Ode to Joy - Healers don't heal themselves

After Su Yaqing and Jiang Zuo separated, they ignored the constant harassment from the mobile phone and worked in silent mode, and did not return to the office until the end of get off work.

Su Yaqing pushed open the door tiredly and saw Tan Zongming fell asleep leaning on the sofa, sighed and took out the blanket in the cabinet to cover him, bent down and softly helped Tan Zongming cover it, raised her eyes to look different from the usual elegant The image of Tan Zongming, at this moment, his face is full of tiredness, dark circles under his eyes are obvious, and his beard has grown out

After being stunned for a moment, he regained his senses and was about to get up when he was hugged vigorously and fell on Tan Zongming's body

"You're finally back in the office. I've been waiting for you all afternoon." Tan Zongming complained while resting his chin on Su Yaqing's neck.

"What are you doing here?" Su Yaqing wanted to break free, but she was not as strong as Tan Zongming. "Let me go, this is a hospital."

"You are so cruel. You haven't answered the phone or text for so long, and you will treat me as if I don't exist when you meet today." Tan Zongming was worried that it would hurt her and didn't use much force, but used skillfully to prevent Su Yaqing from breaking free

"I'm very busy and don't have time to be a spare tire." Seeing that she couldn't break free, Su Yaqing leaned on him to accumulate strength

"You have never been a spare, and I have no spare." Tan Zongming relaxed a little when he saw that Su Yaqing was not struggling. "Xiaoyan and I used to be ignorant adolescents, but now I always treat her like a younger sister."

"Sister? Heh~ How much ambiguity has changed from a younger sister to a family. How beautiful and touching is the resurgence of the youthful and ignorant first love after many years." Su Yaqing sneered and satirized Tan Zongming

"What are you thinking about? It's a family. What's the resurgence of old feelings? You're usually quite mature and rational. Why are you thinking so much now?" Tan Zongming scratched Su Yaqing's nose with his finger, looked at her with a smile and said

"I'm not mature and rational enough? For any woman, these things would have turned upside down long ago." Su Yaqing stood up and looked at Tan Zongming angrily. Whether it is study, work or life, I take care of it carefully, for fear of being left behind. After we are together, I want you to see the best of me, and I don’t want you to bore me. Every time I meet, I will show my best Even when Andy and the others talked about you and Yan Qing, no matter how uncomfortable I felt, I believed that you couldn’t help yourself. I saw my boyfriend shopping with other women’s women, ambiguous, and I had to pretend I understand you magnanimously, but I am just an ordinary girl in love, I will also worry about gains and losses, I will also be jealous and even sadder, I can’t face these things and use my rationality at work to deal with them.”

Su Yaqing vented all her accumulated emotions recently. She was fed up with this feeling of worrying about gains and losses and being uncertain. This time was the most uncomfortable and least like her own time. She wanted to break free from this layer of confinement

"I said that you don't need to pretend to be by my side, just be yourself." Tan Zongming always thought that Su Yaqing's indifference was innate, and even always felt that she didn't care much about him

"You see, this is me, the one who will be willful and irrational, and the one who will be possessive towards her boyfriend." Su Yaqing took a deep breath and wiped away her tears, feeling much relieved

"I love you more now, the flesh and blood, the vivid you, the former you were nice but not real" Tan Zongming approached and wanted to hug her, but Su Yaqing sideways avoided her

"Since we've said it, let's make it clear." Su Yaqing looked at Tan Zongming firmly, "Let's break up."

"What did you say!" Tan Zongming looked at Su Yaqing in disbelief

He flew back from abroad overnight and rushed to the hospital regardless of the jet lag, but was dragged by Tan's mother to see Yan's father. The first time he saw her, he found that she had lost a lot of weight. He wanted to have a good talk with her, but she thought she was transparent Ignoring her like air and walking away, I had no choice but to wait for her in her office, trying to explain, but I didn't expect Su Yaqing to break up

"If you feel ashamed, you can bring it up." Su Yaqing pretended to be cold and said to Tan Zongming

She has thought a lot during this time, and there are many gaps between her and Tan Zongming, not only because of the big difference in family background and knowledge, but also. . . .

