Goddess routine

In the middle of the twelfth lunar month, the weather suddenly became bitterly cold.

The north is not as good as the south, and it is always cold and cold.It's cold in the north, but it's really cold in my heart.

The bone-piercing cool wind forcefully poured into the neck and face, making people unable to stretch their limbs even when they went out.

In the well-heated study room, Mo Xiaobei was rushing from dawn to dusk to rush a manuscript for others.

Suddenly, his eyes were blindfolded.

The fragrance and soft palms that belonged exclusively to the woman all showed the identity of the visitor.

She sighed, stopped the pen in her hand, "Diao Chan, don't make trouble."

"Wrong, wrong, this time I'm Xi... the watermelon master." The girl's immature and sweet voice was tinged with smugness.She patted her chubby little hands, pulled her clothes happily and said, "Aunt Mo, you guessed wrong again, play with me, play with me."

"Be good, Auntie is a little busy now, can I play with you later?"

"Alright then." The three-and-a-half-year-old girl was holding two little twitches, her mouth was pouted, and her cute face was full of disappointment.She moved a small stool by herself, and sat next to Mo Xiaobei's legs, next to her, holding a book of fairy tales full of illustrations in her hand and reading.

She is still so young, she has the appearance of a little adult, she often likes to hold Mo Xiaobei's hand and ask her to tell her stories.

After hearing the story about the four beauties, he came up with this game, calling himself a beauty, and asking Mo Xiaobei to guess which beauty she is.

If you guess wrong, let her play with her.

The little girl had a lot of ghost ideas, but she took turns to guess the four beauties, but she never got it right once.

No way, who made the little girl play Diao Chan every time, but in the end she justified herself as Xi Shi.

Mo Xiaobei liked this little girl very much, so he was happy to make trouble with her.I don't know if it's playfulness or what, when she went out to play with her one time, she actually took her key away.

Fortunately, she had already moved out of the original single apartment and found a cleaner place to live in. Otherwise, it would be a crime to disturb the little girl who rented with her.

Regarding this matter, she didn't know at all that she did it, she just thought that her key was lost and didn't take it to heart, so she played again.

Unexpectedly, within two days, their mother and daughter came to the door by themselves.

The older one said with apologetic expression that the child took her keys for fun, and she came to the door to apologize and return the keys, while the younger one opened his arms for her to hug as soon as he entered the house.

Gradually, the frequency of the big and small ones appearing in her house was higher than the frequency of her own living.In the end, she didn't know how she became like this.

She was fascinated by the materials on the desk, when suddenly the little girl who was flipping through picture books raised her head, tugged at her sleeve and said, "Aunt Mo, it's almost Chinese New Year, shall we go back to celebrate Chinese New Year?"

Mo Xiaobei was brought back to his senses by her voice, lowered his head slightly, and stroked her little head, "Why go back to celebrate the New Year? Don't you go back to grandma's house with your mother to celebrate the New Year?"

The little girl looked aggrieved, "But mother said, grandma doesn't like us going back. We'd better go home with Aunt Mo."

Mo Xiaobei choked suddenly.

Now women with children are powerful, let their children do all the things they don't want to do.She said why this little girl is so eccentric, and after a long time, it's better to be taught by someone.

"Who told you these words?"

"I told her." The door of the study was pushed open, and the tall and tall beauty slowly walked in with a plate of crispy fried crab roe in her hand.

Keeping his eyes on the plate, he frowned and said, "Can I trouble Teacher Mo to see if the oil cakes on this plate are fried well? I obviously made it in front of the video. How can I not do it to the same level as in the video?"

"You're getting too angry." Mo Xiaobei could see where she was struggling at a glance.

Hearing her address to himself gave me another headache.I don't know what kind of bad intentions she has. Ever since I saw a few students who came to her door to ask her to clarify their doubts and called her teacher, they have been talking to Teacher Mo one by one, and she has goose bumps all over her body. "Can you stop calling me Teacher Mo?"

"Why not? I respect a knowledgeable person like Mr. Mo very much."

She put the things on the desk with a smile, her eyes sparkling, "Can Teacher Mo taste it?"

Mo Xiaobei's physique is cold, and her digestion has become worse and worse over the years. It's winter, and crab roe is easy to condense in her stomach.

She looked at the hot things on the table, then looked up at her expectant look, hesitated for a moment, put down the pen in her hand and squeezed a piece into her mouth.

