Ode to Joy - Healers don't heal themselves

Su Yaqing only weighed two catties when she was born because of insufficient nutrition in her mother’s body. Many people in her hometown, including doctors, thought it was impossible to support her. In less than two months after she was born, Su’s father and Su’s mother went out to work,’ Maybe it's the hardship of life and they have to go out to work, maybe they just became parents and don't know how to take responsibility';

Su Yaqing has been taken care of by Grandma Su since she was born. After her parents left, Su Yaqing, who was not in good health for only two months, was taken by Grandma Su; Grandma Su, who was poor at home, relied on the dogs and poultry raised by the seller to buy milk powder Raising Su Yaqing; During the period, many neighbors persuaded Grandma Su to give up, saying, "Such a small child must not be able to survive, and she does not drink breast milk"; but Grandma Su just smiled and said, "It is my granddaughter anyway, until the last moment Can't give up' From then on, Grandma Su began to believe in Buddhism, and often took Su Yaqing to many nearby temples to worship Buddha and Bodhisattva;

I don’t know if Grandma Su’s sincerity touched the gods; Su Yaqing’s health is getting better and better, she doesn’t need to go to the hospital often, and she has become white and fat; many people who watched her grow up and helped her see a doctor The doctors lamented that Su Yaqing’s life is good, and Grandma Su really loves her. If other old people were around, they would have given up, because at that time, many girls in the countryside were thrown directly at other people’s doorsteps.

After Su Yaqing's parents went out to work, they didn't come back until three years later, during which time they had no news;

When the two returned home, they saw Grandma Su hugging a cute little girl, and they asked Grandma Su whose child it was; they probably thought that the daughter she had back then would no longer be able to support her;

It was unbelievable for the two of them to find out that this was their daughter, and she was raised in vain and fat. They felt that it was no problem to accompany them for a short time, but during the month of Chinese New Year at home, they found that the child was not so easy to take care of, and Su Yaqing was so They have unlimited energy at the time, and they are very lively and active when they are loved by Grandma Su; they want to grow up at home, but they can't take care of their children and don't want Grandma Su to take care of them, because other brothers said that Papa Su receives the most care from Grandma Su, so Papa Su He and Su's mother sent Su Yaqing to the old man's house in the next county town who specializes in taking care of children;

Su Yaqing was being sent to that family. The family had several children, and the old man didn't like children who were too lively and active. The children in her own family sat on the stool obediently and did not move around. , and Su Yaqing is a child who can't sit still, and often runs around. The old man gave oral education for two days, and then directly locked Su Yaqing in a room without anything, and gave him all the food and toys brought by Su's father and grandma. Her own child, and Su Yaqing often cried, and the old man would give her a little porridge every time so that she would not have the strength to cry again;

Su Yaqing was only a three-year-old child, and gradually she didn't dare to make a fuss anymore and had no energy to make a fuss. Every day, she sat on a stool and looked at the door, expecting when Grandma Su would come to pick her up;

A week later, the second aunt and uncle who lived not far away from Su Yaqing came to visit Su Yaqing on behalf of Grandma Su. As soon as they entered the door, they saw Su Yaqing, a small man in gray clothes sitting on a stool, and saw their timid words Did not say;

"Yaqing, my aunt is here to see you." Su Yaqing's second aunt knelt down and held Su Yaqing's little hand intimately.

Su Yaqing didn't speak, she took her aunt's hand timidly and walked to the place where the old man usually cooks, her little finger pointed at the pot and looked at aunt and uncle anxiously

"Is Yaqing hungry?" Aunt Su thought Su Yaqing was hungry

Su Yaqing let go of her aunt's hand, walked to the side, climbed on the stool, took the bowl and handed it to her aunt. Aunt Su saw that Su Yaqing was really hungry, so she gave her the rice that was still warm in the pot. Su Yaqing took the bowl and ate it voraciously. After a while, she finished the rice in the bowl and handed the bowl to her aunt, expressing that she wanted more.

