[Japanese Drama Doujin] Actually I Don’t Care About You

Time is never a necessary and sufficient condition.

Watanabe Ryota moved out of his home when he was in college, and then he seldom went home except for Zhongyuan and New Year. Every time he came back, he either offered incense to his mother and had a meal, or he didn’t have a meal. Sit for a while and leave after eating.He didn't hate his hometown, but he didn't like it much either.

Now, for some reason, when he doesn’t have to go back to his hometown, he sits on the cushion in the living room of his hometown. The empty seat opposite the low table is reserved for his father. His father is offering the cherries he brought to his mother in the alcove. tablets.Cherries were his mother's favorite fruit during her lifetime, and she was the only one in Watanabe's family.

After Hideaki Watanabe put away the fruit plate and replaced with new incense sticks, he turned around and sat down at the low table, picked up the tea cup that Ryota Watanabe had poured for him, took a sip, and then said, "You will come, really Rare."

"Your mother will be happy when she knows you're coming." Hideaki Watanabe was in a good mood about his son's coming, but he didn't show the slightest bit on his face, using his wife as an excuse to say it.

Watanabe Hideaki doesn't think he is a bad father, because in his heart, besides his first wife, Miwa, there is Watanabe Ryota.Although he is a person who puts all his love and enthusiasm in the first place.

He loves his wife from the moment they met, until today, 15 years after she has become a Buddha, this love has not diminished in the slightest, even if death separates them.

Watanabe Ryota looked at the nostalgic expression on his father's face, and knew that his father was thinking of his mother again, so he only responded with a short yes to his father's words.

When his mother died, he was just 16 years old, in the middle of adolescence, and he hadn't had time to rebel.In other words, his rebellion has always been there since he was a child, but it was buried in his heart because of his father's education.He loves his mother, because he was told since he was a child that family members are the most important, and that you should love your own mother, so how could he not love her?

But Watanabe Ryota also hated his mother, her clumsiness and uselessness made him feel irritable from time to time, but this was not the reason why he hated his mother.

Delicious food is made with love, and the most important thing is the heart, but no matter how deep the heart is, the food made with love is unpalatable, as he once said.But after seeing his mother's tears when he heard this, he knew that he was wrong, and a woman who was cared for by the people around him could not be treated like this.Even if the love he gets is not as good as what he gave, he should love others, as long as he loves, that is enough, and unnecessary expectations should not be held.From the moment Ryota Watanabe realized that it is better to love than to be loved, his dislike for his mother was hidden in his heart. He thought that if life has always been like this, he shouldn't have any dissatisfaction.

What breaks it all is the death of the mother.After two years of suffering from cancer, the mother took her life.Watanabe Ryota looked at his mother who finally returned to calm, but he couldn't calm down, and the longing that had been suppressed in his heart sprouted again.

She is a good mother, and she is still loved until the end; as a good person, can she be treated the same way?

No, the family hasn't changed since my mother's death, or she hasn't left the house even though she's dead and non-existent.

He loved his mother and was jealous of her.Because of jealousy, I hate it, I hate myself who is so jealous and the status quo that makes me jealous.

"Speaking of which, it was completely unplanned for your mother to conceive you at that time. At that time, I went to work alone abroad, and there was no way to be by her side, but she still gave birth to you with all her might." Becoming nagging, nagging and telling stories about the past.The same is true for Hideaki Watanabe. He happily told the story of Ryota Watanabe's birth, but as he talked, he became a wife and a lovely person after becoming a mother. "She is always a little confused. , but this is also her cuteness. I still remember that shortly after you came out, I took a vacation and came back to see you. I was cooking vegetables, and the last thing I ate was full of burnt taste. At that time, the salt and sugar were also mixed up, and the sweetness didn’t look like vegetables.”

Ryota Watanabe knows that jealousy is wrong, and good people should repent of their jealousy and calm their dissatisfaction.Listening to his father's words, he still felt a little uncomfortable in his heart, so that he listened to them all the time, and didn't mention anything about his future becoming a father.

While sitting on the tram, Watanabe's various emotions cooled down, and he seemed to understand why Kobayashi was so disturbed.

With family and love, he is happy now, but becoming a father is not only his happiness as a father, but also whether he will be happy as his child.

As far as he is concerned, he who is happy now did not feel happy when he was a child of his own parents, and he may not be able to be a father who makes his children happy.