After chewing and eating slowly, an unspeakable nausea surged up in my throat.

She frowned slightly, suppressed the nausea, nodded slightly, "Not bad, not bad."

"Really?" Her eyes lit up when she heard her words, "Then I'll get it for you later."

The corner of Mo Xiaobei’s mouth twitched a few times. She didn’t want to mention it. Looking at the heavy snow outside the window, she felt a convulsion in her stomach for no reason. For the sake of her own life, she still couldn’t help but said softly, “Eating this in winter is easy to accumulate food. of."

"Really?" She didn't know these things at all, and when she heard that she was startled, she immediately rushed up and held her face.

Mo Xiaobei was immediately frightened by her actions, "What are you doing?"

She looked anxious, "Didn't you say it's easy to accumulate food, spit it out quickly."

"Forget it, it's just one piece." Mo Xiaobei was a little dumbfounded by her reason, shook his head and comforted her, "It's okay, there won't be any big problems."

Mo Xiaobei thought sincerely, her stomach couldn't be so troublesome.

Without thinking too much, he told her tactfully that he was very busy to deal with things now, and asked her to go out first, and then talk about it when he was done.

She didn't expect that she would forget the time when she got busy, and didn't realize that something was wrong until after twelve o'clock, when she felt a little burning in her stomach.

She clutched her stomach, slumped on the chair, sweating profusely.

When the pain made her eyes dark, suddenly the door was opened, and a woman's anxious voice was heard in the blur, "Xiao Bei?"

Mo Xiaobei wanted to speak, his lips wanted to move, but his mind went blank.

She was suddenly plunged into darkness.

***

In the fresh smell of disinfectant, she slowly woke up.

The snow outside the window was still floating, and the snowflakes like cotton wool slowly fell, floating on everyone's head and body, and wet their clothes.

There were many cars parked at the gate, and crowds of people wearing red and black down jackets and holding umbrellas came in and out of the hospital gate.

They come and go in a hurry, their expressions are either sad or dull.

Mo Xiaobei watched them go in and out of the hospital, the tip of his nose was red with cold.

She was fascinated by the sight, and suddenly said in a voice, "If you don't wake up, Ziqing will be in a hurry to uncover the tiles in the doctor's house."

She turned her head and saw Ji Lingyu sitting beside her, peeling an apple slowly.

"Why are you here?"

"I've been here since you didn't wake up. It was you who kept looking out the window without even turning your head. Of course you didn't see me."

"Really? I'm so sorry." Mo Xiaobei looked at her apologetically, "I let you guard me for so long."

"I'm just here for Ziqing temporarily. She sent you here in the middle of the night last night and kept looking at you. I called her in the morning and asked where she was, so I came to look for her. I saw her all night I didn't even close my eyes, so I guarded for her and let her go to rest first."

"What happened to me last night?"

"It seems that you are still in the clouds." She shook her head and sighed, "You suddenly collapsed in front of the desk in the middle of the night, and Ziqing sent you to the hospital overnight, and the doctor said you had acute gastroenteritis. Fortunately, Ziqing Qing found out in time, otherwise you would die in the study alone and no one would know about it."

"Really." Mo Xiaobei nodded, she thought her stomach was not bad.

"It's uncomfortable to lie here, isn't it?"

"Yeah." Mo Xiaobei continued to nod. She hated going to the hospital all these years, because as soon as she entered this place, she would think of many things she shouldn't think about.

"I don't like this place too much." Ji Lingyu peeled the apple, cut it into several small pieces, inserted a few toothpicks, walked up to her and handed the things to her, "Do you want to eat?"

This is the harbinger of a long conversation.

Mo Xiaobei glanced at her, took a piece and put it in his mouth.After chewing it lightly, her eyebrows froze together in an instant of ice.

"People only think of many things when they are sick. As long as someone is willing to sit in front of her hospital bed and take good care of her when she is sick, then even a cold heart can be melted."

She seemed to sigh, sat down again, took a small piece of apple and put it in her mouth, looking at the heavy snow outside the window, in a daze.

"I haven't seen you since junior year." Mo Xiaobei said softly, "Have you studied abroad?"

"It would be nice if it was like this." She smiled wryly, her thin body curled up on the chair. "Speaking of it now, it's nothing, but for me at the time, it was a long, long nightmare."