Aunt Su's eye circles were reddish and she looked at Su Yaqing with distress, like a refugee who hadn't eaten for a few days. After eating 3 bowls of rice, she still wanted more;

"Be good, Yaqing, don't eat now, uncle will take you home to eat delicious food later." Uncle Su picked up Su Yaqing, seeing her struggling to eat more, he touched his little head in distress and comforted her

"Grandma...I want grandma..." Su Yaqing burst into tears when she heard that she was going to be taken home;

After returning home, Su Yaqing followed Grandma Su like a little tail, and refused to let Su's father and Su's mother hug her, for fear that they would send her away

Since then, Su's father and Su's mother have gone out to work again, and little Su Yaqing has followed her grandmother and slowly recovered her original lively personality, as if the previous incident had never happened;

Su's father and Su's mother only came back every year for a few days during the Chinese New Year and then left again. They returned until Su Yaqing's tenth birthday, and brought back her younger brother Su Junchao, who was six years younger than her. go home

Su's father and Su's mother stayed at home for a year, but they went out to work again without earning any money, while the younger brother stayed at home and brought it to his grandma, sending 500 per month as their living expenses, and grandma Su was getting older, so Su Yaqing's family is full of bookkeeping and goods sales. The local business people in the whole town know this young girl who takes care of the family's burdens. They also like Su Yaqing, who has a cheerful personality and a sweet mouth, so they will be cheap from time to time. Selling things to her; sighing behind her back, "The children of poor families are already in charge of the family"

On the contrary, Su Yaqing doesn't feel bitter, but likes this kind of life very much. Every time she saves money to help the family or every time she and her friends help the people in the village to do simple farm work and earn more than them, she will be very happy to hand over the money. For grandma, it is also very fulfilling!

Until Su Yaqing was 14 years old, Grandma Su, who was in her 70s, was stung by a poisonous hornet when she went to the mountain to pick tea seeds in order to make ends meet, and she was carried home by her companions. At that time, Su Yaqing was preparing to wash her clothes and go to school In the evening class, Su Yaqing saw that Grandma Su's face was covered with bumps from wasp stings, she felt scared and helpless, and wanted to comfort her younger brother;

Later, my uncle invited a doctor, and after timely rescue, I still need to observe. Only by using an old method to remove bee venom will I know whether I can survive the danger. In the whole room, only Su Yaqing and her younger brother were by Grandma Su's bed. Call grandma from time to time, and hear grandma Su's occasional unconscious response; it seems that only in this way can I know that grandma Su is safe

Other neighbors and aunts who came to help did not dare to enter the room with their children; they did not come in until the doctor determined that there was no danger.

What happened this time made Su Yaqing terrified, and it also made her determined to study medicine in the future.

When Su Yaqing was 15 years old, Su's father and Su's mother opened a shoe processing factory at home. It is rare for such a family to have a reunion dinner at home.

It seems that a family does not have the intimacy that a family should have. Su Yaqing is preparing for the high school entrance examination, and has entered adolescence. With the pressure of the high school entrance examination, she often has conflicts and quarrels with her mother;

Angry why my mother is always partial to her younger brother, angry why she doesn't get comfort every time her grades drop, but is taken out by her parents as a joke in front of relatives during Chinese New Year, angry why her father knows which boy has a crush on her every time she passes by school Talk to that boy behind her back after being in love with her, and warn her not to fall in love early when she is studying every time she eats or when she is alone; grandma is always on the sidelines to make amends

Su Yaqing doesn't want her grandma to be difficult to do, she has a restrained personality and has always been a good girl, silently accepting her parents' arrangements for her life and imposing wishes on her mind, living a life of "keep your ears off the window and read only sage books";

Su Yaqing began to live in the school in the third grade of junior high school. Although the school is very close to home, because the school strives to be the number one middle school in the city, it conducts devil teaching for the third grade students in the city; There are no summer vacations, winter vacations or even weekends; they don’t have to participate in all school activities, and even boarding students of other grades can’t make loud noises when they pass by the teaching building of the third grade after class at night; every morning at 05:30 Read class, eat breakfast for half an hour, go home for dinner for an hour at noon, take tests on different subjects from one o'clock every afternoon, until six o'clock in the afternoon, go home for an hour after class, and go home for dinner at seven o'clock in the evening. Class ends at 09:30, and the class teacher also requires students to review in the classroom until 10:30 before returning to the dormitory, but the students know that this is the time for the sprint for the senior high school entrance examination. Except for a few day students, almost all boarding students will consciously do exercises in the classroom until ten. Students began to return to the dormitory at about two o'clock, and Su Yaqing's students in the early years went to the dormitory almost every day after one o'clock in the morning. Yaqing and the others felt that it made no difference when the lights were turned off anyway!