Kobayashi changed her flight ticket to Sapporo from daytime to nighttime, but she left home at the originally scheduled time and went to Koyada first.During the new year last year, Watanabe took her to his hometown once, and she still remembered where it was.

After ringing the doorbell, she didn't wait for someone to answer the door.Kobayashi waited at the door for about half an hour, and saw Watanabe Hideaki walking slowly along the road in the distance.

He was not much different from the last time Kobayashi saw him. He was wearing very neat clothes and a white baseball cap on his head, but he walked very slowly.

"Oh, why are you here?" Hideaki Watanabe pushed the brim of his hat with his free hand, and saw Kobayashi standing aside, he asked with a bit of surprise on his face, and took out the key at the same time He opened the door and invited her in, "I've been waiting for a long time, come in and sit down first."

"Excuse me." Kobayashi bowed slightly at the door before following Hideaki Watanabe into the room.

"You can do whatever you want, don't be restrained." Hideaki Watanabe was washing the fresh cherries he just bought in the kitchen sink, while beckoning her to be casual.

"Understood, Dad." Kobayashi sat at the low table without moving. She watched Hideaki Watanabe put the washed cherries into delicate small plates, and served them to the cage in the house, replacing the ones that were originally there. The cherries with shrunken skins and old cherries were directly dumped into the food waste bag by him.

Hideaki Watanabe, who returned to the living room and sat down again, poured himself a cup of tea, took a sip with relief, and then said leisurely, "What's the matter, what's the matter here?"

In fact, Kobayashi Yayoi didn't talk much with Watanabe Hideaki, and she was brought to visit by Watanabe Ryota before, which was almost to the extent of pleasantries.

"It's really quiet." Xiao Lin hadn't figured out how to speak, although the situation could be explained in one sentence, so she chose to lay out a paragraph for the chat between the two of them first.

"Indeed." Hideaki Watanabe saw that Kobayashi didn't know how to speak, so he followed up with Kobayashi's words, "After Meihe left, Ryota and I were left in this family and quieted down. Before that, Miwa was maintaining With this home..."

It's really quiet here. If you don't turn on the TV and don't talk, there are only a few cicadas in the yard.When Hideaki Watanabe talked about his wife, he always had endless things to say. The room is not so quiet now, and there are voices of two people talking.

"...It's not bad for me to live here alone now. I just sit and look at the photos in the past, and a day passes quickly. Sometimes I just feel like I look at a place, and when I come back to my senses, a day passes by." Hours. When people get old, they will be like this, they are long-winded and unlovable, and the last person will live to death." Hideaki Watanabe said very calmly, and there was no sign of frustration on his face.

"Isn't Liangta your son? He and I will come to see you from time to time." Under such circumstances, Xiao Lin could only say such comforting words as polite words.

"That kid is a good kid. He still remembers what Meihe likes to eat, and he brought some with him when he came here before." Hideaki Watanabe looked up at the niche, and said as if recalling, "He was very sensible since he was a child. Since she was a child, she has always wanted to help her mother do things. In a blink of an eye, she is already this big, and Meihe will be happy when she sees it."

"Ryota, he's going to be a father." Kobayashi found that her father-in-law was almost inseparable from her deceased mother-in-law. She dismissed the idea of ​​brewing a topic before, and directly reported the matter to Watanabe Hideaki, "son The expected date of delivery is March next year."

When Hideaki Watanabe heard Kobayashi's words, he was taken aback for a moment, then turned his head to look at her, and said with a smile, "Congratulations, that child is going to be a father too! He should be happy now, just like me and my father back then." Beauty and the same."

After returning from Osaka that day, Kobayashi was very concerned about Ryota Watanabe's change of words, and only after questioning him did he know what he was thinking.Kobayashi actually didn't understand it very well, because she had never had a similar experience, but after chatting with Hideaki Watanabe today, she began to understand it.

The dead are already dead and do not exist at all. Shouldn't the living live the lives of the living?

"Liangta is going to be a father, but he is also a son." Xiao Lin felt that her tone was not very good, but she didn't want to correct it. "Dad, should you also take a look at him? He thinks that being you The son with his mother is not happy, but he also thinks it's good to be your child."

"Mom has been gone for 15 years, it's a good thing that you still love her. But don't you also love Ryota more? So