"What Andy saw at the company was that we were talking about Shengxuan and Yan's project. We went shopping because I accompanied her to pick up Uncle Yan's birthday present. As for the banquet that day, it was a celebration banquet for the establishment of the project invested by Shengxuan and Yanshi. It's Uncle Yan's birthday." Tan Zongming sighed inwardly, thinking for a moment, "I've already told my parents, my mother..." The door was pushed open

"Talk first." Jiang Zuo came in and looked at the two of them for a while, before closing the door and leaving

"Senior, what's the matter?" Su Yaqing called Jiang Zuo to stop

"Oh, it's okay, I'm just off work, so I want to ask if you want to have dinner together?" After hesitating for a moment, Jiang Zuo walked into the room

"Jiang Zuo, you go out first." Tan Zongming motioned him seriously

"I'm just hungry, Jiang Zuo, let's go together." Su Yaqing called Jiang Zuo to stop, then changed her white coat, picked up her bag, skipped Tan Zongming, and dragged Jiang Zuo out

"Yaqing...you" Tan Zongming called Su Yaqing to stop

"Mr. Tan, please help close the door when you leave." Su Yaqing interrupted Tan Zongming without turning around, and left with Jiang Zuo after speaking

Jiang Zuo saw Su Yaqing's dazed look along the way, and probably guessed that the conversation between her and Tan Zongming was not going well just now. Knowing that she still loves Tan Zongming, there must be something stopping her heart

Jiang Zuo took Su Yaqing to the home-cooked restaurant where he usually eats. Seeing Su Yaqing eating sullenly, Jiang Zuo felt sour, but he still broke the silence

"Yaqing, did you quarrel with Tan Zongming?" Jiang Zuo asked casually while eating

"Um"

"Are you going to treat it cold?" Jiang Zuo put down his chopsticks

"Um"

"Aren't you going to find out what happened?" Jiang Zuo stared at Su Yaqing who was concentrating on eating

"Um"

"Did I offend you!" Jiang Zuo stopped Su Yaqing's chopsticks

"No." Su Yaqing looked at Jiang Zuo innocently, and turned to drink

"Then you will bring disaster to the pond." Jiang Zuo looked at Su Yaqing helplessly and said

"I'm just a little confused, I don't know what to do." Su Yaqing put down her wine glass, her eyes were moist

"This is not the Su Yaqing I know." Jiang Zuo handed her a tissue. "The Su Yaqing I know is Bethune, who is calm and calm in the face of complicated operations. How could he be disturbed by these things?"

"Bethune is also a person of flesh and blood, and he cannot escape emotional problems." Su Yaqing laughed at herself wryly, and told Jiang Zuo what she had talked with Tan Zongming in the office before.

"Didn't he explain everything clearly? Why are you still arguing?" Jiang Zuo questioned

"Yeah, it's all clear, but it's not a cure for the symptoms." Su Yaqing shook her head and smiled bitterly while drinking

"Do you think the gap between the two of you is too big, or is there something that made you hesitate?" Jiang Zuo stopped her from drinking to relieve her worries

"You know, before we were together, I was afraid that he was just a whim and I would be hurt in the end. After we were together, I was afraid that he would see me and hate me. Now I am afraid that I can't accept his past. Quarreling and hurting each other" Su Yaqing cried and laughed a little drunk

"You are so good, you shouldn't be so insecure." Jiang Zuo felt a little sour in his heart, looking at the sad Su Yaqing with pity

"I am excellent, but being excellent is exhausting. I have not dared to relax for more than [-] years. I habitually maintain an excellent side for others to see. I have to wear an excellent mask in front of everyone, for fear of taking off the mask. Someone found her pale face" Su Yaqing said with a smile to herself

"Okay, stop drinking, you have to go to work tomorrow, I'll take you back first." Jiang Zuo snatched the wine from her hand

"Huh~~~Yeah, I still have to go to work, let's go." Su Yaqing regained her senses

Standing up and shaking, he still avoided Jiang Zuo's support. Jiang Zuo looked at Su Yaqing, who was pretending to be strong, and his heart ached. He knew that Su Yaqing's self-discipline was terrible. When it comes to her principles, she can calm down instantly

Jiang Zuo drove Su Yaqing back to Ode to Joy. Although she was slightly drunk along the way, she kept looking out of the window as much as possible and refused to fall asleep.

"Senior, thank you for sending me back, I'll go up first, be careful on the way" Su Yaqing was sobered up by the wind after getting out of the car

"I'm not full at night. Your favorite mousse dessert is for supper." Jiang Zuo took out the dessert that he took time to buy on the way back and handed it to her, making her bitter heart feel slightly sweeter

"Thank you, I won't lose weight today." Su Yaqing took the dessert and felt a warm current in her heart

"Good night"

Su Yaqing went upstairs and received a text message from Jiang Zuo

"Two people don't have to change themselves for each other to get true love. In fact, love is the sweetest from the moment you know how to love yourself." - Jiang Zuo

The author has something to say:

Because Su Yaqing was closed to people when she was in college

So Jiang Zuo tricked Su Yaqing into having a girlfriend when he was in college

I have been waiting for Su Yaqing to open the door of my heart as a good friend

The Jiang and Tan families are family friends

Feelings can't be forced

Jiang Zuo was shocked when he knew that Su Yaqing liked Tan Zongming

When Jiang Zuo confirmed that Tan Zongming was serious about Su Yaqing, he decided to silently guard Su Yaqing

Feeling sorry for Su Yaqing after Tan Su's quarrel