There is only one night a week when there is no class. Often when Su Yaqing comes home, either Father Su and Mother Su quarrel in front of her, or Father Su cries loudly in the room after drinking out and returning home. Angrily, she threw Dad Su in the room and left; every time Grandma Su asked Su Yaqing to take sober tea and hot water to take care of Dad Su; she said, "Papa Su likes her the most and cares about her daughter" the first few times Su Yaqing Seeing Su's father sprinkling alcohol like crazy to vent his pressure, Su Yaqing was still comforting; it was after a few times that Su Yaqing found out that Su's father was not drunk at all, otherwise how could he go home on the motorcycle without incident? , was just venting his emotions with the strength of alcohol, crying to Su Yaqing and his brother about their difficulty, and implicitly expressing that Su Ma didn't understand him;

After Su Yaqing passed by a few times, she was afraid or even afraid to face the situation when her parents quarreled or Su’s father pretended to be drunk, and taught her younger brother to leave the room after serving sober tea when she was away, so that Su’s father would calm down; Su Yaqing explained to her grandma that "the senior high school entrance examination is about to take place, and I am very busy with studying. From now on, I will come back every Friday at noon to eat and bring rice to school, and I will not go home at other times." Many also know that it will be very hard for the high school entrance examination, so they don't say anything, and secretly give her private money, so that she must have enough food;

Even if Su Yaqing only came home once a week, she would occasionally meet Su's father at home.Su Yaqing didn't say a word, quickly finished her meal and said that she was in a hurry to go to class. Father Su also knew that the school's schedule hadn't noticed that Su Yaqing didn't feel right about him.

There are only a few days of Chinese New Year every year. After my cousin comes back, the two always take advantage of the adults not paying attention to the mountain. They sit on the ground and let the strong wind blow on the top of the mountain. My cousin always brings lollipops to make her happy, and then You and I are thinking about the future, only this time is the most comfortable and happiest moment for Su Yaqing

Until Su Yaqing was admitted to the key high school in the county and was assigned to a key class; and her cousin was also admitted to Fudan University in Shanghai, I thought that such a life could go on in a normal way

When Su Yaqing was in her third year of high school, the school was far away from home, so Dad Su bought her a mobile phone!

But Su Ya cleared up calling grandma every two days to keep her safe and threw her phone in the dormitory;

Su Yaqing, who is preparing for the college entrance examination, has no time to worry about other things and doesn't want to be distracted; sometimes she only stays at home for a few days during the summer vacation and then rushes back to the students for tutoring; but the business at home is getting worse and worse. Time, I often call Su Yaqing in the middle of the night after drinking a little wine, crying and talking about his helplessness on the phone, "I know you are about to take the college entrance examination, and the pressure is high. I don't want to disturb your thoughts, but I just can't stand it." , No one can understand me, only you, you can understand Dad by reading a lot. .Right'

Every time Su Yaqing wants to directly hang up the phone or say "Don't call me if you are afraid of disturbing me"; but she holds it back softly, every time she answers the phone at night, the students who are afraid of disturbing the dormitory secretly go far away from all the dormitories Every time Su’s father cried on the other end of the phone and told Su Yaqing to listen silently without saying a word, in fact, tears flowed down his face every time, knowing that when Su’s father on the other end of the phone woke up, he asked her to go back to rest and hang up the phone Su Yaqing would cry outside for a while before going back to the dormitory;

Several times when the weather turned cold, Su Yaqing caught a cold or even had a fever the next day after answering the phone call at night. She didn't tell anyone, she survived alone, and insisted on attending classes, because Su Yaqing knew that reading was the only way to change her destiny From then on, Su Yaqing was very afraid of hearing calls from her mobile phone; she also thought about turning it off, but Su’s father would ride to school the next day to find her or call the head teacher to ask if something happened to her, so Su Yaqing no longer shuts down

Su Yaqing was admitted to Shanghai Fudan University School of Medicine, Su's father thought it was very face-saving, and held a graduation banquet for Su Yaqing at home, and there were many people Su Yaqing didn't know at all, even a few cousins ​​who had been outside all the time They all came back; Su Yaqing still cared about her family's face, and accepted the blessings of the people she came and went with a strong face and a smile. Different people envied Su's father and Su's mother and said that it was amazing that they could cultivate a college student, and it was a famous university; at the banquet, she No classmates were invited, only a few classmates who grew up with her in the same village came to congratulate her, and she also knew that she accepted it with a faint smile.