"When I was in college, I was very keen on those public welfare... In fact, in high school, you can get a glimpse of my temperament. Haha, at that time I defended Ziqing and punished you for sweeping the yard for almost a semester. Do you still remember?"

"Yes." Mo Xiaobei nodded with a wry smile, how could she forget.

"At that time, my thinking was too simple. It was either black or white. There is no such pure thing in this world. I was really sorry for you at that time, I'm sorry."

Mo Xiaobei sighed and laughed, "Forget it, how many years have passed."

"Yeah, it's been many years. But think about it, it seems like yesterday."

She sank completely in the chair, looked at the snow reflected on the window, shook her head slightly and smiled, "Let me tell you, when I was in high school, I was very naive. Why do you act chivalrously and bravely? I thought that when I grew up, I would go to school and work, and I would become a heroine who robbed the rich and gave to the poor. But now that I think about it, I was really stupid to the extreme .Actually, I have nothing special about myself. It’s just that I’ve been caught by the small county town all the time. Everyone around me praises me, so I feel that I’m great, so I naturally have a certain respect for others. A kind of condescending pity. Especially, it is a poor family like you."

She said, turning her head to look at Mo Xiaobei, shaking her head slightly and said, "Since I was a child, because of my parents' work, I have been able to meet many, many students from poor families like you. When I found my parents with patched clothes and discussed about deferment of tuition payment, I would hide behind them and look at my peers who were also dressed in tatters and hid behind their parents. I could see from their eyes I saw inferiority complex and cowardice, as well as my superiority reflected in their eyes. My parents often told me to be considerate of those students from poor families, to be friends with them, and not to show the slightest dislike for them. Therefore, I Since I was a child, I like to be friends with people whose family background is not as good as mine."

"This is already sick. My parents are gratified that I have become sensible. Only I know that I like the feeling of being envied by them. I like the feeling that my superiority is above them. Since childhood, because my dad works There are many, many reasons, whether it is the teacher who praised me or the people around me. Therefore, I gradually lost my self-recognition. I thought I was great, so great that I could be published in history books and be admired by others. To be worshiped."

"So, after I entered university, I became more fond of participating in public welfare. I never missed the activities in school and college to visit nursing homes and orphanages. I am also very active. In my junior year, the school organized three trips to the countryside. I was the president of the student union of our Humanities College. The school had arranged for us to teach in a village not far from the school, but the place was not poor. Although the students here are the children of migrant workers, they are the kind who can eat enough and wear warm clothes. I listened to the counselor's suggestion, and I didn't want to agree to it, and I didn't want to go there. It happened that a boy from the student union said that his hometown was a poor county. There is a shortage of teachers there, let us go there."

"When I heard these words, the superiority in my bones was at work again. Without thinking too much, I organized a dozen people from the Faculty of Arts to go to the place the boy said. But I didn't expect that he would He tricked us into being a wife for the people there—isn’t it incredible? He was a college student, but he became a kidnapper. He said it was because the money for his education was raised by the villagers, so he had to repay the favor. Oh! It’s true. Thank you for your kindness! ——We, a group of more than a dozen girls, didn’t expect this to happen. After that, they used various reasons to put us under house arrest, separated us from those male classmates, took one away every day but didn’t see them coming back—— Seeing that the situation was not good, I dragged a few female classmates to sneak up and followed, only to see—”

"Stop talking!" She became more and more excited as she spoke, sinking into the chair as if she had gone mad.Mo Xiaobei watched her change in surprise, and was about to ask her what was wrong, when Tang Wenxian suddenly opened the door of the ward from the outside and broke in, stopping her words.

"...It's okay, I just want to tell Xiao Bei a truth."

With a dejected look on her face, she slowly raised her head from the chair, put her arms around Tang Wenxian's waist, and rubbed gently, while looking sideways at Mo Xiaobei, she said slowly, "Some people, cherish them when you can, don't wait until I only regret it when I lost it, or when I was hurt and regretted it.”

It was only then that Mo Xiaobei realized that she had said all these things in order to tactfully persuade her to cherish the person in front of her.

However, the way she gets along with Tang Wenxian doesn't look like she cherishes the appearance of the person in front of her at all.

More like a drowning person hugging a piece of driftwood in his hand and holding on to it for a long time.

The author has something to say: I found that there is no normal person in the article I wrote, and the psychology is more or less abnormal. emmm, maybe I have a problem with my mentality.