, Dad, it's not a disease, it's just a different choice.

After all, his mother is a doctor. She nodded and said, "It's not a disease, but it's not easy for any parent to adapt to this matter. Lao Liu also said that her son has not been looking for a partner, and she was worried. He said that he would bring him back. Anything is fine, this is brought back, it is better not to bring it.

His father said impatiently, okay, don't talk about such things, bad luck.

Sitting next to his brother, Lingo felt uncomfortable.

Isn’t that what parents are like, they usually say that they will always love you no matter what, but when your choices go against their wishes, when you become an existence that embarrasses them, there is no love left.

Out of nowhere, Lin Guo said, if I also like men, you think I'm unlucky too?

His father gave him a hard look, eat well and don't argue.

Argue?

His mother looked at it in surprise, said nothing, and his brother didn't say anything, but picked up a chopstick thoughtfully.

Since his father decided it was arguing, he simply walked down the steps.He put down the bowl and chopsticks, and said with a straight face that he just couldn't understand that parents should always control their children.

After speaking, he turned back to the room and locked the door.

He heard that his father was angry behind him, and he seemed to want to educate him. He didn't know how his brother flexibly used his theoretical knowledge to explain Lin Guo's current rebellious state, but whatever he wanted, as long as he could scare his father away.

It seems that his father hasn't changed at all. His father thought homosexuality was abnormal when he was in junior high school. Now not only has it not eased up, but it has even worsened. After all, he has used the word "unlucky".

Forget it, let's wait until we graduate from college.

Challenging father's authority now is undoubtedly an egg hitting a rock.

Lingo was shocked by the thought of coming out.

Since when did it start, it seems that there is a desire?Longing to be with him for a long time, longing for a love that is not invisible.

He wasn't like this before, at least he wasn't like this before Chinese New Year last year.

Just like Gu Changan really wanted to rely on the law to uphold justice and save everyone, he also has his own purpose in doing things, but this purpose sounds a bit stupid, just to be himself, for fun.

He wants a lot of things, but he doesn't want them that much. It doesn't matter if he has it, or he doesn't have it. Nothing can keep his interest.Like a virtuoso who loves music as much as his life, all the music he listened to brought him short-term joy, but none of them, none of them were the sounds of nature engraved in his soul. No movement could attract him, but some There is a hint of expectation, if one day I can find it like this.

Because of this little bit of belief and unwillingness to die, I have survived until today.

If one day, he is alive but doesn't feel happy at all, then he doesn't have to continue to wrong himself for being alive. Anyway, he will definitely not get married and have children. Anyway, his parents still have his brother to take care of him.

Just like he couldn't understand the face of his seniors, so he stopped being a student cadre.Just like when he went to Xu Nong to sing, not only for the reward, but also because singing made him feel comfortable.

In fact, liking Gu Changan in high school was not as pure and passionate as Gu Changan thought, he just found a hobby for himself that could hang him.

But even if you can get involved in acting, as time goes by, this feeling really deepens a lot.

Especially when they're actually together.

This is undoubtedly a rare and wonderful experience for Lingo. He originally thought that he could not feel emotions correctly, maybe he has not fully felt them now, maybe his love with Gu Changan is still unequal, but it is enough It was enough to become the fullest and strongest emotion that Linguo felt.

In fact, from his own point of view, he doesn't mind holding hands with Gu Chang'an on the street, anyway, he doesn't care what others think of him, but he is shameless and reckless, he still has to worry about Gu Chang'an's future.

It is true that he has a weakness, and it is precisely because of this weakness that he has desire, and he also sees the light that seems to be ignited in his heart, which is faint, but so bright in the darkness.

[Gu Tiantian's toffee: It's pitch black, no matter which direction I reach out, it's all empty]

【Apple Candy: What's wrong OAO】

[Gummy: Gentlemen, I have a bad prediction, could it be...]

[Hard Candy: Shut up!Are you still part of the army of candy wholesalers! 】

[Boss Gu's dog leg: Our toffee is just moved by listening to the music, why are you so excited. 】

"Ding--"

[Little friend Lin’s sweetness: It’s pitch black, no matter which direction it is, if you reach out, I can find you, hug you, fall in love with you, and engrave you in my soul]

[Pineapple Coke Chicken: I am Buddha, no matter what they say, they will eventually develop into dog food [give kneel]]

【Gummy: The pineapple seed is the truth [laughing and crying]】

[Boss Gu’s younger brother: Bro, you’ve gone to learn how to cook, can’t you be more serious in class?]

[Little friend Lin's sweetness: Little brother, what is it to touch a fish for a child, you will understand later]

[Boss Gu's younger brother: I... thank you for your teaching! 】

The corners of Lingo's mouth raised uncontrollably.

Show me the way to live, show me the way to life.

To live, I am willing to live for you, even if I repeat meaningless day after day, even if I cannot be myself, even if I have to change myself, I am willing to try.

For you, I am willing.

Gu Changan, help me.

Give me some light.

A little is enough.

After all, you are my only medicine.

The author has something to say:

Gentlemen, I can't restrain my excited and restless soul.

Let everyone Amway write the song I listened to when writing this chapter, and it will be cool and dull when you eat it

Hurts Like Hell

Love and War

Breathe

These three capitals belong to Fleurie, hey, I really like her voice