"It's boring, come with me." Cousin Su Yanqiang was not very happy to see his sister

Su Yanqiang took Su Yaqing away from the crowd, and slipped through the back door to the top of the back mountain while no one was paying attention. They haven't chatted on the top of the mountain together for several years

"Why are you unhappy? We are alumni now." Su Yanqiang looked at his sister with a gentle smile

"There's nothing to be happy or unhappy." Su Yaqing sat back and propped her hands on the ground.don't care

"Hehe, when did it start to be so deep?" Su Yanqiang looked at his younger sister who was becoming less and less fond of laughing.

"I've read a little more, I think about things more deeply." Su Yaqing closed her eyes and felt the wind on the top of the mountain blowing across her face

"Yeah, I read more and think about things more deeply, but I should be more open about things." Although Su Yanqiang didn't go home often these years, he still knew about Su Yaqing from his parents and grandma; I can only comfort my sister from the usual contact

"Hmm" Su Yaqing seemed to respond;

For so many years, she has long been used to not talking about her thoughts with others; she knows that Su's father has become more and more realistic since he started doing business, and he cares about whether he can get benefits from it; so she knew early on that this graduation The wine was actually organized to help Su's father contact people; so she didn't invite any classmates to come, and she didn't go to other students' graduation wine; in the three years of high school, she didn't have any other good friends except for a lot of communication with her roommates, and they also thought she She is a good person and noble, so she doesn't talk to her very much; only she knows that she has no other energy to deal with interpersonal relationships except to study hard;

After Su Yaqing went to college, she worked as a part-time student in the school restaurant; she also met Jiang Zuo, a senior in the medical school, in the library; he introduced her to be a tutor; The elder brother also didn't have much time to meet her during the internship, and after a long time, he regarded him as an elder brother;

Su Yaqing has a scholarship every semester; in addition, her work-study salary does not require a penny from her family;

In the second semester, Su Yaqing went to help others as a tutor as usual; on the way, she received a call from Su’s mother, she cried and said that they closed the factory and took her younger brother to Guangdong to study; the family owed a huge debt of 500 million; they wanted to go out Pay back the money while working part-time, and the people who are still owed are all people you know, and you can pay back slowly;

After hearing the news, Su Yaqing's mind went blank; she really didn't know how things came to this point; but she also knew that now she could only be strong; only she could earn money to help pay back after graduation;

Su Yaqing cheered up and continued to help people build a place at home;

This year, Su Yaqing only went home to visit her grandma during the Chinese New Year. She worked in Shanghai during the summer and winter vacations. She worked as a waiter in a restaurant during the day and even helped people translate some documents online at night when she was good at English. If she didn’t understand, she went to the library to read professional books. Or ask Jiang Zuo;

During this period, Su Yaqing did not take the initiative to contact her parents. She was not allowed to bring her mobile phone to work, and she kept her mobile phone in the dormitory. Sometimes she ignored their missed calls and did not reply; I didn't call back when it was late;

When Su Yaqing was a sophomore, her instructor told her that a professor from Baylor College of Medicine in the United States found that she was very good in theory and practice when he came to the school for an exchange. Professor John was very optimistic about her; he asked her to go to Baylor College of Medicine as an exchange student. study, and can also help her apply for a scholarship;

After discussing with her cousin, Su Yaqing decided to go, but she didn't tell anyone; only Su Yanqiang and Jiang Zuo knew she was going;

After Su Yaqing arrived in the United States, Su's father and Su's mother found out through Su Yanqiang that Su Yaqing had gone abroad;

After Su Yaqing came to the United States, in addition to studying with Professor John, she also used her free time to work in a Chinese restaurant; the owner of the restaurant saw that Su Yaqing was a girl studying abroad and agreed that she would come to the restaurant to help as long as she had time; her salary was calculated according to her working hours ;

Su Yaqing studied general medicine; John is also a famous heart surgeon in the United States; and Su Yaqing studied with John for two years, and John also took Su Yaqing into the operating room and let her study as an assistant; Su Yaqing is not only good at theoretical knowledge, but also learned John's skills

Su Yaqing quit her job in the restaurant when she was in her senior year because John recommended her to go to a private hospital in the United States as an intern resident in cardiac surgery. Any profession abroad is very exclusive, especially Chinese; when Su Yaqing first arrived at the hospital, she often There was no surgery for her, and she was often photographed working night shifts; Su Yaqing had no choice but to learn from the attending physician; until one night a patient with a heart attack came to the emergency room, and the emergency room came to the heart surgery doctor to do the operation. That night, the attending doctor left beforehand, only Su Yaqing was there, and Su Yaqing went to the operating room for surgery without hesitation; Su Yaqing had learned the patient's symptoms from John, and John watched her perform this kind of surgery, Su Yaqing Yaqing was not afraid but faintly excited; she finished the operation calmly, the doctors and nurses in the operation lamented that even an intern resident doctor gave her a thumbs up for successfully completing the operation without panic; and Su Yaqing did not let her John was disappointed and soon got a foothold in the hospital through several heart surgeries;

In the two years in the American hospital, her operation success rate was as high as 90%; her success rate of some difficult heart operations was also 65%; many heart patients have appointed her for operation;

Su Yaqing has also become an attending physician; hospitals in the United States are paid by technology; Su Yaqing's salary has also increased; but Su Yaqing did not buy a house or a car; they are all saved;

Su Yaqing received a master's degree in the United States for 4 years; she also made a name for herself in the United States;

When Su Yaqing is not smiling, she is cold and unapproachable, but when she smiles, her whole demeanor softens; there are many suitors who have pursued her in recent years, but she has rejected them all;

Su Yaqing is one of the few girls who has strong self-control and rationality; as long as she has something to do or has to go to work the next day, she will not go out with her colleagues, and she will rest at home; drinking will affect her nerves and affect her surgery. Never drink; some suitors said they would be good to her for the rest of her life, and she asked, 'Do you know how long a lifetime is?You can’t be good to your own health. You smoke and drink all the time. How can you guarantee that you will be good to me for the rest of your life’

Su Yaqing seldom contacted her parents in the past few years, but sent her living expenses to her younger brother on time every month, and the younger brother also attended boarding school; one reason was because of the time difference, and he probably avoided it; I heard from my younger brother that Su's father often drank and smoked in recent years , once you drink it, you will lose your temper;

Su Yaqing knows that the savings in the past few years are enough to pay off the family's debts; and in the past few years abroad, she has never felt a sense of belonging, and always feels that she is an outsider here. Although many colleagues treat her well now, there is no reason for her on the territory of the country;

When Su Yaqing contacted her senior, Jiang Zuo, and said that she was going back to China, Jiang Zuo excitedly told her not to worry about work, the hospital he was working in was ranked top three in Shanghai, and he made recommendations, although the salary was not as high as hers in the United States tall, but absolutely no one dares to underestimate her

Su Yaqing agreed to Jiang Zuo's suggestion. After all, she was quite familiar with Shanghai, and even the people she knew were in Shanghai. Please ask Jiang Zuo to help her rent a house;

Jiang Zuo didn't understand why Su Yaqing rented such a cheap house after returning to China with such good treatment in the United States, so he couldn't help but ask her if she had any difficulties;

Su Yaqing said that she studied general medicine abroad and wanted to be an emergency doctor after returning to China. Emergency doctors are busy every day without touching the ground. No matter how good the house is, it is just a decoration. It is not as warm as a smaller house. She joked about preparing Saving money for retirement; she didn’t tell Jiang Zuo about her family;

After Su Yaqing resigned and handed over, she went to the school to find John, and thanked John for his kindness.

I also thank him for his training, and even more thank him for trusting me and recommending me to such a good hospital;

John was very reluctant for Su Yaqing to go back and hoped that she could stay in the United States, but Su Yaqing told John that the Chinese have a saying called "falling leaves return to their roots", and she hopes to return to her motherland and use the doctors she has learned to help more people;

John understands that she is no longer reluctant, and hopes that she can come back to see him when she has time;

Su Yaqing promised John to come back to see him when he had time. If John went to Shanghai, she would act as a tour guide to show Chinese culture and taste Chinese food;

The author has something to say:

The episode is here! ! ! ! !

When I was writing, anyway, I was writing while wiping my tears!

Maybe you guys think it’s messy and you don’t feel any tears, so there’s nothing you can do about it, I’m only at this level!

Haven't read it until now!

How to leave it to everyone to judge! ! !